posted on August 4, 2013 at 12:31 pm
gray havens

gray havens

sunday in august

incredulously i check myself

i am still alive

i wake up i’m almost sixty ive made all these records

two ears one eye does not work

my teeth are all falling apart

look in mirror

cant see properly but doesnt look good

as far as i can see the wreckage of a life

outside its warm in the sun cold in the shade

i live at bondi beach and sunny sundays is packed to the nines

freaks and hipsters

big old families ย in from the outlying suburbs

surfer girls all bleached and slim

shopkeepers counting the dough

petrolheads in nissan skylines

yeah you heard it all before

back at my place i take stock of situations

dont ask me about such and such

i dont know

i excavated my brain for poetry and music until it collapsed

now i am some old empty fakir

a dummy half

bill impostor

fingers go tap tap tap

clock goes tock tock tock

ears go ring ring ring

eyes go cloud cloud cloud

mind goes blank blank blank

heart goes beat beat beat

and time is silent

it makes no sound as it rapidly elapses



32 Responses to “sunday in august”

  1. avatar
    veleska1970 | 4 August 2013 at 1:02 pm #

    “i excavated my brain for poetry and music until it collapsed”
    Your lovely brain will never run out of either. Empty? Me thinks not.

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    Kohl Ette | 4 August 2013 at 1:05 pm #

    Come on, they’re not all bleached and slim. You have your brunettes and more voluptuous surfer girls as well. You even have your porcelain skinned ones who wear suits and ride at dawn or dusk . It was that bleach blond skinny stereotype that put me off surfing as a young woman, alas! But when I really looked I saw that surfer ‘girls’ were fairly encompassing just like anyone else. As a middle aged person, I haven’t taken it up but have been told I’d make a good long boarder?! I just don’t have a long board double alas and I’m not sure it would fit on top of my nissan pulsar ๐Ÿ˜€

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      Eskaedor | 4 August 2013 at 6:05 pm #

      A STONE AT SEA – For Steven Kilbey. By Ryan Eskaedor.

      Telepathy memory
      The sense never seamless
      In disarray like he say
      World of a hunter
      To find something other
      Futures cascading
      Swimming in his blue mind
      Spirit decay
      Victim of the creator
      Scenes for the screenplay
      Waiting to be written
      The strength to fall before them all
      New to none
      The voice of a million miles
      Carried by an eternal soul
      Tomorrow he knows what he remembered yesterday
      But feelings can change
      Doubt killing reason
      Black hole inside
      White light carries him once more

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        Anonymous | 5 August 2013 at 4:25 pm #

        WOW… may that white light carry us all…beautiful ๐Ÿ˜€
        thank you

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          Kohl Ette | 5 August 2013 at 7:21 pm #

          ting tinga ling tinga ling ting ting

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    Anonymous | 4 August 2013 at 4:15 pm #

    Love the photo sk.
    You’re not olde, we’re all maturing, like a fine wine.
    As Julia said on Rockwiz, Steve looks good!
    Went to Canberra yesterday for the Turner exhibition and also went to look at the Paul Kelly (photography) exhibition at the Portrait Gallery.
    Was thinking if he can have one so should sk/church.
    On way back played Untitled 23 hadn’t heard it for awhile and loved it.
    Sadly it didn’t get the recognition it rightly deserved to be No 1 worldwide.
    Have a good week.
    Peace & love

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    John Corey | 4 August 2013 at 4:27 pm #

    You wouldn’t change any of it SK. You remember a young Redfern police officer , heavily influenced by the brilliance of the Church, dropping a letter in your letterbox at Roselle/Balmain? The night before I gave Pete and his girl aclift home from oxford st to Bondi in the blue light taxi :). Starfish made me pick up my first guitar . Never underestmate the influencevthose eyes, ears and teeth have had on all walks of life. Hi to all those that are selling me. Here’s one straight from the factory.’. Stick it to the Man.
    God bless you SK.
    Gold Coast

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    Yip Yip | 4 August 2013 at 5:31 pm #

    Das ist gut!

