posted on August 6, 2010 at 4:48 pm

sacre bleu

apparently it seems

in the deep lock of midnight

under the persuasion of  a whispering moon

the solitary minutes before and after

we leave our bloody bodies in dream

spirit souls waft with the lunar wind above earth

tangled cords and jangled nerves

even the high and mighty

even the low and lawless

escaping ourselves anyway we can

in the midst of life we find death

in the midst of hatred we find love

paradoxes metaphors music equations parables

life is complicated

life is simple

you get born

you live for an unspecified period

you die

some too young

some too old

some have terrible tragic lives

(oh god we do you allow this…?)

some get what they deserve

some never get what they deserve

what they had coming

they seem to get off scot-free

some people (like me) get lucky

almost every bad thing that ever happened was at my own hand

born in an affluent time in an affluent land

no war no disease no famine

never beaten molested or threatened

i dream up my own dramas

i create my own chaos

i wrote and directed the film of my life

not as good or as bad as it might have been

i bought a ticket in the pop lottery n i won a minor prize

i got good genes coz my dad was a better musician than me

my mother got me interested in poetry

it was a lucky combo

coz i was always obsessed by songwriting

my parents let me be

left me alone to obsess for long hours in my room

listening n relistening to my favourite stuff

as my analytical machine mind dissected  beatles bolan bowie n bob

i remade myself

i reconstructed what i had

blessed with an obstinate streak i was not naturally that gifted

but i applied myself as the carrot of fame dangled riches women drugs just outta reach

i worked on my vision day n night

forming n breaking up groups

loaning money buying equipment learning my chops

a million jams in a million garages

a million load-ins n load-outs

a million hours on the phone talking it thru

a million reads of a million rock rags

a million rotten songs slowly getting imperceptibly better

a million hair styles and a million changes of direction

yeah i put the work in

but what of the psycho-kinesis of luck

what of destiny what of fortune what of fate….?

what of my intuition that has stood back directing my actions ……

what of the right place at the right time

what of the zeitgeist n my stubborn refusal to bend to its influence….?

a winter night falls after a spring-ish day here in bondi

i’m going in to finish off starlings record now

driving thru sydneys jumbled inner city streets to the university in camperdown

where we have some free down time to record vocals

a long nights session

starling deserves some success i’m sure you’ll agree when you hear his stuff

i have had my little share i guess i should be content

i got my fantastic daughters to carryon in my footsteps

i move forwards into the future

resilient but still pretty dented by my various setbacks

i have some bloody good friends

yeah you know who they are

i have some great players who play with me n work with me

i have you guys who read my rantings n give me encouragement

ok thats it

i’m just taking some stock

i feel ok

i’ll see ya all tomorrow

think of me tonight

slaving over that hot recording console

i love ya


26 Responses to “sub marine blue”

  1. avatar
    andy | 6 August 2010 at 6:10 pm #

    yes, yes, yes!
    onward and upward baybeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    Jasperina | 6 August 2010 at 7:00 pm #

    Spirit souls waft with the lunar wind…oh such beautiful imagery. And also…Under the persuasion of a whispering moon…I’m faint and giddy and need a quiet lie down

    Taunted in an endless midnight where only elusive angels dwell

  3. avatar
    philip | 6 August 2010 at 7:11 pm #

    Can’t wait to hear what you have helped Starling to cook up.

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    Jasperina | 6 August 2010 at 7:12 pm #

    Was in Bondi today and smiled at the tourists filming the quiet hovering of the seagulls… it was something to behold the white of their feathers, the joy of their floating on a cold wind and the backdrop of the vast curling ocean

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    DavidP | 6 August 2010 at 8:21 pm #

    nice stock take Steve!
    there’s plenty to be thankful for
    i think some people get their comeuppance in their next life
    all to do with dharma and karma i guess
    thank you sir for sharing your witty, succinct, apt, laconic observations
    take care, be aware

  6. avatar
    dosty | 6 August 2010 at 8:56 pm #

    love your words. you have an exquisite way of encapsulating the essence of things. surprised by your anger issues. can certainly understand but thought you would have elevated to a much higher plane by now. we’re all just stupid and human, though, aren’t we.

  7. avatar
    virginia | 6 August 2010 at 9:22 pm #

    i love you, too, steve.

  8. avatar
    Richard | 6 August 2010 at 10:31 pm #

    “i was not naturally that gifted”

    maybe you’re not the absolute best of the bass players
    maybe you’re not the absolute best of the songwriters
    maybe you’re not the absolute best of the singers
    maybe, calves aside, you’re not the best looking
    (undoubtedly, you’re not the best dancer!)

    but throw in your obstinacy
    your energy
    your determination
    your inability (even if you tried) to pretend that you’re something that you’re not

    and you get 30 years
    punctuated with freakish regularity
    by magic

    I reckon the big fella was handing out something back in September 54

  9. avatar
    Freddie | 6 August 2010 at 10:53 pm #

    Today’s blog was less bleak and I suppose that to be a good thing.
    May the recording go well tonight. ♥

  10. avatar
    Name | 7 August 2010 at 1:20 am #

    sometimes do you ever think about the worst possible times through history; and the varying (partially true, yet still untrue) stories that we have to rely on for our knowledge and hopeful understanding of those periods and the patterns that became our present? and then you wonder if you were to be put in the middle of [some history] would you have the courage to survive? moreso, after you “survived,” would you be even stronger in going forward; with courage enough to tell the truth — nothing padded, nothing convenient, nothing political — so that the future wouldn’t have doubt?

    some just have that gift I guess, huh? it’s a good gift to have.

