posted on July 12, 2010 at 10:20 am

whats going on on planet earth
(jord the swedes call earth)
whats going on here?
wouldnt ya like to know?
i know i would ….but the answer remains elusive
are we even capable of being able to grok it ?
is it like teaching a hamster calculus…is it beyond us?
they say we only use ten per cent of our brains
whats going on in the other 90%
i often wonder
how many times you been on the verge of some big realisation
and you just try to put it into words and it evaporates
loadsa times on acid i thought i knew
but the trip ended and i was empty handed
sometimes left with something as profound as
uh, everythings gonna be ok…
not exactly plato is it?
they say loves the answer
i guess theres some truth in that
if you can love everybody;
it doesnt mean love yer lover or love yer friends
anybody can do that but that aint enlightenment
its very hard to love everybody
its hard just to like everybody
its hard just to be even handed n turn the other cheek
i guess thats why old jesus h christos was such a revolutionary
he said love everybody in a time when love was at a premium
a time of brute force and much laying waste
i remember learning latin
there was loads of translation work
a lot of it was
oh mighty caesar we have laid waste gaul
oh centurion how shall we kill all these britons? etc
tough times to live in
then this guy had a new idea
hey be nice to everybody
sounds pretty simple
no one had really thought of it up until then
still very hard to pull off
you stand in a crowd
yeah i could be nice to him
yeah i could nice to her
oh wait…but i couldnt be nice to this person…!
it seems like its all devised to go wrong
man against woman
nation against nation
this crowd versus that crowd
we humans turned on the very earth itself
witness the meat industry n the petrol industry
and all the rest of it
no one wants wars but theres always a loada wars going on
animals becoming extinct
whats behind it all?
what can you do ?
what can one person do?
should we do anything?
or is it merely an obstacle course to negotiate n move on…?
i’m blowed if i know
i’m just a singer in a rocknroll band
n its only rocknroll but i like it
smoking voluminous quantities of pot
sure does not give you the answer
tho sometimes it threatens to
it just numbs ya dumbs ya down
so i’m glad i made the wrench and i’m glad i finally stopped
i have no opinion of the people who wanna carry on
i know its better for ya than drinking thats obvious
still you aint gonna get anywhere spiritually if you intoxicate yerself
you need a clear head to feel the subtle messages of the soul
you need to vibrate quicker and faster
at least thats what i think
thats why i persevere with yoga day in day out
sometimes i just dont wanna stand there doing it
contorted myself into its different poses
sometimes i dont wanna swim in a cold pool either
but thats discipline for ya
you gotta have self discipline
i once read a book by israel regardie an early 20th century magician
he advocated setting yourself a meaningless task that required concentration
n discipline
like for example not using the word “the” for a day
you had to remain aware all day
everytime regardie caught himself saying “the”
he would give himself a small cut somewhere with a knife
thats kinda extreme but can you see the point
to train yourself to be constantly aware
not just sleepwalk thru life wasting your human incarnation
so i practice yoga twice a day most days
i get up earlier or go to bed later just to do it
i do it on tour too even when i’m tired
so in that way i begin to master myself
i been wildly off track for most of my life so theres a lot to master
so when i approach other tasks
i have already got myself somewhat under control
some people ‘ll tell ya i got a terrible temper n i have
theres something to work on
some of the deadly sins losing their grip on me
some of em i’m still in thrall to
rome wasnt built in a day mighty caesar
i am constantly a work in progress
i have seen yoga turning my life around
i have seen good things come to pass for me
i feel people are interested in what i do again
after i nearly blitzed my self out of existence with you-know-what
believe me i’m grateful for this second chance
and i feel yoga and exercise can turn anyones life around
if they can mine
of course pride comes back into the picture again
i mean i’m proud of what ive accomplished
and then my ego runs amok all over again
sloth ive definitely beaten
gluttony isnt a worry for me
envy still got its hooks in me bad
the fucking music industry is built on it
(find a book called “powder” about an envious rocker…
its a real hoot n very realistic)
but pride vanity lust n anger are hard ones to shake
my gnostic mate dp tells me they work together to bring us undone
like generals in a war they mobilise their forces to fuck with us
and its only very human to give in to their combined onslaughts
only very few cats like JC and ghandi n st francis n buddha
have figured out ways to defeat these things that plague us
what am i saying here
i dunno exactly
i’m sick of myself n sick of dancing to the tune of my deadly sins
theres gotta be another way
thats where yoga comes in for me
yoking myself to something greater than me
i dunno what youd call that but its working slowly but surely
a slim trim body is just a side effect of that (ooh theres pride for ya!)
you start to develop some kinda deeper insight into things
for short amounts of time youre actually “aware”
i saw some black birds on the way to the pool the other day
i was walking along caught up in my petty melodramas
n then i saw em
four beautiful black birds flying in perfect formation
so black against the blue sky n white clouds
for just one second i was truly aware
i was right there
living my life to the utmost degree
not in the past
not in the future
but there in that eternal moment
and it was breathtakingly delicious
like nectar
the perfection of it all
this wonderful marvellous universe with its diverse creatures
these birds flying along in synchronized gestalt
and me watching em
freed up from my minds clutter n chatter
better than any drug better than any material thing
better than a prize or a hit record or a fat cheque
better than an orgasm or a medal or anything you can think of
just being just coexisting
just wanting nothing at all
n then my ego says
well there you go my boy youre getting aware
and crash
it was all over
but i was thankful for my moment
it gives me something to shoot for
it gives me a clue about what eternity might feel like
and it was a sweet subtle bliss that drugs n drink would bury
so there you go
i’m gonna try n still my mind a little more
its a turbulent emotional mind
screaming out for constant attention n appeasement
it is the hardest thing to conquer
it has to be done tho
before i can move on to whatever is next
i dont know what that may be
but i want it
i know its sublime
it aint easy to find
its riddled with paradox n obscured by layers of maya
thats my sermon over

