posted on July 6, 2016 at 10:00 pm

 

whatever

whatever

its raining tonight its winter its cold

wherever i am i’m always a long way from home

leaving arriving disappearing

trying to find redemption out there in the rain

its all added up to zero

the pointlessness of just about everything

the brutality of addiction

and what it does to people i care about

the crippling useless sonofabitch putting the boot in always

10 years in the wilderness for me

misery on misery all brought on by myself

i can hardly complain i fucked myself up good and there was no one to blame

fucking booze fucking drugs fucking any addiction

my family my friends my colleagues

watch me thrash around uselessly in a dirty little puddle

i coulda just climbed out

something kept me in there my addiction

i was powerless

i could not control it with all the willpower in the world

all the lies i told could never set me free

au fucking contraire they enmeshed and embroiled me deeper and deeper

it all went down the drain

you all already know

youve heard it all before

we all have our turn in this obstacle course of a universe

it seems like there isnt any purpose

but there must be surely some reason…right?

then when by some miraculous unknown power i was let off the hook

i was cured hooray!

i have to stand back and watch other people i care about

get back in the ring taking another swing at their nemesis

the addiction like a shadow living between spirit mind and body

man its got you all figured out yes baby you thats right..!

yeah all of you fools out there ingesting pernicious substances

i tell you heroin is a fucking bitch but i have discovered there are even worse things

crafty little voices whispering to you and boy they have one aim

and that is your total obliteration yeah i’m talking jail institution n death

you think you can hide it?

i thought i could hide it but man i cringe in embarrassment now

i fucked things up over and over and over

i was the worst of the worst

i admit that

by the grace of god and no other reason

if there is another reason someone tell me

because i was let off the hook one day just like that

it was over

i had no dough no property no instruments no nothing

i had 4 beautiful daughters thats all i had to my name

i woke up with a jolt from the idiocy i was involved in

i aint no saint and everyone knows that

but ive been free of that evil spirit now for 17 years

i beat the odds but i didnt do anything to deserve it

something seemed to decide i had had enough misery

listen…being an addict is no goth fairytale

not for me at any rate

it was lie after denial after being sick after being broke after being useless

a total drag to everyone who has to deal with ya

always miserable complaining blaming

coming up with the most pathetic farfetched imbecilic alibis

not having enough money to pay the bills

not having enough money to eat decent food

not having enough money to spend one cent on anything other than your precious

my addiction gave me a bloated sweaty appearance and i ruined my veins

when i have a blood test now its a total palaver trying to find a vein in my arm

they all moved elsewhere where i couldnt get at em

i hit arteries which is a nightmarish thing i cant even bear to think of it

and every other absolutely unbelievably sordid thing you can imagine

there i was in the big cities of the world having a fix in a toilet

hustling and bustling about trying to score and dealing with cutthroats and ratbags

there are no friends in the world of addiction

there are only other wretches going down the plughole with you

some faster some slower

some got some money some are by now broke

some are prostitutes and thieves and swindlers and dealers

some are still dentists and teachers and plumbers and parents

but brothers n sisters we are all going down that drain if we do not find a way to stop

hard liquor hard drugs thats what i’m talking about

its frightening what this stuff can do and how quickly

inside and out an addiction to these things will suck on you

like a flame sucking on wood

they will blow you up and they will leave you frazzled fried and brittle

they feed on your youth your vitality your soul

but you are powerless

i am powerless

i am powerless to stop anyone else as well

stop them going to loneliness and despair and nothingness

nothing will ever come of any of it

anyone reading this who feels themselves sliding into it

stop

anyone who once was an addict and is now free

rejoice

but curing it..?

ah well that is quite a mystery…

the enemy is indeed cunning

its ruthless too

its got you figured out

it knows your worst and darkest fears

and in the very act of whispering to you

i will protect you from your fears

it is in fact actualising them

bringing them out of the abstract realm

and crashing them into your life

 

 

 

 

 

 

50 Responses to “regrets ive had a few..”

  1. avatar
    Loren | 6 July 2016 at 10:52 pm #

    WOW!!! So eloquently stated. Words that sadly only experience could evoke. Thank you.

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    dunn117 | 6 July 2016 at 10:59 pm #

    Steve-Great Blog.Do you mind if I share this? You are Correct Only Gods Grace lets you off the hook.So much wisdom you have acquired from your addictions.and you are right, it is all fear based.

