posted on February 26, 2008 at 12:53 am

some mofo is now stealing money outta my bank accnt
in fact he got my last fifty bucks
thats right
i said to wife
at least we have fifty seven bucks in accnt
2 hours later
no she says
we have 7 bucks
ah clever criminals
now gotta wait 21 days to get my fifty back
hopefully by then will not need it so much
somedays ya get up…
fuckin’ conflict
everybody everywhere wants a piece of ya
fair enough
if you caused it yerself
but im wading through everyone elses problems
i wish i was a monk tending a garden
a vow of silence
i am like a parent waiting for my paintings
so i cant face the fact they are truly gone
today i will try to confront the slacker who blew it with the tube
up at fed ex
whats the best outcome i can hope for…?
an apology?
who cares
everyone offloads the guilt elsewhere
thats how its done
ah you dont need this today
lets try again tomorrow

43 Responses to “self pitty”

  1. avatar
    Paul Lightfoot | 26 February 2008 at 1:28 am #

    Mr K. A guy in our offices who owns an airfreight biz, reckons 99% of the time, lost goods eventually turn up again. Fingers Xd. How did ur money get stolen? using wireless internet are we?

    Paul L

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    eek | 26 February 2008 at 1:30 am #

    Oh no! That’s horrible! And to have to wait so long to get the money back when it’s not your fault it’s gone in the first place. Arrgghh!

    And the paintings…. I still can’t quite believe the paintings are just gone. I track that damned package every day.

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    veleska1970 | 26 February 2008 at 1:44 am #

    oh, man, steve, i am soooo sorry. i know it sounds empty and fruitless to say i wish things were better, but i really do.

    **ugghh** identity theft~~no one is safe.

    so….what did the fucktard at the shipping place have to say for him-sorry-self??

    “ah you dont need this today
    lets try again tomorrow”
    hey~~this is your place to vent. and you know we’re listening.

    much love and hugs to you, steve.

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    Celticat | 26 February 2008 at 1:58 am #

    Subscribed just then, so sorry you’re going through this shit.

    Love Celticat

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    melissa | 26 February 2008 at 2:04 am #

    Hey Steve, I feel so horrible for you that these rotten things have happened. I know it’s hard not to despair, but I hope so much that things will turn around.

    I can’t understand how anyone can be nicking money from your account, but probably it is some kind of online fraud. I know I get slugged with bank fee’s from time to time, so that could be the reason for the missing funds??

    I s’pose I can’t give up hope for you that those paintings will turn up eventually, even though it seems like a lost cause now. Still, whether it was an honest mistake or complete incompetence, at the very least, you deserve an apology.

    It pains me to think, but maybe Nick Cave is right (sometimes) .. ‘people just ain’t no good’

    all the best to you anyway SK

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    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 3:30 am #

    A little piece of peace would be nice wouldn’t it.

    I understand
    Your lines like:
    “So many things need fixing everywhere”
    “How money strangles our love”
    always made me feel less alone.
    There is alot of undestanding and mercy in your lyrics-alot of the time the only place I could turn to when I felt so hopeless and helpless and that gave me the feeling that one day things will be better – thanks SK

    It sucks when you feel like you give it your all, with the best of intentions and just want everbody to be happy and you keep getting clobbered by someone or something.

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    Melby Symon | 26 February 2008 at 4:25 am #


    Hope some peace and good luck finds it way to yourself real soon. Had a big smile reading about the vegan gig (well dissertation more like it). Couldn’t get there due to existing commitments however sounds like all went well even though the whole shebang was dove tailed between 2 horrible fucking flights !!!! These painting must turn up…or yer gotta extract some compensation from the knuckleheads for being so incompetent.

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    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 4:32 am #

    what a bummer about your money,
    i love ya, kilbey
    probably won’t help much but as soon as a finish this i am gonna order some things from the church merch

    hope your luck changes soon brother

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    Leelinau | 26 February 2008 at 4:50 am #

    WOW, that is so fucked up.

    Sorry man, hope it all gets
    worked out.


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    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 5:23 am #

    Bugger! It might be time to get a real job eh? It’s not that bad and putting food on the family table is a great reward for your labour.
    All the best

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    Queen Hatshepsut | 26 February 2008 at 5:45 am #

    Good Lord man – how is someone stealing money from your bank account? That frightens me. So much so that right after I leave you I’m checking on my account. Unreal.

    I’m sorry things have been so shitty. Sooner than you think something good will happen, I’m sure of it. 🙂

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    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 6:04 am #

    that means……nothing?!either way i look at it…there are 2 ways of looking at it…but is it even worth stewing over,if you dont know which way to look at it

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    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 26 February 2008 at 6:08 am #

    good luck with all that…

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 6:20 am #

    hows yer busking hat looking?
    anyway, all the best dude…hope things pick up and im sure they will…

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    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 7:03 am #

    Dear Celticat, and anon 3:32,
    really appreciate it what you’ve done. I’ll, too. after finish this.

