posted on July 17, 2009 at 10:01 pm

me n minna again

sleep like the dead
wake up n feel fucking awful
depressed a little anxious n achey
i do my long overdue washing in the basement with minna
minna who is more like her mother goes out of her way
to make me feel comfortable n feel welcome
elli who is more like me is casual n aloof
oh i want to hold her and be her dad so badly
but her demeanour does not encourage it
she is something like a swedish 18 year old me in spades in some ways
both girls are unbelievably gorgeous
graceful slender and with lovely accents
minna talks too fast…she always has
people say she is new york n elli is l.a.
one can see the validity in that
i havent seen either of them for a year
how strange….
i saw my dad everyday
neither of them are particularly interested in my music
or in my touring
or in my “fame”
minna vaguely complains (in a lighthearted way)
about church fans contacting her on her facebook n myspace
if youre thinking about it
you’ll get short shrift from em
especially elli i would imagine
who already seems to have that certain weariness
that some beautiful girls/women carry
theyve already heard it all before
and they dont wanna chat about their old man
i tell you truly
they are no more interested in the church
than i was interested in “les kilbeys service”
and they quickly tune out if i talk about it
minna shows me a new program called spotify
which enables you to listen to almost any song you can think of
but not download
we listen to some old supremes n bee gees etc
minna n i and an australian friend of theirs staying here
go out to see a photo exhibition on one of the islands
a huge yacht sails under a bridge as we walk over
people lie on the deck suntanning n drinking
i yell out
“hey, hows the recession going?”…but no one except me laughs
we stop in kungstradgarden for sandwiches n juice
and the kids quiz me about my misadventures with drugs
i tell em
sadly both elli n minna smoke cigarettes
i seem powerless to dissuade them
so i just have to live with it i guess
but….how fucking stupid…..smoking…sigh
all my kids do well at school n i’m very proud of them
i’m sure they will have bright futures
if the tertiary life is what they want
i havent been the best dad…ha ha..what an understatement
to you lot
who read my blog
im some mercurial songwriting bohemian geezer
to my kids
i’m an olde broke hippy
they see once in a blue moon
well you reap what you sow
and i guess this is what ive sown
i reckon they will ” come around ” eventually
but karin raised these kids on her own (and her husband gorm)
(who is a very cool bloke!)
and the girls treat me with some caution
they are immersed in fashion n texting n goss mags etc
i see in the latest swedish goss mag
that beckham is now rooting angie jolie
the two greatest goss royal fambleys colliding…
nah…i dont believe it…
a thousand goss mag editors must be in paroxysms of delight
now we need obama to run off with camilla parkyer-bowels
and all hell will break loose
in aust little evie starr is throwing off the flu
but the others getting it
i fear for my wife n lil sk
i hope that they can get thru this till i get home
in just over a week
i’m not missing touring at all
in fact i am so sleep deprived
it was a relief to stop
i had been sleeping 4 or 5 hours a night
sometimes less
and a crazy fucked up brain like mine needs its respite
stockholm is a wonderful city in summer
its denizens are seemingly wealthy n healthy
and many of the men n women are statuesque n good looking
the food is shockingly expensive
i pay 20 u.s. dollars for a tomato roll (i chucked the cheese away)
and a bottle orange juice
20 dollars!!!!
how do they afford it…?
the city is quite empty (and the crystal burns)
and i hope to visit their summer house
almost all swedes have a summer house
and believe me
summer in the country or in the islands here is idyllic
if only there was no winter n summer was not so short…
but thats like life aint it?
and thats like kilbey too
always wanting the easy without the hard, isnt it?
the tour already seems an eon ago in my mind
in australia
i am doing another kev carmody gig in brisbane
a benefit in melbourne for my dear friend sam sejavka
and then the choich do some acc gigs round newcastle
(hey david.r..i bet i can getcha front row seats
if the ATO aint slung me in jail first)
then some proper shows round chrissy
…in adelaide and perth too…!
meanwhile we have” down to the cardboard” in the wings
a project marty n jorden brebach finished off
a mysterious “krautrock instr. album”
you may have heard bits n pieces slyly played before n after our gigs
marty watching me listening “steve…whats this?”
me : “i dunno …but its fucking good, man”
marty with smirk ” its “down to the cardboard”
i look forward to hearing the whole thing…
yes yes
we also have hours n hours of live footage
surely one day a new live dvd will emerge
but dont ask me when
not my department…
it may surprise you all to know
i do not call all the shots
but i dont
n i gotta shrug n say
i dunno
when asked bout this n that