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    Ade | 4 August 2013 at 5:32 pm #

    ,,,,but your art is young and will live forever….viva el fakir!

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    Chris | 4 August 2013 at 5:35 pm #

    Though much is taken, much abides; and though
    We are not now that strength which in old days
    Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are;
    One equal temper of heroic hearts,
    Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
    To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.

    ~Alfred Tennyson

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    Chris | 4 August 2013 at 5:36 pm #

    His talent was as natural as the pattern that was made by the dust on a butterfly’s wings. At one time he understood it no more than the butterfly did, and he did not know when it was brushed or marred. Later he became conscious of his damaged wings and of their construction, and he learned to think and could not fly any more, because the love of flight was gone and he could only remember when it had been effortless.

    ~ Ernest Hemingway

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    Cath | 4 August 2013 at 5:37 pm #

    Healing angels sent to you for your eyes and ears, you are one of the most gifted artists to have graced this fine land and indeed the earth so don’t you ever forget it. Your body served well, mines a bit of a wreckage too, we beat em up and expect them to keep on going….till the fates visit….borrow time borrow time more please, more, please sir! Like Oliver wanting porridge..
    Steve be proud of everything you are, ‘after everything now this’, maybe a good retreat and some peace and pampering? Travel go visit some pyramids , take the kids camping,walk through some jungle, talk to some birds, smile at the clouds…….
    And when you come home maybe a new creation will come with the light of day…..i dont think you would ever run out…..but we should not expect…its not fair on you
    WE all adore you always , Hugs love Cath

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    Anonymous | 4 August 2013 at 6:15 pm #

    just dropping in for a moment
    from a beach with a bell
    not for a ringing
    or a pounding
    since i turned half a ton
    since i lost that knack for finding my way
    to look for the life i could never find
    and truly, I have never known
    more than moments of a life I could honestly imbibe
    frankly, says kevin rudd on the tv behind me
    the only thing that matters to you is me
    me, me, just me, and only me, he says
    iโ€™m sorry I was wrong kevin
    in thinking my life might have been about me
    and frankly, iโ€™m here for a while
    and i can ignore the bells that take their toll
    and i can pretend it all never happened
    even if i canโ€™t remember waking yesterday or falling asleep tomorrow

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      Kohl Ette | 5 August 2013 at 7:23 pm #

      You can ring my bell ell ell ring ma bell ma bell ding dong

  11. avatar
    oyoy | 4 August 2013 at 6:20 pm #

    So hard
    Finding inspiration….

  12. avatar
    Robert Roe | 4 August 2013 at 6:48 pm #

    A Dorian grey experience might help. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    Cath | 4 August 2013 at 7:53 pm #

    Reiki Steve,
    Ever had a session?
    might help soothe and settle the eye and ears, lovely energy, there’d be people around Bondi xx ๐Ÿ™‚ hugs

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    Kraig | 4 August 2013 at 9:06 pm #

    If it makes you feel any better Steve, ever since I drove over that bridge and stared out into the milky way listening to you cutz I’ve always been entranced! You to say you don’t have any fuel left is like Keith Richards saying he’s out of blow or doobies. You know better bro! Just give us another Church album that blows everything else outta the water and you know what happens next!

    Big Cheers!

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    Polaris | 5 August 2013 at 1:49 am #

    You’re just havin’ a bad day, this day – we all have ‘um…ya know?!? Try chillin’ out, Steve.
    *Groovy t-shirt & dig that band-aid(bandage), by the way!!

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    Chjeryl | 5 August 2013 at 3:07 am #

    As for that ” I am some old empty fakir” comment,what complete & utter nonsense! The lush & beautiful “You Are Everything” would not exist is this was the case. Your creative catalogue is astounding. Being 53 myself I do understand the age taking its toll thing, but you really have not had much of a life without doing “a little battle damage” & oh what fun it was then! Any day above ground is a good day! YOU ROCK ON SK !

