posted on May 29, 2007 at 5:36 am

stoned immaculate in the sun
jim morrisons book still on my table
yellow 6 emit from ibox
been goofing off again today im afraid
muse : is that what youre calling it these days….
no muse im not gonna let you walk all over this blogge today
you only speak cos i choose to let you
and today youre gonna remain silent
(sound of muffled struggle)
kilbey says to himself:
fuck, i bet they like the muse better than me….
(sound of a muffled “who wouldnt?” is heard)
thats the trouble with voices, my darling pigss
once you let em speak
you got yer hands full
every little aspect of yer psyche jostling to be heard
do you really think this muse exists?
(more muffled strugglin’…izzshe strugglin’?)
you fiendss really think there is some supernatural female energy
filling up my head with words twenny four hours a day, childe?
damn right there is…..!
hey there really is look…
what do you want me to do
compose a poem?
nah too easy
theres idiots out there without muses knocking that stuff out?
write a novel….
nah, itd take too long
do a painting then
nah dont feel like it..i been overdoing it
write a song then
good idea but no audio for a blogge
take a photo then
of what?
and who is saying all that stuff if it aint the muse?
muse : you cant control me, being
no sweet immortal muse, youre always so good to me
muse : and you have always had faith in me
i believe in you muse, i really do..
muse : ah the hardest thing is to really believe
but doesnt everyone have their own muse….?
muse : alas, no, being in time
but why me then?
muse : well youre useless at just about everything else and
at the last minute the creator imbued you with one of my many aspects
purely out of mercy…….
well i know youve always been there for me, like
when im up against a tight fucking schedule
you know 5 minutes to write something thats gotta be good
and i think come on muse…be there…!
muse : and unless youve had too much this or that i will deliver
how do you do it muse…where do you get all the stuff from?
muse : oh i have a muse too, mortal man, and that muse i filter to you
couldnt you let me have a minute with your muse, muse
muse : you always want that forbidden thing you not supposed to have
does that mean yes?
muse : you cant handle it sonny jim
hey im nearly effing 53, cmon, lemme have it
muse : what good would some ineffable delight do you?
are you having a laugh….is she having a laugh?
muse : you would have no words to write it
gimme a chance
muse: it is glorious creativity, pure and delightful
it is a melody with visible form clothed in poignant stories
the most beautiful woman you ever didnt see
a strong man , wise and golden
and words falling from the sky
queuing in the ether to enter your fevered head
and sensual beyond all feeling
a whisper in your ear saying such delicious things
oh being, my muse is prescient and reveals the future
the future unrolling in viridian and crimson lake and cerulean blue
the future played by an orchestra of ecstatic angels
each a virtuoso of unquantifiable stature
the future dished up as a lovely dessert with serene distances
and being, the past hung like a tapestry in eternal remembrance
the fountain of dance and song where i bathe nightly
everysong you say please dont let this one end
this is the best song
no song could be better than this
but my muse sends me a new song
and i say ah
this song is by far superior to everything that came before
and each note is unlocking sensations deep in your heart
the heart of your creativity where all things begin
and being
let me tell you of my muses voice
the voice that sings me those songs
oh her voice is like strong and clear and melodic
she sings in all languages at once
she has a thousand eyes
and she sings in the voice of earth and sky
her lowest note would open the ground
her highest would pierce the sun and stars
and she sings soft and low
seducing you with her untranslatable lyrics
about about about
you see there are no words here for them
ha ha being
you could not contain my muse
it would derange you….
ok look gimme a 10 second blast, i still wanna try
muse: my my your a persistent pest, arent you?
im ready
muse : are you really ready?
yes i am
muse: so be it!!!



normal service resumed tomorrow

44 Responses to “strangest life i ever had”

  1. avatar
    Moses Lawn | 29 May 2007 at 6:57 am #

    What a splendid Musepaper to read with my Muslie this is.

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    Symon | 29 May 2007 at 7:00 am #

    Steve…I know your muse is real….the voice..the thoughts…the energy…the inspiration…the depression…the everything.

    I only discovered my Shadow (as i call him) about 4 years ago after a rough patch. It’s very perceptive that you are so aware of your muse…I discovered my Shadow after long hours of discussions and counselling with a 70 yr old guy who has the best handle on life of any person that I have ever had the pleasure to meet. He was/is an inspiration in the way he helped me explore who i am.

    You obviously spend a lot of time with your muse….and rightly so.

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    kat | 29 May 2007 at 7:01 am #


    only me up at this bewitching hour. send me your muse. except for the “useless at just about everything else” part. my ass!

    on the pj board i put leverage as my song that inspires me.. i also put a church song on my page, sk, that goes with what i wrote sorta.

    peacexo=~~ [jazz]less in newport

  4. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 7:03 am #


    You’d have that unending curiosity for information from the other realm that your good man Harry Houdini had.
    Why don’t ya go and see one….what have you got to lose?


    P.S. I feel I need to say that I am a fan of the Tony Curtis as Harry Houdini incarnation. Love that whole period of movies unashamedly.