a few things
will the people who said they have” a christmas story” contact my gmail
there it is at the top of the page
i will give you instructions on where to send it (i’ll barter something)
dont send stuff to karmic hit for me thanks

dont forget about the boxed set
its available at my art web site
thats just on yer right there
it contains a cd of me raving on blogg-style
against instrumental music
and 19 high quality prints from my pittsburgh exhibition
strictly strictly limited
kudos to holly who hand assembles them n who actually
put the whole thing together
kudos again to kim c-h who did the graphics
if you like my bloggs
n you wanna hear me ranting n carrying on
this is an item for you

no use writing nasty stuff
i’m not printing it
first bit of unconstructive bullshit and bang
i hit delete
i cant handle it
so go bother bono…eh?

as for the rest
i dont know how i feel
i go up n down
n round n round
i wonder when i’ll finally grow up….if ever
thats it for today
its 12 30 at night here in sweden
no midnight sun
but lovely warm weather
a fine fine evening
i drop round n visit my old friend mark
who i only known for thirty years
hopefully catch up with martin k tomorrow or soon

ok my fiendss
from the venice of the north
(thats stockholm, you fools)
much love

41 Responses to “swedish nouns n verbs”

  1. avatar
    frank | 17 July 2009 at 11:30 pm #

    Steve, Here is a list of my most under rated, under appreciated, bands.(The World According to Frank)
    1. NRBQ
    2. Spirit
    3. The Church
    4. XTC
    5. The Beach Boys during the Holland era
    6. The Kinks
    7. Utopia (Todd Rundgren)
    8. The Smithereens
    9. Commander Cody and The Lost Planet Airmen
    10. Fleetwood Mac the Bob Welsh era

  2. avatar
    frank | 17 July 2009 at 11:31 pm #

    More stuff from Frank

    Do you have an agent in Nashville and LA to send out your songs for TV soundtracks and the like?

    The more I listen to your back cataloged the more amazed I am at all the great music.

    Like that song Anesthesia should be sent to the producers of House the show staring Hugh Lorie. It could be his theme song.

    In case you never heard of it it's a very popular show about a brilliant belligerent doctor hooked on OxyContin , and various other narcotics. They use contemporary music. Just a thought.

  3. avatar
    lily was here | 17 July 2009 at 11:56 pm #

    sk you're the king of underestimation, im sure they adore you more than you think. They sound just like my daughter in what they're into (aside from the smoking – fingers crossed she doesn't go that way, its taken me long enough to give it up). I wonder what name the gossip mags'd make up for the new couple "Beckolie" – I'm surprised MY daughter has texted me about it LOL

    Sue xoxo

    ps good health to all of your girls. Post a photo with mk!

  4. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2009 at 12:01 am #

    great blog steve…and adelaide in december…..yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

  5. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 18 July 2009 at 12:01 am #

    i see Frank (above) wants to be your new manager, kiss off Frank he's mine…lol
    Captain Beyond

  6. avatar
    lily was here | 18 July 2009 at 12:02 am #

    ps $20 for a tomato roll & a bottle orange juice?!!

    So thats how the swedes stay so slim?

  7. avatar
    lily was here | 18 July 2009 at 12:10 am #

    Im on a tomato roll…

    the church aussie dates so far

    9th Dec – Lizottes Kincumber nsw
    11th Dec – Lizottes Newcastle nsw
    17th Dec – Live at the Quarry, Perth
    (that quarry venue looks beautiful, kind of like a little Red Rocks)

    16 aug – corner hotel richmond for sam's benefit- Ears gig (a list of legends on that list)

    kev carmody date?

