posted on June 19, 2010 at 9:53 am

soft succinct and sweet
sugar bloom
through cold clear water i swim as if in dream
ionian sea or astral soul river
where my muse doth wait
whispering wordless words only i can hear
spirit come and take me now
oh spirit come and fill me now
dark matter intoxication null and void
i have wasted these 55
now i stand here empty handed outside this door
i cannot pound it down
i cannot find my way in
i am freezing out here in this outside
i knock and knock half heartedly
inside the 4 chambers my muse lies waiting patiently for me
havent i given thee enough? she dreams to me
you never worked for even one of my gifts… she gently chides
so why then do you now bang bang bang on the door to my chambers?
i fumble in my pockets for some key
i roar and whimper and call her nameless names
the names she has always had
all my lives all my days
youre trying too hard she admonishes
let it be easy as its always been
try not to grasp and gasp and blow your chances mind
believe and believe and trust and trust
oh its so close now
oh its still so far away
she smiles
i see her smile of invisibility
i hear her melodious laugh
yes she says
i think this time you really might make it
how? i ask
sacrifice everything ! comes the answer in my chances mind
everything? i ask
oh it will all be returned one thousandfold …her voice very faint now
like a thought that lingers fleetingly
like a childhood memory of being so warm and safe
like falling in love with life
like hearing the most beautiful music
as if from an impossible distance
as if coming from all directions
like krsnas flute in the twilight jungle
like jesus lovely laugh in the aromatic garden
like aslans mighty song
that awoke all things
on the very first day

14 Responses to “sugar bloom”

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    Hellbound Heart | 19 June 2010 at 10:24 am #

    your muse is a lovely being indeed… for her and nurture her and she will bless you….

    love always……

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    eek | 19 June 2010 at 10:51 am #

    Yes, your muse will never forsake you, Steve. She might make you work harder, but she will always be there for you. You know you can trust in her — and in yourself.

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    princey | 19 June 2010 at 10:58 am #

    That sure was deliciously sweet & beautiful sk:))
    love mandy

  4. avatar
    Georgia | 19 June 2010 at 11:11 am #


    GORGEOUS. Honest.

    Let it flow….

  5. avatar
    Belfrank | 19 June 2010 at 12:11 pm #

    Your muse is part of the fabric of who you are. You need nothing other than your good self to unlock it at any time.

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    fantasticandy | 19 June 2010 at 12:21 pm #

    wasted 55?
    not by my reckoning mate….

  7. avatar
    evilren | 19 June 2010 at 2:33 pm #

    Give up everything!

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    Freddie | 19 June 2010 at 2:47 pm #

    That is so very achingly beautiful.

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    Broken Toys and Heros | 19 June 2010 at 3:32 pm #

    i so a agree with fantasticandy…thats not a wasted 55. sure things didnt turn out like we all would have scripted-but 55 is a blessing. ur creations along this path will stand the test of time, well beyond 55 or 555 or even 5555.


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    DavidP | 19 June 2010 at 4:05 pm #

    Finding the keys is one thing but using them correctly is another I find!

    "like falling in love with life"
    yeah, its good having that feeling
    worth fighting to hold on to that.

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    persephone2u | 19 June 2010 at 4:40 pm #

    Even more deliriously beautiful and perfect than aslan's silvery song that created the world…..pure and unbridled happiness.

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    lily was here | 20 June 2010 at 4:46 am #

    You didn't say please! tsk. She would have opened the door

    But, sacrifice everything? What is everything to you? Remember what they say about what you wish for


  13. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 20 June 2010 at 7:48 am #

    a muse me…

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    cazziem | 20 June 2010 at 8:25 am #

    Wise words! After all, in the whole scheme of things, what would you really be sacrificing but yourself!!!

    As we all walk our path in this life we amass people and possessions around us to show our popularity and success, and bring children into this world for purely selfish reasons! Why selfish? Well because we know it is a sad and cruel place, and a lot of us know the harshness of war, famine and a whole host of other pain, yet we still choose to procreate. I know it's a selfish thing to do, because I am a parent too.

    Apart from this, when we cease to walk this earth, our material possessions remain behind and in a lot of cases mean nothing to anyone else anyway, and as for the family and friends, well you cannot own another person, so there's no sacrifice there. Those who truly love you will want the best of you and encourage you to do what you feel you need to do, and those who feel you should stay and not take a chance that presents itself? They're not discouraging you because they are concerned for your well being, they’re just being selfish themselves.

    So listen to your muse, if you truly crave more than you have now. If you are successful you can then share you success with those you love. If you are not, well rest assured that those that truly love you would never judge you for trying. xx

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