  5. avatar
    matthew | 29 May 2007 at 7:03 am #

    hahaha… my poor simple brain most loved the slyly-inserted quote from “extras”… (throbs like hell in some divine catchphrase-based comedy…?)

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 7:14 am #

    Kismet….when things come full circle….thats all I know…how can you be so invisible?…your muse is wise,to let you have a taste of eternal ancient infinite gifts …..maybe they were always there for the offering,and since,now is the time that it have instinctively asked……..

  7. avatar
    Dark Eyes | 29 May 2007 at 7:15 am #

    Hey Sk,

    You’re a Cool Cat Killa!
    Bec x

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 8:10 am #

    Ha Ha, you’re funny sk. No, you don’t need another one, keep your life nice and simple my sweet friend!
    Love always,

  9. avatar
    mattdavison | 29 May 2007 at 9:23 am #

    still thinking about that one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????????????????????&**********************************

    normal comments resume tommorrow.

  10. avatar
    malcolm arkey | 29 May 2007 at 9:58 am #

    blog as sketchpad
    Seeing as you like to quote your lyrics on the blogg from time to time – howzabout doing the reverse ??

    you’ve actually come up with some decent lyrical “kernels” on this blogue that could/should wend their way into song at some point.
    here’s an example of a candidate:

    “words falling from the sky
    queuing in the ether to enter your fevered head”

    might be useful.

  11. avatar
    tristan | 29 May 2007 at 10:15 am #

    Don’t abuse your muse.
    Don’t confuse your hues.
    Don’t defuse your views.
    Don’t infuse the ooze.

  12. avatar
    veleska1970 | 29 May 2007 at 10:50 am #

    hello, steve, everyone~~wow, i’ve missed a bit. just got back from a long 3-day weekend. back to the grind again **sigh** my comment on your blog from the other day about growing old “dis”gracefully~~i have to say that i hope i am in as good of health as you when i’m 53. šŸ™‚

    don’t ever doubt that your muse is real. she is. and she’s always helping you do wonderous things.

    how’s the back? better, i hope. i am going in today for yet another MRI~~the last one showed a possible growth on my pituitary gland, but then again it may have just been a blip on the film. today i’ll find out if it’s either or neither. šŸ™

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 11:03 am #

    the end bit looked like a spiritual, psychic, creative and maybe even a physical orgasm…did the earth move for you, mr k?
    -The Hellbound Heart

  14. avatar
    lily was here | 29 May 2007 at 11:25 am #

    But what’s “normal” here anyway nevets?

    Im afraid i only have a listening muse, with exquisite taste i must say, who must be impatient seeing as I never finish anything i start. You though, are a very persistent being, admiration to ya. I believe that yr best is yet to come. Im a believer // but I couldnt see her if I tried šŸ™‚

    sue x

    fingers crossed veleska!

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 11:42 am #

    Jailed for possessing dope?
    Not in UK.
    Only a member of the Drugs Squad can take action against anyone smoking dope.
    Yer standard Plod has no power to intervene.
    This I was told by a police comms operator after three druggy wankers had held my 8 yr-old son by the hair, forced his mouth open and blown skunk smoke into his mouth and nose.
    Fuck you druggies – I’d do a lot more than fucking jail you.

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    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 12:10 pm #


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    alex | 29 May 2007 at 12:22 pm #

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    cita | 29 May 2007 at 12:34 pm #

    sweet muse
    my sweet lord
    takes alot of detachment to care and nurture the muse
    she is there
    ever present
    listening to the quiet presence
    I like hearing you talk about the muse
    It is a delicate fragile thread we all have with the divine
    some days she is so elusive
    I think I have lost her for good
    A dabble with the colours
    I begin to draw
    and I feel her breath
    sweet muse

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 12:42 pm #

    SK – are you havin a laugh?

    [Is he havin a laugh?]

  20. avatar
    CSTCoach | 29 May 2007 at 1:54 pm #

    “it is a melody with visible form clothed in poignant stories”

    That sounds an awful lot like Mimesis…


  21. avatar
    ben | 29 May 2007 at 2:48 pm #

    the mediator between god and man, jesus who like his father both male and female teaches within all those who listen. most fight hard not to listen until the nadir

  22. avatar
    davem | 29 May 2007 at 3:26 pm #

    I wish I’d been given some of that mercy.


  23. avatar
    Ansible Jon | 29 May 2007 at 5:00 pm #

    perhaps it is time for the muse to take some initiative and get her own blogge.
    then again, the the tension betwixt the two of you creates some interesting elements.

    peace and respect, brootha.

  24. avatar
    mahatma kane jeeves | 29 May 2007 at 7:44 pm #

    until today i had assumed the muse was a bloke – must read this all a bit more carefully

  25. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 29 May 2007 at 8:39 pm #

    For 26 years I have been beset by panic attacks and full-blow agorophobia. The regular medications don’t work but some sedatives do. When a renowned shrink delved into me mind via a veritable hypnosis I had reportedly told him that in a past life I was an unpardonable sinner and or criminal that was never captured. This life’s panic attacks are purportedly flashbacks to the past life. For compunction my muse tells me to attone via never allowing any cows, pigs, lams, chickens, turkey or fish to enter my system because they would be victims in a human, digestive cemetery. I appreciate my muse ! It tells me “Thou Shall Not Kill” !

