posted on July 13, 2014 at 7:07 pm
photo of me

photo of me

on the bottom of the old white pool

winter swimming for endorphin fix i ever the junky

endorphin fix from twenty minutes of cold sea water is something baby

it aint nothing

man after that i sit out there and drink a coffee

i am blissed out on my own neurotonics and wow

every now and then i see a beautiful thing

winter arrives like a cold strumpet in my room

am i really in telepathic contact with some animals

or am i losing my mind?

i bought some thing sweet and i ate too much

i wish i could work harder

i think about about god and death a lot

five daughters are treasures i will bequeath for a better world

last night i listen to F/D


i must not say too much

i’m doing a painting

i think about jesus

i think how much he would despise abbot and those guys

its so obvious

have they ever read the bits about looking after yer fellow man?

my thoughts are distracted by the model sopwith camel Chris b gave me

a book of indian tattoo i will comb through to see if i can recontextualise

a buddhist prayer deck from H Heart

i pull a card at random

people this is what it says

those whose minds are

filled with compassion

will never enter a world dark with woes.

no real harm will ever 

come to anyone who 

protects all living beings

and shows them kindness

so i love my buddha

i love my krsna

i love my jesus

i love the god of my understanding

not evolution

not jehovah creationism

i dont imagine you are ready for the totality of my god

i dont imagine for one minute i am either

but i have glimpsed

i have felt

something so fucking brilliant and so fucking compassionate

we are it

it is us

we are all one and separation is an illusion

yes but how to actualise that

i see some smarmy rich dressed up businessman type waddling along

i say to myself i love this man i love this man

some voice in my head going

like fuck you love this man..! you gotta be kidding me!

god says to me tell them this then

everything was and always will be here

our imperishable souls cannot be touched

we learning kid we learning

god says if you really want to work for me go ahead

that bass guitar of yours is a holy instrument capable of transmitting joy

with your words you can describe me forever and yet never come close

the creation of music and art

this gorgeous act of prayer and a wing

that white sheet of paper

that finger on the first note

the first word of your most achingly lovely song

let this heal those who are listening

fucking hell i have given them clues for the last 35 years

smoke some dope and listen to my music

there is sometimes something in there especially for you

you gotta wade through all those songs

but i digress

F/D will soon emerge

all will be revealed

i stake everything my judgement on this one roll

here it is

it took me until now to be able to be part of a record like this

all your preconceptions are mostly wrong

no one anticipated this

some beautiful muse guided all my actions

the band played on and on

we entered a creative realm where we mined songs from other universes

i mean how could some of this not be written before now?

familiar yet peculiar .

the record and sound has more layers that reveal and reveal

you will not be able to take it all in on first listen

you will only know that we have made one hell of a good record

soon you will begin to love it

we all stepped back and let this music in

the words were written in a secret book a strange angel gave me inner dream

how could i have written some of these couplets? where did they come from?

how did 4 musicians stumble across these lovely new but old songs

i dunno

i’m otherwise just a humble bloke in his humble room

humble except i happen to be on a roll and i know this is good

its like something that is purring along so fucking smoothly

walloping and caressing

warm and edgy

the whole record is a paradox

still i cannot explain it

i know a lot of you are dubious

i dont blame you

its hard to wait another few months before we can let it out


i swim

i do yoga

i hang out with my kids

i watch say lou lou and feel a deep parental pride that is surprising

because i am a cynical old bastard

i weep for ll the atrocities committed during last week

and all the atrocities that will come no doubt for the next seven days

the fucking idiots that run this stupid world

the beautiful cats like kip and JT and DR who make you have faith

the children

the future

room for every creature to live their life in peace

grant everything the mercy you would have god grant you

meanwhile F/D is gonna rocknroll your tiny world my friends

wait n see

you gonna love it or else!


22 Responses to “under cold clear water the sea has arranged zebra stripes”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 July 2014 at 7:23 pm #

    blessed is the crimson… can not wait to hear this joy 🙂
    thank you all for your unbound talents… we are truly blessed xx

  2. avatar
    Kerrie | 13 July 2014 at 7:30 pm #

    Heal away Steve – I’m feeling it.