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    Cath | 6 July 2016 at 11:27 pm #

    🙂 no cure indeed, not for human nature . There were some pages in the Siddhartha book I sent a few years back (to the church P.O box) about not being able to save others – from life. If we didn’t feel we wouldn’t be human right? The way Herman Hesse framed the story buddha tried it all too,(in a tad different form) so it’s all ok, unless of course it’s not?
    We got to do the walk to find the wisdom there is no other way.
    god bless you Steve, life is a precious miracle, we can make music, and experience beauty, laugh cry and love, watch the sunrise and the waves crash savour the scent of a flower. Somewhere in that garden even the forbidden, we got to forgive ourselves …..only others been there really understand. <3 Peace to you, speed of the Stars is a truly beautiful work, love the film clip for Heliotrope. DEsiderata .

  4. avatar
    shewgazer | 6 July 2016 at 11:41 pm #

    Thanks for sharing,helpful to those who are trudging through their own. Your way with words and imagery do so much to help make sense of it all. 🙂

  5. etta
    etta | 6 July 2016 at 11:52 pm #

    Cured

  6. avatar
    allan_steen | 7 July 2016 at 12:30 am #

    I myself were on the hook for a year, drinking too much Remy Martin. Too many gigs, too much away from home. Boring hotels, Startet hating jazz, started to hate myself.

    My dad saw it, and managed to help me out in time. Of course this does not make me an expert, but again, I can easily imagine how you feel now about those “lost” years back then – now happily 17 years ago.

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    Allen | 7 July 2016 at 12:35 am #

    Truer words have never been spoken. That fact that you cleaned up your life, has enriched so many others. Had things not changed, we may not have had all the wonderful music that you have been a part of for the last 17 years. And, we definitely would not have had the terrific concert performances that we continue to benefit from, due to your healthy lifestyle. Watching The Church live these days blows away any performances from the distant past. You guys rock better than ever and certainly don’t look like a bunch of geezers on a reunion tour, unlike a lot of other bands from a similar time period (80’s).

  8. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 7 July 2016 at 2:07 am #

    Mr K
    God bless you! I’ve never even done marijuana but I’ve been on the institution. If wake up in a sweat every day. Couldn’t ever fall asleep. Then I found myself on a park bench at midnight in the rain in November Canada. And I found myself in San Diego with no place to go. Dough running out. Basically I’m sayin even without drugs. I got into crap. No I take the good prescription stuff whatever that is. But man. You are one if my absolute heroes Mr K. I haven’t been to the depths you have. But I’ve taken a bottle of 80 some and ran the car in the garage. Been diagnosed as schizoi phrenic. Everyone hears that cunning little voice I think. The devil ain’t stupid. Unless we got Christ living inside us for real. And I’m not talking about phony new age christian pop music. I’m talking the Holy Spirit. I think. That little red pitch fork dudes ready to have his way in us. We are just like ants on this little blueberry out in space and man. Just like that Star Trek episode with the companion “this is loneliness. Oh what a bitter thing this loneliness. Zefram how can you bear it this loneliness?” Your music and your blog and your agape friendship Mr K. Helped me through a lot of times I could’ve wasted and so Jesus Christ bless you always and forever. The Church for me wasn’t just good music. I was runnin with the wrong crowds back 12 years ago and I always kept a little secret that my real friends were playing in my headphones. : )

  9. avatar
    Mark Ezra Merrill | 7 July 2016 at 2:30 am #

    Burroughs beat the H too
    he called it the algebra of need
    the more absolute the need
    the more predictable the behavior
    it’s mathematically certain
    leave a sick junkie in the back room
    of a pharmacy and only one result is possible
    junk is the monopoly of possession
    junk will seize and monopolize the power of anyone
    and there’s only one way out according to burroughs
    to get out alive that is…

    I’m about to begin a new weekly blog called INSTANT KARMA
    each week i will read tarot and tell you what it says
    it’s messages will be relevant to you
    you see TAROT of the TIME BEING is charged with a magical intention
    the intention to heal the world soul
    i hope you will subscribe…

