posted on July 9, 2010 at 8:37 am

wintry day
grey clouds like gun metal
sporadic rain
sit in my room
writing this
strangely flat
thinking about jesus
thinking about krsna
thinking about the way it can all go right or wrong
imagine all the people who were born today
imagine all the people who died
security eludes us
the street is filled with homeless
humanity and its seven deadly sins
go shopping up at the mall
god where does all that stuff come from
shopping carts full of cans and paper and packets
a cold death aisle full of disgusting bits of corpses
i mean who the fuck is eating chicken livers
how civilised we think we are
and then theres all this blood n guts n misery everywhere
dismembered sheep and cows wrapped in their own gore
all kept cold tho its still going off as you catch its unholy whiff
unhappy parents beleaguered by unhappy children
tv dinners in front of the blaring idiot box
i read a pop magazine
i havent heard of any of the groups …i’m out of touch
christ theres some moronic looking popstars out there today
gormless chubby ponces with silly hairdos playing some mega dome
aw the youngsters of today….there seems to be no coherent fashion
what would i know? i’m glad i’m not involved in it really
guess ive turned into some reactionary grandad
blustering away about the good old days whenever that was
a cold wet night comes down on sydney
sydney aint set up for winter n it shows
i just sit in here type type type
my shoulders a little achey
my head a little empty
my well a little dry…why?
alright then thats all from me at my post here in the antipodes
can someone bring on spring i feel tired dry and (c)old
maybe go out for a walk in the rain
see if it soothes my existential pain
ok then……

32 Responses to “underscore”

  1. avatar
    fantasticandy | 9 July 2010 at 9:44 am #

    before any of you go nuts about me hijacking the great one's blog, this review is being posted here at steve's personal request…ok?

    The Failed – CD – The Whole World Changed
    (www.myspace.com/thefaileduk)
    The Failed are slimmed down (memberswise only!!) Worcester psycho-rockers Dudes Of Neptune and 'The Whole World Changed' is their first release as a trio. Kinda early Hawkwind in its feel but with contemporary innovation and futuristic vibes the work is, and I quote The Failed's Andy Lee, 'quite a rollercoaster ride' of experimental music for the thinking man's head.
    This album is as brash as it is compelling; there's quite a lot going on and it's raw feel belies its apparent loving conception and well nurtured gestation. Sassy guitars and searing keys mingle and meld, kerranging riffs rise and fall, sizable beats ebb and flow as ballsy but totally fitting vocals and spoken words fill just about every other available space – it's well thought out, nicely assembled and 'kin well executed and the end result is pretty damn tasty if perhaps a little obtuse and challenging. But hey, The Failed don't do conventional or the expected, these dudes aint budding popsters, The Failed are mature alt-rockers with an abundance of targeted attitude and more than enough originality to make it happen – and here it certainly does happen! 'The Whole World Changed' is, at times, dark and brooding but effortlessly and seamlessly things often turn towards much a lighter but no less poignant side – a proper Pandora's Box of sonic thrills and spills rammed with big dynamics and gut churnin' electric outpourings. This is bloody good work!
    'The Whole World Changed' isn't gonna be everyone's brew of choice but for expo-heads and those willing to listen and allow themselves to be persuaded there's a whole shed-load of cool stuff happening here. 'The Whole World Changed' is a flux-like composite of sound and audio texture that's not actually retro but does kinda lean towards the exp-psycho Kraut-rock thing of the early 70's but with sufficient 21st century aplomb to make it current and somehow acceptable. One to max out on db's methinks – but stand well back cuz once you've figuratively lit the blue touch-paper the whole thing simply explodes in yer face without any warning. The guys have done good!! What's next guys?
    Peter J Brown aka toxic pete.

    available at cdbaby:
    http://cdbaby.com/cd/Failed

    or heyday mailorder:
    http://www.heyday-mo.com/catalog/index.php?act=viewProd&productId=8707

    and soon on itunes ect.
    i can't give any more away 'cos i and the boys are totally, totally broke!

    steve…today's blogge….sometimes i feel a bit olde too!
    but then you get a review like this…….
    izzy2 will be raved about worldwide mate.
    no worries!