    Love him, then do something people, like MD has done; and Davem, and fantasticandy(sorry andy, i ever said something nasty about you, i take back what i’ve said). Truly beautiful souls, and true friends.

    lots of love to you, Steve. You dont have a big bank account, but you do have so many things that those millionaire will dream of.

  16. avatar
    markobears | 26 February 2008 at 8:15 am #

    Now its not just art its a mystery.
    Something fresh for your fans after we’re all gone. priceless.

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    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 8:26 am #

    cold comfort i guess but you do have lots of people here who are thinking of you, lots of them no doubt with more or less serious problems than yourself. you are regarded with affection by many. anon@4:23 PM is clearly a smug prick who delights in seeing someone who has taken a different route in life struggling. a friend of mine recently qualified as a pilates instructor – maybe you could diversify into something like that with your yoga – do a bit of teaching which i think you said you’ve done before with songwriting. never know. also, perhaps you could offer smaller and simpler (quicker) commissions with the art – i’m sure lots of people here would pay say $50-100 for a small pastel original done by yourself. i know i would. not on the scale of your bigger works – just something more ‘sketch’ like. i have two of your prints and love them. you could probably knock out a couple a day (cue spluttering artistic rage from kilbey – ‘a couple a day, what does that bastard think the fucking artistic process is – a fucking tap i can turn on and off’)and pull in a handy few hundred? i shall now fuck off and mind my own business. ps…the prints i have of yours are the bass playing goddess and the guitar playing jesus….i’ll paypal you over a eighty bucks (for i too am a poor-ish man)in return for a original sketch along those lines (eg. guitar playing ghandi, bass playing ganesha). seriously…?

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    fantasticandy | 26 February 2008 at 9:48 am #

    it just busts me up inside to read stuff like this steve…to think an artist of your calibre has to really struggle just to bring home the soy bacon.
    the guy who made the ‘get a job’ jibe aint got a clue.
    ‘the dudes’ get clobbered both ways!
    not enough money, so we have to do EVERYTHING ourselves as best we can with limited resources,
    but we haven’t got the fuckin’ time either because the music brings in nowt!
    so we are shackeled to ‘work’ spending our days in a flouro-lit intellectual wilderness.
    i feel for ya man, i really do.
    talk about ‘suffering for your art’.
    you know how much love thre is out there for you…i only wish love fed people!
    iv’e made a visit to churchmerch and i’ll bring my subscription forward…but it pains me that there’s no real support for dedicated innovative guys like you.
    let’s face it…there never will be,
    the movers and shakers of this world are interested in more ‘important’ things.
    it’s a fuckin’ hard road man…why d’ya think i love ya so much?
    all the best,
    andy L.

  19. avatar
    Ethereal Butterfly | 26 February 2008 at 10:29 am #

    I am sorry to hear you have fallen on hard times.
    In trying times I have found great solace in The Serenity Prayer…..

    God grant me the serenity
    to accept the things I cannot change;
    courage to change the things I can;
    and wisdom to know the difference.
    Living one day at a time;
    Enjoying one moment at a time;
    Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
    Taking, as He did, this sinful world
    as it is, not as I would have it;
    Trusting that He will make all things right
    if I surrender to His Will;
    That I may be reasonably happy in this life
    and supremely happy with Him
    Forever in the next.
    Reinhold Niebur

    ( I have it on my fridge!!)

    It won’t feed your family or return anything which is lost, but words can be very powerful & affirming in difficult times.
    You are tough, resilient & a beautiful soul with much love in your life S.K & I hope you can turn everything on its head real soon & rise above all of the crap that the universe is presently heaping on you…

    Love Heather

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 10:47 am #

    Bad luck SK.
    But I guess the joke’s on the thief.
    All that hi tech palaver for a lousy 50 bucks.
    Perhaps you weren’t robbed, could be a ludicrous bank charge.
    Maybe you or mcwife need a mcjob.
    Sounds like you have had your run of bad luck and we hope things improve.

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    Hellbound Heart | 26 February 2008 at 11:23 am #

    remember that ol’ fella karma…what goes around comes around…the asshole who has your 50 bucks will get misfortune back at him multiplied tenfold…and if any fuck knuckle’s ripped off your paintings, well, they’re likely to come back in their next life as an amoeba in a public tiolet in calcutta or something like that…
    we love you, kiddo…
    love always…

  22. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 26 February 2008 at 11:24 am #


  23. avatar
    Ross B | 26 February 2008 at 11:43 am #

    I like 7:26’s ideas – I’m keen to purchase some of your artwork though I’d rather not do it over the net where there’s US dollar conversions – I’m local so it seems unnecessary to do that. Are there galleries/stores/studios in Sydney where some of your work is on display for purchase?

