posted on June 5, 2006 at 4:03 pm

hiya fiendish ones
im having a badde day here in stock home
this is my 2nd attempt at writing to ya today
i wrote a long bloggy at ellis until suddenly
the computer over fucking heated
and hey presto my bloggy vanished into the ether
i swearing in swedish n english
elli running round half scared half laughing
i lie down on the floor groaning
daddy you should blah blah and attach and blah
and save and blah
i look up into her beautiful face
she massages my shoulders gently
do you want some calming tea daddy
calming tea?
CALMING TEA???
i fume n rant n rave
ok ok
i say
im gonna go swimming
good idea daddy
swim all that anger off

ok now im getting really worried
i DID just try n save this
and it told me
in swedish
that the page cannot be found
so now what?
anyway
the pools were all closed
cos tomorrows a holiday
(so howcome theyre closed today?????)
i walk to all the pools
fuming all the way
but theyre closed
now do any of ya know about the 3 doshas
the doshas in hindu/vedic medicine
are like the 3 types
everybodies a mixture of the 3 types
vata….wiry, mercurial
kapha calm, slow
pitta, hot, angry
fiendss
im pure pitta
i got the pitta hair type
i got the pitta face n teeth type
im at a pitta stage of my life
the upside of pitta is ambition, energy
the downside is anger
i get so angry
i get so fucking beside myself
i use up weeks of energy in one explosive blast
so the pools being closed gets me really going
you motherfuckers im yelling against a closed door
let me in
i need to swim
i gotta work this off in cold water
ah….for an hour at my beloved icebergs
then i walked all round stockholm looking for a plug
so i can use my computer, ipod speakers etc
nope
they look at me blankly like im a moron
australian to swedish…grins one shop asst
after another

now im getting
“can not connect to blogger.com…test connexion now”
great
just great
more anger
where is the calm sage of a few days ago
gone up in a cloud of anger n frustration
i can quote the gita till the sacred cows come home
but when i lose mah bloggy
when the pools are closed
i fucken do my block
some pathetic little prick gives us another mediocre review
more anger
yeahh yeah andrew mueller
or mule for short
yeah we were so ordinary at the borderline, werent we?
i bet the stuff you do at home on yer computer is so great
it shoulda been you up there, shouldnt it?
you know how to do it better than us dontcha
and the audience musta been idiots for liking it as well
yeah sure
people ll be reading yer reviews for years to come
and bon bon
you can write whatever you fucking well like me old fruit
it was a CARDBOARD BOX
im sure theres a million arty rationales why
it was a brilliant cardboard box
but to me
i say
the emperor has no clothes on
art is sposed to resonate somewhere in ya
theres good art
theres bad art
and theres BULLSHIT
the cardboard box was BULLSHIT olde son
either that
or every guy workin in the post office is picasso
i dunno
i dont care about the concept behind it
john cages 5 minutes of silence
is the same as any other 5 minutes of silence
and a box is a box is a box
thats how i see it
yer entitled to yer p o v
but i reckon yer deluding thy goode selfe
anyway
im calmed down a little
i am a pitta type
and im prone to rage
im sorry
you guys are my therapy
i wrote ya a real good bologg about sweden
but it all went to magnetic heaven
so maybe i’ll try again tomorrow
i love ya fiendss
but watch out when im thwarted
i become a madman
anyway
it was a relief to geddit all off my chest
its about 6 30 here in stocko
i gotta reconnect with my twillies
dont worry about elli
shes seen it all before
shes a brave and beautiful flicka
and i love her so much
her sis aint too badde either
musta got it off their mum
cos i cant stand myself whenever i get like this
is this my lesson to learn?
to be thwarted n remain calm…?
i let it all hang out for ya here
so i hope i havent ruined your day as well
behave yerselves
its only 15 here too , gareth
must say im a lil disappointed in the weather
ITS SPOSED TO BE FRIGGIN* SUMMER
FAAAN JAVLIGT Vร„DER
anyway
i loves ya
i needs ya
will this missive even make it to the site
???
bye bye bye
s k