    • avatar
      thetimebeing | 7 August 2010 at 8:25 am #

      dont think i woulda survived the dark ages that well
      its hard to tell …

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        Name | 7 August 2010 at 11:02 am #

        but you would have told the truth.

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        Lara | 7 August 2010 at 11:35 am #

        No? Just happened to be reading this, from the Acallam na Senórach:
        “My gift, said [the king of the Sid], is my good musician, whose name is Fer Tuinne, son of Trogan. Though warriors do battle, or women endure childbirth, or soldiers slash at each other, his music soothes them all to sleep. Though he be a musician for the fortress, he is as well for the surrounding region.”
        Apparently Fer Tuinne is more valuable than an endless supply of food, a vat that turns water into wine, and 150 swords. So you mighta done all right for yourself. 😉

  11. avatar
    txrok | 7 August 2010 at 1:45 am #

    i’ll see ya all tomorrow

    you kind of are starting to sound like a Texan. The only difference is that we put an apostrophe in there and take the ‘a’ out, like this:



  12. avatar
    Ellen | 7 August 2010 at 2:20 am #

    You’re sounding a bit more upbeat today, sir.

    Some folks get away with murder (literally) while another kind soul meets a terrible fate. I stopped asking “Why?” a long time ago and just accept the fact that “the rain falls on the just and unjust alike.”

  13. avatar
    davem | 7 August 2010 at 3:49 am #

    Well crikey…I’ve finally managed to log on and post.
    I have been reading every day though.
    Sorry to hear about your troubles Steve. I can relate to them. A terrible year for me too and I’ve this afternoon had to have my lovely old cat put to sleep.
    Take care of yourself killer and hi to all the good people who’ve come over from TTB1!!

  14. avatar
    cazziem | 7 August 2010 at 6:19 am #

    Oh SK, no one need ever critise you for you truly are your own worse critic! Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder is it not? However, beauty is not just a physical form it is many other things besides and strange as it may seem not always pretty. I think Richard has pretty much summed things up, but I am 100% sure that no one can remain in the music industry for 30 years without being gifted in some way.
    I truly believe we all have at least one talent, some don’t realise it and some never pursue their talents, however I am grateful to be able to listen to your unique music indulge myself in your amazing use of the English language through your blogs and poetry, and to top it all, smil each time I gaze at my beautiful SK print that takes pride of place in my lounge.

    Good luck with the recording is not needed, but I do hope you have a great time pulling it all together.

  15. avatar
    hellbound heart | 7 August 2010 at 7:47 am #

    beautiful…..some haunting images…..

    love always…..

  16. avatar
    evilren | 7 August 2010 at 8:28 am #

    Glad you’ve had a slight reprieve and some clarity these days Steve. It seems with your recording project and
    acting roll, you will be able to channel some energy to a positive resolution. You are a lucky man if most your
    misfortune was by your own hand. Now you have a chance to live your life as the peaceful warrior. I really liked your intro about dreams, somehow this is how I always envisioned things. May better days be ahead for you.

    yer pal,


  17. avatar
    Tanya | 7 August 2010 at 8:30 am #

    Escaping ourselves any way we can – through our dreams is a relief & respite from all of those dichotomies you mentioned. The gratitude will get you/us through…and music.

  18. avatar
    Phish boy | 7 August 2010 at 12:44 pm #

    Traveling, I listened to “uninvited” today,..what a great selection of tunes, wow!

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 7 August 2010 at 2:25 pm #

    You have the right to remain silent but I want to hear you SCREAM!

  20. avatar
    princey | 7 August 2010 at 3:06 pm #

    Hi sk, just heard some good news from gb about about October, yipee!
    Hope you’re having a nice day in sunny Bondi,
    love Amanda

  21. avatar
    eekie | 8 August 2010 at 3:17 pm #

    “some never get what they deserve
    what they had coming
    they seem to get off scot-free”

    (and also Ellen’s comment: “Some folks get away with murder (literally)” )

    Don’t be so sure about this. Some years ago I was at the deathbed of a man who almost certainly got away with murder (several). He had never been charged, and it was never even known in his community (except maybe by a very, very few people. I didn’t know about it at the time either) that he was a suspect (the murders did not occur in the community in which he lived) — it certainly seemed as if he didn’t suffer at all. But I watched him die, and it was horrible. He was in agony and utterly terrified. I remember thinking that it was as if he was staring into the depths of Hell. Perhaps he was….

    So I don’t know. It certainly doesn’t seem like enough, but I wouldn’t wish that kind of horror on anyone.
    …and Little Miss Sunshine strikes yet again! lol

    • avatar
      DavidP | 8 August 2010 at 9:52 pm #

      interesting story eekie. I have heard a theory that says when someone commits a serious crime like murder or especially mass murder then their soul goes straight to hell even though physically the person may still be alive, a so called empty house.

  22. avatar
    redgrevillea | 9 August 2010 at 9:05 pm #

    i love the way you think about things, and I daresay you’re pretty damn gifted!!

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