posted on June 15, 2007 at 1:58 am

rant over and out!
you wanted a bit of bile
come on tell the truth
its funny when i get angry
just like it was funny when my dad les kilbey got angry
but it wasnt funny when my mum got angry
unless it was really really funny
and you could get her to laugh too
then she’d get even angrier cos she’d laugh
when she wanted to be angry
we are a mixture of our mothers n fathers
and all their mothers n fathers
we must all be somehow related
and in another lifetime
i may have been your sister or your son
if you are attracted to me now
you may have known me in another lifetime
says krishna…
i know i never quite get it right, do i?
but you trust that im trying
you can feel it, right?
and if i keep trying
then one day…..
ah that perfect song
that perfect poem
youll go
i been listening to this guy now for a hundred lifetimes
and this is my new favourite song….
really my life is to chase this ideal
and as long as i have breath
its what im gonna do
its an easy life in some ways
i have mostly eliminated “the man” from the equation
all day long im at work
its lovely lovely work
but it still makes me anxious n despondent
i do thank the lord everyday
that i am not at a factory
or behind a desk in fluoro wilderness
and oh my fiendss
if i could make it so
that none of you had to either
i would
funny enough
tiny dancer by elton came on my ipod
now i dont like elton
but my friend marcus s in sunny stockholm
said i should have this one elton album
madman across the water
anyway i do like tiny dancer
its specialness overcomes n defeats my prejudice
and hearing this song takes me back to ‘aving a real job
after i left school
working as a tilers labourer
a blocka flats somewhere in canberra
i was taking all the old tiles outta the hallway
and they were not coming up easily
i was on my own and it was cold and a bit dark
driving to this place each day i heard 2 songs
on the radio
tiny dancer and heart of gold
and i would think about them all day
as i chiselled n scraped at the floor
in the hallway
and even then
believe me
i hated work
if they had had ipods in those days
or even walkmans…
or if i was stoned
see if ya put me in a corridor with my ipod n a spliff
i will chip out those olde tiles much more happily
than if im just straight n musicless
but in the void of nothing
i just played songs over n over in my head
and of course i didnt really realise it then
but i was deconstructing n analysing them
why did they make me feel this way
how did neil convey that lonesomeness?
why did i feel like i could fall in love with eltys tiny dancer?
the sounds, the strings, the voices
oh i was so deeply in love with music
who isnt?
who doesnt love music?
when i heard tiny dancer today
walking up my street from the pool
my head full of economic gloom
my head full of the sand patterns at the bottom of the pool
endorphins filling my system
from the coldwater n the hot sauna
and the rain that fell on me as i did chi gong
at the edge of the churning pacific ocean
and the gratitude i have that i dont have to work
at a “real” job
and with five children of my own
all girls
and my thick white beard getting long again
and the spring in my step
and the late autumn of my life
a brief burst of sunshine maybe
and all the time the muse is chucking out ideas
and im looking at things
and thinking of words
thinking about my solo album
thinking about the weird stuff my shuffle was throwing at me
civil war lament comes on
fuck grant you little bastard i still wish you hadnt gone
the pod was throwing in your bright ray at me lassa nite
and theres my mate timbo walloping the kit
so it all goes full circle
doesnt it?
i have been priveleged to work with some great people
and i think about em all the time
caino in the us
glenny bennie in melb
martin kennedy in melb
cummo in melb
polinski n the mim boys
also of …melb
(i should move there actually
its more my kinda town…intellectually
oh but im so hooked on the icebergs
im getting the equivalent of 5 grams of painkiller
in endorphins from the pool n sauna every day
i go in there a hungover stumbling wreck
i emerge a neuman
go bes just came on my ipod as we speak
even as we speak grantley
anyway im studying the pointillistic rub of the leaves
and im thinking of how can you paint that?
and im thinking about the cars that zoom past
i see the drivers
my mind automatically comes up with a possible biography
unasked for
and forgets just as quickly
a man drives past in a black wet beemer
i picture a warm living room
discreet lighting
executive position
distant wife
cleaners come in thursdays n mondays
ocean n harbour views
books lie open on the coffee table, expensive and beautiful
images of famine in africa
and the grand prix
all in glossy thick deluxe pages
slightly intensified
a pool throws rippling aqua blue light on the ceiling
then his car is gone
another splashes past
behind a foggy window
a mother n some kids
i see a cosy kitchen looking out on a lovely back lawn
trees hem in the garden giving a sunny privacy
i see nights sitting in the garden when its too hot to sleep
early morning soccer practice and
mother in law dropping in unannounced
all the time
tiny dancer comes on and shatters my reverie
im back in that hallway
chipping away at those bastard tiles
im 18 or whatever i was
i see it all
somewhere in the backa my mind
just waiting to be unlocked
this memory
clear as crystal
good on ya elton!

