posted on May 31, 2007 at 3:11 am

whats going on?
who turned out the lights?
im a what…..? a human bean on erf?
oh no
not this routine again
im tellin’ ya fiendss and others
i still cant get used to it
will someone tell me whats a’happening baby
cos this thing called life is blowing my mind
people getting really sick n ill all over the place
why cant i do something?
is it my ego that thinks i should be able to do something?
is it a typical male response?
hold on im just doing my wrist inverse flexi-jobs
to counter the constricting rsi
my backs getting better
but my wrist is re-locking
(im doing the exercises coach)
now davem
when i mention my wrist
i hope yer not going all frankie howerd
(the prologue….)
god where was i
people say
oh timebeeing your music heals
but i wanna do it the real way
i wanna cast that bastard out
that addiction
that fucking cancer
that nasty thing in whatever guise it might take
there is a way to do it
sometimes i think its on the tip of my tongue
its gotta be the most easy obvious thing
except for one thing
you gotta have faith
faith in what ? you curious fiendss ask
faith in something including but beyond yourself
even if its just total faith in the process
oh thats not so easy
total faith
so within reach
yet so seemingly unreachable
it means a total focus of your prana energy
of your vitality
of your qi
of your ooomph
of the thing you reckon you got
if ya wanna heal someone with your faith
does it work?
absolutely i believe this
how many people can manifest total faith?
hardly any…definitely i wont be one this turn
oh my motivation is all wrong…
still ….
but miracles are rare in my opinion
down here on erf
everything seems mixed up
or is that me?
the villains appear to be mostly winning
the planet itselfs in badde shape
and i mean badde
(someone out there contradict me fersure)
i dunno
im a bloody olde pop singer…
theyre still fuckin’ harpooning the whales
theyre still clubbing the seals
theyre still slaughtering the beasts in hellish slaughterhouses
theyre still dreaming up reasons to have wars
(im still asking who authorised that first world war
and what do they say now its all over)
theyre still printin’ the goss rags
that make you feel putrid
just like a big mac would
theyre still cutting down them forests
(daddy…whats a forest
its a bunch of trees, darling
yes daughter
whats a tree?)
theyre still laying about watching soapies
theyre still getting obese n anorexic
theyre still having domestic violence
n international argy bargy
theyre still having boy bands and hair product
theyre still doing all that jazz ya gotta love
and the confusing thing
having said all that
there are those rare miracles
i believe
they are rare
but not never
i have found never to be a bullshit word
because ive seen a lotta nevers happen
they said a hurricane could never go below the equator
but one did!
you see we’re in an age where never has lost its absoluteness
is there really anything that will never happen?
ha! i wouldnt like to see it
no not me
never indeed
i believe anything is possibly likely and likely possible as well
i still believe that i gotta ticket in the lottery
i still believe i can get the product n pay no interest until 2032
i still believe that god gave rocknroll to me
i still believe that everything will be ok in the end
but at times i may not believe that at all
i read a badde review of mimesis from brizzy
woman said it made her want to shave her legs…
mm whatta top notch critic….
thats real definitive stuff

54 Responses to “to whom it may concern”

  1. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 31 May 2007 at 4:18 am #

    top o the mornin old bean ..heal at will….

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    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 4:32 am #

    you know about twins…see,the thing with it,……its an atom bomb….the atom split….that ladder,that rests on your shoulder…was meant for us to reach…per chance to blow your mind….to your ear we have one blow each…..sorry about the tinitus….love to the back,unseeing,unseen focus to the RSI …..much love and respect…..genx xxxxxxxxxxxxx

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    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 4:37 am #

    My sister is currently working on her dissertation regarding the differences between “healing” and “curing”. Fascinating stuff. And I agree with you that belief is a powerful thing.

  4. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 4:41 am #

    My Brother Steven, you need to drink the Absinth with an E. What you are drinking is alcoholic swill. There is much better absinthe out there. Stick with France and Switzerland if you want the real deal. Do you really need the sugar? Just slowly drip ice water over a nice glass of Nouvelle-Orleans or Francois Guy.
    Trust me now and thank me later.

    Love to all Kilbey’s,


    Also, I love the muddy sound you spoke of on Hologram of Baal. A phenomenal record on headphones. The mud turns into clay.

  5. avatar
    mattdavison | 31 May 2007 at 4:44 am #

    Did ya read my comment after that review…


    Yeah life…………Whatever!!!

