posted on November 14, 2010 at 12:43 pm

what next

the world turns

the earth moves

people come n go

being passing leaving returning

flickering forms on a screen

as if talking to a ghost

some autumnal twilight

some hazy summer day

the ever present wind bringing us news

news of the ocean where there is no news but hunger

the clouds oh all the usual stuff

the tourists the shouting the pushing the queues

the smell of frying food

the ice creams

the fruit shops the fizzy drinks the bikinis

hard to find somewhere to park

hard to find the money to get everything you need

the leaves rustle in the garden they whisper late spring-ish things

i forgot to eat i eat too much

i cant sleep so well but i oversleep the day by a mile

check the mirror nobody home

old age patiently waiting on each line

all struggle is futile

the universe will swallow us soon

i rush towards my doom impelled by years

sunday market bustles regardless

the sea is cold someone says

the sun is hot someone says

the summer is here i say to no one in particular

the sand is so white i think

the people are crowding in today

in their cars and buses and trains and bikes

they arrive and arrive and arrive

a cloud passes over the sun a wave crashes a child shouts out

young handsome dads carrying lovely kids

surfer girls in rubbery black suits

visitors from other places stand around gawking at the spectacle

everywhere the feeling of money money money

someone recognizes me hey stevekilbey you iconlegend

hey i listened to you my wholelife allyourrecords

oh gosh i say but the moment has gone

what says the guy whatdoyoumean

a helicopter flies overhead

look i say its an insect world…..

the guy walks away shaking his head

see ya later stevekilbey he mutters to his familiar a one legged gull

women come up n say hello to me too

hello steve they coo how are you?

oh nice ladies i am very well thank you

do you need anything honey they wink in unison

oh no ladies i am fine fine fine

well if you think of anything at all……

yes ladies yes i say

but they are already on a bus into town

i stick my card in a slot n some dosh appears

i buy a fizzy drink n some greasy item

i look in the shops but theres nothing there for me

i run into lucky jim and i run into eddie the photographer

i run into the dutch twins and i run into somebody else

oh hi oh bye i say

the water does feel cold even to me

its salty and it stings where i shaved

a car beeps another car

gee

life in 2010

44 Responses to “sun day one day”

  1. avatar
    eekie | 14 November 2010 at 1:43 pm #

    And I thought Ohio was bad. That sounds fucking awful.

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      eekie | 14 November 2010 at 9:16 pm #

      I just realised I’m pretty sure I left an almost identical comment the last time you posted a “day in Bondi” blog. At least I’m consistent. lol

      It seems like a beautiful place, but all the people would be my undoing. I’d take a header off one of those cliffs in under a week! Guess I won’t be dropping by to visit any time soon. πŸ˜‰

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    Cedgie | 14 November 2010 at 1:57 pm #

    Tis a good day when dosh appears from the slot in the wall!If I saw you in the street, I know that I would nervously blurt out some wierd random thought & walk off cringing at my awkwardness! Yes it’s an insect world but the lizards will eat them all!

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    Donna | 14 November 2010 at 3:17 pm #

    Day one. Sounds bright and warm – lucky you! There is a sense of aimlessness, though, as if you’re out and about with no particular purpose. I don’t like days like that because they tend to make life seem empty and meaningless. I like to live more deliberately, keeping a list of all the things I want to get done and the people I want to see, the books I want to read, the dishes I want to cook, the miles I want to run. I enjoy these activities, and when life gets rough, these activites bring me solace. I hope Day Two is brimming over with creativity and inspiration for you, Steve. Carpe Diem!!

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    DavidP | 14 November 2010 at 3:39 pm #

    relax that furrowed brow
    death is inevitable sure
    but you aint near there yet
    plenty o’ life left in ya
    there is learning in the struggle
    so it is not futile
    we take that learning with us
    and it is vital
    we extract the light from the darkness
    we can’t afford the luxury of despair
    chin up old son

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    neptune | 14 November 2010 at 4:01 pm #

    ya, I have dayze like that too, especially when you put it like that!!! It’s interesting to think that someone is having spring-like dayze. I’m jealous as we are just beginning winter here. Might get close to freezing tonite. Not excited about that. Soon, it will all be dead-looking outside. I hate that, and can’t wait for the green of spring. Enjoy it whilst you can, Mr. Kilbey — and listen to what the leaves are whispering to you, as they rustle in the garden.

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    hellbound heart | 14 November 2010 at 4:08 pm #

    a solitary being in a see of humanity, seems to me….

    love always…….