  26. avatar
    fantasticandy | 29 May 2007 at 8:40 pm #

    i have a muse.
    a male one.
    i call him ‘shadowman’
    he shares the production credits with me on the ‘dudes’ recordings.
    i consider myself most blessed to be in his company.
    without him i don’t think i would have survived the heart attack,nor made such an amazing recovery.
    iv’e just posted five new songs on our site, yet just a few weeks ago i was staring death in the face.
    i only became aware of him about three years ago, either that or he chose me about then. whichever way round it was i’m glad he’s with me.
    so,yeah i belive you steve,
    how could i not?
    much love,
    andy L.

  27. avatar
    the dean | 29 May 2007 at 10:11 pm #


  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 10:42 pm #

    I wanna Muse……..


  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 10:49 pm #

    ..and very positive energy to ya vel1970


  30. avatar
    zebob | 29 May 2007 at 10:57 pm #

    Was listening to the Basement show from March 27, 2006, and couldn’t help noticing you changed the lyrics in “Grind,” putting a bit of Aerosmith’s “Dream On” in there.

    “Every time I Look in the mirror/All these lines on my face growing clearer/Then a vortex appears…”

    Nice. Steven Tyler’s still jumping around at 59 (!) as well. He doesn’t live too far from me. Wouldn’t that be something? A Kilbey-Tyler collaboration? Wow.


  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 11:00 pm #

    brian c, I think you got some unfinished business there with that phsychiatrist….


  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 11:03 pm #

    Is there such a thing as a male muse, if so I have one.

    He keeps me inspired, encourages me to laugh and reminds me to forgive. He whispers comfort when Iā€™m insecure. Through meditation he teaches me to act with reason and not instinctively.

    We all have this ability; we just need to listen, rely and acknowledge our own muse.

  33. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 May 2007 at 11:09 pm #

    I hope you’re not comparing Steven Tyler to our Steven Kilbey, zebob!! ST looks like an 89 year old ninny running around in skin tight pants and open shirts, screaming his lungs out…blahh!! If I ever see Steve Kilbey running around on stage with long black hair, scarves and tight leather pants wailing and screaming when he’s 59……please shoot me!!!

    Love you always sk,
    Amanda šŸ™‚

  34. avatar
    NickF | 29 May 2007 at 11:33 pm #

    Steve, are those voices talking to you again?

  35. avatar
    zebob | 30 May 2007 at 12:24 am #

    Amanda: I was comparing them in a complimentary way: as two 50-something musicians still going out there and doing their thing, as the youngsters say. I do like the older Aerosmith tunes much more than anything I’ve heard from them in the last 20 years.
    You have to admit, for someone who’s traveled a fairly rough road as far as drinking and drug use is concerned, Tyler looks damn good for his age as quite a few YouTube clips from recent tours will testify. Those lips haven’t even drooped yet. šŸ˜‰
    I had mentioned he lived not far from me. In fact, I once attended an Easter egg hunt hosted by a good friend of his and there was the Screamin’ Demon, looking very much like every other suburban dad with his kids. Not an ounce of show-biz persona to him. Very approachable and personable. Even when my mum even pestered him to pose for a picture with her. He graciously obliged, despite her obliviousness to exactly who he was.

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 May 2007 at 12:24 am #

    Fie saw your muse in a dark alleyway,id give her a pretty tough time about the “useless”comment…….fie saw your muses muse in that alleyway,id kiss her into delirium,then ask her to reveal the rest of the story to you…….. ….enchanting bloggy today,genx xx

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    Anonymous | 30 May 2007 at 1:06 am #

    Talk about 6 degrees of separation! Between the lot of us here we know fuckin’ EVERYONE!!

    Name anyone and I’ll bet we can hook them up. Not just musicians (although that’s always interesting) anyone else. Any takers?


  38. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 May 2007 at 1:19 am #

    hey,b.bon….my uncle…Bob Rogers,a long standing Sydney radio announcer,spent 6 months {in the sixties} with The Beatles….man!has he got some stories /gx

  39. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 May 2007 at 1:27 am #

    Lordy lou, anonymous above. I used to know your cousins then – Sheridan and Skye. They used to live near a house in Rozelle that I used to frequent. Hows that for 6 degrees?


  40. avatar
    sharka | 30 May 2007 at 1:46 am #

    muse has consumed kilbey!

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 May 2007 at 2:12 am #

    b.bon/you should read Skyes {and Aunty Gerrys}book,”Bend of the River”….theres a chapter in there about my family as well….welcome to wednesday! xxgenx

  42. avatar
    voidoid | 30 May 2007 at 2:47 am #

    who is kilbey?

  43. avatar
    sharka | 30 May 2007 at 3:18 am #


    get out of the grind… while you’ve still got time!

  44. avatar
    barefoot | 31 May 2007 at 12:01 am #

    “izzshe strugglin’?”

    Was he not a geetarist in Guns n Roses at one point?

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