44 Responses to “temperature drop in downtown winterland”

  1. avatar
    CSTCoach | 5 June 2006 at 5:13 pm #

    hey sk,

    funny thing, was trying to hit the comment page to fire off a little missive into the ether, and it kept fucking saying “page not found”… I felt the ole rage bubbling up, the incredulity that this stupid machine that was put here to serve me refuses to do my bidding… Then I had to laugh a bit, to take that “looking down on oneself from above” POV, cause it was kinda like thy blogge…

    i really identify with what you wrote today. despite all the training, the yoga,… i still suddenly snap and lose my temper in a fury. Too many things to do, the pressure of all these works trying to get out, the realization that there isn’t enough time… Maybe that’s what does it?

    i like what you wrote about art too. In the national gallery in ottawa once there was an empty room with a wire stretched across it from one corner to the next. I thought it was renovation but it was a fucking exhibit. i was disgusted, infuriated. then again, some clever bastard sure pulled the wool over them, probably cashed in too. i’m sorry, but that ain’t art, no matter how much crap you write about it. the art of bullshyte maybe, but fine art it aint.

    enjoy the cool north, o electronic bard. hope to catch you on this side of the pond finally, after all these years…

    ryan

  2. avatar
    CeciliaGin | 5 June 2006 at 5:17 pm #

    It’s been a bad time for the bloggies, I ended up posting mine 3x unintentionally and then things just refused to load.
    You guys aren’t alone…at least Esteban got a shoulder rub!
    (jealous – celosa)
    Cecilia
    x

  3. avatar
    zallaz | 5 June 2006 at 5:38 pm #

    when technology scews up it’s mega-frustrating… ironically I did a ditty with the chorus ‘technolgy is failing me…’ prophetic? I dunno?

    SK these blogs are a terrific read!

    regards zallaz

  4. avatar
    davem | 5 June 2006 at 5:54 pm #

    Eh, calm down – calm down.
    It’s arrived here.
    Glad you need us cos I need you too.
    You give me so much to think about & chew over. You make me feel shallow & superficial.
    What time does Coronation Street start?
    Love you more (than ever)

    Dave

  5. avatar
    12str | 5 June 2006 at 6:00 pm #

    have got a problem with connecting to the www today aswell..theres probably something electrofriggingmagnetic going on in the space between our houses..
    just one caress youre powerless..
    nostradamus kilbey!!

    i wonder where all the lost bloggs go?
    there must be some black holes in cyberspace…some weird wormhole passing bloggs to other dimensions..some sort of e-prayers,directly linked to the all cosmic administration..
    on the other hand,maybe they just hid in the dark parts of your computer,waiting to be found by future computerarcheologists..

    ha de bรคst

    patrik

  6. avatar
    davem | 5 June 2006 at 6:02 pm #

    SK,
    Wish you’d stop using that Temperature Drop title on your blogs. Loved the EP – remember the excitement of hearing Sisters for the first time but…..takes me back to queueing for hours with pre-pubescent females for tickets to see you support Duran Duran….only for you to pull out of the tour. No more droppy temps i beg you.

  7. avatar
    CeciliaGin | 5 June 2006 at 6:12 pm #

    I’m bailing to wordpress.com for bloggie satisfaction.
    Have one of your brothers look into it, it could prove saner than blogger.
    CPE
    http://ottomt.wordpress.com/

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2006 at 6:37 pm #

    dear sk

    ruin my day?
    on the contrary
    thanks for bringing
    smiles to my day
    you may have
    a bit of a temper
    but you are
    so funny when
    you talk about it

    love
    diane

  9. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 5 June 2006 at 7:28 pm #

    me air has some command in it, me will not disobey, ME am on ME way…
    Ne iko

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2006 at 7:37 pm #

    I can sympathize, I’m quite a bit the ‘Pitta’ myself at times.

    Enjoy the rest of the stay, I hope it improves and the little irritations quit.