  8. avatar
    20DollarOJ | 18 July 2009 at 12:19 am #

    Tell those girls to look at the skin of older people who are smokers. Quit now while youre young!

  9. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 18 July 2009 at 12:28 am #

    Not many vegetarians in Sweden. Yes, the people are aesthetically sublime. People including girls will always smoke because it keeps the weight off and has some positive psychological benefits. People at AA and NA meetings smoke like crazy.

    Even though Sk is forthcoming he'll always be enigmatic. That's good !!!

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2009 at 1:00 am #

    Commander Cody and His Lost Planet Airmen! There is a book written about them and their rough go in the biz and the rekkid industry. Really a great read. Yeah Spirit were cool…so was son of an early lo-fi thing. David California recorded at home. Yeah


  11. avatar
    Dannis | 18 July 2009 at 1:01 am #

    CHRISTMAS STORY-the 2-disc Edition- brand new is about a week away here in is staying with me, the other copy that I was planing on sending to Karmic…. unless someone beat me to the punch with a brand new copy, I'd love to send this, one of my favourite films that I only had on VHS..

    thanks TIME BEING friends…
    Dannis in Toronto.

  12. avatar
    Ellen | 18 July 2009 at 1:40 am #

    Awesome blog, Steve. Sounds like you are a bit too hard Awesome blog, Steve! Sounds like you're being a bit too hard on yourself. One thing's for sure: you are blessed! You have a beautiful, loving family, a first-rate band with whom you make great music, a gorgeous voice, an amazing artistic and poetic talent and you are still in one piece despite past abuses!

    Did I miss anything? Not too many people can claim all of those blessings, but you already know that.

    $20!! Wow! And I thought LA was expensive.

  13. avatar
    frank | 18 July 2009 at 2:01 am #

    Captain B,
    I couldn't manage my own band much less the Church. It just bugs me that they have all this great material and it seems that they should be able to cash in somehow.

    No way a songwriter like SK should be struggling to pay his frickin' bills. Steve if you had only learned the MOON WALK FIRST.

    The suck part of the music business is you have to live in either:
    New York
    or London it seems to get it done.

  14. avatar
    mcook5 | 18 July 2009 at 2:20 am #

    I like when you make fun of bono. That guy, geez, he trying to throw his arms around the world, god what a douche.

  15. avatar
    mcook5 | 18 July 2009 at 2:22 am #

    Oh and btw, glad to hear about the live dvd. I've been bitching about that forever. Hopefully out within the decade, j/k

    Im sure it will be excellent, sincerely.

  16. avatar
    plumlady | 18 July 2009 at 3:08 am #

    What a lovely, almost adult daughter. Daughters are such blessings; mine is 27 and to be married in a couple of weeks to a wonderful young man. Then they're honeymooning in Australia; needless to say I wish it was me.

    My children have grown to know me enough that if asked what mom's favorite band is; "it's the Church"; but they don't much give a listen. I'm sure it must be a bit odd for all the girls to have a dad who's a bit of an obscure celebrity to some… it would be much cooler for it to be them in the limelight. But then there's trouble with that too…just look at M.Jackson's kids….or OJ Simpson's kids…what a mess. The Obama girls look like they're well adjusted; hopefully we've finally hit upon the right guy for the job.

    I'm anxiously awaiting the arrival of your art/blog cd that I purchased from the site…should keep me entertained once winter hits the Midwest.

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2009 at 4:00 am #

    sk when is the Hustler interview you did coming out?

