posted on February 21, 2009 at 11:37 pm

second nite of triffids in the gardens
i sit down by the water listening to the show in the distance
a warm balmy nite has come down on perth
the water looks like black plastic in a play
i walk up eventually to gig
go backstage
have some jaeger (just one shot tho)
smoke some weed
put on the clothes
pose in the mirror
stand on side of stage
watching jill birt sing raining pleasure
gee she looks so good up there tonight
and the song never fails to send a shiver up my spine
eventually steve miller does his intro
which is weird n funny at the same time
some of it even reminded me of this blog
with its references to east and west and parallel universes
i go on and the band start up lonely stretch
and just a few miles away
i guess is that very landscape of which dave must be singing
and i close my eyes
and i’m in that bush
and its getting dark
and the whole night crashes down
on me in my car
lost and hopeless n helpless
what was i doing out here
but following them
the man n the woman i will pursue across 3 or 4 songs
the triffids n friends rock on around me
then
wide open road
not so easy to sing in some ways
gotta keep thinkin’ about timing
then stolen property
with its aching confused recriminations
and its switches of perspective
i love this song
i go offstage
i walk outta the venue
back to the water
listen to gig in the distance
white birds wheel in the light
the water is black n absolute
boats n yachts moored out in the estuary
people dancin’ n partyin’
a strange black stripe in the sky
i sit down there till the encore
i go back
graham lee says are you ready, steve?
lets do it! i say
we go on n do field of glass
i turn into the diametric opposite
of almost everything i have been up n till now
i am breaking out of that old chrysalis
that was constraining me
which said go onstage and smirk n sing softly
now i’m just gonna do what i want
n not let myself stop me…whatever that means
i throw myself into it
even beating the stage with my hand
i scream n yell n whoop n all that stuff
you probably never thort your humble suave hero would do
anyway
we get a great response
everyone comes up n congratulates me
even the normally taciturn marty casey n mick harvey
say they thought it was good
and cmon
they seen it all by now…
so thats a compliment , right?
after it is over
i go n sit by the water again
being accosted on the way by an english fan
who says in a cockney accent over n over
its just like the doors
its just like the doors!
its just like the fucking doors!!
tonite: last nite for a while
emotional mood swings ahead
hasta la vista

31 Responses to “stumped”

  1. avatar
    Jasperina | 22 February 2009 at 12:20 am #

    You are the eternal suave humble hero. Loved today’s blog beautifully described as always humility fire… desire you got it all. The black water richly drawn by your words.Love it when you are on stage there is tingling and shimmering echoing sweetly through the universe.

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    princey | 22 February 2009 at 12:46 am #

    I love Jasperina’s comment, so I’ll second that (if she dont mind!)
    That pommy is fan is absolutely right sk, that song does have The Doors feel about it, and if u had long, dark curly hair, dark eyes, dark skintight leather pants, dark thoughts, YOU would be the Jimbo reborn we’ve been waiting for, no joke sk:) Well done!
    Enjoy another beautiful night by water.
    Love Amanda

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    seoigh | 22 February 2009 at 12:57 am #

    A little synchronicity can put the hairs on end, eh?

    You’re one of us lucky few whose proximity to the Holy It sometimes manifests in time existing all at once. The unlucky see it as prophecy. It ain’t.

    Humans don’t have the sensory equipment to see that time is a linear dimension, e.g., it all exists at once, but in different places.

    With a little brush with shikantaza through music (the sweat is always a good sign), you crept very closely to the Holy It.

    You experienced time as it actually is.

    And so the lyrics to “The End” (one of the only Doors songs I sincerely love) feature prominently in your mind and pop up on this blog…

    …a few days before that fan gushes about The Doors.

    We both know it’s not your first time — the most obvious example I can think of was when you presaged the numbers 9 and 11 with “Numbers.”

    We are magic, Steve. You are a rare bird. The trick is that ego kills the magic. The thing that is you is not allowed to enjoy the magic. Sorry. Try to make a parlour trick out of it and it will evaporate immediately, leaving you wondering if it was real. It was.

    So it’s not something you can be proud of, unforunately. “You” can’t experience it at all, let alone show it to other humans and brag about it. The more pleased you are with your proximity to It, the further you chase it away — and you know how low you can sink when It is far, far away.

    But on the other hand, at least you can live near (and sometimes in) the Holy It.