66 Responses to “timebeing spacebeing mindbeing dreambeing”

  1. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 12 July 2010 at 12:16 pm #

    that degree of awareness requires a great degree of selflessness, am i right? there's the conflict, as i see it, between the pursuit of spirituality and greater consciousness and then working in an industry where ego and self/the pursuit of ambition are at the forefront…..just a thought…
    (voice in the next room: WHAT A LOAD OF MEANDERING BULLSHIT, HH…)

    love always…..

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 12:17 pm #

    A meaningless task that requires concentration….

    Yes most of us call it job you fucktard.

    You are as enlightened at a teenager who has quit school and spends most of his time wanking

  3. avatar
    steve kilbey | 12 July 2010 at 12:20 pm #

    theres a classic case of envy for you….

  4. avatar
    steve kilbey | 12 July 2010 at 12:21 pm #

    andy youre comments disappeared into the aether

  5. avatar
    steve kilbey | 12 July 2010 at 12:22 pm #

    and i accidentally lost the ones that told me to think about my children…sorry

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 12:25 pm #

    Envy you!

    Ha what a joke.

    Turn off your comments for 1 month. In fact stop blogging for 1 month. I dare you to give up your worst addiction ever. Ego old man, always has been, always will being.

  7. avatar
    steve kilbey | 12 July 2010 at 12:29 pm #

    i dare you to find someone else to try to bother
    you sad envious tiny pig
    why are you still here?

  8. avatar
    Richard | 12 July 2010 at 12:32 pm #

    trees will often do your black bird thing for me

    and they're slower moving, so you can go back for more

    lying in bed and listening half awake to the morning birdsong is also up there

  9. avatar
    Todd Goninon (SHARKA ) | 12 July 2010 at 12:34 pm #

    Thanks for your words, Killa. Always a pleasure.

  10. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 12 July 2010 at 12:54 pm #

    Those short moments of bliss that you refer to are very special, and I wish I could just submit to them more often instead of chasing the gold at the end of the rainbow. After all, it's the rainbow that I really enjoy.

  11. avatar
    Broken Toys and Heros | 12 July 2010 at 12:56 pm #

    guess u didnt have much to say in todays blog entry…LOL

    if u think it is at all possible- can u begin a countdown to ???

    couple days ago u stated that todays pop groups are not much to look at or turn an ear towards…there is a new band of brothers who come from a very large religious family that are excellent professional musicians. the singer has a interesting voice-a twist of young Bono and a country crooner. u can easily look them up on the web now. i believe that these brothers will have staying power and when they can create outside of a record labels "advice" , they will evolve into someone very relevant- a band that can distance themselves from the dribble that pours from radios these days. Sons of Sylvia is their name. Cd is called Revelation. The song "the War Within" is excellent along with many others.

    they are southern boys who love life, family, and Jesus-that alone cant be all bad.