  2. avatar
    steve kilbey | 9 July 2010 at 11:08 am #

    yes nice review andy
    its a great record
    people give it a try!
    sk

  3. avatar
    steve kilbey | 9 July 2010 at 11:09 am #

    sorry i lost a comment somehow
    the one that began killah she'll be fine
    sorry
    it disappeared but i dunno why
    sk

  4. avatar
    DavidP | 9 July 2010 at 11:59 am #

    Yeah, where does all that stuff come from and who buys it all, why is there even a market for it? Why is there all this raunch culture and celebrity worship? How can there be such inequity in the world? Why do we destroy the planet upon which we depend for our own survival whilst also pointing weapons of mass destruction at each other with hordes armed to the teeth at every border to keep the desperate out?
    When did it become acceptable for soft porn to be in the back of the local newspaper where any 10 year old can see it? What kind (if any) of attention span will gen z have when they grow up? Where is the world headed? Where are we headed as a species? What's my part in all this? What can I do?

    "I can't change any of you but I can change myself"

  5. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 9 July 2010 at 12:08 pm #

    Congrats on the great review, Andy. Unfortunately my financial situation is seriously(!!!) fucked up at the moment, but I'll make sure to buy the cd as soon as possible, and that's a promise.

  6. avatar
    Jasperina | 9 July 2010 at 12:10 pm #

    Oh the ache of my existential pain. All rainy and dark and the ache starts to find its way in. There is always a gentle warm fire coaxing me through each day here at TB. I was walking around Cockatoo Island…a ghostly magic place on a wet July afternoon.

  7. avatar
    RA | 9 July 2010 at 12:26 pm #

    Ref your Bunny.
    My eldest (6) gets called Rabbit..
    Know how you feel about her op. My Briony had to have big op at only 5 weeks old. Worst moment of my life so far was watching them take her through to the theatre. Caz and I just sat in stunned silence.. then walked the hospital grounds, holding hands but with nothing to say. She's all mended now. Big scar to show off when she's in her swimmers though! She's into writing too. She has a story ongoing on the PC about her and her brother's adventures and another she's writing long-hand in a small notebook i found with purple velvet cover… she likes that. She asked about your print "The Black Tear" which hangs over the stereo. Her critique? " I like the patterns, it's cool"
    Peace and love,
    Richard J

  8. avatar
    Freddie | 9 July 2010 at 1:11 pm #

    Andy I'll be sure to check it out and I wish y'all the best.

    Steven, What are you conjuring up there? It's hard seeing you in a down spell. :^(

  9. avatar
    Broken Toys and Heros | 9 July 2010 at 1:16 pm #

    Yes- great review andy. any reference to early Hawkwind grabs my attention.

    Sk-

    I agree with this generation of pop artists and their instant fame and playing giant stadiums so early in their careers, they no longer have to put the time in to grow and flourish- they are handed instant fame. the internet has alot to do with this quick success. imagine if Heyday or Starfish came out and the public was able to become so quickly attached to ur music while back than we had to read and wait for any news, release dates etc…

    You guys would have ruled that era !!! AND BEEN F-IN RICH !!!

    oh in regards to fashion, yes theirs is terrible…but for christ sake u guys wore PAISLEY !!!!

    LOL !!!

    Have a great weekend !!!

    DJK082067

  10. avatar
    robertmadore | 9 July 2010 at 1:25 pm #

    I can relate Steve, but really life hasn't been the same since Dio left us…

  11. avatar
    tendraftsdeep | 9 July 2010 at 1:47 pm #

    great blog Steve. Enjoy the weekend.