    It’s a nice set of circumstances you’ve got. Don’t brag about them; use them.

    Peace.

  4. avatar
    seoigh | 22 February 2009 at 12:59 am #

    if I could type, I’d rule the world

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    Anonymous | 22 February 2009 at 1:01 am #

    you have many things in common with the old lizard king. a vision of all that is around you and an ability to convey that vision thru many different avenues. nice blog today and good to know that you still get lost, teleported, transported, whatever, when listening or performing. i know that feeling, hapens most when i listen to yours or tour bands stuff. don’t know, maybe it’s the age i am, but i’m often afraid that that gift will fade. you give me hope. painkiller is boss, btw. keep on keepin’ on mr. kilbey.

  6. avatar
    veleska1970 | 22 February 2009 at 1:16 am #

    glad you had a good show. and you enjoyed yourself, which is always a plus. have another good one.

    lotza love……

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    Brien Comerford | 22 February 2009 at 1:19 am #

    You are amazing and have nothing in common with the Lizard King besides talent. Jim Morrison loved red meat, did not care about nature, his family or anything. He was an enermously brilliant nihilist. You’re an enormously talented sage and Vishnu mystic.

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    Anonymous | 22 February 2009 at 1:25 am #

    Wish I'ld been there. Beating the stage.. hey, hope you can still play le guitar.
    Glad the gig was an awesome one, the visits down to the water musta helped you relax and let that voice soar.

    Peace & love,
    Therese

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    esne snoner | 22 February 2009 at 1:45 am #

    emotional mood swings ahead presumably coinciding with the church tour – please sk – channel that same triffids energy into these shows – this is pure you not unwarranted reverence to another – we are all wanting (needing) these shows to be the best thing since… and for any readers not aware of such upcoming shows check out the dates on the band’s website – march 15 sydney – cannot wait meself

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    A.M. | 22 February 2009 at 1:58 am #

    I so enjoyed this journey today. Thank you for sharing it with us. The contrast of balmy night ‘n’ moored yachts with the flare of energy on stage, as you’ve so humbly described it, is exhilarating.

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    lily was here | 22 February 2009 at 4:12 am #

    Black water usually seems so ominous, dark and spooky but it almost represents that feeling and stress of bottling up all your emotions, scared you’d explode with it all. Any wonder you returned there, for its calm medicine. Nurture that voice of yours reptile king! xox

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 February 2009 at 5:11 am #

    “Only love can leave such a mark….only love can leave such a scar….magnificent”

    To you k.

    handy

  13. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 22 February 2009 at 5:14 am #

    …..hope the emotional mood swings aren’t too rough….love the image of water on a dark night….you’re one brilliant individual, sir!
    love always….

  14. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 22 February 2009 at 5:17 am #

    looks like the comment thingy’s turned off, guys!!!! andy, veleska, princey, brien, am, mem, lily, and all fellow fienddssss…..how the hell are ya?
    peace, guys….

  15. avatar
    Perry | 22 February 2009 at 7:05 am #

    I have just tapped the paypal key to the right and challenge everyone else to do the same. It is rare privilege to get into the head of a great artist on a daily basis. Imagine if daVinci would have had a daily blog. Comments:”The flying machine is clever but will never work, get back to reality” or “love the painting of the lady but damn that grin of her pisses me off.”

    Perry in FL

  16. avatar
    davem | 22 February 2009 at 8:11 am #

    But at least there’s returning to the family to look forward to. Glad it went well Jim.
    x

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 February 2009 at 10:03 am #

    Hey Kilbey,
    You’ve inspired me to dust off the old record player, side 1 of born sandy devotional playing now. so nice to revisit after all these years.

  18. avatar
    fantasticandy | 22 February 2009 at 10:35 am #

    lizard king my arse!
    jimbo ‘n the doors?….they never came close.

    cards on the table here….you are not(and never will be)a purveyor of vocal acrobatics…
    but there’s a warmth, a feeling of heartfelt sincerity few can match.
    who else could sing ‘block’?
    if you lnvest even half of the emotional input your’e putting into these triffids songs on the upcoming church tour, it’ll be the best ever!

    hi HH!
    and all you other lovely feinds too!
    thanks again steve……….