    …for burroughs, his way-out was transference
    the transference of words, word lines, lines of words and images
    and associations connected with these word and image lines
    in the brain “that keep you in present time
    right where you are sitting now”
    i’m told that there’re not enough words in the english language to adequately
    speak of addiction that, for example, in the tibetan language
    there are more words describing its complex and connotative nature,
    that there are clearer lines defining and separating crucial dependency
    from mindless need. I’ve often thought this may be
    the reason the world economy is so fucked-up and obsessed
    with the monopoly of possession…

    …but there’s a way out of that too because we all shine on
    like the moon, the stars, and the sun…

    …on and on

    • avatar
      Conrad Hunter | 7 July 2016 at 3:07 am #

      Steve,

      I’ve been struggling with a failed marriage and learning of the underlying personality disorder(s) that helped to bring it about. It’s led me to an understanding that addiction and mental illness all have the seeds laid early in our lives by those who raise us. Either through neglect, inadequate bonding with our mothers or outright abuse. It’s also brought me to the belief that evil is a real and present entity. It hides in the shadows of our psyche and uses confusion to avoid detection. Wherever there are lies there is evil. It’s influence grows stronger the longer we avoid the truth.

      • avatar
        thetimebeing | 7 July 2016 at 10:09 am #

        man conrad i hear ya and i hear ya loud and clear. youve been there man. its a fucking heartbreaker

    • avatar
      thetimebeing | 7 July 2016 at 10:10 am #

      thanks mem i love ya man

  10. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 7 July 2016 at 2:45 am #

    I totally get that!! Thoughts somehow come into our mind and if they’re not ones I like I basically sift them and say hey buddy or devil or whatever ya are. That ain’t my thought. So my mind is almost a sifter. Then it seems like what you are saying about being the here and now is when your mind is completely arranging things in the present like I write this andre breton type stuff. I’ll show you what I mean. I don’t do tarot cards but my absolute favorites are the rider Waite cards – the fool and the four of cups. I love those two so much works of art and a spirit in them I either envy or relate to. I really think if you want to divine something the bibles the way to go. Especially king James cause that version makes me laugh. Not at God or even with him. Just makes me laugh and enjoy the reading. But I’m not a communist. Possessions aren’t evil and I’m not a capitalist. I don’t invest or give a crap about green paper bills. Even if I’m on the street I got a flute to play. Breton is the same word as Briton. They left England for France and Spain when the Germans came in totally just like they wanted to do back in the 1900s…..

  11. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 7 July 2016 at 3:02 am #

    Really cool about that Burroughs. Interesting words. For me I’m always referencing 80s music vids. Star Trek. The bible. Those are basically my tarot cards. And then there’s automatic processes that make the best poetry. With no conscious mind to regulate I guess. The only problem is you can’t write them down. ? But also for me I love the new wave music of the 80s. But the new age stuff I really don’t like. It’s more pseudo religious than artistic or on regards to aesthetics. I think anyway

  12. avatar
    tabatha333 | 7 July 2016 at 4:34 am #

    I’m glad you were able to get off of that poison. 17 years is a very good thing and I’m happy for you. My addiction is cigarettes. I’ve quit but every so often the voice in my head says, Go buy a pack and just keep 3 and throw the rest away. Such a difficult struggle, and stupid for me, especially being a cancer survivor.

    By the way, Rich and I look forward to seeing you in Iowa at the Hard Rock Casino. We have a rock suite for two nights. I hope you have a safe journey.

    333

  13. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 7 July 2016 at 6:50 am #

    Please don’t post my laborious. God awful posts mr K. Lol. But I found this substance. A magical tree from India called neem. Works well for the skin and mind. Perfectly legal. Lol. Please excuse my verbose posts. I’m pretty dumb a lot of the time. Have a good one. Kev

  14. avatar
    Chris | 7 July 2016 at 10:15 am #

    As usual…great honesty Steven. Addiction is a spiritual issue…an attempt to fill the void or distract us from the voice or numb the pain that comes from knowing that life is both the sorrow and the joy…triumph and suffering without escape. Advertising and materialist consumption invented in the 1950’s tried to depict life as otherwise…completely insane unrealistic bs….and we western suckers bought it. ‘Happiness will come with owning and buying and consuming’…bs. Happiness comes from commitment and sacrifice and living meaningfully and helping others and praying and loving through thick and thin knowing God. You can’t buy that in a shop…you have to believe it by faith. And I’m not talking obnoxious inflexible rule-laden judgmental Christian taliban fakes…I’m talking radical love, boundless love, total acceptance, justice for the poor oppressed and voiceless and deep mystical connection with the divine being. Try to be all of that…and you won’t need drugs. Pax as always…