  12. avatar
    Andrea | 9 July 2010 at 2:11 pm #

    Hi SK,
    your blogge today reminds me of "Now I've lost my touch, please don't touch anything, every passing hour overcomes too much" … no? well I know those were dark ages, but man you made some great music then (you always did actually)… I am fanatically in love with SA/SE and MATS these days… so there's some light also in the most wintry day.
    Plus, you're right about the "cold death aisles"…
    Cheers from Italy (wet humid weather, almost unbearable… wanna swap?)
    Andreas
    Genoa/Italy

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 July 2010 at 2:29 pm #

    I am a passenger
    and I ride and I ride…

    he looks through his window
    what does he see…

    came on as I was reading (both) blogs. Almost perfect background to your writings today.

    Thank you both — thank you Iggy.

  14. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 9 July 2010 at 4:34 pm #

    I love it when you right about the inhumane and evil mistreatment of animals raised for meat. Meat is Murder as MOZ rightly asserted.

  15. avatar
    davem | 9 July 2010 at 5:30 pm #

    I'm not sure about hurrying in spring for you. God knows our summer here is short enough – wait yer bleedin' turn!
    Take it easy sk. Love you!
    x

  16. avatar
    bc | 9 July 2010 at 6:40 pm #

    no weed => think sooo much

    more power 2u

  17. avatar
    Jim Graves | 9 July 2010 at 7:26 pm #

    I believe there is purpose and meaning in all. There are some real douche bags and greedy pigs out there but they get the job done. If the world was full of sensitive, artist types there would be no electric guitars, amplifiers, recording technology, etc. Recording technology basically started with Edison and he was a total heel.
    My Weltanschauung is that we all have our little functions to perform in the grand scheme of things. I find it best to focus on my own role rather to bemoan the failings and shortcomings of others. I still whine and bitch but I remind myself that I'm just another 21st century child of privilege mired in self-gratification so who the fuck am I to judge?
    And we all have to take into account the pros and the cons of our existences. I don't have the money and the power of some CEO with a personality disorder but I can find pleasure and contentment in writing my songs. I doubt some corporate head honcho can feel harmony unless he's taking over the world.
    I think this is why corporations spend so much on art. There's prestige involved but I think they also can't help but admire that some fellow could find meaning and purpose by simply creating some beauty with brushes, paint and canvas.
    On the other hand I'm sure it's nice to have your own leer jet for transoceanic travel and to have the world's best docs queuing up for you when there's a medical emergency.
    I feel for the oppressed and the disenfranchised but history has shown time and time again that when the shoe switches to other foot it is just as likely to wind up stepping on someone's neck. The French and Russian revolutions produced more brutality and misery than the regimes they overthrew.

    There's a million shite bands out there now. I don't keep up with them cuz Indie rocks sucks balls for the most part. Most of the really dope shit is happening in the electronic underground. If you have a computer now you can write, produce, arrange, mix and master at home. You aren't limited by you ability to physically play
    instruments. You can make it happen via the internet if you have a work ethic, some marketing savvy, some luck and of course, dope songs. This is way better than the label system where all those parasites leeched off the artist. It drove good music into the ground because the vulgar animals that run businesses should never be allowed to make artistic decisions.
    Maybe there won't be all these megaselling, superich artists but who the fuck needs all that. There is no reason, as an artist, to have the kind of money that Prince or Michael Jackson had. All it did was disconnect them from reality and make their music boring. Prince hasn't written anything dope in years because he is living in such a manufactured, insulated and solipsistic universe that he has nothing to say to the general human experience. I don't think a lot of rock start got lamer cuz they got older. I think they got lamer cuz they lost touch.
    Most men get better with age. Hell, most men do their best work in life after age 40.
    I don't think music is any different. There's just this whole "teen" thing going on cuz so many people have their spirits crushed early in the game and become "adults" which they mistakenly believe involves becoming dull and repressed. Quite the contrary. The truly mature individual know how vital it is too maintain a youthful sense of zest and spontaneity. It is children that are always trying to appear more mature than they actually are.
    Well, that does it for me. Ah, the free exchange of ideas.
    I take it Marty really likes baked goods.
    Peace
    Jim