79 Responses to “the killer in me is the killer in you”

  1. avatar
    steve kilbey | 15 June 2007 at 3:10 am #

    oh no
    its me again

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 3:10 am #

    I just put ‘Tiny Dancer’ on a compilation CD I made for my sister-in-law who is toiling away on Baz Luhrman’s epic up in QLD. (I make an excellent compilation, BTW. If I had a choice in life that’s what I’d do for a living)

    She loves that song. I’d never really been able to come at it myself and then I found a cover of it by Ben Folds which is quite good. I think it’s been covered by a gazillion people since it was featured so heavily in ‘Almost Famous’.

    It’s going to be another wet weekend here in Sydney. Everyone in this part of the world please drive safely. I saw a nasty smash on Old South Head Rd last night…..there but for the grace of God etc.


  3. avatar
    Amps | 15 June 2007 at 3:32 am #

    Move to Melbourne Killer; your muse would love it down here…it’s foggy/hazy/sunny/autumn today…and colder than a polar bear’s nob.

  4. avatar
    Symon | 15 June 2007 at 3:33 am #

    Steve….old Melbourne town will have you every and any day of the week. It really is a great place to live…but you already know that !

    isn’t it so amazing to think that there you were on the roof in Canberra..tiling (toiling !) away…without any notion of where the next 30 odd years would take you !

    Could you have ever imagined such a wicked adventure would take place ???

    regard Symon

  5. avatar
    chillum | 15 June 2007 at 3:35 am #

    I don’t wish to blow smoke…

    but your Blog is the best, Kilbey.

  6. avatar
    the dean | 15 June 2007 at 3:50 am #

    yeah your funny but how come you’ve junping the fence, blogger and commenter, all things to everyone. If only some devious comment-person could jump into skblogland. Interesting, hmmmmm

  7. avatar
    Belfrank | 15 June 2007 at 3:51 am #

    I’m no big Elton fan either SK, but that song really does it for me too I must say.
    Is it Tiny Dancer or Tony Danza he wanted to hold him closer anyway ?

  8. avatar
    sharka | 15 June 2007 at 3:57 am #

    beautiful reverie, Kilbey!

  9. avatar
    BLUE HIGHWAY | 15 June 2007 at 3:59 am #

    Where’s me love esskay??? this really sucks man…
    The Nev Man

  10. avatar
    Ansible Jon | 15 June 2007 at 4:10 am #

    i had an friend who was an eccentric old man, an artist by profession. he worked in all kinds of mediums, but when i met him he was retiling his kitchen floor.
    he told me:
    “you can never really know god unless you’ve worked and sweat on your hands and knees with tile.”
    however you interpret “god”, it is a simple yet meaningful utterance of his that has always stayed with me.
    perhaps you can rediscover yourself in tile. i mosaic with the stuff and regardless of what you create, the process is very centering.

  11. avatar
    kat | 15 June 2007 at 4:16 am #


    this could be bad, but i find funny in just about everything. and anger does bring some funny moments. ok, listening to KOL over and over, mcfearless. (ya ok! this living in newport has worn off)

    madman across the water, love that song. good record, and yellow brick road, tho i don’t find myself dying to hear it.

    ya SK, i’m not real hip on being a grunt. if you’re not dancing, waiting on someone, or paris H, you are screwed.. very sweet what u said tho about working. i’m going to collapse. lol

  12. avatar
    paul lightfoot | 15 June 2007 at 5:35 am #

    May I ask how is your back now? Has the pain abated? The swimming would definately have helped it. Was just curious.