  11. avatar
    John Garratt | 5 June 2006 at 8:06 pm #

    So teach us some Swedish cursing already.

  12. avatar
    oldchurchfan | 5 June 2006 at 8:49 pm #

    Temper temper!

    SK, I’ve just been listening to ultc and I love it. I didn’t say lgfaw at all. I said,”lets’s listen some more,” or llsm.

    A fine work.

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2006 at 9:00 pm #

    Old SK you computa guru, your daughter’s right. You should type your bloggy up in a program like Word or something, Save it periodically and then get on your bloggy and cut and paste babby.

    I’m no computa genius but that should save you from loosing your blog. My wifey has a crappy internet server at home so when I type e-mails I do it in word first because I was loosing e-mails.

    FT

    Drink some tea and mellow out you old rock and rolla

  14. avatar
    Greg from California | 5 June 2006 at 9:06 pm #

    Mr. SK: The lack of a suitable pool whilst travelling is a serious thing, as I know from personal experience. I looked around the Internet for a pool in Stockholm for youse and found a nice list here:

    http://hem1.passagen.se/badarna/Sthlm_inne.html

    And what lools like a fairly relaxing place here, which I wager will be open tomorrow:

    http://www.centralbadet.se/roach/Pool_information.do?pageId=174

    Enjoy Stockholm. Beautiful place.

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2006 at 10:04 pm #

    For those that feel the need to curse in Swedish:
    http://www.totse.com/en/ego/literary_genius/swedcrs1.html

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2006 at 10:05 pm #

    Wowsers M8,
    from the sounds of it
    it looks like its applesauce for dinner
    n breakfast tomorrow for ya..
    I can sympathize, Murphy’s Law some say,
    One of thee hardests things to maintain is
    ur focus and keep the pond tranquil.. so hard..
    alot of us were not brought up in that fashion
    and sometimes I feel like its impossible..
    but then it is an empowering feeling when yu
    can catch yourself and release the breath..
    then its like riding the wave that you’ve always loved
    the scenery gets warmer and everyone is waving yu along
    then the sweetheart inside says, Yeah I like that much better
    it aint easy…its a work..
    I can vouch for ur need for weightlessness..to be submerged..
    alleviating the gravity throughout..

    Well Surprise, the critics aint worth a wipe ..
    I lost my ear for them long ago
    Even the good ones fail to capture the glory
    I get from jamming on the rhuch bells..so dont sweat em
    Sk, be glad where yu are, enjoy ur kiddies
    yu are pretty hylarious when yu lose ur apples..

    So these Doshas are personality types? sounds very interesting..
    Im readin 3 books at once..
    SuperMind by So N So, very good, about brain to mind discrepancies in science + more..
    Also, Jung Memories interpreted, very cool guy
    had a dream 2 days ago, was along with my 2 bros in a youthful scenescape/grandma’s house in essence,
    bunch of scared people running everywhere, trying to be quiet hiding behind a door.. very scary stuff
    I can still recall the imaginary object of fear, the scratching on the door, the growling breath..
    still got me reelin..very realistic and I could feel my mind state distinctly,
    the subconcious experience of collective fear.. intense
    And after all that, for balance, my fav reference book, the Power of Myth by Joseph Campbell
    if you have a chance to get the actual interview its on DVD, it is a life essential..
    So guess im developing my jnana muscles..

    Curious about Stockholm? heard many a good things of its nature..
    adios..
    Be strong, be love sk..
    Later..

    jaime rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr………

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2006 at 10:24 pm #

    Maybe it’s because its the 6.6.06?
    Triple J are havin one o those heavy metal Number of the Beast days with their programming – it’s 12 deg here & most people wish they were someplace else.
    HEy 12 Str – it’s my daughters birthday on Sunday too – only I have to go to Dunedoo for it – do a search on google & you’ll find a photo.