  18. avatar
    Jim Graves | 9 July 2010 at 7:42 pm #

    My Weltanschauung is that we have our purpose in this experience. No need to waste too much time bemoaning the faults and shortcomings of others. That's all coming from our own prejudiced little minds. We need the pricks and bastards. We wouldn't have manufacturing without them. And without manufacturing we wouldn't have musical instruments, computers, ipods, etc.
    The world need sensitive artist types to give it consolation and to allow for celebration.
    We're just passing through. I'm not perfect. I'm another 21st century self-obsessed wanker mired in self-gratification. It'a all good. As long as I can make my music I really don't care.
    I feel bad for the oppressed but when the shoe moves to other foot it often winds up stepping on the same neck.
    Who cares about bands are popular. I didn't care about that when I was a teenager. All the dope shit is in the electronic undeground. There is no revolution left in the traditional rock band. That's why all the music festivals are headlined by bands of whom no member is under 40.
    Computers allow people to write, arrange, mix and master in their bedrooms. They can get their music out to the world via the internet. No more superstars like Michael Jackson or Prince. So what? What good did that level of success do for them. MJ died a sad, tragic death. Prince is living in such a solipsistic universe that his songs no longer resonate with the general human experience.
    Rock starts don't get lamer cuz they get older. Most of them get lamer cuz their ridiculous success turns them into isolated freaks. You need stay in the game with the masses if you want to write good songs.
    Ok, Enya is a special case. But she started out isolated and she wasn't aiming her music at the lizard brain.
    Getting older doesn't make you lame. Men get better with age. Most men do their best work after 40. Theres this stupid teen thing associated with rock because so many people are broken down by the system early in their lifes. They associate maturity with blandness and submission. Real adults know that its crucial to maintain a childlike sense of enthusiasm, spontaneity and rebellion. Its children who are always trying to act more mature than they actually are.
    Okay, that's my contribution to the free exchange of ideas.
    Sending you positive vibes (and Marty some boston cremes).
    Peace
    Jim

  19. avatar
    Cee | 9 July 2010 at 8:22 pm #

    Another cold summer in san francisco and I feel the drain. Inside of me: decaff coffee, plum, toast, water and honey yogurt. Ahead of me: 20 mins on the elliptical (going nowhere kinda fast), yoga and stretching. Further ahead art then sleep.

    "my head a little empty"
    mi cabeza un poco vacia

  20. avatar
    andre | 9 July 2010 at 8:58 pm #

    Hey Steve
    I hope you don't suffer from mild depression….
    could be the weather
    but there seems to be a deep sadness

    take care of yourself brother
    I need your music

    Andre

  21. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 9 July 2010 at 9:01 pm #

    weather's been cold and drizzly for the past week…..definitely affects your state of being….

    love always…..

  22. avatar
    Richard | 9 July 2010 at 11:33 pm #

    strangely flat
    oddly apt

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 9 July 2010 at 11:47 pm #

    Killah, i think the "She'll be fine" was my comment. I posted another that made it thru the interethernet…the only difference was I made a "you're doing Starfish and Priest=Aura if you do the double album gig" remark. In hindsight, you'll do whatever you lot want to do in concert and we'll love it. It may be gloomy there on your side of the planet, but on the other side it's a boiling hell of late. I could do with some gloomy weather as long as it cools off!

  24. avatar
    lesley | 10 July 2010 at 1:46 am #

    One too many times, I fell over you
    once in a shadow, I finally grew
    One too many times, I twisted the gate
    when I was crazy, I thought you were great
    Once in a moment, it all comes to you
    as soon as you get it, you want something new

    Thanks for reminding me of things I thought I'd forgot.
    Look up, Mr. Killah
    Here comes the sun
    Stop looking for the darkness, then you can see the light. You are the magician of your soul.