    Paul L
    Auckland NZ

  13. avatar
    Tony | 15 June 2007 at 5:43 am #

    i always found elton’s
    “daniel’s song”
    to be rather haunting

    ze pfish

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 6:13 am #

    Look sk!, 3 people here want you back in Melbourne, isn’t that enough to drag you back to this town? Yes, we’ll all be there with bells on whether it’s Mimesis, sk solo, sk poetry, even sk does Elton John covers, just “come up and see me….make me smiiiiile, do what you want, for a little whiiiile”(remember that one?)
    Love and kisses,

  15. avatar
    Thelonious | 15 June 2007 at 6:48 am #

    let on

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 6:57 am #

    my middle sister,Kiki{Christiane,actually} sometimes downloads on my computer….coz mines faster……..on shuffle[as always }…Bill Wymans Je suis une rock star……,as if that wasnt enough……she slipped in some later Ian Dury{and it was f ing great}…”what goes on in Eltons john?”{a quote from Norman Gunstons “Kiss Arny” …dunno….circa 1979he was doing a “molly”impersonation………know what Krishna was on about!sometimes theres an” instant recognition
    ” with people you dont/dont really know…..sometimes its feint…other times it kicks like lightning……cheers me lovelies… to join “neighbourhood listen”……genx xxxxxxx

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:07 am #

    This blog sucks !

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:08 am #

    You’re an unappreciative philistine !

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:08 am #

    You’re an infantile arse-kisser

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:09 am #

    Oh no, here we go again…

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:09 am #

    Stamp out land mines !

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:09 am #

    Steven, I wanna have your babies ! (I promise they won’t be twins)

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:10 am #

    SK, I think you’re most of your stuff is great but ULTC didn’t really do it for me.

  24. avatar
    The Central Sycophantic Comments Committee | 15 June 2007 at 7:10 am #

    That comment was not approved by The Central Sycophantic Comments Committee. If you comment again we will have no option but to terminate you.

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:11 am #

    Where’s my fucking chair ??

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:11 am #

    If you cut out meat, the whole world will miraculously change

  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:11 am #

    mmm…a song that takes me back to the days of teenage-hood and year 12 farewells is ‘Alone With You’ by the Sunnyboys…spending the last night of school in the year 12 common room and getting absolutely plastered…wouldn’t be a teenager again for all the tea in china…i think the whole teenage thing sucks like an electrolux…
    -The Hellbound Heart

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:12 am #

    I totally disagree with all of you !! The issue here is pliability and I know for a fact that sun-dried bamboo is inferior as a medium to wet cane and what’s more…uh…what ?…ooh, this isn’t the Basketweaving Forum ?? Oh sorry, I appear to have got the wrong comments page…apologies…

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:13 am #

    5:11pm #2,

    You are sooo right. Killing animals is wrong – except of course if they’re wearing make-up.

  30. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:14 am #

    Peace !
    Love !
    Harmony among all peoples !
    …Oh and fuck you 5:07pm !!!

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:14 am #

    I said where is my effing chair ?? Will someone answer me ?

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:15 am #

    This is getting tedious now

  33. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:15 am #

    This comments page will self-destruct in 5 comments.

  34. avatar
    anonymous kiwi | 15 June 2007 at 7:15 am #

    …and THAT ladies and gentlemen is why I just lurrrrve Icehouse.

  35. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:25 am #

    5:11pm (number 2),

    Here’s my opinion:

    “I do enjoy a good dog once in a while, sir. You can have yourself a three-course meal from one dog. Start with your canine crudites, go to your Fido flambe for main course and for dessert, a Pekingese parfait. And you can even pick your teeth with the little paw.”

