posted on April 6, 2012 at 8:28 am

hey guys

sorry i havent written anything for a while

feeling demoralised and sad

alcohol is taking a terrible toll on someone i care very much about

i cant seem to get much done

will try and get back on track

no comments asked for or necessary

thanks for yer patience etc

steven

26 Responses to “thanks for yer patience”

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    redgrevillea | 6 April 2012 at 10:37 am #

    my friend up in Lismore, she’s now just past 4 months sober. Probably having being chucked around by cops, being shoved into paddy wagons and having her ribs cracked, self-harming, bleeding and hospital visits and all sorts of other craziness did the trick finally. perhaps my constant gentle phone persuasions may have helped… inside i was yelling *JUST FUCKING STOP DRINKING* but you can’t really say that.. Anyway, now, the craziness has ceased and things are looking up, hopefully.

    I do hope that things turn around for the one who’s close to you. I’m still angry about how alcohol transformed the magnificent beast of my dad into a grovelling wreck, and killed him (along with cigs). Alcohol is a c*** and i have visions of blowing up Dan Murphys liquor stores. There’s one around the corner from me surprise surprise.

    Much respect.

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      ticktockclarice | 8 April 2012 at 11:52 pm #

      Blowing up Dan Murphys. Excellent! Now THERE”S a revolution i could get behind. C*** is not even a strong enough word for that fucked-up evil elixir of death. I am so sorry Steve. There is nothing sadder than a mother that can’t even kick it for the children. I know this firsthand. Keep fighting the good fight. You have given me more months of sobriety than i would’ve had without your admonishing words. I’m sure the same goes for her. I’m sorry if this entry causes you pain. I am of course drunk and in complete selfish mode. But you DO make a difference, if not quite the one you’d wish…

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    Lara | 6 April 2012 at 10:46 am #

    Am really sorry to hear it, SK. Sending best wishes.

    L

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    michael | 6 April 2012 at 10:56 am #

    take care steve

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 6 April 2012 at 11:06 am #

    Steve-
    You need not apologize for anything. As strange as this really sounds, coming from complete strangers sometimes, we all love and care for you very much. Beyond the music , art, writing and so on….you are very important to so many of us. We wish you well. I will say an extra prayer for you and your family every night til this challenge in your life is put behind you. I wish you grand luck and all the positive energy and patience it takes to help the ones you truly love. I have faith that you will save her, she needs you now more than ever. Sometimes its just one word that someone needs to hear to help them along their difficult path to recovery…and that word is Love.
    I know I dump alot of my pain and problems ,over the years , onto you and these blogs.
    And I am forever thankful for the kind words you always have for me- I know i am a pain in the arse.
    But please know this….there are so many people here for you, unconditionally, and we always will be here with and for…you.
    Just a click away…

    Darrin JK

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    hellbound heart | 6 April 2012 at 9:22 pm #

    with love…..

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    davem | 6 April 2012 at 9:28 pm #

    Bad news!
    Love to you Steve and the good people here.
    Sorry to read about your health Darrin

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    Jmb066 | 6 April 2012 at 10:00 pm #

    Steve,

    No apologies needed, take care of yourself and your loved one. We are here for you.

    Jason

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    Stewart | 6 April 2012 at 11:03 pm #

    As Darrin expressed, you are more than just ‘the writer’ to many here. Your generous sharing of your gifts and openness have endeared you to many of us who would assist in any way we could.

    Current thoughts will flow
    Ghosts of tears will glow
    Shards of the rainbow
    Teach us certainty
    Thoughts as currents grow
    Mountains will plateau
    Gratefully we’ll know
    Universe are we

    Bless you and your loved ones

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    John Garratt | 6 April 2012 at 11:07 pm #

    Can I post this? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ea-MVgC_jz4

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    matthew | 7 April 2012 at 3:59 am #

    Sorry to hear about this Steve. I’m grateful for the phenomenon your blog has become, it’s been a regular read for me since the beginning all those years ago – and I think it’s unique really.

    I sincerely hope everything works out ok.

    Very best wishes,

    Matthew.

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    Cocoamo | 7 April 2012 at 7:44 am #

    I always think that there is some solution to every problem, if only it can be found. But sometimes, there is no solution, and the hard part is accepting how ultimately powerless we are. To see a loved one on the road to self destruction is a bitter pill to swallow. I join the others in saying we all send our love and support.

    Your Friend in Pennsylvania
    (Now in Cocoa Beach)

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    Jonny Hollywood | 7 April 2012 at 8:58 am #

    hang in there SK, love ya killer 🙂

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    andy | 7 April 2012 at 9:30 am #

    love ya kilbs………
    very much.

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    andy | 7 April 2012 at 9:32 am #

    best wishes to daz ‘n boriah too.
    both having a bad time at the mo.

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 7 April 2012 at 1:54 pm #

      Things always get better when you have something to say.
      In the spinning madness that is this rock that gravity holds us to,
      Steve was the conduit that connected us to become friends, so many miles away but closer than many can imagine ( actually quite a few of us, its almost as if ” six degrees of seperation from…).

      Thanx for always having something encouraging for me to hold on to….

      Waiting on some new songs to flow my way champ, I got a real good feeling about this new project of yours. If u can , keep me up to speed/in the loop

      Daz

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      Boriah | 8 April 2012 at 4:58 am #

      Thanks Andy! You´re a great man.
      Hugs!

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    kyle farley | 7 April 2012 at 10:54 am #

    Greetings Sir Kilbey,

    I was pointing out to my loving wife Angela, just how deeply intense, your last 10 posts have been, and couldn’t help but wonder how much it has to do with the move that you and your family had recently made! SK, I have never been one to get on message boards, in fact yours is the only one I remember ever being on, and I gotta say, as dark, and ominous as these things are, I have never in my Life, seen the power, nor felt the clean raw, rushing Energy that emanates from your writing, on any level, with any other written word…EXCLAMATION MARK, EXCLAMATION MARK
    It’s Truly Difficult to find words big enough, so I just send people straight to the Gospel, and let em witness for themselves!

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    colette | 7 April 2012 at 11:50 am #

    Patience is a very forbearing lady.

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    Ingrid | 7 April 2012 at 12:17 pm #

    Hey SK, hope things get better soon. Take care.

    Love Ingrid xxx

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    veleska1970 | 9 April 2012 at 3:41 am #

    i hope everything works out ok. wish i had some advice, but i don’t know what to say.

    love and hugs.

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    Freddie | 13 April 2012 at 4:14 am #

    If I ever happen upon some words or magical spell which works in such cases I’ll be sure to share it with the world. Unfortunately at this time all I can do is …..nothing. :^(


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