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 5:08 am #

    everyday I have some words written for me
    leaving the door in an open space
    I access the electric multitudes
    fire the herbs
    click me favorites
    and read the time being

    Thanks for the jazz

    -Unknown blogger

  7. avatar
    kat | 31 May 2007 at 6:04 am #


    screw that lady’s thesis about mimesis. negativo biiiatch.. most of these reviewers don’t know what the hell is going on or what they are talking about.

    swirling down here, so i guess it is going ’round. i deserve better. we all do.

    anyway, i highly suggest you go to a chiropractor. always worked for me, you just have to find the right one.


  8. avatar
    the dean | 31 May 2007 at 6:09 am #

    I grew up in an era where woman refused to shave their legs(and other bits) so I say music that causes woman to shave their legs is a boon to mankind.

    shaved legs are a good thing aren’t they?

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 6:29 am #

    ,I have been looking through the archives..It seems that just a few days passed between you calling for”Blind angel,move through me”,and the appearance of our insightful delight,genx ..You got some connections high up brother./jt

  10. avatar
    pussy galore | 31 May 2007 at 6:37 am #

    your sure it was only her legs she wanted to shave?

  11. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 8:08 am #

    She was alright on Buffy…

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 8:29 am #


    you just cant take the u out of human.
    we are all made up of the same bits but in different degrees
    you may get the whole world to stop eating meat and so on but you cant stop a being from wanting more than his fellow being.
    you could feed the millions of starving in the world but there would still be greed.
    just being the best beings we can be is all that an individual can hope for.
    worrying the wart of the world wont make it go away. leanne

  13. avatar
    ...being here, doing this... | 31 May 2007 at 10:06 am #

    “but i wanna do it the real way
    i wanna cast that bastard out
    that addiction
    that fucking cancer
    that nasty thing in whatever guise it might take
    there is a way to do it
    sometimes i think its on the tip of my tongue
    its gotta be the most easy obvious thing”

    the most easy obvious thing!


  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 10:28 am #

    i’ve learned not to say ‘never’…too many shades of grey ’round here…draw a line in the sand and somebody’ll come along a smudge it for you…make a partnership with someone and another will come along and inflame you…at the end of the day it’s down to what you can stand to live with…
    -The Hellbound Heart

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 10:30 am #

    crap crap crap..a typo
    kjasdfhlasdf hpnufhpyrn uur ynp h

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 10:46 am #

    You said “i wanna cast that bastard out
    that addiction
    that fucking cancer
    that nasty thing in whatever guise it might take
    there is a way to do it”

    Every time I think I’d like a cig there’s your face & wagging finger (London, 2006) admonishing me to ‘remember me saying don’t smoke every time you have a cigarette’ – and now I CAN’T smoke anymore! It’s almost 1 year since the last cig… Is that not proof of your healing capabilities & ability to cast that bastard out???

  17. avatar
    don joe | 31 May 2007 at 11:19 am #

    It all occurs coz we agree it will. We will everything in our lives into being. That may be hard to swallow for some but that’s the nuts n bolts of it all. U do bad it’ll come n bite u on the ass some day. And it may be just little bad things. It could be coz we failed to achieve something. Somewhere we have let our own integrity down and we kill ourselves for it. Answers? they are there if one wants to seek. The killer found the one’s he needed during his affliction and has progressed. Just gotta look where u least expect I guess. and what’s true for you is true for you. I believe that a no drug approach is god as I have found through experience, (does that make me a bad person?) then some will say that drugs help them. So be it. It’s what does it for you. Just don’t give up looking. No matter what adversity u face from day to day, it’s a challenge that you will grow from if you choose to confront and handle it appropriately so it don’t come a knockin’ at your door again.

    That’s the choice, survive and grow or succumb n die.

    “Take a sparing leap; wake you’ve been asleep. Go attack your life; the paint is peeling scrape to save what’s yours.”

    don joe

  18. avatar
    don joe | 31 May 2007 at 11:22 am #

    typo fix: I believe that a no drug approach is GOOD.. Aint no god in it.


  19. avatar
    davem | 31 May 2007 at 12:14 pm #

    Good morning!! I promise not to lurch into “Up Pompeii”
    You do give more than just the music.
    I’m now a veggie, non-smoker cos of a certain SK. There are lots of us out there in a better place ‘cos of you esskay.
    The world may be in a bad shape but keep weaving your magic – it makes a huge difference.


  20. avatar
    cita | 31 May 2007 at 12:15 pm #

    Everything will be alright.