  18. avatar
    Johnsense | 18 July 2009 at 5:29 am #

    Hello, Sk
    the other night on PBS television I briefly saw Billy Idol re-doing his 80's hits (sweating an grinning away)… in 2009… I never cared for his ‘thing’ even in the 80's. I appreciate that you haven’t fallen into that vein. On that thought (creativity) its not always easy to call one’s muse…; though my muse is always their, sometimes laziness takes over; instead of making a new painting, or song, I just contemplate the idea of creating….; upon this I won’t go into all my thoughts on being creative and/or creating art… I guess I wonder what your thoughts are upon the subject, (of the coming an going of one’s creative muse). (thought)Those muse’s have been flying around for centuries… an I’m glad for mine. Sorry for my long winded-ness… My best wishes to you and your family…


  19. avatar
    pennybridge | 18 July 2009 at 6:29 am #

    Orange juice for 20 dollars! A tourist trap or what?
    On the other hand: Prima drinking water straight from the tap for about 0.02 SEK per litre. Not bad either …

    Enjoy your stay n thank you for TTB!

  20. avatar
    davem | 18 July 2009 at 8:14 am #

    It took me until I was 40 until I managed to give up the old fags.
    Being a parent is so hard, I hope you can really enjoy the time you have with the girls this week.

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2009 at 8:15 am #

    Your daughter looks like a very good looking man.

  22. avatar
    frostatmidnight | 18 July 2009 at 8:43 am #

    Spotify is great and if you ever want to download Audio Hijack is watcha need to go along with it!

    Brien, I'm not sure what positive psychological benefits a person gains from smoking. The only relatives of mine to die from cancer died because they smoked. The ones that didn't smoke lived long and prospered.

    As for being thin, I've always had a perfect figure and I'm not a smoker. Just eat well and exercise and that's really all you need to know. The future will come as it always does, and people that smoke show it in their face and it's not a pretty sight.

    My husband often tells me that English women are used up and finished by the time they're 20 because by that age they've been smoking and drinking for so long that they look worse than middle-aged women! Smoking long term is just nasty, bad and stupid and there are more creative ways to kill yourself. If you're blessed with good health you should be grateful for it and not throw it all away. Drink lots of water, stay out of the sun, don't smoke or drink and use moisturizer and you'll look young forever. It's really that simple.

  23. avatar
    fantasticandy | 18 July 2009 at 11:43 am #

    paste this link:

    and steve… i wish i was jamming with you too.
    if you hadn't given your approval to that home-made ep a couple of years ago none of this would have happened……….

    you have been my benchmark…the reason i pressed on.
    your'e my inspiration mate!

    splendid blog today by the way.
    be a little kinder to youself now 'n again though eh?
    love ya,
    andy L.

  24. avatar
    Craig | 18 July 2009 at 12:15 pm #


    Looks like you had your glasses fixed. Nice.

    Fuckin' hell, life is hard…


  25. avatar
    JJ | 18 July 2009 at 1:26 pm #

    Minna has that brooding look – like her father. I don't know how many times I've heard myself the "why don't you smile?" line when people see photos of me; I don't know, I just can't manufacture a grin is all.

    My son just turned 19; he has his own musical "tastes" * (translation…..rap, ugh), though there's some redeeming hope as he likes Pink Floyd and The Who.

    Off to the Misty Mountains for a few days of respite and relaxation myself.

    Best always,

  26. avatar
    andmoreagain | 18 July 2009 at 1:51 pm #

    Hey Kilbey, glad to hear that yer gonna be checking out A Christmas Story (my leg lamp is perched on the window sill as I write this). I watched Lady and the Tramp last night and my dog Harvey started howling along to the dog pound scene. I've got an idea, why don't you do a anniversary tour of Starfish like Echo are doing with Ocean Rain and Van is doing with Astral Weeks. Anything to get the old fans and curious out to see ya is good bizness.

  27. avatar
    andmoreagain | 18 July 2009 at 1:54 pm #

    To Frank, good choices. I'll have to check out Bob Welch Fleetwood Mac. What albums? I would definitely have XTC and Beach Boys Holland on my list. David Sylvian and Love would be on there too. Oh and Julian Cope of course.

  28. avatar
    andmoreagain | 18 July 2009 at 1:56 pm #

    Oh and Robyn Hitchcock and the Egyptians and the Soft Boys. Seen both bands and they would be one great match with the Church.