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    Lisa | 14 November 2010 at 4:16 pm #

    Nice that you are getting out and about. It’s good to be around people even if you don’t feel like it. This greasy item – curious, was it vegetarian? A simple glimpse of life of an ordinary day from the ordinary life of an extraordinary man…thanks for letting us in.

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      bionicanna | 14 November 2010 at 8:41 pm #

      grease is good. grease is the word.

      “all struggle is futile
      the universe will swallow us soon”
      … i find that strangely comforting, and liberating.

      and the vivid assault-on-the-senses summer day read like your spaceship just landed.

  8. avatar
    Todd | 14 November 2010 at 4:48 pm #

    nicely said!

  9. avatar
    TAZ | 14 November 2010 at 4:56 pm #

    Oh skylark in heaven, Your source divine
    They’re not my words, It’s not my time

    Rain down on me, The locust trails
    Beneath the lovers’ moon derailed

    Your story prevades, Survival’s truth
    To play both sides, Whence made in youth

    Forgive me time, No hour is in vein
    I’ve censored mine, No love to blame

    Shake me wrong, Don’t shake me right
    Pull me through, You’re secret light

    Fill these canyons, I’ve lost my lines
    That old misfortune, No Clementine.

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    eternallylit | 14 November 2010 at 5:09 pm #

    sun day – my sunday has no sun today – raining here – not that cold rain that makes you feel bleak – rather that warm sort of rain that sounds good and makes you wanna ?? it always seems like everything used to be easier don’t it? wonder if it was? un-inspired no white sand here or bikinis or rubber suits no sunday markets or one legged gulls – just the rain as i sit – my guitar lays dormant in it’s stand lilac and shiny, my piece of paper remains blank as i have no words from the place that i feel today. a’int it just like the years to steal it all away !

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    Anonymous | 14 November 2010 at 5:38 pm #

    no car here I dont drive.. too scared to be in control of a large piece of metal flying along phobia maybe
    I just walked to the shops in the rain with my umbrella ( im not totally mad) its warm & muggy and wet in berra …the local shops were packed some lady said to me what brought everyone out? , must be the rain..then I walked home with wet soggy shoes every things so green here

    wow those ladies must be fresh I wouldnt say that Id probs pretend I didnt know who you were but check you out anyway

    Bondi would be teeming with ppls
    liked the blog
    keep swimming

  12. avatar
    Karen | 14 November 2010 at 5:48 pm #

    I forgot to log in with my soggy shoes ..lucky Im not in control of something important
    keep swimming

  13. avatar
    cazziem | 14 November 2010 at 7:10 pm #

    This blog sounds familiar to me SK. Seems you are ‘going through the motions’ at present. Doing what needs to be done as if on auto-pilot. Frustation rings out too; all these people “viewing the spectacle” but not actually seeing the natural beauty of it?
    This phase will pass I’m sure; just remember you are cared for by many. xx

  14. avatar
    Michelle Roach | 14 November 2010 at 7:18 pm #

    We were on a ferry today.Heating up in Sydneytown.Went to Myer & DJ’s for Christmas frivolities.Our sons are still amused by puppets & the like.Nice to be back home now,with our affectionate cat Mickey.Prayers & love to you,Steve.Life is beautiful.XX

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    sarah | 14 November 2010 at 7:18 pm #

    excellent poem. stunning flow, actually.
    completely took me there.
    got sand in my socks just reading it.
    “people”….ugh. the density is often astounding.
    thank-you. am receiving alot from your poetry.

  16. avatar
    Lyndall | 14 November 2010 at 8:26 pm #

    Hectic! Life in 2010… especially in a tourist area – when living in the mountains, tourists similar to a swarm … like locusts – move in, take over, consume everything and then move out… Now I love to grab a good book – be in the still and observe – human behaviour… it’s all very bizarre!

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    TAZ | 14 November 2010 at 8:38 pm #

    These coldest hands, your warm embrace
    To a million faces, I cling with haste

    Devils, angels, the ghosts in twos
    Their pictures, stories, no walls removed

    I’ve thirst for wine, not meant to drink
    Left chasing smiles down nothing street

    Shipwrecked, one sided, clawing, up cliffs of sand
    Through numb beginnings, I’ll try to stand

    Pay me promise, grace, gold warring shoes
    Why steal the sunset, from a beggar’s ruse.