    That mantra comforts me when all seems bleak and black.

    I survive in this world because I have the creative world to escape to.

    Art , painting, drawing and yoga all give me a way out of the despair of the “real” world.

    Faith and finding faith.
    Being able to heal.

    I like your thoughts on that one.

    At the end of a mad, chaotic day I hear Fly holding hands with One Day.

    My spirit is free again.
    There is healing in that.

  21. avatar
    veleska1970 | 31 May 2007 at 12:32 pm #

    “is it my ego that thinks i should be able to do something?”
    i don’t think it’s ego as much as just wanting to help, and feeling helpless because you can’t. any caring, compassionate person experiences this.

    as far as the mimesis review~~don’t worry about it. people like her are probably negative about EVERYTHING. they get no joy out of anything. period. i know it still hurts, especially when you put so much into something just to have somebody knock you down, but consider the source~~she makes a living out of making others feel like crap. πŸ™ she must have been picked on at school something fierce.

    lotza love…..

  22. avatar
    John Garratt | 31 May 2007 at 1:45 pm #

    “i read a badde review of mimesis from brizzy
    woman said it made her want to shave her legs…”

    My wife is pretty lazy about shaving…I guess she needs Mimesis.

    John Garratt

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    Brien Comerford | 31 May 2007 at 2:49 pm #

    A superlative SK blog posting today. There is a higher power, an eternal spirit and/or Creator. As trite as it reads in the Bible, there is proof of the fall of man. Steve Kilbey has been bestowed with with so much talent and such an array of it, there must be a God. However, any objective person knows that the forces of evil are in control in many parts of this world.

  24. avatar
    Gator | 31 May 2007 at 2:55 pm #

    The whales. The seals. The millions of cats and dogs… that’s nuthin’.

    You should see what happens to humans. ‘Specially on the Asian continent.

  25. avatar
    malcolm arkey | 31 May 2007 at 3:40 pm #

    that’s true (and I speak from experience)

    everything can happen
    everything has happened
    everything will happen

    there ain’t no “never” when it comes to man’s inhumanity to man.

    “Muslim or Christian
    Mullah or Pope
    Preacher or poet
    Who was it wrote ?
    Give any one species
    Too much rope
    And they’ll fuck it up” (R.W)

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 3:58 pm #

    Steve, you should post a pic of you everyday, like that movie “Smoke”, and a few lines. What is a blog without a daily pic of the writer?????

  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 3:58 pm #

    …I change too quickly: my today refutes my yesterday. when I ascend i often jump over steps, and no step forgives me that…when I am aloft, I always find myself alone……………Everywhere i see lower doors, someone like me can still pass through them, but- I have to stoop! random neechee for the blood …Dee in Tx…dreamt about Bobby D this morning….he seemed kinda distant and arrogant! I feel betrayed!!!! End all Wars and Human Suffering NOW!!!!!!!! Shantih…Logos to your Mother*

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 4:31 pm #

    …oh yeah…Its all toooo Much for me to T*ke ….Dare i smoke too much spirit of thetrainwreck? Cuz i do knot hope to turn turn again…Comprehende?? D into TX…heart of the Spur…Saint of the Tragic Bend…..sometime i will tell you all( for i have come back to tell ) of the Commanche spirits galloping on the air around me…and the fossilzed tracks and the worn out river beds…it still all there…for the Time Being….just more silence and waiting…

  29. avatar
    THE SWING | 31 May 2007 at 4:39 pm #

    me faith comes from me space…
    Ne iko

  30. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 31 May 2007 at 5:28 pm #

    Dear Gator:

    It is malevolent humans who are killing innocent humans, seals, whales, dogs and cats. The same people who are cruel to animals have a proclivity to commit acts of violence against people.

  31. avatar
    ben | 31 May 2007 at 5:48 pm #

    the hardest thing to conquer is your own spirit. this comes when you understand god is the head over all things. the sower soweth the word of god through which the worlds were framed, and our purpose is to serve him and then allow him to rid us of things that damage our soul. the word grace can mean gratitude which comes when what you have in life is sufficient. the sensual man fights for things which never satisfy. and nearly all of our anger comes from not getting our way or what the bible calls unjust gain

  32. avatar
    daniel12 | 31 May 2007 at 6:14 pm #

    Look i do like you man , i honestly do.
    It’s for this reason i generally avoid saying things critical of you on yer blog.
    As well like yourself i beleive every creatures born has the right to a free life.
    However with the above in mind i’ve just gotta say it.
    These heal the world bloggs just dont digest well with me.
    I mean whatever anyone may say the basic problems were dealing with are overpopulation and it’s associated consumption.
    Your a father of five frequent flyer who drives gas guzzelers thousands on miles for work. You also say you’ve sold over a million packaged and distributed pieces of plastic.
    Yes i know the church army attack dogs are possibly going to have a go at me but we should all have a think about it.
    Are you part of the cure or part of the disease?.
    Listening to a cure record dont make you the cure.

