posted on June 11, 2006 at 8:02 pm

my darling fiends
children of the night
oh ive been having a lovely time
i been out in the swedish countryside
with elli n minna
and karin n gorm
and adrian n ossian
about 2 hours from stockholm
is elli n minnas “torp”
a swedish country house
no electricity
no running water
just peace n quiet
a deep cold black lake full of fish
snakes making love in the rocks
birds calling in the trees
mosquitoes biting all day n night
i get my own little “stuga”
a kinda cottage
with a view of the lake
the trees, the reeds a’swayin’ in the soft zephyrs
the green grass
the profusion of flowers
the aromatic pine trees
s.w. eden indeed
if only
natalie n evie n aurora n baby bouncer
could have been there
things woulda been damn well as perfect as things get
in this world
no tv
no computers
no cars
no noise
listen says gorm
a million mosquitoes a’humming in the woods
i hardly begrudge em their feasting on my english blood
the long long twilights
the stillness at dawn
wisps of mists blowing on the lake
the first morning i awake
i go down on my knees in spontaneous prayer
to the perfect god
for this beautiful creation
everything in balance
was life like this in the garden ?
the weather is warm
golden days
azure skies filled with delicate clouds
messages to us if we could decipher them
we eat all our meals outdoors in the garden
grilled soy sausages n salads
and delicious swedish “saft”
like cordials made with natural fruits n berries
i swim in the the lake
refreshing cold water
basking on the rocks in the sun
like a snake myself
boats go by festooned with flowers n swedish flags
the people call out to me
ar det kallt in vattnet
is it cold in the water
nej! jag ropar tillbaka
no i shout back
hoppa i da
hop in then
i jump in and they all clap my derring-do
i swim to the other side of the lake
half a mile away
totally isolated i take off my icebergs swimmers
and stand naked n triumphant
part of nature at last
watching the small miracles of life
the ants n the lizards
the little schools of fish
oh i wish EVERYONE in the world
could stand here
naked n alone
just me n the trees n the breeze
the glass like lake
i feel so close to god
so hard to believe that somewhere out there
theres traffic n arguments n civilization
i want to stay here forever
i see a pair of birds lovingly swoop n bank
flying n gliding for the sheer joy of it
yes fiends
im very priveleged to be here
i appreciate that
i feel guilty almost to have moments like this
of pure peace
of understanding
of being part of things
no longer a human bean
just another creature taking in the wonder of it all
in my little stuga i do my yoga routine
i read my novel
(veniss underground by j vandameer, highly rec.)
i wish i had my paints n pastels so i could try to capture this
this weather dont last long
3 months at the most
but while its here it is simply MAGNIFICENT
words actually fail me to convey
the serenity
the harmony
i do the washing up n
i strap on my ipod and listen to mimesis
and born to run
as i happily “diskar” outdoors
huge black bumblebees hover in the flowers
small bugs crawl on the table
released temporarily from winter
everything under the spell of summer
karin n gorm potter round doing their chores
the twillies laze around in the sun
getting slightly sunburnt
we drink crystal clear water from a well
we eat swedish cracker bread n tartex
at night i lie in my stuga
dreaming strange dreams of other lifetimes
in the eternal light
it never gets dark
you wake up in the morning
it could be 3 oclock or 7 oclock or 9 oclock
my overactive mind gradually slows down
i become calm
i feel love for everything
even the wasps n nettles
even the stones n mud
this is, at last, the quietness
my ego becomes quite bored and shuts down
good riddance
i just take it all in
hoping to remember stuff
so i can type it all into my blogge
cos i wanna share it with ya
cos its too goode to keep it all to myself
if only the doodles were playing in the grass
if only me n nk could walk these tranquil forests
arm in arm, talking n laughing
i guess ya cant always have everything
eventually we have to pack up n leave
g and k have work tomorrow
and we gonna see ellis doctor
see how he thinks everything is going
but a lovely chance to be with my older girls
who i adore (naturally)
whatever happens after this
i have burned these memories into my hard drive
i will remember this even in my next lives
on friday i leave again for australia
that makes me happy n sad
life is a paradox
a dilemma
i think of all my blessings
even the blessings in disguise
if only this earth could have been like this forever n ever
no winter
no industrial revolution
no wars
no noise
just one never ending summer day in scandanavia
the lake
the sky
the creatures
i love you all
behave yerselves
lets speak again tomorrow

49 Responses to “summer the parts”

  1. avatar
    daniel 26, 14 | 11 June 2006 at 9:22 pm #

    a blog of beauty is a …

  2. avatar
    RA | 11 June 2006 at 9:38 pm #

    Wow. I can see that lake. Beautiful.