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:41 am #

    good grief

  37. avatar
    ~ | 15 June 2007 at 7:49 am #

    lovely love thee time being,
    Jesus ben Panther!
    more storms abrewin in zee tea cuppa
    I do enjoy an exceptional rant and rave
    and some exceptionaly dumb anons do offer occasion ona count of their taking exception
    I god duh say
    my fave rave is the meat eaters vs. animals
    and the folks who don’t deprive them of life
    good times
    for tripe anon comments and the um, intestinal fortitude it takes for a hearty belly laugh in response, eh?
    perhaps its an egyptian thing
    from many lives past that
    kohl rimmed eyes
    as arrestingly beautiful on a man or
    windows of a soul with dark delicate lace like luxury smudged from sleeping or velvet liquid cat eyes drawn precise along lash lines
    black and oiled crow coloured mixed with sweat punk rock defiance coarse drugstore eyeliner
    prolly lifted and
    heated with a lighter before application
    in some bathroom in some dirty club
    cheap sure, but
    also good for taking down numbers when you don’t gota pen
    anything that suffocates healthy skin
    is an insult to nature
    and usually makes the nature of skin unhealthy
    I re alise
    these comments re
    past blogs
    do forgive
    I am sorry to hear about grey clouds in financial forcast
    If I was able to spare extra ca$h, luv
    I’d purchase the HBH (painting, pastel, portrait?)
    it is
    passionate and moving
    it is
    my favourite song:
    the moment just before
    lips embrace their desire
    HBH must love this timepiece a kiss frozen forever
    near to melt and meld
    a solo sax
    or violin symphony
    just held
    there in mid air
    will prints be available? eek?
    I’ve heard
    memory is strongly associated with scent
    I believe music conjours feelings with images of the past
    ah nostalgia
    how experience procrastinates in our memory
    always putting off until later the recollection of
    what we’ve done now


  38. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:50 am #


    tiles hmmm


  39. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:50 am #


    tiles hmmm


  40. avatar
    The Young Relict | 15 June 2007 at 8:06 am #

    Hold me close now Tony Danza…… hehehe…… Still not as funny as MWP and his “Don’t let your son go down on me” comment from a radio interview. That was hilarious! Elton John still doesnt have nothing on the church. Great story today Steve. Thanks for all your dedication to this blog. It means more to us than you will ever know. Keep up the good work my friend.

  41. avatar
    ~ | 15 June 2007 at 8:15 am #

    witty, pretty and wise
    such angelic devilry
    nectar of divine revelry
    proof of the otherworldy origination
    of redheads

    peace and luvvvvvvvvvvvv
    to ya all


  42. avatar
    eek | 15 June 2007 at 8:49 am #

    ~ — re: prints of The Hellbound Heart — yep. prints are available now. $58 USD at 🙂

    john garratt — re: SK paintings in Columbus? Why yes they are. 😀 They aren’t at a gallery or shop (You just know I’d have linked to it if they were 😉 ), but people can sometimes see the unsold pieces (and some of the sold ones too 😉 ) if you make arrangements with me. Email me through the addy on the SK art site.

  43. avatar
    fantasticandy | 15 June 2007 at 9:37 am #

    hi steve,
    great example of the power of music, the way it can take you back to a ‘place’ in time.
    i think it also has the power to help shape the future too.
    i’m sure you belive that also.
    i love the paintings, one of these days i’ll put a commission in for ‘the dudes’ as things may be happening for us.
    but at the moment we have to concentrate our limited financial resources on equipment and stuff.
    let’s just say if it all comes together we may need some ‘cover art’.

    oh, just one more thing,
    anon…5:11pm and 5:14pm,
    give it a rest eh?
    i have a voice of my own thanks.
    and a name to go with it too.
    luv to all,
    andy L.

  44. avatar
    zebob | 15 June 2007 at 10:44 am #

    Wonderfully written. I envy people who have the power to recollect times long since past, frozen in memory, unthawed with writing.
    I blabbed about my own private hell of working in the stifling, dusty warehouse, then “UTMW” came on the radio and lifted me out of that misery, a moment that I can recall with amazing clarity almost 20 years later.
    Now that’s good stuff.