  33. avatar
    fantasticandy | 31 May 2007 at 8:10 pm #

    daniel 12——
    how right you are!
    we are ALL guilty.
    andy L.

  34. avatar
    davem | 31 May 2007 at 8:31 pm #

    It has a certain ring to it: “Church Army Attack Dogs”!!!!
    Evening all.


  35. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 8:40 pm #

    everything is gonna be ok just as soon as ww3 is over and the human population goes down. I used to be anti war but now i’m all for a big nuclear war to wipe all these selfish evil fuckers off the planet.

  36. avatar
    John Garratt | 31 May 2007 at 8:49 pm #

    That lovely review can be found here:

    John Garratt

  37. avatar
    toomanymagicians | 31 May 2007 at 9:48 pm #

    People who create Art, Music, etc do so because they can; critics, on the other hand…..?

  38. avatar
    the moving still | 31 May 2007 at 9:51 pm #

    I,m just a God that nobody believes in.

  39. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 10:08 pm #

    which GOD?

  40. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 10:13 pm #

    What a stupid stupid critic.
    I don’t understand the analogy of wanting to shave her legs (waxing is so much better). I suppose its her moustache she waxes.

  41. avatar
    CSTCoach | 31 May 2007 at 10:26 pm #

    >>(im doing the exercises coach)

    keep at it druid, it’ll take a little time but you’ll get there. can’t reverse the damage of years overnight, but you will make solid progress, and it’ll be lasting progress. πŸ™‚

    really enjoyed yestaday’s blog (and today’s too, of course), on how to tap into the source, how to let it flow. its a difficult thing to describe. i think you did it well. and with very evocative writing.

    don’t sweat the bad reviews. mimesis just wasn’t meant for that person, that’s all. any ire that people spout generally have more to do with their own issues than with the apparent target of their scorn.


  42. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 10:46 pm #

    used to be a restaurant “consultant”.my service was to review,sugguest alternatives in all aspects,for THEIR and MY profit….am staunch vego for most of my life,so the “meaty.flouro lighted.plastic chaired,ambience devoid” establishments used to make me want to scream/vomit…..when reviewing/critiquing,it is unfortunate that most,given the task,lack the nouse to do just that…in the same way that”sarcasm,is the lowest form of wit”,personal opinions of pent up reviewers/critics….who by their own subliminal admission are more analy obsessed with their beauty{or lack of it}regime..i find that it is unfortunate…the distinct lack of class….do we just give jobs to the girl with the biggest bossoms,the man with the proverbial “black porsche”…..and we wonder whats going on in this world ….NOT a review that anyone would take seriously anyway,it just reeeeeeeks of “Shazza”,……”go back to Ipswich,honey!” ……….and jt….typical of me …late as usual…correction though…”blind”?…yes….”angel”?mmmmmmm……well?….and my favourite bit,hahaha…”move through me”?…..i am afraid …i am more likely to bump into you …..Mr.Kilbey,i hope you werent pickin on blind people…..nah!dont believe that you would!….itd be funny to read tho…whats the deal with the “archives”..can we all read em,or a you a secret squirrel… genx xxxxxxx

  43. avatar
    The Moving Still | 31 May 2007 at 11:00 pm #

    To Anonymous..

    Which GOD?

    The one that nobody believes in.. obviously!

    Exccept you of course πŸ™‚

  44. avatar
    JJ | 31 May 2007 at 11:21 pm #

    Strange blogge, what with the “Faith Healer” theme early-on, and I’ve been at hospital for 3 days now with my dad….he has some problems they have no idea what the cause is, all sortsa diagnostic tests. Was thinking about your own comments about your father, they stay with me.

    I don’t know, TB, sometimes I have hope and optimism about our species and sometimes – perhaps we’re headed for extinction/oblivion. Look at Mother Nature on the run in the 2000-seventies. Cruelty abounds against our fellow creatures, forest destruction, poisoning of our environment, on an on at an inexorable march into……I don’t know what. I fear the future may look more like Blade Runner than Star-Trek.