    Dutch Pierre

  18. avatar
    Queen Hatshepsut | 5 June 2006 at 10:41 pm #

    Steve, dear Pitta Steve,

    “you motherfuckers im yelling against a closed door
    let me in
    i need to swim”

    This might be the best thing you’ve written so far. Oh I SO feel for you – and yet you do come across as quite funny when you are in Pitta state. NOT that I’m laughing at you…in fact, about 1 minute before I read your blog, I read something on CNN about people who have ‘intermittant (sp?) explosive rage disorder” or something and naturally I thought, “Oh my God, I have that” because no matter how much yoga/meditation/calming things I do, sometimes I just.flip.the.fuck.out. I thought “Oh sure, look at Steve, he’s so calm and at peace with it all…” – glad to know it’s just the Pitta in me.

    Wish you were here, we have a lovely pool, no one is using it now. As for reviews and art…when I teach art appreciation, I tell the kids (college students yet) “Look at the art with your own eyes; ignore the reviews, what the text says…tell me what YOU think.” Sometimes we’d just sit and make fun of all sorts of strange ‘art.’

    The masses are cursed with mediocrity – you are not, and never will be.

    love,
    denise
    xxoo

    p.s. for all you Yanks out there – anyone recall this? SERENITY NOW!

  19. avatar
    the dean | 5 June 2006 at 10:53 pm #

    computers will fuck you up that’s for sure.

  20. avatar
    captainmission | 5 June 2006 at 11:01 pm #

    Ha the curse of the Pitta, when i was a rocker my guitar player was Pitta type and it was quite a scarey thing for us Vata Kapha peoples. I recall once in W. Berlin when he got frustrated at a stamp machne that stole his cash, man he picked up a huge lump of ice and just destroyed the dispenser in a fury, his face bright red with rage, so hot you could toast marshmellows on his forehead, i’ll never forget that cos he after survaying his destruction he just smiled and calmed down, carried on about his buisness. Freaky But boy could he play guitar….

    Recommended treatment curtesy of ye internet site ayurbalance.com

    Cooling foods are wonderful for balancing Pitta dosha. Sweet juicy fruits, especially pears can cool Pitta quickly. Milk, sweet rice pudding, coconut and coconut juice, and milkshakes made with ripe mangoes and almonds or dates are examples of soothing Pitta-pacifying foods.
    The three ayurvedic tastes that help balance Pitta are sweet, bitter and astringent, so include more of these tastes in your daily diet. Milk, fully ripe sweet fruits, and soaked and blanched almonds make good snack choices. Eat less of the salty, pungent and sour tastes.
    Dry cereal, crackers, granola and cereal bars, and rice cakes balance the liquid nature of Pitta dosha, and can be eaten any time hunger pangs strike during the day.
    Carrots, asparagus, bitter leafy greens, fennel, cruciferous vegetables such as broccoli, cauliflower, and Brussels sprouts, green beans and bitter gourd (in very small quantities) are good vegetable choices. They become more digestible when chopped and cooked with Pitta-pacifying spices. Vegetables can be combined with grains or mung beans for satisfying one-dish meals. Avoid nightshades.
    Basmati rice is excellent for balancing Pitta. Wheat is also good–fresh flatbreads made with whole-wheat flour (called atta or chapatti flour and available at Indian grocery stores) combine well with cooked vegetables or Pitta-balancing chutneys. Oats and amaranth are other Pitta-balancing grains.
    Choose spices that are not too heating or pungent. Ayurvedic spices such as small quantities of turmeric, cumin, coriander, cinnamon, cardamom and fennel offer flavor, aroma and healing wisdom.
    Drink sweet lassi with lunch to help enhance digestion and cool, not ice-cold, water to quench thirst.

    What happened to Global warming ?