  45. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 15 June 2007 at 11:21 am #

    the “steven and scarlet kilbey ” is to date, bar none as close as youve come so far in the realm..
    absolutely has raised the bar is sublime ,…extremely evocative..pure…clean…timeless….and the energy/movement you seek are there in spades…a release and starting point, in my humble, a landmark in your development.

  46. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 11:31 am #

    ~ lovely ~….you know….i dont know what the ~ symbol looks like….wasnt until i wanted to send you back a kiss n a virtual cup o T,that i ran my “program”over your name,to check whether you spelt your name …as tilder or I DUNNO?,you know the name spelling{as in Sarah,is sometimes spelt…Saaaragghhhhhhr}you can never be sure that you are spelling someones name correctly..these days anyway….I thought your name may have been Matilda………….. am exhuberantly and benevolently naughty,yes!!hey,we pixie/fairies generally are…arent WE? love ,genx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx youre welcome to play at my house,,,{as with every other”non nasty non ,creepy CHURCHIE}ANYTIME

  47. avatar
    Krissythegroupie | 15 June 2007 at 11:56 am #

    All I think about is that movie Almost Famous when I hear Tiny Dancer..which is a good movie, but not as sentimental as yer story. Ahh, workin’.

  48. avatar
    verdelay | 15 June 2007 at 11:59 am #

    Manna will sometimes fall from the sky…

    But I don’t like picking through excrement in the hope of chancing on an occassional diamond. killed the video star

  49. avatar
    public savant | 15 June 2007 at 12:02 pm #

    alright so i can’t go
    and why would i?
    that brought tears
    or at least a prelude to the idea of them
    not to mention mimesis
    to listen to fin
    whilst working in my own continuity department
    matthews sends his regards
    sheer head shaking brilliance
    the beginning
    don’t want to ruin ity by saying anything
    you’ve tapped into something elemental there
    my liege
    but you don’t need me
    to tell you that
    move to melbourne
    fuck that’d be cool
    to think of you
    and your girls
    in fitzroy
    me and my girls
    are now awaiting our fifth
    at once scared
    and thoroughly excited
    at the thought of a boy

  50. avatar
    lily was here | 15 June 2007 at 12:32 pm #

    Its easy to forget Elton’s music was so good way back when, Bernie Taupin wrote so many gorgeous lyrics with him… Your Song, Rocketman (god I LOVE that one)..”and I think its gonna be a long long time” … Daniel, Goodbye Yellow Brick Road, Someone Saved My Life Tonight…

    ‘Tiny Dancer’ in the Almost Famous movie … shoots you right back to another place, like patchouli oil, so beautifully placed, I played that over and over — and Simon & Garfunkles ‘America’, Yes, The Who’s ‘Sparks’… Beach Boys, wow, I gotta go get that soundtrack out again, you should put them all on your ipod. And yes, I believe we’ve all crossed paths other times and places. Déjà Vu, Neil Young… sigh. I can just see you out and about, visualising & then itching to get the paint out. A fresh set of pastels now as exciting as a new pack of guitar strings would’ve been once?

    Biography! hold that thought.


    here’s a x for gen , i hope you can tell it’s a kiss, not a cross!

  51. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 12:39 pm #

    Steve, sing this song:

    “you´re the one that I want, you are the one I want,uuhhh uhhh uhhh, Killa! The one that I want, you are the one I want, uuuh uuh uuh, Killa!!!” (GREASE)

  52. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 12:44 pm #

    pretty sentiments my dear
    they hit that deep spot
    beautiful man you.

  53. avatar
    malcolm arkey | 15 June 2007 at 12:58 pm #

    Mimesis burbles in the background here…nice…incidentally Steve, I’d like to actually hear you do a whole album with JK, a real 50-50 if you can stand each other in the studio for that long.

    Can anyone remember the name of Polinski’s collaboration with that Melbourne session bass player ?? That was some tasty otherworldly stuff there – loved the ‘farawayness’ of the track Ornament-Bleu.

    Verdelay, I hope you have some artistic success in the future mate…I reckon you’ve got a gift with words.