  25. avatar
    EDD | 10 July 2010 at 3:53 am #

    Gosh I feel the same way…" those goddamn kids with thier haircuts, shooting that damn reefer, putting LSD up thier noses…". I feel like that then I remeber some one said that of the hippies once and the beats…..I still feel that way sometimes however….

  26. avatar
    Donna | 10 July 2010 at 5:02 am #

    Hey Steve!
    Interesting post, even if you were feeling a little "flat" when you wrote it. Gave me a lot to think about when I went for my jog. I love reading everyone's comments.

    I was a vegan for a while – mostly for health reasons, but also because I was convicted that eating meat condones cruelty to animals. Benjamin Franklin was a vegetarian, too, but then he realized that – while he chose to abstain from eating fish – the big fish were eating the little fish, and so on! There is a lot of cruelty in the animal world; i don't like it, but that's the harsh reality.
    Also, I have learned not to judge people for eating meat, because some people simply don't have all the choices that are available to the rest of us. I also learned to take that passion for the welfare of animals and share it with the welfare of children. I know it sounds cliche, but it breaks my heart to know that millions of kids go to bed hungry. every. single. night. So I try to make the same effort (if not more)in helping kids and people as I would with helping animals. My effort is like a drop in an ocean, but it's something.

    By the way, my kids get a kick out of my silly hairdon'ts from the 80's…Big Hair anyone?

    Have a great day! You're awesome!

    Andy – if your music is as on fire as your review, it'll do great. Best of luck to you!

  27. avatar
    DavidP | 10 July 2010 at 9:02 am #

    The world would be just fine and I think even better if more people had more of a conscience and actively exercised it instead of sleepwalking thru life on the constant pendulum swing between pleasure and pain caught up in materialism and economic slavery. I'm as much a part of that as I think anyone else is and I want out of it, to live in a better way. To observe absurdities isn't necessarily judging the people behind them (sure the possibility of that is there though) but just seeing it how it is. Calling a spade a spade. Not beating round the bush.
    I think Humanity would be far better off not indulging the 7 deadlies, what a world that would be eh? We would have far better systems in place, far better technologies. For example the oil boys, central banks and corrupt govts/institutions don't want free clean alternative energy to be available to the masses. Also, there are enough resources in the world so that no single person on the planet need be without basic food, water and shelter etc and yet what is the reality we see taking place? Why is it this way?
    What are the consequences?
    There is a lot of good in the world too though and thank goodness for that! Although, for all our technology, medicine and science there is still a lot lacking in us as a species, myself very much included.
    Man has evolved materially but what of his soul? Where is the spiritual evolution?
    Where do we carry the soul?
    Where is it in action?
    What does it profit man to gain the world if he loses his soul in the process?

  28. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 10 July 2010 at 10:37 am #

    ….ps…..way to go, andy!! woo-hoo!! 🙂

    peace and love, mate….

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 July 2010 at 11:55 am #

    SK, I'd gladly bottle our 30 degree C weather and send it down yonder. I don't share the love of summer most folks seem to have. I pine for autumn… and pines in general.

  30. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 July 2010 at 4:09 pm #

    Generally some pretty good observations. However, I hope you aren't taking aim at Justin Bieber in this post. He's bigger than the Beatles and has more talent too.

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 July 2010 at 6:40 pm #

    Chicken Livers are good catfish bait 🙂

  32. avatar
    cazziem | 10 July 2010 at 8:05 pm #

    When I feel the way you do, not only do I go for a walk in the rain, I like to go sit somewhere quite and watch the rain dancing up leave on trees and plants, nourishing nature and listen to the melodious rhythm. I LOVE being out in the rain, cos despite of the pollution of the planet it clears the air and refreshes me.


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