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    Donna Schorer | 5 August 2013 at 4:41 am #

    I LOVE this. Not that you feel that way, but the flagrant disgust of the aging process, I am only 10 years behind you, and 10 years are not much in the grand scheme. No longer able to have children, BAM, first strike…other stuff soon to follow, and it’s scary…should I feel devalued on a soul level as the physical things fail? Or enriched for having put the time in? Hmm.

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    Polaris | 5 August 2013 at 4:54 am #

    Didn’t mean to be trite or mundane, (now this might sound even worse than that….), but we’re all just stardust – SuperNovae of dif kinds in dif parts of our carcasses, to be exact… Watching ‘How The Universe Works: Expanded’ – good stuff on a Sunday afternoon .. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, MISTER!!!!!

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    Polaris | 5 August 2013 at 6:55 pm #

    And it’s something quite peculiar… Something shimmering and white(The North Star-perhaps)… It leads you here… Despite your destination……

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    Ryan Murdock | 5 August 2013 at 7:56 pm #

    The old pommy git with the dodgy teeth and champagne eye is making his best music of a long and storied career with many downs but far more ups. And your voice is sounding better than ever. As long as that (and your lower appendage) continue in working prime, you can probably manage without the rest.

    I wouldn’t worry about getting old until they start labelling you a “national cultural treasure”. Drop me a line when that happens and I’ll send you a nice bottle of sherry and a tooth cup.

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    Polaris | 5 August 2013 at 8:05 pm #

    Well the lyricist who wrote it is pretty amazin’… CHEERS EVERYONE!!!! ๐Ÿ™‚

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    A nonny mouse | 7 August 2013 at 7:33 pm #

    Hope you’ve had your eyes checked Steve
    Sounds like cataracts – which can be cured, probably for not much.

    Liking the last KK offering with every play.
    Ever thought about get your collaborators together? Isidore + Kennedy might be very interesting!

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    Cocoamo | 8 August 2013 at 2:01 pm #

    For what it’s worth, a quick and interesting read is “The Ancient Secrets of the Fountain of Youth” – on PDF and easy to find on a search engine near you. It’s basically a set of exercises, some of which will remind you of Yoga. I’m trying it and will check back if it does any good.

    Also, there is much research on what they call intermittent fasting (eating fewer than 500 to 600 calories, 2 nonconsecutive days a week) that claims great improvement in blood work including lower IGF (insulin growth factor). But most desirable to me, it’s supposed to delay cognitive decline. I can send transcript of program if interested. One measure of neurologic health: balance on one leg, on the nondominant foot with eyes closed. A relatively good time is about 30 seconds…

    I’m trying that too and again will report in with results, if any.

    And of course, to continue to beat the poor dead horse, loud sound injures ears.

    You’re probably aware of bilberry for eyes. Don’t know if it would help. Also interesting is “Self-Healing, My Life and Vision” by Meir Schneider, a book from the 80’s by an Israeli physical therapist.

    Your Friend in Pennsylvania

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    DavidP | 9 August 2013 at 8:28 am #

    I have been using those Tibetan rites you mention Cocoamo, although perhaps a different version of it, apparently they are not all the same. I have found them very beneficial. The story of the old Colonel using them and transforming back into a young man again is interesting.
    Any UK internet users may one day soon not find it so easy to find this sort of information on the net due to the proposed internet filter which will filter out by default any esoteric material. This filter will also by default filter out any web forums. One wonders whether sk’s site would get filtered out by default…this issue has worrying worldwide implications.
    See more about it here:

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    hellbound heart | 14 August 2013 at 9:27 pm #

    know about your damn teeth falling apart as you get older…my mouth is the most expensive part of me….

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    Jonathan Andrews | 30 August 2013 at 10:42 pm #

    Love this one, Steve. Breathe and accept.

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