  19. avatar
    Freddie | 22 February 2009 at 11:02 am #

    (sigh)
    Wow!
    xoxo

  20. avatar
    lily was here | 22 February 2009 at 11:56 am #

    hello andy and all,burnin’ the midnight oil for le church etc, no time to fool around LOL We can still liaise with moderation on, its just not as spontaneous.

    The first time i heard ‘hasta la vista’ i thought it meant “enjoy the view” baby ha!

    xxx

    ps its great youre doing the bushfire fundraiser on Tues nite Steve, quite a sombre time today with the day of mourning.. but lots of hope hey! Hope the Warburton people stay safe.

    pss Perry Keyes got a full page in the Sun Herald today! Not bad for a taxi driver.

  21. avatar
    fantasticandy | 22 February 2009 at 12:10 pm #

    not as spontaneous as this though sue!

  22. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 22 February 2009 at 12:11 pm #

    Andy, I couldn’t agree more(as for The Doors).

    Steve…Happenstance and Pangaea are “lifesavers”, if you know what I mean? I’ve kept gushing about Happenstance to anybody who’d listen, since I heard it for the first time about a week ago. And now Pangaea, which I might just love even more. It gives me that same warm, summery feeling inside that I got from El Momento Siguente.
    Thank you so much!

  23. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 22 February 2009 at 12:27 pm #

    Vocal acrobatics? No, but this is a full-on theatrical and vocal experience carried out by channelling the ghost of David McComb. The Triffids front man, lost far too early, was not only a songwriter of genius, but one of the most charismatic presences you could experience onstage. He was spooky and inspired, demented and romantic and gentlemanly, loving and heart-broken, and he made you fear for him. Steve Kilbey is inhabiting these songs and the demonic angels that fill their sails, with the aid of that mighty ship, a great old galleon, The Triffids. Doing them the most honour. I guess it’s good to escape from your own skin sometimes. Very glad to see this show travelling from one end of Australia to the other. Was in Perth for New Year. What a beautiful, magic place.

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 February 2009 at 1:45 pm #

    who’s the man

  25. avatar
    ScaughtFive | 22 February 2009 at 2:38 pm #

    I’d reckon Kllr would be more like Howlin’ Wolf than J. Morrison with the stage pounding and all…

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 February 2009 at 6:48 pm #

    any video of these performances? seems like Kilbey’s great moments are never captured.

  27. avatar
    catchow | 22 February 2009 at 8:19 pm #

    The Doors of success wide open for you, Steve!

  28. avatar
    princey | 22 February 2009 at 9:37 pm #

    Hope the last night in the west was a good one sk, have a safe trip home and it’ll be so nice to have u back with us in the mornings!
    love Amanda

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    seoigh | 22 February 2009 at 10:27 pm #

    Speaking of dusting off old record players, I’ve got GAF on vinyl spinning right now. Seems a shame that world o’ Church ends at P=A when it comes to vinyl. After that point the cartographer scribbled “Dragons be here!”

    I mean, even a relatively smallish label like Yep Roc or Fat Possum can offer their artists on 180g or 200g vinyl. I know of at least one idiot who would buy auidiophile vinyl versions of everything since 1989.

    I actually know a guy who owns a very small label. He released some tasty Cambodian psychedelic stuff (sounds crazy, I know, but it’s worth listening to). The point of the story is that even this guy was able to release on vinyl.

    Then again, I don’t know if there is an audiophile scene in Oz like there is in Europe and to a lesser extent the States. Maybe it’s not actually a feasible wish. I don’t know your market.

    I do know what I want, though.

  30. avatar
    eek | 22 February 2009 at 11:26 pm #

    i turn into the diametric opposite
    of almost everything i have been up n till now
    i am breaking out of that old chrysalis
    that was constraining me
    which said go onstage and smirk n sing softly
    now i’m just gonna do what i want
    n not let myself stop me…whatever that means
    i throw myself into it
    even beating the stage with my hand
    i scream n yell n whoop n all that stuff
    you probably never thort your humble suave hero would do

    I’m thrilled you were able to do this — not only because these songs demanded it, but also just for you. I think allowing yourself to get carried away and just letting it rip helps to unleash your creativity.

  31. avatar
    SK | 27 February 2009 at 6:15 am #

    SK,

    I saw you Friday & Saturday night. I'm a huge Triffids fan, and you absolutely nailed what you were there to nail.

    Glory be, thanks so very, very much.

    Another SK


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