  54. avatar
    restaurant mark | 15 June 2007 at 1:09 pm #

    good one today…i do my work much happier with a joint and music too…just lose myself in it. not an elton fan either, but i like tiny dancer and just love rocket man…can’t help it, adore that song. lyrically, musically…almost too good to be elton. i’ve heard he listens to good music, but i guess he apparently doesn’t feel the need to make any now. oh well…still love rocket man.
    take care.

  55. avatar
    veleska1970 | 15 June 2007 at 1:32 pm #

    i can’t speak for everyone else, but i don’t find it at all funny when ANYONE is angry. and that’s the truth.

    i always liked “tiny dancer.” nice little tune……and i thought i was the only one who plays songs in my head. so i guess i’m not so weird after all. or, it could be my “weirdness” is shared. 😉

    “i do thank the lord everyday
    that i am not at a factory…”
    i thank Him that i’m alive and able to enjoy my many blessings, one of them being able to hear so that i can enjoy your wonderful music. i can’t imagine what it would be if i didn’t have that, amongst other things.

    i got a chuckle out of your little biography game. my best friend and i used to do that as teenagers when we were out and about. it was fun to try and guess what kind of lives people led, based strictly on their appearance.

    happy father’s day early….i have another bizzy weekend ahead of me **groan** i hope you have a good one.

    lotza love…..

  56. avatar
    John Garratt | 15 June 2007 at 2:59 pm #

    “the pod was throwing in your bright ray at me lassa nite”

    For my blog I decided to try the ‘soundtrack of your life’ game. My song for the mental breakdown period was “In Your Bright Ray.”

    John Garratt

  57. avatar
    Imber | 15 June 2007 at 3:13 pm #

    Hey SK!

    “silly bints” aside….uhhh…whateverrrr…!!

    Just dropping by to say that I’m totally digging the “Mimesis” CD.

    “Matthew sends his regards”= sublime

  58. avatar
    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 3:37 pm #

    elton, hmmm. inerestin.

    By the way I agree, Mimisis is a pretty special album. I approach it with trepidation at times because it so immense.


  59. avatar
    Tara Novacaine | 15 June 2007 at 3:37 pm #


    I have enjoyed your music since seeing you in concert with the Church in Nashville in 1988.

    In your latest blog you “thank the lord” for the kind of life you have now. Who is your lord?

    I’m not here to preach anything – just truly curious, as it seems you mention so many cosmic elements and ideas in your music, your blog, etc.

    I appreciate your love for your daughters and The Go-Betweens : )

  60. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 15 June 2007 at 4:16 pm #

    Elton John was in his prime at the beginning of his career. SK and the Church are still in their prime and it’s a crime that they are not revered worldwide. The music industry is rife with spineless minds !

  61. avatar
    davem | 15 June 2007 at 4:19 pm #

    You’re always partly funny Esskay, whatever your mood.
    However, I can’t buy into this Elton J thing (Costello, yes, when he isn’t too far up his own ego) and I think you should get the olde beardie trimmed or you’re gonna have a photoshoot with bits of vegemite toast hanging off it. Not good. Not at all acespacerocker. Have a fab weekend Killer and all fellow fiends.
    Love you more,


  62. avatar
    JJ | 15 June 2007 at 5:03 pm #

    OK, OK…I’ll admit it then, I enjoy your rants, ’cause…hmm…they’re funny, more articulate than most (no surprise), and the wit – there’s always the wit with the bile, like sugar with the bitter medicine. And almost all true.

    Sir Elton (lives in my town part-time in tony hi-rise on Peachtree, Atlanta), well I’ll admit this too – I loved Tumbleweed Connection, good album, has perhaps my fave song of his “Come Down in Time.” Poignant tune, sounds like upright acoustic bass in there, oboe flourishes, nice vocal and lyric by Bernie, has always stayed with me. “Burn Down The Mission” too – I identified with that anger at religion, having been educated by nuns as a boy. Also liked the “Friends” album (not the stupid TV show), nice arrangements by Gus Dudgeon, saw the film at age 16 or so with first love Mary, kinda silly, but I sure identified with it. Madman was good, but christ – the tripe he put out after that, ugh.

