posted on May 15, 2011 at 5:45 pm

as the night begins for one

black pull of the past

persuasive fickle chance

things at their very source

sub-atomic yearning for union

electric impulse and flow

the chemical necessity that all things endure

time which both nurtures and destroys

the organic quality of thought

luck plays a part

relative space and space untouched by time

nebulous forces of what we call destiny

that we are fated to be and that we are fated to not be

distant planets move and we falter on our paths

some die some born

some grow some wither

no one can take everything into account

god or the lack of one

precipitation in foreign lands

sudden glitches in reality

if impossible things happen

laws broken

sometimes science is wrong

melancholy of sunday

unexplainable not inexplicable

needing something you cannot name

wanting something you have forgotten

saying something you never expected

remembering something that you never did

regretting an opportunity that you never had

life you can only live

you cant have it

you cant touch it

you cant keep it

life meanders on like a river through sunday

life languishes there yet slipping through all our fingers

life like love

crucial essential so easily lost so easily squandered

changeable mercurial inflammable


23 Responses to “tele-phoenitic”

  1. avatar
    Martha | 15 May 2011 at 6:25 pm #


    The first ten lines or so just put me in mind of an I Ching reading.

    Don’t know why (and I intend nothing cheap or insulting by the mention), just happened to be the way it filtered into my brain.

    or maybe my overtired neurons are just being morons

    Fascinating, really. Shit, I love how words can come together!

    Off to sleep for me, then.

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    Ess | 15 May 2011 at 7:08 pm #

    life like love
    crucial essential so easily lost so easily squandered
    changeable mercurial inflammable

    That melds with where I am today. I spent yesterday – the 30 year anniversary of a day a mother went into sudden coma, leaving her body a few days later (her funeral the same day as Bob Marley’s, but I only knew that later) – tearing up old diaries, old memories calcified, of love gone right and love as warzone, love on again off again, gone off the rails, and some petty angst I would rather not own. Years of deep and shallow thoughts erased from line of sight. Unburdened from a narrative, from older selves who took too long to learn. Last week I gave away most things, furniture, clothes, nearly everything, leaving boxes of mostly books and a tiny collection of sentiment I couldn’t bear to evict, but not very much. A clean slate (as clean as it can be) and a reminder that there is only now.

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    mr.ricky | 15 May 2011 at 8:00 pm #

    what a great idea, steve! we should definitely add “life like love” to the set! 😉

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    timetraveller | 15 May 2011 at 8:12 pm #

    Nice! The inexplicable enigmatic Nature of Reality and Non-Duality. Potential realities that were, are, never will. be,,,,,, ALL IS NOW in the fullness of this eternal moment.

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    princey | 15 May 2011 at 8:34 pm #

    Like 🙂

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    hellbound heart | 15 May 2011 at 8:34 pm #

    We desire life eternal, we desire perfect love, we desire perfection without the need to strive for it, we desire ease and pleasure…..needy bunch of fuckers, aren’t we?

    love always…….

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    andy | 15 May 2011 at 10:28 pm #

    ‘nebulous forces of what we call destiny’
    now that’s what i call a quote!
    odd how sometimes you get lost in your own affairs steve,
    especialy when i consider you the sagest of souls.
    perhaps its this very dichotomy that makes you such an interesting and indeed likeable chap.
    lovely musings today my friend.
    bests to all,

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    DavidP | 15 May 2011 at 10:33 pm #

    life passes in time
    if we invest in things which are of time
    time will take them away eventually
    better to invest in that which is eternal
    to have that which is eternal awakened within us
    and take that back with us when this life ends
    immortal awakened consciousness
    if we were once awakened some lifetimes ago
    maybe now that is what we yearn for to have again
    that needing something you cannot name
    that wanting something you have forgotten
    but nature does not want to let us go
    it throws all sorts of things to keep us entertained,
    fascinated and asleep
    where ones heart lies so will his destiny be

  9. avatar
    bc | 15 May 2011 at 10:45 pm #

    “distant planets move and we falter on our paths”

    great poem sk…
    and love the David Neil work.