  12. avatar
    john | 12 July 2010 at 1:16 pm #


    your questions r real . u sing prose and write what all lucid people ponder.

    a couple of proverbs

    "all pearls come from an irritation"

    "iron sharpens iron"

    john s

    my thoughts r too personal for facebook
    dont cast pearls to swine ( of course not everybody)

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    etherealbutterfly | 12 July 2010 at 1:16 pm #

    Speaking of the deadly sins – the sufi mystics believed to have the answers to human ego suffering and Gerdjieff began the process of bringing their enlightened teachings to western civilization, (remember in the Kate Bush song; they bring me Gerdjieff and Jesu…) The teachings of the Sufi mystics is known as the Enneagram. Each Sin is addressed as a number: (Envy is a 4.) Anyone interested check out:

    Basically, The enneagram is a systematic approach ( thousands of years old) to personality typing.

    It maybe useful to read about the 4 – also known as the Tragic Romantic or The Artist.

    Peace & Love to all

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 1:28 pm #

    glad to read your musings on Jesus. can't go wrong with that guy, or anything he taught. investigate further, I guarantee you steps upward on the long path.

  15. avatar
    Freddie | 12 July 2010 at 1:38 pm #

    I like the forest. I get that feeling in the forest. It wraps all around you with its trees, breezes, birds and squirrels. :^) ♥

  16. avatar
    Georgia | 12 July 2010 at 1:55 pm #

    Anonymous-there is nothing like a person who decides to trash another and not even be brave enough to post their name. So..Anonymous, what is YOUR sad excuse for existing? Now..part of me wonders, is this a test for St. Steven to love the total jerk? or is this proof that it is impossible to love the total jerk?

    Steven, for years, I have thought about the words to This is It and now, about your comments about your distance with your Swedish daughters and of Michael and how he threw it all away. (And worse yet, now his precious daughter is totally estranged from his family and has been living with Sir Bob, Michael's enemy. He cannot mend that fence and she is lost to that part of their family….) This is not true with you. You gave up everything to be with them, despite the fact you were not in the frame of mind and body to give them what you now give your younger daughters. You have time to get to know them as adults and you have time to repair. It may not happen right this minute, but I seriously believe that is what you must aspire to.

    …and in my heart I believe you were granted so many daughters because, with them, there is something there you want/need to understand to move forward.

    Just my gut feeling.

    And as for This Is It, there are many times I cannot even listen to that song…it is so painful because you captured it all so perfectly. You may struggle now with some of you vices and although it is painful to read of your struggles, It is far superior to the concept of another songwriter crafting a song like This Is It in memory of you.

    Keep writing. Keep going. Keep believing.

    We will be here.

    Much love,

  17. avatar
    Cocoamo | 12 July 2010 at 2:41 pm #

    Dear Steven:

    Interesting the birds inspired you. So the story goes – the original Buddha, as a child, fainted, so overcome by the beauty of a flock of flamingoes taking wing.

    After I read The Natural Mind, I wondered, how do you actually still the mind, meditate, think of one thing? One of those amazing coincidences you speak of then occurred: A friend I hadn't seen in years showed up with a book – "How to Meditate", saying she thought I might be interested in it?

    Incidentally, the recommendation of that book for a good method of meditation is to count your breaths (one inhale/exhale = a breath) until you get to four, then start over again with one – keep repeating the process. Breathe any way you want, just concentrate on the counting and try to think of nothing else. Set a timer for 15 minutes, or however long you want to go so you don't have to think about when to end the exercise.

    Oh, and yes, I don't do it. I keep saying I will and how beneficial it is supposed to be. My theory is that my ego knows meditation would endanger its existence, and finds ways to distract me from the practice.

    You said a real mouthful when you talked about self discipline.

    YOU are in inspiration.

