posted on December 29, 2014 at 9:44 pm
bernini crumble

bernini crumble

i murdered a million words

and perverted the course of sentences

i bang on about silences until i am shouting at nothing

i hold my tongue and bite my lip where i should be aloud

i terrify myself in the darkness where i begin to vibrate

i forget whoever i was

it really is the most inconsequential thing

nullification seems like a dream to me now

the bleakest shore at dusk a boat leaves in the mist

the crew row and groan as the lash finds their back

i am oblivious

i am gone

i am nowhere

i am no more

in my anonymous niche in a warm stillness

turned into energy that bolted instantly away

turned into finest ash a solemn vase

turned into memories that immediately start to fade

turned into a dead end off a lonely street

youre not alone says a voice beside me somewhere

a comforting voice a soothing voice

a voice that speaks without any words

a voice you needed no ears to hear

i look around wildly theres nobody there

this is a trick hisses my old broken heart

and i walk on forever before the voice speaks again

saying my name with such a collective sigh

like a hundred women in stygian tragedy ululate me gently

the coils of the snakes

the legs of the ladders

i plummet clutching 1000 pound notes

yet the earth does not rise up

i yearn for some clean warm creature to take me in

something bigger and softer than me

something kinder and better that i cant see

something to nourish me with nepenthe

and sing me to sleep

i want to sleep

let me go to sleep

yes yes says the voice again so close to your ear

go to sleep my little darling 

a warm gentle hand on your forehead smooths back your hair

ssshhh says the voice with the sweetest breath

like summer evening in a vanilla chalet

like hay in the sunshine

like the mouth of a river

sleep sleep sleep urges that faraway voice

and finally

you are safe from everything

and then

you feel yourself expand

 

 

 

 

24 Responses to “the poet behind bars”

  1. avatar
    Bernadette Keys | 29 December 2014 at 10:50 pm #

    That good huh? x

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    Beatle#9 | 30 December 2014 at 3:09 am #

    Wow, nice one SK.Sounds like a song to me.Seriously though ,this is one of yr best, I reckon & I’ve got excellent taste 🙂

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    Anonymous | 30 December 2014 at 6:45 am #

    Tempting. Wonder if i should go 2nite. B my last gig for the year.

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    Bec | 30 December 2014 at 7:49 am #

    lovely, Steve…..
    xx

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    Billy Dow Kimmerly | 30 December 2014 at 8:48 am #

    Steve…I’ve been down that river before myself too many times… Thanks for reminding me it’s a journey I never want to take again. Like you … I didn’t cross the river Styx…I travelled from end to end to end to end.

  6. etta
    etta | 30 December 2014 at 12:30 pm #

    Pertinent. Have been brewing last night and today regarding the nature of artists (as I sometimes do) but particularly at year’s end. Observing the young artists I am around, depending on the intensity of their personality, I think end of year can be very tricky winding down. There is still the desire and impulse or compulsion to keep going but nature will soon make it plain when it is absolute time to stop and they will be made to stop. Perhaps quite abruptly and shockingly (not too shockingly hopefully)… but then I notice the slowing down, change of pace, acceptance of the natural flow of things with less pressures. Can still be challenging and maybe boring for them, still with even a slight shadow of fear about the future especially for those on the brink of adulthood. Shouldn’t happen! I wish there was so much less pressure on the young about being ‘successful’. Then, a little ‘good stress’ can be helpful. But looking upon someone or two close to me in particular, I see a different sort of blossoming. Healing, that childlike wonder as someone mentioned before, of seeing things with new eyes, putting aside working roles, the ‘come down’. Thank you for listening, Steven, and sorry if I overburdened you. I didn’t know quite who else to say it to who I thought would vaguely understand that intensity and depth of artistic involvement apart from the young ones I try to help.