  15. avatar
    Chris | 7 July 2016 at 10:57 am #

    …and music is the language of heaven…and thus evil frequently attacks our most talented and spiritual musicians…

  16. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 7 July 2016 at 12:48 pm #

    You know Marty W Pipers tune. “Questions without answers”. Probably my favorite by him. That and “. she’s king”. And by Mr Koppes. It’s “take a vow”to seek love and beauty. I would say my favorite Steve Kilbey is “judgement day”. I’ve struggled immensely with cigs. Man. Was Rollin 2 packs a day. Cheap. Easy. Smelled like a dumpster. Electronic cigs really do work. Haven’t smoked the real ones in 3 years. Nicotine a fine drug without the tar. The American Indians were a noble people. The Europeans gave them alcohol and casinos and now they’re worse off than probably the Aztecs. Whereas I think they’re tobacco probably helped us Brits or french or Italians. Who knows. I swear the neem helps for the breton style poetry. Harmless drug. Indian guy saw my acne and said. ” I have this for you”. Good people out there everywhere. Something like Kierkegaard said in dinner w andre. The closer you get to know the living spirit in yourself the more you see the decay of that spirit. Well in conclusion. I’m just dust in the wind…. Dude. And that is all. But thank God for all of these songs and poetry and for rickenbacker guitars and just everything basically. Churches with all that stunning stained glass. And Socrates was a real hero. Really funny in that excellent adventure film too. I haven’t watched tv for like 15 years and it’s way better. I wouldn’t even know if the world would end tomorrow. I could live to be thirty or 100 years. And just like some lazy tortoise. Makes no difference. It’s no reason? But I heard on an episode Jesus. Likes you to just talk to Him so I do. He’s my number one hero. Not to be self righteous or something. But to think. That dude Jesus. Really was God. Man. What a story. For a person who never even liked stories like me. I liked ball. But not reading.

  17. avatar
    caitbrid | 7 July 2016 at 1:52 pm #

    I am so glad that you were “let off the hook” as you say. You ONLY had 4 daughters to your name? I think you could not have had anything better. Thank God you had them. Maybe you were let off for them. Maybe you are just too intelligent not to figure it out. I believe in grace and that sometimes we are just given it without doing anything to earn it. I remember something you posted a while ago about your addiction and thinking as I read it that you were open to grace and you let it in. Being open to it and accepting it is really hard but you did it. I often say that I love you which of course is silly since you don’t know me but I mean it in the best way. Please keep fighting the demons. I can’t imagine a world without you in it.
    XOXO
    Kathleen in Philly

  18. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 7 July 2016 at 3:53 pm #

    Doesn’t matter doesn’t matter what you’ve done. You are never never too far gone. Jordan feliz

  19. avatar
    Therese | 7 July 2016 at 6:16 pm #

    Hi sk,

    Very thought provoking reading and unfortunately very true.
    So proud of you for fighting the demons and coming through it.
    Karma is coming to you with your career at an all time high,
    you’re very much in demand, (put your fees up, you deserve the money).
    Still hoping to c u at a solo gig or with MK one day not too far away.
    Take care and stay warm and dry.
    Peace & love
    Therese

    • avatar
      thetimebeing | 7 July 2016 at 6:22 pm #

      dear ms T
      thank you darling lady
      i wouldnt hold me breath about seeing me and mr kennedy tho
      i think hes retired to tassie
      but we will be making more records together
      and hopefully so too will glenn bennie and i
      love
      sk

  20. avatar
    andy | 7 July 2016 at 6:18 pm #

    I have no idea how you made it through all that shit.
    but i’m so glad you did.
    god bless you and keep you steven,
    you are a real sage…no glib posturing, your communication skills are second to none.
    all the best for upcoming dates!
    your friend as ever,
    andy.

    • avatar
      thetimebeing | 7 July 2016 at 6:20 pm #

      you are a true friend sir
      im glad you got thru your health probs too
      keep on rocking me baby!