    Your friend in Pennsylvania

  18. avatar
    DavidP | 12 July 2010 at 3:11 pm #

    i'm glad you had that experience of pure awareness sk,
    that was the real you active in that moment.
    now you know what it is like from direct experience and that is real knowledge, not a blind belief, so much better isn't it?
    now you know just how much its worth fighting for,
    "aint it funny how you feel when your finding out its real…"
    imagine having that amount of awareness in the astral…
    beethoven is waiting for you at the temple of music
    there are specific ways of eliminating those psychological aspects
    it is a revolution, of psychology, and it is prayer in the work
    it works!
    i like to go for walks, particularly walks in nature, with the aim to just be aware and not caught up in the daydreams of the mind, alert to novelty
    read them books, do them mantras
    take care, be aware

  19. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 3:15 pm #

    No pot for almost a month and this weekend, no booze for the first time in I can not remember. feels good!


  20. avatar
    LF | 12 July 2010 at 3:25 pm #

    So maybe sending you an article about the corpses of beheaded gladiators was not the most brilliant way to cheer you up. Um…sorry about that.

    Glad the blackbirds intervened.

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 3:38 pm #


    the ancient greeks (pre-athenean… pre-christ) were the most feared warriors ever — they were paid assasins; then the King ran out of money… at the same time the planets collided — no, I'm sorry, at the time they came face to face with the fair haired/skinned atheneans; and thus, they put down their weapons and voila: enlightenment: the only period in history of thousands of years of peace (with only one political execution/not bad/in their history) until the Romans… western civilitation/ the good side at least would never have given us history without (the atheneans).

    our molecules speed up as we grow older — it is said that at approx. 20 -22 yrs is when a "day" is an actual "day." Which sort of makes sense when you remember back to how long a day seemed when you were a kid… waiting a half hour seemed an eternity. (But you got a lot more time to live in the moment and if you were lucky enough to be a child prior to this electronic age, you can remember the feeling a little better).

    The British philosopher: Watts — I remember reading about a couple of his theories: society's fight against nature; — there is nothing "straight" about nature, instead there is a natural curve to everything; yet man's structures and lives are built on foundations that only allow straight angles — it screws things up. and it is like when a child puts his/her head into a rose prior to when language is associated to it; it is just an experience to be part of. That the lesson of language, "it is a rose," takes half the experience away. Meditation allows that back (hopefully).

    a little pride is way better than self-loathing; and takes way more self-discipline to hide.

    I just got my pot card for medical use a while back; though I've never been a pot smoker… my veterinarian informed that the pot does a lot less damage to my aging dogs' livers than does the medication rx'd to help them with the pain of hip arthritis. I remember the look on the people doctor's face when I told him why I wanted the medical card… I believe he thought I was lying; but they won't issue cards for your pets' medical care. I had been walking one of my dogs in a canyon one day; and this man with a very old, very happy looking Irish Wolfhound came in our path… he enlightened me; I asked my vet; resolved it to be better, then: there I sat in line with older Russian immigrants and the rest of them — in an office waiting for my interview and picture to be taken… my dogs are happy now (and it was a pretty picture/much better than the dmv…maybe it was the lighting(?)… I have to remember to send that nice young lady who took the pic an xmas card).

  22. avatar
    cazziem | 12 July 2010 at 4:07 pm #

    Life is such a rat race and sadly full of rats!
    Far too often we miss things that make us smile because we are dashing about doing what is expected of us, or at least reacting to what is expected of us. As for being nice to everyone, yeah it's real tough especially when that someone has hurt you or your family. But usually when you are nice to someone that’s cause this pain, (unless that person has no feeling) then he/she has to live with the guilt of the pain they caused, you don't! The only downside to this way of living, (which I haven't quite mastered yet,) is where the line is that takes you from being nice to being used. Sadly, I tend to end up being the latter! Never mind, I can live with being a nice person. Haha!

  23. avatar
    esne snoner | 12 July 2010 at 4:47 pm #

    inspirational as usual sk – i wake in the middle of the night with a thousand things in my head, turn on and tune in to the news of the world and still the head is spinning then read your blog and all seems fine – a reminder to love the adversaries and savour the moments of epiphany

    …sermon does seem the right word

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 5:06 pm #


    All I can say is your post hit me like a ton of bricks today. I so wish I could learn to live in the moment and just enjoy everything. A couple of months ago you posted all of things we needed more of, the ocean was one of them. Here I am, I rented a house on the ocean and I am living on the beach this week with my wife and kids. I think the hardest part is knowing its going to end on Sunday. If I am not careful I will worry about, work , my house, other things and miss out on the whole week. So again thanks for your words it hit home today. Your post the last few days have been very interesting, your music is spellbinding and you really do not give yourself enough credit in this departement. I agree you should not look back and move forward like a shark and keep pushing forward, if more people were really "aware" we would be having a totally different conversation. So keep on writing, singing, swimming, yoga and enjoy every moment you deserve it. I am going to that very thing as soon as I say Goodbye.

