posted on January 11, 2007 at 9:08 pm

blood and sand
driven far and deep
scraps for the birds
arduous trek
the generals approach
hazarding a guess
spearhead grazes flesh
the fountain spurts
an agony of days
a wild wood
no mans land
no men land
the creeping sickness
a pounding head heart
deterring invasion
completely hidden
cloaked by fog
notch by notch
hemmed in
held down
the men they…..
crimson eyed
much vaunted strength
no chance
among us
all around
they strike
ladders fall
crumpling mess
collapsing structure
narrowing of path
closing of the doors
exit vanish
air bright fear
hack hack
hit hit
im hit
im missing
im firing
im waiting
blip blip
sign sign
white hot cold
the mud
the hospitals
the sleeping
window snow grave
flowers tears
more snow
starving birds
rusty iron thing
roll back further
no, even further
no air here

42 Responses to “railing”

  1. avatar
    eek | 11 January 2007 at 9:41 pm #


  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 January 2007 at 9:48 pm #

    ed in fl

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 January 2007 at 9:51 pm #

    me birds fly free here in this house, me rotate me winged disc feathered friends all me time, so what kind of bird are you esskay???
    The Falcon

  4. avatar
    Samosanx | 11 January 2007 at 9:53 pm #

    You just flipped my today into tomorrow, my yesterday into today, you magician of time you

    like this one SK; it’s a different tone

    was gonna say break a leg for tonight but maybe it’s last night now – the play i mean –


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    Anonymous | 11 January 2007 at 10:08 pm #

    World War 1 …. somewhere in france

    Dutch Pierre

  6. avatar
    geenunn | 11 January 2007 at 10:09 pm #

    this reads like a beating heart… love it sk

  7. avatar
    John Garratt | 11 January 2007 at 10:16 pm #

    An owl, I guess.


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    veleska1970 | 11 January 2007 at 10:42 pm #

    wow, i love the rhythm of this one. very powerful in its melancholia and loneliness. but is this bleakness really the end result of our existence? hmmmm….

    lotza love…..

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 January 2007 at 10:44 pm #

    What’s that old saying….
    Make LOVE not WAR, sounds good to me.

  10. avatar
    damien | 11 January 2007 at 11:06 pm #

    You create such vivid images in the mind of the reader with so few words!


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    CeciliaGin | 11 January 2007 at 11:24 pm #

    unknown soldier

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    ambnt1 | 11 January 2007 at 11:26 pm #


    Jesus! Yeah, WWI in France or another ugly war. Terrifying. I saw some footage of wounded US soldiers in Iraq recently, men screaming, crying. It’s hard to imagine the horror going on there as we sit comfortably in front of the TV, play our ambient CD’s, go to the beach and swim. It makes me feel guilty as hell, and my complaints about minutia seem like less than minutia.


    n.p. Chameleons, “Live in Toronto” (an official CD that sounds like a bootleg, but I’ll take whatever I can get from these guys. Absolutely riveting songs and atmosphere)

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 January 2007 at 12:14 am #

    Hello guys where i can read more about this topic?
    of course i know about , but can someone derect me with links?

  14. avatar
    fergal | 12 January 2007 at 12:18 am #

    break a leg tonight sk


  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 January 2007 at 12:18 am #

    ladies and gentleman….life is suffering and hell…do we all grok this yet or what?? Please, none of the petty and trivial comments or opinions that babble” oh your so negative, you are so gloomy, chill out, be positive, you dwell on things too much” god, I’ve heard it all…what a paradox…true, always this last of battles…really? mistaken identities, false values, false judgements on those who suffer for this mess…real joy and belonging is a far cry from this sadistic world i know so well…So yes, its good to cry and see…be fucking genuine: to all~ life is a holiday for very few…there are some of US seriously fighting all this shit…in classrooms, on streets, wherever…its no joke: and there is plenty of conceit to go around- even among my “heroes”…say what you want about this message and the messenger….and I’m losing touch with the entire farce…Today, teaching high school english, some stupid fucking violent kid walked out of the room and called me all kinds of names threatening me, etc, just after several other dramas of sick behavior and disrespect…Being a teacher is a joke….I’m sick of the morass of people who you want to heal and be kind to, but just fuck with you and mock you…and dont give a shit about anyone but themselves…Man, the real fuckin mystery is I”m such a thoughful and gentle soul- I really care about LIFE…but I’m god-damned numb and at the end of my rope.. Sometimes, now, I wonder about beloved SK…I dunno, nevermind…I guess you just cant really trust another soul on this earth…Shantih and Sayonora(?) PS Remember Buddha and Jesus? what conclusion did they come to ? and then???? and NOw?? This is really happening…and its like the folks who read this and think…oh what a bummer, or thats so depressing…NO!!! thats REAL LIFE…the best of us were undone…real understanding comes from this enlightenment…the hope thru all of this…not stepping aside and choosing to be deaf and blind………Now for the Chorale of tragic satyrs….and a broken staff, and the magic fish I loved so dearly decapitated and strewn about the lawn…So thanks for your endearing and belittling remarks about my feelings over this course…its real edifying..From now on, I will remain Anon. and lost to the crowd……..