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    Scot McPhie | 14 November 2010 at 9:13 pm #

    I didn’t actually find that a negative post actually……I think the universe heading to a place we don’t really know – so feel the love now….and especially the joy of life we need to share with our kids πŸ™‚

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 15 November 2010 at 4:10 am #

      SK-

      I agree with Scot, this was a very descriptive example of a man…taking it all in. The images were excellent and the women sound beautiful in your imagery. Have a great week coming up and get some ‘need-to-complete’ work done. Spending time with Marty, Peter, and Tim will be great for you. Hope Tim doesnt drive you to crazy, to fast, to much, to long….

      AsAlways,
      Darrin K.

  19. avatar
    nic | 14 November 2010 at 9:45 pm #

    todays blog sounded like a dream… as if you were the only ‘real’ person ….walking amongst the beautiful people … on a beautiful day … who were all oceans away from your inner thoughts and feelings …
    I feel like I walked with you – I can see it all so vividly … my father lived in Bondi for many years (Sir Thomas Mitchel and Beach Rd) and I would visit often and house-sit too … always the hustle and bustle (at ALL hours too!)… and the beautiful people … the smells … the noise …never any parking (!!!) … the ducking and weaving … the local eccentrics … (such a world away from the Blue Mountains!).
    take one step at a time … in these early days …
    as for the age thing – it will get all of us … yet you are not even ‘old’ – you are fit, healthy and have so much more living to do – we are all counting on it!
    take care,
    Nic xxx

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    ppace | 14 November 2010 at 10:13 pm #

    Weekend is over – sounds like you experienced it! The days are calling summer while the afternoons are holding on to those crazy 5 minute storms I’m lovin it so to is the vege patch. Keep the words flowing and congrats on the induction you guys deserve – been listening to you since ’88 the bicentenial year – ah we are still such a young country!

  21. avatar
    Miss Grove | 14 November 2010 at 10:33 pm #

    Both sides of life at once. Happens sometimes. One stops feeling like a participant, more like a biographer.

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    veleska1970 | 14 November 2010 at 11:59 pm #

    happy to hear that you’re out and about, although there is a sense of detachment. but you’re not cooped up alone in the house and that’s a good thing.

    sleep well.

    lotza love…..

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    davem | 15 November 2010 at 2:35 am #

    Do you get fed up of being recognised or is it affirming?
    It’s been a surprsingly lovely day here. Cold and dry but plenty of sun too.
    I’m just making a warming Tofu Miso Stew from Isa Chandra Moskowitz’s “Vegan With A Vengeance”. Highly recommended.
    Love you lots,

    D
    x

    • avatar
      Donna | 15 November 2010 at 5:50 am #

      Davem, Isn’t that the BEST cookbook? Sometimes I read it just for a good laugh! My kids, say, “mom, what are you reading?” when they see me laughing, and I tell them I’m reading a cookbook.

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    Tanya | 15 November 2010 at 4:09 am #

    The best place to be…observing it all from your own space. I enjoy your commentary. I realize “it is what it is”, but somehow it still can be difficult to reconcile it all, (Is it futile or is it precious?) especially if you’re hoping for something else or want to be somewhere else, at which time perhaps its time for the universe to swallow us up anyway. Yeah, I should know better; isn’t it the Buddist faith that teaches us to “live in the present moment?” It seems I haven’t been doing my homework. I should take a queue from you; you were there, in the flesh and seemed to be okay with it. It is more of a challenge when you spend most of your life not fitting in.

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    andy | 15 November 2010 at 4:40 am #

    dohhhh!
    the perils of ‘social integration’……
    from what i can gather from your exploits over the years, you have never really cared much for this sort of thing anyway!
    still…..good to get out, even if only in an observational capacity.
    at least you got a good dose of vitimin c……

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    jimjimmy | 15 November 2010 at 8:43 am #

    yeah well, most people are hapless dumbfucks walking around like cows . Always was like that. . Sure, life has gotten much worse in general in the last 20 years. Everything is fucked. Everyone is neurotic, programmed and insane.Even smart people nowadays are slaves to their self concept and identity trips. They are even more difficult to deal with if they don’t “Get their mind right”. Trying to be “King of the Hill” all the time is a curse. If you come across someone with genuine force of mind and spirit, and you dismiss them for competitive reasons, you have done wrong. The Cosmos puts its time cultivating such people. Like the way Dwellingwell was dismissed on here. I know him. We are good friends.He will not post here anymore.He didn’t like the veiled insults. Total inversion of rank to dismiss that guy. Some weird whispering shady dude steered this to it’s outcome . From what I gather, they are not even on the same plane. But clearly that tadpole has a lot of sway . Weird. No wonder you are lost in 2010. . Competition sucks. It really is wrong. Swimming upstream against the cosmos is a tough gig.But keep trying. It is an interesting read

    • avatar
      Anonymous | 16 November 2010 at 12:20 am #

      I’m sorry re Dwellingwell… I liked reading his thoughts… please tell him so.