    Jason (jmb066)

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    Broken Toys and Heros | 12 July 2010 at 5:07 pm #


    "Powder" is a brilliant book. For all u blog readers- u can easily find the book on amazon for just .01 ( yes- a frickin penny-but couple bucks for shipping). The author uses a clockwork orange-esque form of language that makes its descriptive nature more involving for the reader.

    A GREAT bio (almost on the level of yours) is Depeche Modes "Stripped". The book documents the rise of the greatest pop-electronic band ever !! Sir Dave's battle with his many demons is heart-wrenching to read and the inner struggle of men who many believe are not and never will be "musicians" , I beg to differ. Alan Wilder was a technical genius and the most under-rated member of any successful band ever. Iv read the book 3 times, if u'd like my copy – i would send it to u ( yes- all the way from Chicago)- just let me know.


  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 5:32 pm #

    Anon @ 10:17: if you hate the blogger why are you reading his blog?

    SK: true enlightenment=don't react, all idiots must be ignored

  27. avatar
    knot | 12 July 2010 at 5:45 pm #

    wu is the word

  28. avatar
    persephone2u | 12 July 2010 at 5:54 pm #

    You're on the right path. I quite like Regardie's idea of a meaningless task to focus your mind on. I'll have to read up further on that now. I think most people probably spend their whole lives sleepwalking, at least from my observation. If you can be the true master of yourself, you've already accomplished more than most.

    The deadly sins, I dunno – they're great subjects for Hieronymus Bosch paintings, but I wouldn't spend much time worrying about them. Gluttony, sloth, etc. are just names we humans have given to things and they don't really mean much. I used to enjoy reading Zen Master Seung Sahn's books where he advocated just going straight with saying you know nothing, the "only don't know" approach and that as long as you're not super attached to anything it's all okay. Everyone has a different interpretation of sin and it is what people make it. It's just another word we've invented, one that we humans have placed our own personal values and beliefs on.

  29. avatar
    Jason Haas | 12 July 2010 at 5:56 pm #


  30. avatar
    Ellen | 12 July 2010 at 6:20 pm #

    Good sermon, sir.

    I started taking yoga several times a week after a lengthy layoff. It sure feels right to be back doing yoga. My body takes to it like a fish to water, although there are loads of poses that are still extremely challenging.

    I definitely do not have the answer and I've pretty much given up trying to find it. I just try to live my life day-at-a-time, and yoga helps in that way.

    So glad to hear you're off the drugs. I didn't want to scold you or preach to you, but secretly was hoping you'd "see the light" about giving up that garbage. You're right – you do NOT need it. It only hinders you in everyway.

    And now, MY sermon is over. LOL!

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 6:57 pm #

    Anononymous hideing in the shadows pissing down from the peanut gallery like those two old guys in the muppetts, he's kind of right though. a crappy job like the rest of us is not the way forward but it does have its lessons..apparently. I can barley hold one down though cause I keep thinkin something better has got to be out thier "anywhere but here". each man is conected to the divine if thier slogin' away in the stinkin sink of the abatoir or dancin in the spotlite wearing sparkley bell bottoms. you should get a job at crappy office for a few months leave of the poetry for a while it'll but more hot sousce back in to yer creativity bottle it'll mix it up a bit. I always find it weird that artists always need to be so near thier easil so to speak. very often they don't let their tanks fill up again with world experience.. pleasnt or unpleasant.. ps hope everyone in the fam is well.. and your beloved daughter gets better

  32. avatar
    Andrea | 12 July 2010 at 7:03 pm #

    I've been sitting on the edge of a cliff in the faroe islands- it's called ambadalur and everyone who's been there knows that kind of bliss- listening to the soft sound of the wind, the sea crashing on the rocks 70 meters below, and the calls of the seagulls- those were moments exactly as you described- it's there for us all to see if we only have eyes- i recognize myself very much in what you describe and your music is the soundtrack to all this.