  16. avatar
    eek | 12 January 2007 at 1:31 am #

    Hope the play goes well tonight and tomorrow SK. Wish I could be there. I’ll be thinking of you. Well, actually I’ll probably be asleep, but you know what I mean. 🙂

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    captainmission | 12 January 2007 at 1:32 am #

    war what is it good for?

    when i was a student i had a sticker on my car rear window, it said ‘make love not war’ in big letters and underneath it said, in small letters, ‘ask driver for details’

    I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones.

  18. avatar
    captainmission | 12 January 2007 at 1:33 am #

    ps. best wishes for tonight steve

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 January 2007 at 2:32 am #

    have i told you that you’re brilliant.

    my god, brilliant, i say,

  20. avatar
    mike a | 12 January 2007 at 3:45 am #

    beautiful in its sadness

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 January 2007 at 3:52 am #

    sounds like you had hard dreams last night
    me too
    sentient spiders
    in strange places
    and i couldn’t wouldn’t kill them


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    veleska1970 | 12 January 2007 at 4:03 am #

    i forgot to wish you good luck on the play tonight. i sometimes forget that you are a day ahead of me. i’ve been sick all week and have lost track of what day it is here AND down there.

    i’m sending good vibes of standing-room-only crowds and rave reviews by those pesky critics. i wish i could be there.

    lotza love…

  23. avatar
    veleska1970 | 12 January 2007 at 4:07 am #

    to ((‘{~_~}’)) ~~ i can’t imagine what you are going through, but my prayers are with you. may peace and love be with you always.

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    Anonymous | 12 January 2007 at 5:32 am #

    wow. i didn’t listen to the idiot’s speech on Iraq last night because i would’ve stroked out and/or thrown something at the tv, but what you wrote is what i hear every time i do listen to anything those maniacs have to say.

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    craig1.618 | 12 January 2007 at 6:39 am #

    reminds me of “when the tigers broke free”….. black 44 and old king george and his rubber stamp. rw and sk….can you imagine those two cats exploring the edges and seams and all the inbetweens? now there’s a haunted sonic landscape

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    Anonymous | 12 January 2007 at 7:45 am #

    you heard it here first; bush is the anti-christ. cheyney, rice, and rumsfeld and the whole american regime is satanic. cheer up sk, for Christ’s sakes you are a goddamn rockstar poet. you have tons of friends, a nice family, access to good weed, live near the seaside, and thin and healthy. Im fat and jealous and live under the yoke of evil american empire. being crushed by satanbush.

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    verdelay | 12 January 2007 at 7:45 am #

    On the subject of “All Life is Suffering” I recommend Valentinus (the L. Ron Hubbard of the Classical World) and Simon Magus. If you’ve got a moment, that is.

    Let’s face it – you’ve got an eternity.

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    (('{~_~}')) | 12 January 2007 at 12:47 pm #

    Thanks Anthony, Dave M, Cecilia, Denise, Mark M and Veleska for your thoughts, kind words, prayers and healing energy. It means a lot.

    Cecilia, I have looked at alternative methods of healing as chemotherapy and radiotherapy do not work. I see a practitioner of Chinese medicine who gives me acupuncture, cupping, gua sha, massage and herbal medicine. I have had distance energy healing. I do yoga and should give meditation a serious go. I have tried chanting. I have also seen a naturopath about my diet and have gone organic. They also advised me to filter my water. Steve is doing all the right things!

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    (('{~_~}')) | 12 January 2007 at 12:48 pm #

    Steve, I hope the play went well for you.

  30. avatar
    fantasticandy | 12 January 2007 at 1:03 pm #

    still absorbing.
    enjoy play.

  31. avatar
    jen | 12 January 2007 at 1:15 pm #


    change the date and not much has changed.