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    tearle | 31 December 2014 at 1:54 am #

    Steven, thanking you and your Band for a great night. Being in an Aircraft Hangar with The Church 🙂 Lucky me tonight 🙂 Those Guitars! I love your poetry, but Music… glad your in the world. Happy New Year sparky one xxx

  8. etta
    etta | 31 December 2014 at 9:49 am #

    by the time I read this
    you will have wound up again spun round
    then wound down again I guess

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    Anonymous | 31 December 2014 at 1:15 pm #

    As im hopeless at wking this tweet acc. Looks like I missed a good set of songs going by the posted set list. Thank u Mucho Bravado.

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    kell | 31 December 2014 at 8:08 pm #

    I lika de book. Every time i pick it up & read i can’t put it down…for hours!!

  11. avatar
    Chris | 1 January 2015 at 11:00 am #

    this has the same luminous and transcendent quality as Shell……one of your best. The last line expands in meaning time significance and thought….good one mahatma!

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    always@meetsdeadlines | 2 January 2015 at 12:09 pm #

    The Arts – whether design, medicine or music, have a strong dark will. Most don’t understand what it is to purposely go to dangerous places to investigate ideas/thoughts, or to heal. It’s what we do. There is no decision, not. What has been experienced cannot be denied. There in our heads forever burning – sometimes it means power, we are stronger. The others can only smell the ozone, and don’t want to know about “those things” anyway. Yeah we can scare the shit out of ourselves with what we’ve allowed ourselves to understand. Sometimes we barely make it back because the dark has the upper hand …unexpectedly.

    I’ve studied and worked two of these darkish arts in my life. Neither one is respected as it once was …which does complicate things for us, now doesn’t it 🙂

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      thetimebeing | 2 January 2015 at 2:01 pm #

      elaborate on these darkish arts

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      Anonymous | 2 January 2015 at 3:25 pm #

      My experince is dark arts doesnt heal but makes one sicker & the environment around such practices.
      & those who make me burn by their dark practices I rebuke in the name of myLord Jesus Christ.

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        thetimebeing | 2 January 2015 at 6:55 pm #

        gee

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        Anonymous | 3 January 2015 at 12:54 pm #

        As I’m seeking diarised personal wk info 2 finalise a ltr. I stumble upon this entry in one of my many diaries: s’ visor states “what we got a run of sick kids this week (in hospital) – don’t parents look after them?” Silently I think to myself ‘everyone knows parents hate seeing their kids sick. It worries & saddens them immensely. I know those in the community who are witches & play with dark practices make our kids sick.’

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    tearle | 2 January 2015 at 9:43 pm #

    this is hilarious, sort of

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    always@meetsdeadlines | 3 January 2015 at 5:30 am #

    No, definitely not what I was talking about. Both Jesus and The Devil understand that my comment is not about them 🙂 No worries then there anon, OK?

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    Anonymous | 3 January 2015 at 12:56 pm #

    As I’m seeking diarised personal wk info 2 finalise a ltr. I stumble upon this entry in one of my many diaries: s’ visor states “what we got a run of sick kids this week (in hospital) – don’t parents look after them?” Silently I think to myself ‘everyone knows parents hate seeing their kids sick. It worries & saddens them immensely. I know those in the community who are witches & play with dark practices make our kids sick.’

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      thetimebeing | 3 January 2015 at 7:53 pm #

      gee and i thought it was bacteria
      it was witches all along
      we should burn them at the stake for sure

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        Anonymous | 4 January 2015 at 8:07 am #

        Says the man who had been complaining about being laid up for too long with flu like symptoms.

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          thetimebeing | 4 January 2015 at 12:20 pm #

          yeah i’m blaming the witches
          easy to blame some claptrap like “dark powers”
          wanna talk about a “dark power”
          big old jehovah who flooded the whole world
          man thats dark!

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    always@meetsdeadlines | 4 January 2015 at 1:37 pm #

    This all has gone too far, but curiously, not deep enough for me.

    -just had to


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