  29. avatar
    Freddie | 18 July 2009 at 2:35 pm #

    You mean there are still young people out there
    living in places like Sweden who are taking up smoking?!
    Wow…back when my parents were that age it was okay
    People actually thought it was good for ya
    But now, with all that we know about it…I just don’t get it.
    I'm glad Evie is recovering 🙂
    I know it must be a tough time for your family and I hope everyone feels better soon.

  30. avatar
    matthew | 18 July 2009 at 2:38 pm #

    Steve – wishing you every bit of the sleep you need… rest easy man.

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 July 2009 at 3:09 pm #

    Great footage playing on the screens over the bar at the Fillmore… hope you boys left with a copy… There is nothing in the world that compares to the feeling you get when you close the door to your own room and curl up with your other half for a 20+ hour sleep after a tour… glad to hear its only a week away for you. You need some serious rest my friend,

  32. avatar
    Sigur | 18 July 2009 at 4:10 pm #

    I wonder if you like the music of Loney, Dear… it would be a nice collaboration… since you're in Stockholm and all…

    Good to hear you're getting some R&R with your beautiful twins.

    Thank you for enduring such a grueling tour and make our hearts smile… even just for awhile…

  33. avatar
    Freddie | 18 July 2009 at 5:06 pm #

    …also want to say, please don't grow up. 🙂

  34. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 18 July 2009 at 5:16 pm #

    Dear Frostatmidnight:

    I don't smoke. But I'm tired of smokers being demonized. The true evil in this world is people eating cows, pigs, chickens, lambs, fish and any other of our fellow creatures. AS long as we have slaughterhouses, we will have wars. Irreverence for life breeds more irreverence for life. The meat industry is literally destroying the planet. Smokers are hurting themselves.

  35. avatar
    Shawn El | 18 July 2009 at 5:27 pm #

    cool so when is DWTC coming out? can't wait to hear it.

  36. avatar
    Abel HS_MexCity | 18 July 2009 at 9:10 pm #

    Im delighted to start keeping in touch with my fav band's singer.

    When are you planning to be in Mexico touring?

    That would be great news to have you here bacause some other bands have experienced that idea lately.

    Bands such as James, the Jesus and Mary Chain and this autumn, the charlatans uk are coming around.

    Enjoy both your daughters and your holiday!

    I look forward to hearing from you soon.

    Greetings from the city
    of Aztecs.

  37. avatar
    loolaabillions | 18 July 2009 at 9:43 pm #

    oh steve

    dont you see
    how your older girls
    so need their dad
    push past elli's demeanour
    she will be kicking herself
    when you go
    a coupla days left
    isn't long i know
    and they know this too
    so try to get as close as you can
    they will know your trying
    and thats the best
    remedy for any awkwardness….xx

  38. avatar
    Danny C | 13 September 2009 at 3:25 pm #

    As a 'struggling' musician, I always have been influenced by your music inside & outside of the church. Having read 'no certainty attached' has given inspiration for the following: my approach to recording music is similiar to what I read regarding your own..a sort of chemical, creative stimulation coupled with improvisation..sometimes brilliant sometimes shit but it is all I know how to are the 'James Brown' of your know? The hardest working man in Show biz as your musical output confirms this..last saw you in Foxboro Massachusetts on July 2, 2009 and you looked and sounded in great shape..Met Marty outside before the show and must say that I could hardly recognize him and in my state of mind at the time mistook him for you (very embarassing) F.Y.I. Marty let me play his Ric at the culmination of a show in Boston during the Hologram of Baal tour in which I strummed as Marty manipulated the sound with his effects rack..Thanks for all the inspiration and health comes before all else..Also, just finished reading the Mark Burgess (from the Chameleons) biography entitled 'View from a Hill' and have drawn several prallels with his story and yours..A very good read only they tended to fight more than you guys in the Church did…not to mention that both bands had a lead singer on bass with two other guys using effect driven guitars for the most part. keep up the good work.

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