  32. avatar
    (('{~_~}')) | 12 January 2007 at 1:18 pm #

    My father is Romanian, from Transylvania, yes Dracula’s home town. He does not speak much about his life before he arrived in Australia, just now and again these stories come up out of the blue. He once told me how he helped bury young soldiers, just boys really, during the Second World War; some lay there near death crying out to their mother speaking words she would never hear.

  33. avatar
    matthew | 12 January 2007 at 1:54 pm #

    Wow, thanks sk – some really intense ingenious imagery! (i i i)—>(aye aye aye) end

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    restaurant mark | 12 January 2007 at 1:55 pm #

    ((‘{~_~}’))…hello, just want to say i was very moved by your story yesterday. you have nothing to be ashamed of or to regret here. i’ve only experienced compassionate people here in this little community. last winter one of my best friends who’s a very talented painter was diagnosed with multiple myeloma…a horrible blood cancer. he’s only 46, normally strikes people 20 years older. he and his family have truly had a year in hell. the whole time as he kept getting worse and worse i kept thinking about the stuff we’d do together or just talking and cutting up with each other, and how it was all gonna get taken away. selfishly you think about how it affects you, what are you gonna lose. then of course you spend the rest of the time thinking about his wife and the three kids and how they all need him. anyway, he got real close to passing away several times. then all of a sudden he started responding to treatment. he got back to the point where he was healthy enough to handle the stem cell collection and transplant. and now, as of a couple days before christmas he’s been told he’s in remission and doing great…feels great! so take care of yourself, try to laugh when you can, and never give up. i think we’re all thinking of you and wish you the best.

  35. avatar
    CeciliaGin | 12 January 2007 at 3:43 pm #

    Sounds like you are doing all of the right things and you are handling this like a warrior; I admire your strength and your courage. I did a quick google search and found that there are GIST support groups in Australia. Have you looked into?

    That is rockin’ good news about your good friend! ((‘{~_~}’)) may you find the same good fortune!
    Healing energy continues…

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 January 2007 at 4:04 pm #

    Steve, one day at a time. You can’t change the things you did yesterday, last week, last year or 25 plus years ago when you had the bully become your drummer. You can,t do anything about the next day either. You can only worry or deal with today. Family first, before everything, even music. Be thankful (I am sure you are) for what you have and what those 5 daughters have given you. There are some things you can control, some you cannot. Enjoy everyday that you have and try to find the good in each day. Laugh. The best medicine God gave us.

    Some guy who lives in Portland Or.

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    Daberhasher | 12 January 2007 at 5:01 pm #

    wow, that read like Albinoni’s Adagio… made me think of a couple of things…

    “I came across a lad from A Company and he was ripped open from his shoulder to his waist by shrapnel, and lying in a pool of blood. When we got to him, he said, ‘Shoot me’. He was beyond all human help, but before we could draw a revolver, he was dead. And the only word he uttered was ‘Mother’. I was with him in the last seconds of his life. It wasn’t a cry of despair, it was a cry of surprise and joy. I am sure his mother was in the next world to welcome him and he knew it . . . from that day I’ve always remembered that cry and that death is not the end.”
    Private Harry Patch, 7th Duke of Cornwall’s Light Infantry, 1898-

    …from the book, “The Last Tommies”

    …”the mind is the slayer of the Real; let the disciple slay the slayer”…

    …from The Voice of Silence

    and hope, hope, hope…


  38. avatar
    davem | 12 January 2007 at 6:40 pm #

    Yo Sk,
    I feel like doing an Edwin Starr type thang around my kitchen….

  39. avatar
    Daberhasher | 12 January 2007 at 8:36 pm #

    ((‘{~_~}’))… you and your family are in my heart and prayers…


  40. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 January 2007 at 9:08 pm #

    Hello guys! I have some questions. I mean need some help.
    Where i can read more about this problema?
    Please, don’t derect me to i know about it.
    Please derect me with some links.

  41. avatar
    mattdavison | 12 January 2007 at 9:17 pm #

    “as he scrambled for a piece……..”

    A piece of the wall.

    He drifted away,and dreamed about peace.

    Where can a solider fix himself a drink??

  42. avatar
    mattdavison | 12 January 2007 at 9:24 pm #

    OH p.s…

    I wonder if those mums and dads in the USA realize how much dupleted Uranium is in the soils of Bagdad..caus the Iraqi ones sure as fuck didn’t.

    Vietnam!!! ain’t nothing on this bad boy.. Millions will die.

    Go Bush and Warhof and all you other millitary following genicidal
    fucheads..Ya bloody hooo……..

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