      • avatar
        andy | 7 July 2016 at 6:43 pm #

        cheers steve!
        unfortunately my band mates ain’t doing so good though,,,,
        as you know carl has advanced ms ‘n steve has the big C now.
        i’m still around for that nutty left-field guitar solo one day though!
        chin-up brother, the world is your oyster……..

  21. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 8 July 2016 at 2:06 am #

    I watched your interview on drugs Mr K. Brilliant. I’m so glad you got off the stuff. I also wish I was a vegetarian like you and that Daniel from the bible. It’s a noble thing. Here’s my theory on that fairy tale the frog prince. So some frogs actually have like subtle LSD naturally on their stomachs. So back in the old England when the frog prince was written whoever wrote it was basically kissing frogs. And the frog LSD got to him and hence he wrote the frog prince. Lol. I came up with that myself. But all myths have their origin in fact according to Kirk in Star Trek in that Apollo episodeFact is some frogs are on LSD. And that Daniel didn’t even want to eat the meat and birthday cakes of nebedchenrzzar. Talk about a noble dude. And even without drugs or meat. He was still in pain from all those visions he was having and the guys who wanted to kill him just cause he was praying to God. But anyway. Can’t wait to see your upcoming tour. Got plane tickets n all!! Wailing guitars. Ludicrous drums. Kilbey on vox. Amen brothers.

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    schrader | 8 July 2016 at 3:06 pm #

    Well said. So glad I got to see The Church play this past April in Nashville. Since I’m here in the buckle of the Bible Belt, I perk up at phrases like ‘the grace of god,’ but I still don’t know your specific beliefs. Whatever they may or may not be, your continuing journey continues to inspire me. And hats off to those who loved you through the years of addiction. Special people indeed. Peace from Music City USA.

  23. avatar
    matthew | 8 July 2016 at 3:27 pm #

    The bad medicine has been a battle for me on and off as you know Steve. At the moment, getting to the root cause of some of the things that drive me into that false hiding place is key to me getting better. Therapy and re-learning wrong turns I’ve learned or absorbed. Despite falling over a few times, I get stronger every time. So… doing well right now and I pray it will continue. One day at a time… but the spiny stuff underneath has to be processed and let go, or we’ll all continue in a neverending circle. This is what I’ve learned. Peace to you man.

  24. avatar
    liferemember | 8 July 2016 at 5:38 pm #

    Beautifully, articulately and brutally said! Bravo.

  25. avatar
    Ingrid | 8 July 2016 at 8:34 pm #

    It is brilliant that you got through it all. I believe though that you have an incredible mind and I also believe the mind is the most powerful thing we have. It seems despite everything where most people may have succumbed you were able to pull yourself through. Your courage and strength to share it is also remarkable and inspiring.

  26. avatar
    Cocoamo | 8 July 2016 at 9:11 pm #

    Sorry to see you in anguish. Remorse and self recrimination are probably counterproductive, but we can’t exactly choose when to feel them, can we?

    I’ve seen you, in your interviews, make your points, counting on your fingers – let me do that now.

    1. Don’t know if you’ve participated in any of the 12-step programs, but they are pretty damn good at addressing the issues you’re suffering. There’s much time spent trying to make amends to innocent people who have been hurt by the addiction.

    My father was an alcoholic – died from it at age 54. We, his children, were all affected, especially the younger ones who were still living at home when he was hallucinating and physically attacking them. Our family suffered personal bankruptcy, lost the house, everything. Public humiliation. There were times there was nothing to eat – found myself as a child out foraging crab apples. We had no decent clothes, which was tough as a child living in a neighborhood where the other children were all nicely dressed. The phone would ring repeatedly (creditors) – “Don’t answer it!”. Angry, incessant knocking on the door. “Hide”. Small things, but things that make you feel insecure in life and inferior to your peers, and form lasting feelings of low self worth. He never did the program, but I imagine we would have benefitted if he could have come back, sober, and talked to us about it. I’m sure we all have some permanent damage from his problem, so you are right.

    2. Sometimes, if you can step back and see humor in painful situations, it can be healing and cathartic. I have mentioned “Walk Hard, The Dewey Cox Story” movie, but don’t know if you ever saw it. It’s funny, has some surprisingly good music in it, and very poignant. Many parallels to your life.