    Kind regards, Ross

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 11:54 am #

    God bless you, andy. I probably should work to buy some nice original paintings before they are sold out.

    Good night, Steve.


  25. avatar
    Steve's Plant | 26 February 2008 at 12:15 pm #

    *sound of teeth grinding*
    time for closing account and opening new one?

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 1:00 pm #

    Bob Calvert lived his last decade in poverty. Ultimately, he died in it too. Bob once suggested that he ought to at least earn the average wage for what he did. But no, he was supported by his wife, Jill, who had a ‘real job’ and paid the bills. I hope this is very different from your reality, Steve, and a pattern isn’t repeating itself. Here’s to an imminent refilling of the coffers.

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    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 1:04 pm #

    As someone said above, it’s criminal that someone of your calibre has to contend with financial situations like this. I’ve suggested before that maybe 20of us who can afford it could each fire 100 bucks your way at times like this. That suggestion drew only disparagement, but I still think it’d be helpful.

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    matthew | 26 February 2008 at 1:11 pm #

    Ah Steve, man, that really sucks, as my 14yo Lyneham attendee would say… you have every right to protest. I sincerely hope it works out with your paintings, that’s very distressing! Take care.

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 1:18 pm #

    almost 600 people are reading this blog everyday. time to subscribe, people. this is what you can do. Dont only read, it’s sort of a thing like stealing.
    buy his CDs and give them to your friends as birthday gift, they’ll like them. OK?
    buy his original paintings, it’s rare you should know! dont only buy them on September.

    Love him, then do something! Give true artists an opportunity to create, to live! OK?

    and Ross, if i were you, i wouldnt care the US dollar conversions, and its not quite realistic to open another gallary… i guess.

    and thank you so much Steve you didnot “get a job” as some people wished.

    lots of love.
    love you, truly.

  30. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 1:27 pm #

    It’s a shame of Australia that an artist like Steve live a life like this!!!!!!
    I hate it! hate it hate it hate it!!

    only if i can get a gig for you… at here, but what a daydream.

  31. avatar
    matt davison | 26 February 2008 at 1:44 pm #

    Hey he’s still the SK whatever you think…and thats very very cool.

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 1:49 pm #

    anon 12:04,
    count me in,please. I’m serious. my mail address:

    looking forward to your mail.


  33. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 1:50 pm #

    hi steve,
    really sorry about all this crap u must put up with now. I can understand..i have had all the same things happen..lots of lost mailings, raided bank accounts, stolen credit cards, etc…always bit harder being a true expatriate..and neither here nor there…officially. hope tibor will get better..typical tempermental hungarian:) look 4ward to seeing u again one day…take care.kevinN

  34. avatar
    Malika | 26 February 2008 at 2:06 pm #

    Oh Dear Stevo, being a painter myself I can totally understand what you’re enduring : that kinda dirty trick happened to me a coupla years ago !… Haven’t found my little baby painting again since… but I hope you’ll find yours anyway !

    All my love,


  35. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 26 February 2008 at 3:15 pm #

    Sk is an incomparable lyricist, vocalist, composer, artist, writer, poet, animal loving vegan and spiritual inspiration. He gets incessant bad luck in return. St. Martin De Porres would love him and solace him.

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 4:03 pm #

    well?sounds like you can say goodbye to those paintings!thats horrible sk!

  37. avatar
    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 4:33 pm #

    You guys want to throw money at the guy ’cause he’s sort of maybe a bit poor? Wow, that’s bizarre. Try giving a few bucks to a street person.

  38. avatar
    davem | 26 February 2008 at 6:32 pm #

    Gutted for you.
    It just isn’t right.
    I will be bringing forward my subs too.
    I don’t have much money myself, but I value your art more than you can ever know.
    I would always stand in your corner, so in a small way I’ll be saying thanks for ALL that you do and have done for me through paypal. You’re such a blessing to this household SK.
    I love you.

  39. avatar
    steve kilbey | 26 February 2008 at 7:40 pm #

    please guys
    this wasnt a plea for you all to send money
    i ruined my own finances
    and im not begging from ya
    but i really appreciate your concern
    thank you
    love returned

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    Anonymous | 26 February 2008 at 7:47 pm #

    fair enough – but – would you consider the idea of doing ‘mini’ commissions as per my earlier suggestion? – like it or not you’re a little bit of oz’s cultural history and its nice to have stuff made by people like you.

  41. avatar
    davem | 26 February 2008 at 7:48 pm #

    We know it wasn’t SK.
    We just REALLY care.

  42. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 26 February 2008 at 8:33 pm #

    waiting waiting for the new world order where “money” is no longer evil, peace and love are all we need to survive…
    Jonny Moondog Smythe

  43. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 February 2008 at 2:17 am #

    you should try living on tvp and scraps for 9months!then tell me if you are sick of that

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