  21. avatar
    veleska1970 | 5 June 2006 at 11:02 pm #

    whoa~~watch out for that laptop overheating!! those things have been known to catch on fire. (defective battery…..)

    blogger was having some issues earlier, so it wasn’t just you affected….

    everyone i have encountered today from the grocery store clerk to my co-workers have all been in a pissy mood. (hmmm….computers fucking up, people on the rampage….must be something in the air.)

    don’t pay any attention to that review. that’s just one person’s opinion, anyway. remember, you can’t please all the people all the time, although it’s human nature to want to. especially when you really put your heart into something like you guys do at your shows!!

    whenever you can’t swim, why don’t you come up with a backup plan, like jogging or something? (if you recall a few blogs ago you mentioned skipping to school with your girls….that’s GREAT exercise!! enlist e and m to help you with that one while you’re visiting.)

    ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€

  22. avatar
    daveoto | 5 June 2006 at 11:05 pm #

    As i drift to sleep sweet poetry enters my mind,the next morning it’s only half remembered;everythings relative;the creative juices will flow,negative energy will go;as long as you’re here/there/wherever making sweet music,allowing us a glimpse of your journey,that’s all that matters,
    enjoy
    dave

  23. avatar
    captainmission | 5 June 2006 at 11:10 pm #

    Oh excuse me i forgot to mention, those critics are insane, what a joke of a way to earn $, they should be ashamed of themselves. I think it’s about time critics have the front to justify their reviews else be up for libel or some other legal thingy. I think its a world wide conspiracy of dumbing down things for the lowest common denominator, most of these critics have a degree in mediocracy anyway, just look at the drivel they write. Blah.

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2006 at 11:12 pm #

    to perhaps make you feel a little better – it hasn’t stopped raining here (sydney) for 2 days and it’s cold.

    and john howard is still in control and now he’s talking about building nuclear facilities down here.

    enjoy the nordic north.

  25. avatar
    baby | 5 June 2006 at 11:34 pm #

    They have seen my strength for themselves,/ Have watched me rise from the darkness of war,/ Dripping with my enemies’ blood. I drove/ Five great giants into chains, chased/ All of that race from the earth. I swam/ In the blackness of night, hunting monsters/ Out of the ocean, and killing them one/ By one; death was my errand and the fate/ They had earned. Now Grendel and I are called/ Together, and I’ve come.”

    grendel=internet failure
    slay on, beowulf

  26. avatar
    one rigid finger typist | 5 June 2006 at 11:35 pm #

    bah its all good. disable the anger switch and you loose all passion. apathy is a dangerous lurker.

  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2006 at 12:05 am #

    “She’s a…brave and beautiful flicka…” What a wonderful line…and you’re right about the cardbox box…Gertrude Stein knew it, too, all those years ago in the last century, and she didn’t even need to SEE the box…

  28. avatar
    youamwho | 6 June 2006 at 1:05 am #

    Steve-a-reeno!

    Everything happens for a reason, my brotha! Yr intial today’s blogge flapping away up into that Scandanavian ether …feel yr pain, mate …but …this one was pretty damned cool in and of itself!

    Forever at yr service!

    Leftenant Reginald?

  29. avatar
    persephone2u | 6 June 2006 at 1:19 am #

    Yes, but it’s summer in SWEDEN, Sir Kilbey. Of course it’s gonna be cold! Hope you’re enjoying yourself tremendously. It’s always fun reading your blogs whilst on vacation. Nice to know that some entertainment lurks on the internet somewhere!

  30. avatar
    verdelay | 6 June 2006 at 1:27 am #

    So there I am in yonder club, having myself a bit of a pee, when who sidles up to the urinal next to mine? Blow me down if it ain’t old Marcel Duchamp! Well, he’s there having a jolly old slash, and I’m wondering to myself…where’s yer self respect, old man? Don’t you know that’s priceless?

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2006 at 1:39 am #

    steve enjoy your much neeed rest and vacation, glad to hear your daughters are fine. hope to see you here in the states soon

    steve in florida

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2006 at 1:39 am #

    steve enjoy your much neeed rest and vacation, glad to hear your daughters are fine. hope to see you here in the states soon

    steve in florida

  33. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2006 at 2:24 am #

    lap up the summer??
    cos at the bergs
    15c out 17c in
    and no sauna available last visit

    loving the stories
    and feeling envy
    at your charmed life
    galivanting around europe
    (i can hear you groaning already
    at how you think it’s not at all like that)

    love and happy birthday to your gorgeous gemini goddesses today
    sm birthdaying tomorrow

    blissing out with
    the deeply beautiful mimesis

    love
    xxx

  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2006 at 2:24 am #

    Always remember what Eugene O’Neill said: “Critics…I love every bone in their heads.”