    And a bad review too? Ignore her.

  45. avatar
    One Man Dog | 31 May 2007 at 11:25 pm #

    Dear Steve,

    I would like to recommend the album One Man Dog by James Taylor. Its his best and most obscure work, a concept album. After Multiple Listenings you will find that this is a true masterpiece in musical achievement. totally sublime.
    thankyou for your time,


  46. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 11:25 pm #

    I don’t know about the “having faith and it shall heal” theory sk. A good friend of mine who was just diagnosed with breast fucking cancer is having her whole breast and some of her underarm removed today, because they didn’t get all of the cancer on her first operation 2 weeks ago. Then she has to have 6 months of chemotherapy which I think makes you vomit and lose all of your hair, how do you tell someone so sick at age 39, that if you have “faith” all will be ok???

    Have a nice day,
    Love Amanda

  47. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 May 2007 at 11:51 pm #

    may i just say….to quote a radiohead lyric…which i always thought of as more of an erotic phrase than something to say to a critic…….the first bit is charming,then,the second line turns it all around and we can chuck it at the uncultured critics….funny..with my own blinkers on i only ever listened to the first line,then,drifted off…not paying any attention to the latter…..”WHEN I AM KING YOU WILL BE FIRST AGAINST THE WALL WITH YOUR OPINION WHICH IS OF NO CONSEQUENCE AT ALL” genx

  48. avatar
    Brian | 1 June 2007 at 2:03 am #

    Dearest faith healer,

    the moon is full
    i felt it in my bones
    wasn’t until I was out
    on that sparse highway
    heading into a focal point
    big, sweet moon rising
    hiding between the the oil-gray
    streaks of nimbostratus
    driving through gas-lamp towns
    people of present
    in the architecture
    from a century ago
    I love to drive these streets on nights like this.

    Steve, life sure is surreal
    I feel it all the time
    the boundaries
    the perceptions
    the memory (what an act)
    the act of day-to-day
    the attachments
    magic in the mundane

    by the way, don’t the let the small-minded bastards get you down. remember the people who love what you bring forth. The only thing I think when I read the reviewer’s artcile is, “what a shame you just don’t understand.”

  49. avatar
    Belfrank | 1 June 2007 at 2:14 am #

    Music reviewers genereally have no musical talent themselves. What qualifies their opinion on the labours of the artist.
    Don’t get upset by some gob-shite’s sloppy review. It’s annoying, but record reviews lost all credibility long ago – especially with their fking star system – who even reads them?
    By the same token – a glowing 5 star in the same Brizzy rag will carry no further positive weight in the grand scheme of things anyway.
    What about getting David Fricke to review it in Rolling Stone. There’s a writer from the old school who actually listened to and wrote about the music. That other review said as much about the author’s personal grooming routine as it did about the record – proof she probably gave it scarcely more than one listen – if that much at all.
    Can you tell I hate album reviews?

    The rest of your blog I loved today Killa. Frank and open. The Oils were right all along – don’t you agree?

  50. avatar
    eek | 1 June 2007 at 3:38 am #

    You have to love reviewers who try to be snarky and just end up sounding stupid. Mimesis isn’t going to appeal to everyone — and to me that’s a very good thing.

    As for faith and healing — I sure as hell hope faith isn’t required for healing, because if it is I’m totally screwed. Oh well, I guess that’s life in the big city. Unfortuantely, I fucking hate the big city. >:(

  51. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 June 2007 at 3:58 am #

    Man oh man do i know it. Those great things called miracles. People spend their whole lives searching for them. For some outside great happening to happen to make us feel better about ourselves. To restore our faith in the world, to make us smile again.
    Its inside.
    Youll never find it in the shopping malls or on tee vee, or on the internet. We are all heroes, we can all achieve so much, and just like the jc penney commercial says, its all inside. Us, that is. Its in our soul, the faith to make great things happen.
    Thanks for a great blogge steve!
    Love all that you do!
    Galveston TX

  52. avatar
    eek | 1 June 2007 at 4:24 am #

    Well shit. Usually I can spell unfortunately, but apparently I couldn’t when I wrote my last comment.

  53. avatar
    kid thomas | 1 June 2007 at 4:39 am #

    Each breakthrough is a miracle.

  54. avatar
    logiclust | 1 June 2007 at 6:59 am #

    i’ve experienced an honest miracle. it wasn’t trite.

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