    I work for The Man, at big medical corporation, soul-sucking entity of inequity and avarice that it can be, but in R&D I got some degree of lattitude…”never understand why you put up your hand and volunteered to play the company man”…well, they think I’m an outlier here. I’ll accept that. I put my iPod on with headphones in the Lab, ‘doin my research stuff. Get some nice travel, some currency to spend on Church music and gigs. I envy yer freedom.

    The endorphins – I get that from water too; whitewater. Another passion with music. Music has always been playing in my head, always.

  63. avatar
    Cee | 15 June 2007 at 5:49 pm #

    i see nights sitting in the garden when its too hot to sleep

    veo noches en el jardin cuando hace demasiado calor para dormir

  64. avatar
    Trickster | 15 June 2007 at 6:28 pm #

    In response to CST COACH’S comments yesterday:

    First, cst, you always have positive comments almost everyday, which I really appreciate because…well, they are what they are: nice comments that hopefully make our loved space-rocker-artist feel more loved and better about himself- all schmaltz aside.

    Maybe it makes sense for a commenter to sign his name in a blog venue that constructively discusses and promotes a certain practice… like the art of bashing in a man’s head or deflecting a blow. But, it seems a little straight to require or even suggest that those who come to the blog of our respected boho should give the boot to any commenter who does not sign her name. I wouldn’t ever presume to speak for SK, but I don’t get the impression from him that rules as such be required here. A commenter can pick and choose what she wishes to care and comment about- although she is certainly judged in doing so. If the TB or any commenter chooses to read and even address an anonymous comment, however sarcastic and unproductive it may be in and of itself, so what? Aside from SK’s corkers, one thing that takes this blog out of the doldrums of everydayness is the constructive comment OR the ridiculous comment, and certainly not the everyday comment- whether they are anonymous or not. Booting those from this blog would certainly take away some of its character. It seems to bring the usual commenter out of her everydayness, and actually say something constructive and supportive of the TB. Now isn’t that a paradox?

    Respectfully yours,
    Bruce Lee

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    fantasticandy | 15 June 2007 at 7:01 pm #

    chop-sockey bruce!!!!!!!!!

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    craig1.618 | 15 June 2007 at 7:17 pm #

    i am thankful everyday that i have the opportunity to do what i do……where my time is all mine

    and we just gotta place where we’ll have our own pool……granted it’s not anywhere near the size of “the greatest pool in the whirled” but it’s a pool

    and we’re very much looking forward to it……i mean if you gotta go live in the desert……….you need a pool

    now……….if i can just get a handle on living with all the scorpion kings……….perhaps i’ll have a chat with the cactus queen

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    CSTCoach | 15 June 2007 at 7:17 pm #

    cool blog today. it’s amazing how important music is to our lives, how just hearing a few seconds of a song can take you right back there. i know that i’ve told you how the music of the church forms the soundtrack of all my silly travels and expeditions, and its what i listen to when i write up the narrative, cause it brings it all back. same for those cheap cassettes and burned cd’s of local music that you pick up in a place. eric donaldson’s loleta and a whiff of rum never fails to take me back to nicaragua…

    “i do thank the lord everyday
    that i am not at a factory
    or behind a desk in fluoro wilderness”

    i hear ya man, its a lot to be thankful for. i had so many terrible labour jobs, and even more flouro office jobs. it was so soul sucking horrible that i vowed to starve or make a go of my real work rather than ever go back to it again (on so many days, it was only plugging into my headphones and creating a sonic barrier around me that got me through at all, i think). But I’m not done yet 😉 I kept meticulous notes of all those awful jobs, and once i get some more travel lit off my plate i’m gonna write a nice book about it, a gob of spit in the face of the system. a little poetic revenge (through biting humour). i hope that my fellow fiendss will consider it a blow struck on their behalf as well.


