posted on February 16, 2010 at 1:23 am

we will never understand everything
every question opening a hundred doors
you adore the opening therefore
wherein time slows suspended in viscous nights
and i come marauding your hamlets
i lay waste your virgin meadows
i put your question to the sword
something has turned me red again
something has burned me dead again
but a brute dumb force makes me jerk around
and we both watch your face as you go under the hammer
never truly gone
not gone like time
not gone like sick sweet love
not gone like the forests of antarctica
not gone like atlantis who went down to the bed
with a crystal melodious keening groan
we both come back
we all come back
or maybe not
if some do not
then someone somewhere will understand that
if not you or i then someone must
there must be a reason for what happens
it is the only outcome
a servant to my old nemesis’ opposite
dawn finds me on my side
my vitality and my will hold me together just
my will to go on
to be more
to see more
to explore
my face has sheered off into angles
i was some pretty prints but that was ages ago
in the red light of the naked bulb
i appear even redder than red and ready too
i see it all better through my blurry eye
the colours dilate in some plasmatic schema
white flesh with soft plummy bruises
turning purple and violet blue green
like a snowball gathering speed and size
your white waist flares into white hips
and the white clouds are absorbed in the white sky
i wonder which part of everything
all this will help me to understand
naturally there will always be loose ends to be tied up
the details irritate me however
bring out the things that i like
make it really good or really bad
the years are disappearing underwheel
mind and body need investigation
we are surely capable of more
the seer and the seersucker
the mother and the motherload
the farther off the fatherland
dont go back
stay right now on this very word until it is gone
not gone like the wind
not gone flake
not gone bad
not gone cheap
not gone forever
forever baby
they say in the songs thats a long long time
but nowdays forever is only ever a few minutes away
you can see it if you but have the eyes
the future parading around with its lovely ass hanging out
and forever is sitting there watching
watching watching
making small growling sounds perhaps
whats the time mr wolfe?
the big bad old wolf
christian wolf
whoever wolf
wolfgang amadeus wolf
yeah so forever is like mr wolf
and the future appearing as little red riding hood
and mr wolf is licking at little rrh
his big forever tongue
can you understand this part of everything my dear…?
he has eaten the childs milfish granny already
(who was the past, of course)
and now that slightly handsome angular wolf
with his snaggle teeth and nasty nips
with his lupine lope
with his devouring hope
mr wolf dressed in his mansuit
look his paws are really hands
and little rrh says where wolf?
she does not realize mr wolf is a real wolf
she thinks hes an actor auditioning for a part
what kind of film is this she says sitting up blinking
several men stand around handling the technical details
they laugh and smoke cigarettes and ignore her
the wolf forever however
he opens his jaws ready to swallow
the present as the axeman suddenly bursts in upon us
he cuts open forever to reveal the past
little rrh pulls on her pants sadly
the boys pack up n go home
and the cleaners come in
then we leave
still not understanding everything

18 Responses to “understanding everything”

  1. avatar
    heatherdaydream | 16 February 2010 at 3:22 am #

    all great art has at least a smidgin of death in it and this surely does….

    melancholy babe

    your sad words vindicate and homeopath my sorrow at an old friends roped departure


  2. avatar
    Craig Miller | 16 February 2010 at 3:30 am #

    A wise man once said, "All you need is love." And I think he said "Love is the answer." as well. That's all we can hope to understand. If only more of us understood it.

  3. avatar
    EDD | 16 February 2010 at 4:48 am #

    What's to understand?

  4. avatar
    princey | 16 February 2010 at 5:34 am #

    That was way great sk.
    You look deep in thought there, whatsa on your mind dearest Kilbs?

    Have a great time all the lucky fiends going to THE FIRST Church 30th Anniversary gig tomorrow night!
    love Amanda

  5. avatar
    fantasticandy | 16 February 2010 at 8:00 am #

    milfish grannies?
    lordy…whatever next?

  6. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 16 February 2010 at 8:13 am #

    have a great gig esskay…

  7. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 16 February 2010 at 9:12 am #

    every question for me usually raises 100 more….

    love always…..

  8. avatar
    gavgams | 16 February 2010 at 11:21 am #

    The forests of antarctica live on.

    They are ours, but massively evolved – the thick crust, our nutrient deficiency, our even temperature, the lava drift.

  9. avatar
    matthew | 16 February 2010 at 1:26 pm #

    Looking forward very much to the Tilley's show tomorrow Steve… Pretty much in my own neighbourhood! Cool.

  10. avatar
    veleska1970 | 16 February 2010 at 4:24 pm #

    have a fantastic gig. wish i could be there!!

  11. avatar
    cazziem | 16 February 2010 at 8:31 pm #

    Do we really want to understand EVERYTHING? I don’t think that we do. I have a thirst for knowledge and love learning and understanding, but if I’m truthful, once I understand something completely it kinda loses it’s attraction and then I start looking for something new, so it’s the things I don’t understand that I’m drawn to most.

    Strange thing is that as a parent, or grand-parent, the little ones except us to know everything and be able to explain it to them. Isn’t the word that most parents really hate to from their children is “why”?

    Good luck with the gig, look forward to your personal review on ttb!!!

  12. avatar
    Ellen | 16 February 2010 at 11:26 pm #

    I always have way more questions than answers.

    And the one question I'm learning to stop asking is: WHY?

    It'll drive you nuts if you keep asking – why – which reminds me of that episode of The Prisoner in which No. 2 creates a machine that can answer every single question ever asked. The prisoner says: "I can ask a question that will blow its mind." Long story short: the prisoner fees the question into the machine, the machines goes kapuut. It spits out the question it could not answer: WHY?

    Great series [back in the 60s].

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 February 2010 at 5:03 am #

    So hard for me not to be able to get to Tilley's tonight on such a special occasion 🙁
    What a great venue it is though,and I will always cherish the special memories from your past gigs there.
    Wishing everyone a great night tonight and I hope to have the opportunity to go to a 30th gig later in the year!

  14. avatar
    {"?"carful wid~tat axe Unome"?",} | 17 February 2010 at 7:19 am #

    "no dysphoria
    your prose…"

  15. avatar
    iseult | 17 February 2010 at 9:26 am #

    have a lovely show

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 February 2010 at 11:07 pm #

    Hey Steven

    this is a LONG shot but just wondering…. would you happen to be one of the 12 mystery guests that Julia Zemiro has lined up for her comfort zone show at the Adelaide fringe? it mentions intriguing Australian artists on there, and seeing as tho u were on rock wiz once upon a time, it sent my alarm bells ringing… because if that were the case, I'd scream & jump (in a grown up kinda way, not like a ninny at all…)


  17. avatar
    stealthblue | 17 February 2010 at 11:22 pm #

    Yes, Steve, have a GREAT show!!

  18. avatar
    Saint Louie | 18 February 2010 at 1:07 am #

    "…many physicists believe that 11-dimensional M-theory, which is described in many sectors by matrix string theory, in many other sectors by perturbative string theory is the complete theory of everything…"

    Source: Theory of Everything from Wikipedia

    …or God, or Evolution, or both intertwined together is what I personally believe.

    A "Unified Field" theory? M Theory? The Theory of Everything? 11 Dimensions of fundamental meaning throughout the Universe that describes and explains every single atom & function throughout ALL the vast Universes or Parallel Universes…interesting stuff to bring up Stevemeister! It reflects in your music too. We DIG IT!

Leave a Reply

You must be logged in to post a comment.