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    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 7:28 pm #


  34. avatar
    restaurant mark | 12 July 2010 at 8:28 pm #

    well despite the comments from the anonymous jackass, who apparently woke up on the wrong side of something today, i really appreciated today's blog. things have been a bit stressful here lately…the cost of kids, too many bills, not enough money coming in…you know the routine…i know i'm not alone. anyway…reading today's had a calming effect…appreciate it.

    take care

  35. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 12 July 2010 at 9:13 pm #

    you can't hide from the alien inside…

  36. avatar
    isolde | 12 July 2010 at 9:17 pm #

    your writing is much more powerful when your head is clear

  37. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 12 July 2010 at 9:20 pm #

    looks like anonymous needs to be taken out for a joy ride…lol

  38. avatar
    plumlady | 12 July 2010 at 9:51 pm #

    I'm sure reality is a lot of ups and downs now that you're straight as a stick. I only smoke occasionally and it doesn't have the same effect it did years ago. But I have to admit I'm anxious for it to be legalized and see how that changes things here in America. But I worry about habitual folks who smoke ALL the time; like my 31 year old son who has been smoking daily since his teens. I think I will forward him some of your comments from this blog in hopes that he will read them and maybe think twice about all his habitual smoking. I've seen him when he goes without for a few days and it wasn't pretty. (It's a good thing he doesn't have a wife, because I don't think she'd put up with him.) How is your wife taking all this; you haven't spoke of her for awhile.

    I've concluded that pot is really only good for the very young (teens/twenty-somethings, OLD people (like much older than us, or terminally ill people). You certainly don't need it to keep on with your creativity….the talent just flows out of you…always has.

    And that wanting to be loved thing….Eddie Vedder is singing a song about how lucky he is to have so many people love him when there are so many that have only just one (or none). Steve, you have SO MANY people that love you for just who you are (all the people that actually KNOW you…lucky blokes); and then yes, there's all of us fans and blog readers that love you too — ciompletely unconditionally!

  39. avatar
    Tanyakc65 | 12 July 2010 at 9:56 pm #

    Yeah, the birds….I don't want to live in a world without birds in the sky. I'm grateful for that awareness myself. What an awesome distraction from complexities in this life.

  40. avatar
    innerspacepilot | 12 July 2010 at 10:38 pm #

    Yeah, well, acid takes you there – to paradise, but after appr. 12 hours of Enlightenment you`re told to leave!! What a bummer! I know the feeling. After spending hours and hours (in the old days) lost in acid induced visions of how things REALLY are I these days practice the Advaita Vedanta teachings old and new, the only insight I`ve found that really address my experiences of yore and give them meaning and purpose.The Way Out is right under our noses……
    As the Wise Man in our heart says: "I AM closer than hands and feet, nearer than breathing…."
    Meanwhile, in this space-time continuum, on the outskirts of infinity, on a small planet in a small galaxy somewhere in the deep of Space forever spinning faster and faster into the abyss,I keep listening to "Stardust" – what a great song!!

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 July 2010 at 11:30 pm #

    As Britsh Summer Time is in its wane I suppose I'll miss the early morning bike rides. Sometimes I just wake up and click to life. If it's light and it's 4am then great. The town will be quieter and the bike ride to the shore to watch the eastern sunrise, breathe the air, the freshness of a good chi day. Sometimes it just makes sense

  42. avatar
    Jasperina | 12 July 2010 at 11:59 pm #

    Birds are glorious spirit beings. Dream being dream on…

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    evilren | 13 July 2010 at 12:16 am #

    I tire of the haters, there is never a short supply. Then the christians with their "I told you so" and criticism
    and condemnation–if you did everything right then
    why are you here? Worry about yourself and there will
    be one less rascal in the world.

  44. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 July 2010 at 1:39 am #

    'frustration is the mother of creativity' – Gina Cerminara

    the mother

    the Mother

    the MOTHER

    so, take your time in detaching and finding your nirvana, my man. take your time, take your time. we need the work product of the right half of your brain a bit longer.

    Wilfred Paradise

  45. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 July 2010 at 2:20 am #

    I need some new kind of drug

  46. avatar
    Donna | 13 July 2010 at 3:53 am #

    Steve, hey!!

    Cool entry.