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    princey | 15 November 2010 at 9:25 am #

    Hi sk, I remember visiting Bondi last winter, it was cold with freezing winds blowing, but still, the tourists were there (ie me’n’fam!) freezing our butts off, loving the sights and sounds of beautiful Bondi Beach. You’re lucky to be living there I reckon!

    Have a lovely day Nevets πŸ™‚

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    Cocoamo | 15 November 2010 at 1:43 pm #

    Here on Cocoa Beach, I often walk among the crowds on the beach and I delight in their joy. So very nice to see people loving the sand, the water, the gentle buffeting breeze, playing in the waves, and enjoying themselves. Some bake in the sun. Some will be sorry tonight when they cringe as the sheets barely touch their burned skin. Some are fat, some saggy, some old and wrinkled, some tight and perfect…it doesn’t matter…nobody cares. Now and then I pass someone taking a picture of his wife or children, and I stop and offer to take it for them so they can all be in the picture. They beam and pose, arms around each other with giant smiles, standing ankle deep in the waves with the ocean behind them. Someday the picture will revive fond memories.

    And the color of the water and the sky change constantly. The waves, the gulls, the sandpipers, and soldier-like royal terns constantly amuse. The crashing of the frothy waves, the breeze, and the laughter of children serenede me. (sometimes I have on my earphones and float along to Church music). The sand yields slightly under my feet and the foaming brine tickles my ankles. Sometimes the sky reflects on the wet sand it it looks like I am walking on the clouds. Kite surfers defy gravity and bounce from wave to wave, dodging their traditional counterparts. On the horizon gleaming cruize boats glide by.

    This is how I love to see people–happy without having to prove superiority over each other, enjoying life. And I love to see people not in pain. It fills my soul–which I guess is why I enjoy doing pain therapy.
    Sometimes there are a lot of people on the beach, but it’s okay. I wish everyone could be this happy all the time.

    And hey, sometimes even us 97% vegans have sugar, grease, caffeine, and salt as our four basic food groups.

    It’s all good.

    Your friend in Pennsylvania (now in Cocoa Beach)

  29. avatar
    Wiild Chiild | 15 November 2010 at 2:53 pm #

    Bondi in 2010 sounds like a very different place to ‘The Empty Beach’ I once frequented…haven’t been there in aeons!

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    Melissa | 15 November 2010 at 3:11 pm #

    Another Bondi-lover here too πŸ˜€ Except for Sunday’s πŸ˜‰ I cannot think of anything better than going to sleep and waking up with the sound of the waves of the Pacific ocean … sigh ..

    Hope you’re doing okay sk πŸ™‚ Countin’ down the days ’til the Churchy concerts!

    xx

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    Therese | 15 November 2010 at 4:30 pm #

    Perfect description of Bondi, could easily be Manly. Sydley in general is so over crowded, can’t escape the people. A little beach shack on a far away beach would be perfect.

    Thinking about u looking so good in a suit led me to get out the SK & MK dvd Sat nite. Great dvd, love it, could picture u & mk doing a repeat gig at The Basement, for us unlucy ones who didn’t c it live in Melby.

    Hope the rehearsing is going fine with no argy bargy and a new cd to look forward to, bring in on!!!! Yeah!!
    Take care sk.

    Peace & love
    Therese

  32. avatar
    captain mission | 15 November 2010 at 5:21 pm #

    ‘all struggle is futile
    the universe will swallow us soon’

    yes exactly how i feel

  33. avatar
    Linjo | 15 November 2010 at 6:54 pm #

    Having an animal to love is sooo the best therapy, but I suppose you have to be an animal lover to feel it and I don’t know if you are into pets Steve and living where you are is probably not conducive to having them. My little fella Max is such soul comfort! I wish I could send you down a little foxy or staffy pup to sleep on the bed to assuage the lonely feeling, so surreal and detached. Total unconditional love is a joy! Words, words from everyone, but no one knows how you feel. Lovely to seem them care for you. xxx Linda

  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 November 2010 at 9:35 pm #

    Perhaps Bondi is not the best location for a sensitive soul.
    You look a bit sad and bewildered.
    You seem to implode when your alone.

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    Freddie | 16 November 2010 at 2:46 am #

    We are here for only a brief spell and we wonder what it’s all about. I wonder sometimes how many times I’ve thought this, in what era and where I stood while thinking it.


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