  35. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2006 at 2:32 am #

    Mimesis… anybody?
    very curious to know what its about
    and how is it acquired?
    thanks

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2006 at 3:49 am #

    My good man,

    I do seem to have got your goat there with the cardboard box.

    As to the P.O.V that I’m entitled to….I don’t have any arty rationale for the box (nor am I in the cardboard business).

    We all have instinctive likes and dislikes. I wouldn’t fill my house with cardboard boxes as sculpture. You suggest that ‘good art resonates somewhere within you ‘ and I agree with that….and I would also suggest that good art can tell you a story, ask you a question or give you an answer among many other things. It might just make you feel good without pushing any particular buttons. It does not have to be complicated and clever. Sometimes you might have to engage with the piece a bit more to get something out of it. I haven’t seen ‘the’ box so I don’t know, but I do appreciate that there are many different ways of looking at things. As a daubist yourself, I’m sure you would concur.

    I like your analogy about the emperor’s new clothes, but I have to say that if they removed all the stuff from the galleries that one viewer or another didn’t ‘get’ the joints would be empty. God help us if they start filling them with stuff that ‘most’ of the people like ‘most’ of the time. Don’t get me wrong, I like decorative stuff as much as the next guy, but I think art can serve a greater purpose than that. I may not get the artist’s intentions and message in viewing each piece (in the case of the cardboard box there may not be one, or there could be thousands) but I want to try. That does not mean everything appeals to me either, but if you, as an artist, want to show me something, I’ll try and look at it with an open mind.

    I could go on but I’m gettin’ boring, y’all know this is just the tip o’ the iceberg on this topic.

    You’re a fella with a lot of opinions and this is your forum for them, hopefully you can tolerate a little dissent.

    Au revoir,

    Bon Bon

    P.S.I’m not an artist, so does this make me a critic?

  37. avatar
    juniper | 6 June 2006 at 5:17 am #

    Have you seen the Viking Ship? There’s also that park with houses from various time periods….and that big, red, wooden horse covered in rosemahlen you can sit upon and have your pics taken. Enjoy!

  38. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2006 at 7:40 am #

    Thanks for “letting it all hang out” for us sk, we really do appreciate it you know!!
    Can you re-write the long lost blog for us…pleeeease.

    Love always,
    Amanda P

  39. avatar
    Elduvik | 6 June 2006 at 8:45 am #

    you see? if you can’t do without the blog, how can you decide to close it down on november?
    think about it – don’t leave us alone…

    Andreas
    Genoa/Italy

  40. avatar
    Elduvik | 6 June 2006 at 8:58 am #

    BTW
    the shows at the Borderline were FANTASTIC.

    Andreas
    Genoa/Italy

  41. avatar
    eek | 6 June 2006 at 9:36 am #

    I’m sorry, Steve. I really am. But I must admit I laughed when I read this. Not just a little giggle either, but a full out roar.

    I’m prone to rages myself. Always have been. It’s not the big stuff that sets me off either. Generally I can handle the big things — not always well, but usually calmly. It’s when a bunch of little things pile up that suddenly I will fly into these wild, completely irrational, and very, very loud rages.

    How you described it is soooo completely perfect — all the stupid, petty crap piling up until you just can’t stand it anymore. So I couldn’t help but laugh. And I love that you let it all hang out for us. I do love the beautiful pieces you often post, but I also get quite a kick out of the cranky old bastard blogs too. ๐Ÿ™‚

  42. avatar
    Rehan | 7 June 2006 at 4:03 am #

    Forget all the critics who simper and moan…cos the people who really matter are the ones who love you till the cows come home…. Count me in

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