  3. avatar
    RA | 11 June 2006 at 9:38 pm #

    Wow. I can see that lake. Beautiful.



  4. avatar
    salim nourallah | 11 June 2006 at 9:58 pm #

    thanks for sharing these beautiful thoughts with us sk. i went there in my mind to your peaceful place. it felt nice.

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 June 2006 at 10:00 pm #

    I’m jellyous with nv ,it’s been a pretty miserable weather in my part of aus.


  6. avatar
    John Garratt | 11 June 2006 at 11:05 pm #

    “oh i wish EVERYONE in the world
    could stand here
    naked n alone”

    The fact that this doesn’t strike you as a problematic scenario makes me envious.

    By the way, how do snakes make love?


  7. avatar
    verdelay | 11 June 2006 at 11:25 pm #

    Oh, I’m there, I’m there. Fat droopy summer without the fires, zephyrs and venom. Perfect in the way the winter isn’t.

  8. avatar
    verdelay | 11 June 2006 at 11:26 pm #

    Oh, I’m there, I’m there. Fat droopy summer without the fires, zephyrs and venom. Perfect in precisely the same way the winter isn’t.

  9. avatar
    verdelay | 11 June 2006 at 11:26 pm #

    Oh, I’m there, I’m there. Fat droopy summer without the fires, zephyrs and venom. Perfect in precisely the same way the winter isn’t.

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 June 2006 at 11:54 pm #

    Well done, Steve! Beautiful. I’m so envious…

  11. avatar
    Daberhasher | 11 June 2006 at 11:59 pm #

    good for you man!!!
    sounds idyllic, cause it is…
    saft huh??? funny, that was gonna be a musical recommendation to you, Jamie Saft that is…


  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 12:07 am #

    Ooooh I needed that one sk. Sounded like you were in heaven those few days, thanks for sharing it with us, no one can tell it like you do.

    I hope after you listened to Mimesis, you’re not changing your mind about releasing it this year!!! Can’t wait to get my hands on that one!!

    Hope all went well at the doc’s and keep in touch every day, I really need it! (hope that didn’t sound too creepy!!)

    Lots of love always,
    Amanda P

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 12:12 am #

    no need to feel guilt
    it’s your time to experience this beauty
    remember last time 1000s of years back you hardly noticed any of it
    busy doing other things
    so now you are getting another chance to feel connected, feel God, be as one
    peace and love and light

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 1:03 am #

    Loved it Steve, just loved it. Came to work after weekend and read that – pretty special.


  15. avatar
    curious (yellow) | 12 June 2006 at 1:31 am #

    good work sk. it doesnt fall into place very often in life but when it does, its the sweetest feeling…happiness is a weird beast.

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 1:35 am #

    hi sk
    thanks for the
    lovely words of
    your beautiful
    swedish adventures
    you are so
    generous to
    share all of it
    with us

    its like you
    took us there
    in our imaginations
    i guess thats
    what really good
    writing is all

    wishing you
    love and peace

  17. avatar
    mike a | 12 June 2006 at 1:49 am #

    Lovely blog – your best yet!!

  18. avatar
    Mum | 12 June 2006 at 1:49 am #

    How I enjoyed reading your Blogge today, son! No swearing or talk of drugs – just lovely poetical flowing prose! You make your old mum very proud! Juicyxxxxxxx

  19. avatar
    isolde | 12 June 2006 at 2:04 am #

    oh we swapped places usually me in paradise by the water you in gritty urban internet cafe
    mmm so catching some SE on road sorry you are not the only one (but you are in the discman)
    they are magnifico in case any other enzy frenz out there are interested its been happy sad too though wish there woz 10,000 people arena concert held for church, altho intimate venue also has benefits aaah dilemma …
    glad you are havin beautiful time

  20. avatar
    daydreamer | 12 June 2006 at 2:08 am #

    “if only this earth could have been like this forever n ever …
    no industrial revolution
    no wars
    no noise.. “

    Curious if you’ve ever read Ishmael by Daniel Quinn, who expounds on this idea quite eloquently.

    What a blissful place you describe, geographicallly, spiritually, all of it. What a bittersweet end to your Europe adventure.

    You really ARE blessed, you know.
    Yeah,,, you know.


  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 2:44 am #

    Hello Mrs. Kilbey! How nice of you to drop by.