    “life you can only live”

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    Anonymous | 16 May 2011 at 4:11 am #

    and then… those days when you’re doing something and you look up to a reflection and there you have it! What you’ve been doing left you with dirt all over your face, just glorious infallible grunge — and you laugh and it’s fun… and the memory to hold forever will come later — but if it were to end that moment, you know you’d be okay. Faith.

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    Burkley | 16 May 2011 at 6:52 am #

    I blink and miss two endless summers. Keep my eyes shut, and it’s sunday forever. Every now and then, the day I’ve had locks right in with what you’ve posted. Even sorts somthing out somehow. Thanks.

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    . | 16 May 2011 at 8:18 am #

    a comet empire haunts my dreams
    except this time around it’s different
    it’s a disintegrating city full of demons
    and angels waging an eternal battle
    in the neutral part of space where planets die
    and black holes consume their flotsam particles
    a floating city banished beyond perfection
    where ancient blood feuds are settled
    a battlefield for fledgling gods who carry out their plans
    before they’re presented on the earth and other worlds
    a test site, this black rock of decay and destruction
    with death and pestilence, sophistry, and greed
    pride embedded in their minds, money the only god they see
    the balance is calculated there
    pain, joy, hurt, pleasure
    forgiveness, love
    time, lust, death
    and it repeats over and over
    that whole infinity thing has still not been calculated

  13. avatar
    Joe Gibson | 16 May 2011 at 2:08 pm #

    And somehow… I’m ok with that.

  14. avatar
    BigSmilesKate | 16 May 2011 at 4:36 pm #

    Hey SK,

    Like the ocean, you can only hold a little of it in your hand…You can’t see all of it at once.

    Big Smiles

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    Boriah | 16 May 2011 at 5:03 pm #


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    scott | 16 May 2011 at 8:25 pm #

    no matter how good the wine, the grog, it all gets pissed out in time

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    kell | 17 May 2011 at 1:28 am #

    Ahhh yes, thanks for the reminder, that’s how it’s feeling here too…
    The inexplicable yearning, well, a quick pilgrimmage to the sacred valley in the Himalayas should fix that…(!!!) Hey, it’s the Buddha’s Birthday/Ascension Day, it’s holy full moon in Scorpio WESAK time! Of course there’s yearning, to be the full-blown pulsating Body of Light that u are designed to become! What else is there to do except turn to your SOURCE within, the very essence of your unique & wonderful consciousness, & allow it’s full expansion & glory. “Glory be to the One Within Who Animates Me & All Around Me”. And another reminder, “Energy Never Dies, it just CHanges Form!” Life goes on! ANd on, And on! ANd on! C’Mon Kilb, switch on your immortality fountain just that bit more & ASCEND!!! We’ve only got ’til the end of this year to do it! And that involves feelings & thoughts as well… Do the Phoenix, boy, do the Phoenix (many of us are)..

  18. avatar
    Once | 17 May 2011 at 2:20 am #

    “unexplainable not inexplicable
    needing something you cannot name”

    Nailed it. I believe I owe you 8 million dollars.

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      Once | 17 May 2011 at 2:28 am #

      On a lighter note – the photo with this one is breathtaking.

  19. avatar
    Christina | 17 May 2011 at 10:33 am #

    Reminds me of that Morrissey song and the immortal words, “Every day is like Sunday, Every day is silent and grey”.

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    BigSmilesKate | 17 May 2011 at 3:11 pm #

    Hey SK,

    Spooky, the house you are standing in front of in this pic looks uncannily like mine….. except for wrong shaped lower window – same colours etc.

    If only it was my place, you could pop in and be welcome anytime.

    Big smiles


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    Mike Frimodig | 18 May 2011 at 7:14 am #

    Just had to say that was sad how it ended up with Darrin K. He seemed to be a huge fan of all forms of Steve’s art and somehow it ended up that way. The exchanges were difficult to read. Frim

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