    3. It’s got to be worth something that, with your music, you have brought such joy to so many people. I love lots of music, classical and pop, but (as I have said before), something in your music elevates it above all other. OK – not all of it – but really a lot of it. You guys pooh pooh that, and point at The Beetles. You guys don’t realize how great what you have produced is. You haven’t had appropriate recognition. Will never understand the dolts who don’t get it – pearls before swine indeed. Sometimes I feel that the happiest moments of my life have been, all alone, listening to your music. In the karmic scheme, there must be some points scored there. This isn’t just nothing.

    I know you aren’t personally involved in our lives, so you don’t realize the profound benefit, and yet the harm you have done to people is very personal to you (and to them, of course). But to us, the recipients of joy, the goodness imparted in the music is very personal. Wish you could feel that. Not that it undoes the bad stuff you’ve done to people. Guess what I’m trying to say is that you may still need to make it up to people you’ve hurt, but take some credit for people you’ve helped, even though you can’t see how much you’ve soothed our souls. Let that temper your anguish a bit.

    4. I have found the book, The Road Less Travelled, by Scott Peck, to be a crackerjack manual on how to be mentally healthy. Scott Peck is a psychologist who has treated many, many people. We aren’t just born knowing what to do to get our minds straight, although we think we should be. Highly recommend a read. (He wrote another book, People of the Lie, about people who are truly evil – like actually possessed. Often, they are artists at passive aggression, so we don’t recognize them. But, they’re out there. That book is not as well thought out as the first, but still well worth a read).

    So take heart. Maybe some of the people you’ve hurt read your blog and take some solace from that. I don’t know. You might need to make individual amends.

    You seem like a good person to me.

    Your Friend in Pennsylvania

  27. etta
    etta | 9 July 2016 at 1:40 pm #

    Sos (Smokeonspot) or wot

  28. etta
    etta | 9 July 2016 at 1:40 pm #

    Sos (Smokeonspot) or wot

  29. avatar
    simoneradulovitch | 9 July 2016 at 10:29 pm #

    Hi Steve
    A brilliant post. So glad you are still here and beat those demons. You are indeed very blessed. Some don’t make it – a boy I knew from school who was a bit younger than myself and lived in the same neighbourhood died of a heroin overdose. He got hooked after being pressured by his girlfriend. Her family sent her to rehab. Damien went cold turkey with help from his sister. He was clean for 18 months until one night he left his sisters place and took the train to Central to score. He overdosed. All alone on the stairwell of the desolate St Margarets hospital in Surry Hills. It was February 1997. Damien was 23. I heard the news from a former school teacher. If I can share a poem that Damien wrote while he was clean – it’s called “Ambivalence”

    Embroiled in a drug filled haze,
    melting defences
    got lost in a maze.
    Lost to my own desire to hurt,
    lost to the girl
    and the white powdered dirt.
    Confused the emotion of pleasure and pain
    playing my life
    like playing a game.
    Caught in myself
    spinning web
    Fighting a war that exists
    in my head.
    The inner child has lost to
    the man
    that could not see past
    an indifferent plan.
    Lost every rational thought
    in my mind
    Caught in a shell with
    nothing but time.
    As I watch yet I’m shielding my eyes
    with a needle protruding I am feeding the lies
    A memory, a thought
    A relinquishing sigh
    A decision to make
    To live or to die?

  30. Jmb066
    Jmb066 | 10 July 2016 at 12:31 am #

    Hope all is well Steve, luckily my only addiction is music. It sounds like someone close to you is struggling with addiction though. I hope you can reach them and help them through this. Don’t worry about all that stuff you lost, when you leave this earth you can’t take it with you. Look forward, your 5 daughters are with you always as well as all of us that you have reached with your art. Looking forward to your next album and Church show in St. Louis. If you need anything let me know.

    Jason

  31. kevinbreton
    kevinbreton | 10 July 2016 at 2:06 pm #

    I wish life was a joke and not just that but all of his humans got it too. That would be cooler than it not being funny and not understanding it either. But just like Job learned. Who are we to understand God. And just like peter says to Jesus. Who shall we go to then. If it isn’t you lord Jesus ?

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    Ingrid | 10 July 2016 at 4:12 pm #

    Hey SK, any upcoming tour updates?
    Great photo of you!

  33. Pictish
    Pictish | 10 July 2016 at 7:44 pm #

    It sounds like this situation is tearing open old wounds for you. I’m sorry. Please take care of yourself.


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