    -one of your son’s fans

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 3:56 am #


  23. avatar
    captainmission | 12 June 2006 at 4:51 am #

    hey that was a great trip man, i felt like i was there, thanks for sharing those sacred moments and don’t feel guilty steve, just enjoy the the bliss, it don’t always last. funny i picked up that ‘venus underground’ book yesterday, quite literally, it was under my sofa! How strange.
    safe travels

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 5:04 am #

    Something’s gotta disturb. Otherwise you die.

  25. avatar
    juniper | 12 June 2006 at 5:20 am #

    Mmmmmmmmm…that was lovely imagery. Reminds me of when we stayed in a sweet, little painted cottage in Finland…almost everything in it was homemade, too. Those lakes in Scandinavia are something, aren’t they? The clean, cool, deep water….makes ya wanna stay in forever. I even swam in The {freezing cold} Baltic that summer….heaven. Enjoy the Cloudberry liquer, if you trip upon it. I wonder if they have those really vicious deer flies? They always seemed to go after my scalp….that’s when I gave in and bought a (yikes) baseball cap. Enjoy the rest of your holiday and say hello to those midnight elves!

  26. avatar
    Rehan | 12 June 2006 at 6:05 am #

    That was vivid and quite wonderful …and maddening i’m WAITING for “Mimesis” to come out …when…when…?

  27. avatar
    sue cee | 12 June 2006 at 6:30 am #

    Life in the country’s not so bad ๐Ÿ™‚

    Beautiful letter today, it read like a poem in itself.

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 7:03 am #

    Ah yes, thats what i’m talkin’ about.

    love ya unkle steve.


  29. avatar
    Queen Hatshepsut | 12 June 2006 at 7:25 am #

    I’m so happy you had some peace, happiness and pure joy out in the country. It sounds like a little slice of Heaven. As others have said, don’t feel guilty, I believe God/Spirit/whatever gave us this glorious place for us to enjoy and appreciate it.

    BTW you mum sounds exactly like mine. My mum just pitches a fit if I say one swear word and tonight I was trying to explain how plants had both male/female parts for fertilization and she’s so uptight she says, “I don’t want to hear about plants having sex!” So I guess I’d better not tell her that snakes do it too. ๐Ÿ˜‰

    love and good luck at the dr. w/your daughter,

  30. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 7:25 am #

    under the spell of summer
    suddenly my soul could see
    the naked realization
    the eyes that no longer see the other
    glorious my brother
    these words I say are now
    but they have but remembered themselves
    I snivelled my beating heart slowly searching the earth
    water drips as we pace thru the tall grasses
    the insectae screamed like a nawlins brass horn
    so glad to meet yu, said the lifetime screaming aum
    Hello my brother, we all said in silence
    Great to be here..
    yes it is..

    jaime r.

  31. avatar
    eek | 12 June 2006 at 7:49 am #

    How lovely. Sounds as if the weekend was just what you needed.

    Hope the doctor visit yields great news also.

    I know many people reading your blog only like posts such as this one, but I’ll admit I like the unhinged/rant ones too. You’d be mighty damned boring if you were all one or the other all the time. So continue to let it all hang out. ๐Ÿ™‚

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 9:10 am #

    Now you see SK, you take up the fightin’ words and the bloggites fight…

    You lay down your arms and see what happens…? No more fussin’ an a feudin’.

    You should never take the power of influence lightly, eh…?

    Apprรฉciez vos vacances.


  33. avatar
    veleska1970 | 12 June 2006 at 10:57 am #

    what a great place to be. and thanks for sending your fiends the lovely virtual postcard in the form of this blog. ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€

  34. avatar
    Lorrain | 12 June 2006 at 11:02 am #

    Cher Ami and hippy amis,
    I knew you had better things to do, that your silence was not the result of your disapointment caused by stupid comments but of pure enjoyment somewhere in this land of beauty. I am utterly fond of what you say, your visions you have so kindly and pretty amazingly reminded in front of the screen, for us, as often is the case.
    I had the privilege to swim in that same clear water and remain on an island of the archipel, in summer 1991, quite the way you did. Though I was only accompanied by Alain a nice french fellow I met by chance on the plane, before landing, he came mostly for swedish girls, hoping the quest would turn out better if not alone. Embarking on the bus boat, we hoped a bit naรฏvely to find swedish dryads in the emerald silence of windy paths. The water was so cold my fellow dude was reluctant to dive in, unlike me: “damn you must be swedish !” he exclaimed as I treaded farther from the shore, a bit shivering. I still have clear recollection of the blue sky, tranquility, and Odin’s realm. I had come to see again Ingela, a wonderful swedish girl I had met months before in my french high school, in Lorraine. She was now with Niklas, a nice stockholm boho, richer, more educated and better musician than me. I have never seen her again, though she said she’d never forget me and the Prince/mozart like romantic shirt of the eighteenth century I used to wear, even in high school. It was indeed “Holidays in eden” as the marillion album I had bought weeks before foretold, even in its sleeve notes (holidays in sweden)! I guess the Marillios had enjoyed it too. And my best and only real holidays abroad ! I knew Stefan, you were likely to enjoy this contact with nature in this wonderful country, and b.t.w I do the same kind of naked transcendantalism since childhood, haha. Since I am fond of you, all this cannot only be coincidence I believe. The following months I would buy Priest=Aura…
    Thanks for priceless memories that will not be forgotten