  3. avatar
    Cath | 13 July 2014 at 7:32 pm #

    the trinity got your back..(b, c, k)….whispering those timeless tunes in each of your ears….the ones you remember first time you hear them..the ones that compose themselves and we mortals but follow………..the Church….musical pyramid…one of my favourite musical time machines.I reckon…..something tells me this album gonna be a big one, very well received. Love xx

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    Eskaedor | 13 July 2014 at 8:46 pm #

    Nothing like cold cold water to awaken the senses! I won’t smoke weed anymore. Haven’t done for a number of years. If I want to trick my mind into entering the stoned realm I can just play a church record. Or abstain from sleep for an extended duration. To a non-stop 70s playlist. A new church record on repeat would be even better!

  5. avatar
    Kohl Ette | 13 July 2014 at 9:16 pm #

    Read your postcards so just touching bass. Studying science. Christian science. Learning liturgical dance from John Traviolta. So busy but evidently spare thoughts. Some things change some things dont. Love to Syd. Wish we were where. p.s. what a dream

  6. avatar
    Shane D | 13 July 2014 at 9:41 pm #

    Bring it on, waiting waiting! The magic will be there for all to see

  7. avatar
    veleska1970 | 14 July 2014 at 1:24 am #

    Wow. All I can say is, wow.

    This–> “the record and sound has more layers that reveal and reveal
    you will not be able to take it all in on first listen…” Mr. Kilbey, I’ll have you know that this is true for ALL of the Church’s albums. Every time I listen, there is still something new I hadn’t heard before, even after a thousand listens. 😀

    lotza love…………

  8. avatar
    Rebecca1KS | 14 July 2014 at 1:25 am #

    Your words belie your self-description: these are not the musings of “a cynical old bastard.” 😉

  9. avatar
    cheryl | 14 July 2014 at 1:49 am #

    stay on that creative roll SK, keep yer motor purring along. I am anticipating being enveloped in those healing waters of the sea that is Further/ Deeper. as always with an open mind and compassionate heart
    yer friend from the Louisiana bayou

  10. avatar
    pif | 14 July 2014 at 1:52 am #

    You are an interesting mix of Sting and Yusuf Islam with a sprinkling of Kirk Cameron crazy on top.

  11. avatar
    andy | 14 July 2014 at 4:47 pm #

    ‘photo of me’… that.
    not dubious about the new record, just wondering how the dynamics have changed…..
    you seem to fully understand the mission you’ve been given and perform it with great gusto…yet with a good deal of humility too.
    can’t be many like you mate!
    I love to read your musings when you’re going through an enthusiastic phase like now.
    I’m sure this new work will be the thrill of the year for many people, not least me.
    love on ya kilbs…I’m all excited now!

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 July 2014 at 7:13 pm #

    Is the Stinkfinger guy still just a guest?

    • avatar
      thetimebeing | 14 July 2014 at 9:34 pm #

      my, you write your comments from many perspectives, dont you?
      having this and that opinion
      but i can see that theyre all from the same person
      and thanks to wonder of internet i can see exactly which place you live
      now youre being our offensive persona
      do all those voices conflict in your head
      or do you really think youre fooling me or anybody else ?

      • avatar
        Anonymous | 15 July 2014 at 12:33 am #

        Oh, you’re no fun, sometimes.

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    hellbound heart | 14 July 2014 at 8:20 pm #

    loving you and your blogging and your poetry and your music and your art and anything else that I may have forgotten…..know the card you’re talking about, that one is often in the little frame dooh-dah on the box. compassion is a sorely under-represented aspect of humanity these days….
    love on ya, mate

  14. avatar
    Chris | 15 July 2014 at 10:58 am #

    …sup with camel on a moonlit Moroccan night…om…

  15. avatar
    Sam Mayfair | 16 July 2014 at 4:16 pm #

    so lovely…. mmmm

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