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    CSTCoach | 15 June 2007 at 7:25 pm #

    hey TRICKSTER,

    we’re on the same page, amigo. i didn’t mean to imply that anyone should be booted from the comments or the blog, or that anyone should be forced to sign a name. I simply wanted to draw parallels to the larger online world and to how people can be such bastards to other people from behind a faceless screen. (I try to make a practice of never saying anything online, anonymous or not, that i wouldn’t be willing to say to someone’s face.)

    signing names is how we got rid of the trolls on the RMAX forum, and how we managed to raise the level of discussion to such a civilized level. But MA forums tend to attract some enormous egos, so i guess such methods were needed. Besides, that’s a totally different beast – a corporate sponsored forum for athletes and customers to get free help and training advice from certified coaches in the use of our methods. A totally different situation to what we have here. i simply wanted to say that anonymous sniping happens everywhere, that was all.

    “one thing that takes this blog out of the doldrums of everydayness is the constructive comment OR the ridiculous comment, and certainly not the everyday comment- whether they are anonymous or not.”

    totally in agreement with ya. 🙂


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    Trickster | 15 June 2007 at 7:33 pm #


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    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 7:59 pm #

    where’s the beef?

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    scott | 15 June 2007 at 8:27 pm #


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    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 9:36 pm #

    “how people can be such bastards to other people from behind a faceless screen”

    uh yeah, your a bastard to other people and I know your name
    how does that make it any better cstcoach?

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    Tim | 15 June 2007 at 9:37 pm #

    as i read today’s blog, elton comes on my ipod and as a disc jockey for over 15 years and force fed and force feeding a public (thanks to some brilliant broadcast consultant thousands of miles away)
    a steady diet of elton, phil collins, whitney huston and make me gag rod stewart….chicks may dig the A/C format, but not my thing I’m no fan by any stretch, but he and taupin made a great songwriting pair. while I’d count tiny dancer as a fave the one that just finished on my ipod is Your Song that track throws me back…now as I write this…who comes on next? Neil Young…but its not from Harvest, but Tonights the night…his greatest work…Nils Lofgren on Guitar ( and keyboards (for the first time in his life) that lap steal…the track that pops up among my hundreds of Neil

    ‘i’m singing this borrowed tune I took from the rolling stones, alone in this empty room, too wasted to write my own” “i’m climbing this ladder…my head in the clouds…i hope that it matters..”

    happy father’s day!


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    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 9:46 pm #

    X back atcha…..lily was here!…….my computer speaks phoenetically……when people sign off with a x it makes sense……..but signing off with an xo is pronounced “ZOE”………xoxoxoxo is “soksoksoksoks……and cheekily enough xxxxxxx …..sounds like “sexsexsexsexsex………sometimes,when my daughter is tidying her room…..i turn up the volume and randomly and persistantly pressthe “control” button love genx{and Im sorry to anyone who wasnt included in my invite,but ya know……in the real world theres too much nastiness and creepyness…..and this little old house is a sanctuary for my little one and me}

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    Cee | 15 June 2007 at 10:03 pm #

    You disarm me, you smashing pumpkin!

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    Anonymous | 15 June 2007 at 10:25 pm #

    I think the anonymous comments
    are mr. special k himself!!!!!

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    NickFiction | 15 June 2007 at 10:33 pm #

    really special blogge this one sk, it really took me out there……. and back again. this was enough material for more than one blogge, i thank you fine wordsmith…… NICKf

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    daniel12 | 15 June 2007 at 10:41 pm #

    As a hetrosexual male my best of Elton CD stays well hidden at the back of my collection.(alongside ELO and A-Ha, ha ha ,Hey Morten can really sing!). However as an occasional songwriter I have to say Reg and Bernie could really bang out a tune in there early 70’s heyday. Balding tubby gay men don’t become superstars for no reason.Tiny dancers one of there best. I love the way the tempo ebs just before the chorus. Camron Crow used the song perfectly in that Almost Famous tour bus scene. It had’nt occured to me before this that it was actually a road song. It seems to me that it’s the tunes that take peoples minds of tile cracking real work drudge that sell in Elton quantities.

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    lily was here | 16 June 2007 at 2:21 am #

    welcome gen x
    Lucky i dont write more than one x for sk or u all might get the wrong impression 🙂

    sue cee

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