    One theory as to why we only use 10% of our brains is because our minds were meant for eternity.

    It IS possible to love everybody – even our enemies – but it is only possible with God's help. But so few of us see the need to seek God's grace. I have a hard time with this, but who doesn't? Yet, we have to try.

    What can you do? What can one person do? Resolve to be a blessing to others: your friends, family, neighbors, co-workers, and even strangers. You make life more bearable for them and you will find satisfaction.

    As for "Anonymous"? One way to love him is to simply overlook his (her?)attack. Wish him well. Maybe he'll realize that he's being hateful. Then again, maybe not. God eventually deals with each and every one of us. Anyway, you have a lot of good friends "out there"…I think your readers are generally kind, thoughtful people who obviously care a lot about you.

    Hope you're having a great day!! Mine was hectic, but good! Good night!

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    lotus | 13 July 2010 at 5:56 am #

    i really enjoyed your thoughts today, thank you for sharing them –

    as to dealing with anonymous critics, they're not worthy of your time or energy. a friend of mine used to put it this way:

    "never roll around in the mud with a pig. you both get dirty, and the pig enjoys it."

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    persephone2u | 13 July 2010 at 6:01 am #


    Nobody is totally certain where the idea that we only use 10 or 11% of our brains came from, but scans of the brain have shown that this actually isn't the case at all. It's one of those things I used to say a lot too, until I realized I'd just been repeating what I'd always heard.

    There's still a lot about the brain that scientists don't understand and there is a huge amount of untapped and potential power there, but we do use most of our brain on a daily basis – we just use certain areas at different times depending on whether we're eating, sleeping, reading, etc. so we're not using every single bit of it all the time, but most of it is actually used in sum total. Perhaps that's where the 10% myth came from? The brain is an interesting topic, to say the least!

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    Anonymous | 13 July 2010 at 6:16 am #

    I hate it when my words won't speak the thoughts in my mind, or if they come out wrong. I often pray for the good Lord to guide my every word because sometimes I should just not speak. I am trying that now – Not talking very much. Trying to be quiet, but here I am rambling.

    One thing for sure, I fried a few brain cells in my day and made mistakes, and wish I hadn't … but what are you going to do … Glad I quit 4 yrs. ago. I don't remember the date — just glad that I stopped it all…..moving forward for the love of family in hopes that all will be forgiven someday. It does not happen overnight, FYI — but if you hang it there, over time, you will be thankful that you did. God bless and sending strength 2 U. I post anon cuz this stupid thing won't take my pw. grrr.

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    steve kilbey | 13 July 2010 at 6:32 am #

    hey richard
    almost cracked 50 comments without cheating!

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    Anonymous | 13 July 2010 at 6:47 am #

    how come all these peepil say many good things to you, supporting happy words and whatnot, and you respond only to the "envious tiny pig" (what a killer term- i'm borrowing it!)?


    yeah, yeah, peepil love me, more on that sure, but OHNOSOMEONEISANARSE! fie on 'im!

    jes wondrin.

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    Richard | 13 July 2010 at 6:47 am #

    yeah, well you WILL engage with the anons wontchya?

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    DavidP | 13 July 2010 at 7:05 am #

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    fantasticandy | 13 July 2010 at 7:59 am #

    straight from the heart….
    straight to the heart.
    eloquence abounds in your musings guru!

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    melissa | 13 July 2010 at 9:26 am #

    good god, I love your sermon bloggy's, I really do !!

    thank you so much sk :))))


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    10DD | 13 July 2010 at 1:03 pm #

    thanks for the words SK. I am dropping a ball and chain vice this week to see things clear again.

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    Donna | 14 July 2010 at 12:26 am #


    I like that saying about the 10% of the brain, not because it was ever considered factual, but because it suggests (like you say)that there is so much untapped potential there. So much remains a mystery. Our bodies grow old before our eyes, yet in our minds we feel young. Although the "10%" estimate is considered incorrect and not to be taken as "fact",it is not so far off. It is a reminder to mankind that there is so much we don't know about when it comes to the mind and the soul, and about man's inexplicable desire to live on – thinking, feeling, loving – even after our bodies are long gone. Thanks for your respectful, thoughtful response!!