    Behaving Emmanuel, floating round the Seine

  35. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 June 2006 at 11:37 am #

    sounds seriously like heaven!

  36. avatar
    RAWRAMP | 12 June 2006 at 12:54 pm #


    Great blog today – back to nature druid kinda thang! – did ya play any Boppin Elf on the ipod in the serenity of the situation? ( Beard of Stars would have been the album i reckon – or maybe the first T.Rex album – )


  37. avatar
    Andromeda7 | 12 June 2006 at 1:58 pm #

    thankx for taking me there
    getting misty brother

  38. avatar
    Joe Burns | 12 June 2006 at 2:14 pm #

    WHEN / WHERE / HOW can we get a copy of Mimesis?

  39. avatar
    CeciliaGin | 12 June 2006 at 2:45 pm #

    I can hear you by my side…

  40. avatar
    matthew | 12 June 2006 at 3:13 pm #

    Wow thanks for the blissful interlude, man. I was there in every frame. Reminded me of summer at my folks’ place, when they lived in the snowy mountains… but a mere pale imitation of the scandinavian reality, of course.

  41. avatar
    CSTCoach | 12 June 2006 at 5:01 pm #

    Beautiful, man. Thanks for taking the time to share it with all of us in the ether.

    enjoy your paradise ๐Ÿ™‚


  42. avatar
    Samosanx | 12 June 2006 at 5:05 pm #

    thankyou S.
    After another mournful day, and an evening watching (all the way through this time) video of my surpise birthday party thrown by our dearest friend, hearing once again that longed for gentle laugh, seeing us, me an him, next to each other, birthday cake candle lit, glowing with friendship, Frosties soundtracking through it all, yarning laughing happy beautiful friendship, football jokes even, hilarious bovo kransky, aaaahhhhh, I smile at last….but still could not quite lay my head to rest, until this missive of yours.
    Thankyou. A fresh entry to slumber; the perfect nightcap.


  43. avatar
    Samosanx | 12 June 2006 at 5:09 pm #

    PS. We love you too. xx

  44. avatar
    davem | 12 June 2006 at 6:57 pm #

    I know you’ve lost some weight SK, but I’m not sure I fancy the idea of you letting it all hang out.
    Nice to hear you so happy.
    Love you more,


  45. avatar
    tim | 12 June 2006 at 8:24 pm #

    Don’t lose this one. You must now pay this blessing forward. The blog was a start, but there are a few paintings and songs that needed to be shared from this.

    And when they come, it’s up to us to forward them onward and outward.

  46. avatar
    Malika | 12 June 2006 at 9:25 pm #

    Coincidence Steve,

    Just have been in a small forest yesterday,
    With 2 nice people.
    A place I didn’t know.
    A pretty & very inspiring place.

    It was fine.
    It was pleasant.
    It was quiet.
    It was Tranquility…

    Daisies, butter cups, poppies
    & others wild flowers & plants,
    Lots of birds chirping,
    All sort of insects buzzing
    & of course the trees,
    Beautiful & fragile trees
    All around…

    We stayed there & chatted for about 2 hours
    About one exhibition, there in that forest…
    Yes, I will exhibit some canvasses there soon.
    I wanted to experiment that.
    It sounded so unusual & especially very poetic to me…

    Anyway, sure & certain I’ll go back in that forest again
    For my own enjoyment !

    U share your bons moments with us.
    It is so moving, once again.
    Thank U.



  47. avatar
    buzby | 16 June 2006 at 2:20 am #

    thank you stevie weevie… that blog sent me a million miles away because that’s how literally and figuratively far away i am from that sort of peace. brooklyn is nice… but… it ain’t that nice.

  48. avatar
    Kenny D | 16 June 2006 at 3:13 am #

    goin to Sweden myself soon. if it’s as beautiful as you describe perhaps i’ll never come back.

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