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    Anonymous | 14 July 2010 at 1:54 pm #

    Actually, that 10% brain figure is a myth. It's much closer to 100%. But fortunately, the brain isn't about separate, distinct compartments (not completely). New pathways and connections can be formed. So there is always a little hope, I s'pose.

    About the hateful poster – I gotta admit, despite his rudeness, he did succeed in bringing out Steve's immature side. Oh well, I'm sure even Gandhi had his sandal-throwing moments behind closed curtains when the tea showed up cold. 🙂

    Good luck to your attempts to stay disciplined. And hopefully your daughter will breathe true again. Speaking of which; I thought Australia provided health coverage for all? That insta-4 grand sounds like our situation here in the states, only with one less zero or so.

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    redgrevillea | 16 July 2010 at 11:12 am #

    wow.. amazing stuff. There's much here that I relate to…I think about these things almost all of the time. I think I'm close to …'that'…but my impediment is a little devil that sits in my stomach and its colour is red and its name is anger and its character is destruction. Otherwise it's all light and roses really..

    no point in emphasising the evil bits as they exacerbate and grow. and yet it's the hardest thing on earth it seems to extinguish the 'ignorance' to the point where one is totally free of unhappiness, in my view.

    You're to be commended not only for your extraordinary work, but perhaps moreso for sticking to yoga and especially for jumping in the pool every day of the year – that takes some mighty fortitude!!

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    Anonymous | 16 July 2010 at 4:21 pm #

    I really appreciate these thoughts, Steve.

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    DavidP | 17 July 2010 at 3:06 am #

    hi redgrevillea, I like your description of anger, I can relate to it very much. In my experience it is possible to "extinguish" inner states like that so they don't exacerbate or grow but instead they reduce and eventually disintegrate. They say one achieves true freedom, wisdom, peace and happiness in doing so. Not that I've completely gotten rid of my anger but it certainly has reduced and I can see I am on the way to it being completely gone if I can keep going. I work on the other inner demons in the same way. They say this is one of the key ways to achieving spiritual enlightenment.
    This key is referred to in different ways such as the mystical death, the psychological death, dying to oneself, the death of the egos. In doing this not only do we "wake up" our consciousness more and more in our daily lives but also more and more in that third of our lives when the physical body sleeps. Check out the links in my profile if you want to know more. There's a free course in Bondi Junction & Chatswood all about this stuff.

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    Anonymous | 20 July 2010 at 6:44 am #

    reading some of the above

    Kind of late to post, but: Physics 101 (and I state this with kindness, really, I do) —

    Fear and anger are only vector functions. And way easier than the physical world to re-arrange so nothing gets destroyed; just even one of the components of fear/anger can be taken apart/out of the equation and you get [an] understanding of the remaining forces that make sense.

    Fear is the most volatile of all emotions, and is the primary cause of anger (I think).

    So, if you can (mentally) take away even only one of the variable elements or even just change the angle of impact, the outcome difuses enough to go forward without the stuff that destroys.

    …the only thing to fear is fear, itself. I think he meant it different than I understand it, but it is a true statement, nonetheless.

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    DavidP | 20 July 2010 at 11:00 am #

    hi Anon 4:44pm,
    I think you have said the same thing as me except you said it in a different way. If you eliminate one aspect of say anger then you are in effect weakening the overall hold that inner state has on you. And it is also like pealing away layers of an onion. Once you get rid of one layer it allows you to see the next layer which you were previously blind to.
    I think fear and anger come from Pride.

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    Anonymous | 21 July 2010 at 5:47 am #


    Hi. Yes, I did say the same thing… I think mine came out via the "mom gene." that urgency to present for a way out that is simplified enough it can be accomplished and everyone is okay…

    …hubris, false-pride, vanity of self, group(force)identity is all just a circle of self-loathing, envy and greed — not so good — like you said, fear and anger come from; but to have faith and love and hope and humility for another you are proud of, I think — not so bad (mom gene again, I guess).

    You just made me think — thanks.

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    DavidP | 21 July 2010 at 6:26 am #

    hi Anon mom,
    yeah, and shy-ness is a form of pride too, ironic isn't it?
    And then there is the pride of false humility…
    I think/feel of being happy for someone or admiring them rather than being proud of them.


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    Anonymous | 21 July 2010 at 8:46 pm #

    Again, thanks for the kind thoughts. Take care dear Sir.

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