posted on June 30, 2013 at 8:28 pm

all man is dark and deceitful

dismality

dismality

pulled hither and wither by the winds of opportunity

his senses all confused

his eyes and ears fail him

the familiar suddenly strange

in the moment that went that he was in

the darkness of fear and stupidity

his own furtive shorting mind

the sludge of a million years

the attributes of beasts and stone

between the selves a thin brittle veneer

cracked and strained and crumbled and shattered

in narcissistic holes that take you down

the shell shock terrain of fried brain

nothing numbing it now

it calls out for something in the blackness

it calls out for something to distract it from itself

it cries incessantly like a kid driving you mad

it taps on your door as youre falling asleep

waking up there is no one there

unknown unto themselves everyone else sleeps

the unfeeling rain belts down outside

miasma of damp and mildew and rust

the night has little pity for anything

it is only the absence of sunlight after all

all regrets and no remorse the night and its crocodile tears

only a fool can know these things he must be mad to think it

a man is undone by himself and usually no one else comes close

a man is just a man

no justice man

only karma which remains inexorable

and hidden

 

 

 

 

21 Responses to “unknown unto himself”

  1. avatar
    Kristine | 30 June 2013 at 9:52 pm #

    Woke up this morning and read this and you’ve summed up my mood and thoughts perfectly.

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    Kohl Ette | 30 June 2013 at 11:06 pm #

    How I feel I have gone as far
    as a woman can go without
    I don’t know
    maybe that’s the problem.
    Yet I know I have been
    as open to you
    as I could.
    Saw and heard
    obvious furtiveness
    I’m sure I know you know
    others seem to
    and we perhaps merciful
    in our
    ultimate tentativeness
    I do appreciate
    whatever you have done
    to accommodate
    with a bit of kind cruelty
    or of tough love
    yet we have also
    encouraged,
    to what end?
    Oh friend?

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    Chris | 1 July 2013 at 9:23 am #

    The human condition sk…..and being an artist you are particularly sensitive to it….’a man is undone by himself’….poignant and true….free will is a double-edged sword…..but nothing is wasted, even the negative experiences add to wisdom which is a real gift.

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    Anonymous | 1 July 2013 at 10:40 am #

    so much so it’s an oddity to see the look in others’ faces when they hear you tell the truth (owe up, and keep moving)… as if you’re mad. (and you feel like telling them more but cuz of that uncomfortable look in their face, you don’t – that it’s not hard to tell the truth in fact it’s quite more efficent even (time-wise) – and quite pleasant too… and I think helps make memories more vivid (and fun to remember/clearer)cuz you never have those walls previously built to hide behind to figure out a way around them now… I think that’s sometimes why people don’t remember, sometimes it’s just they’re busy or whatnot… and too – there’s no arguing – cuz if you owe up immediately, you get to walk away in light (whether night or day) really quick again… but, then you have to (and sadly) see them stuck where they were with that refusal and realize that road just didn’t start – it’s an entire life (in the dark) and I think then they’re afraid that if they tell the truth now, the rest of the past will come back to haunt them (but it won’t) or they’re just so patterned into lies that it physically feels(?) painful to be other than what has always been for them(?). I don’t know.

    So/but… you just keep hoping they realize how easy it is. if man/woman started today (I guess it’s tomorrow some places) and just say, oops I’m so sorry I was wrong about ….. whatever it is at that moment – and not to the whole world or some clergy or any of that other junk, but to the person/situation at the then current time, and then next again… that would be a new pattern and it would be beautiful and would start pretty memories in their thoughts – which at the end of this world would be nice for everyone to have. you keep wishing for them. i think the saddest/most hurtful thing for a person to hear is another telling them something like: I don’t remember but if you say so, okay, I’m sorry. (and then because they don’t remember, they do it over and over again… no, then please don’t apologize to me… and also the recipient of that [apology] is thinking: how can you be sorry for something you can’t even remember doing?

    and then every once in awhile there is someone you happen across and maybe they won’t be physically with you forever but while they’re in that exact moment with you, the electricity of truth: pure white light – it is so beautiful, you can see it and feel it and hear it and smell it too – and for that you thank them and I bet you, they’re thankful too …and you know they will stay in your light forever. (and when you find someone who knows truth and isn’t trapped, quietly to yourself to the rest of the world: “ha! I told you… and that’s why this world is worth the ride.” Get into the white light – just think how beautiful night would then be (it’s blinding!) – no more scary. I still think this world could do it.

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    kell | 1 July 2013 at 4:19 pm #

    Oh man… As i wrote on fb ~ “There is the known,known.There is the known unknown. Then there is the unknown, unknown.” (Quote by someone). There are great gifts, truths & treasures in the unknown unknown. Love your karma free…!! You can do it. ALso, the heavy feeling is normal, ‘en mass’, at the end of a financial year. Just a passing thing. Mid-winter (hehe!) It’s already a new day now ~ bet you’ve already moved on…!

  6. avatar
    Chris | 1 July 2013 at 6:47 pm #

    …Sydney rain…there is nothing like it….drenching sodden mercury drops that soak into the roots of the Morton Bay Figs…and your soul…

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    Kohl Ette | 2 July 2013 at 9:02 am #

    ‘You know I love you’… and was it a pretty memory when I said sorry to your face for things after Van Park when I saw you? You wafted swannily off it seemed with your nose in the air. Felt slightly awkward and I knew it was time for me to leave. In retrospect perhaps it was just the ‘white light’ you saw? Yep you do get that look on your face (god knows how mine looks) … like when we first met at the Wilderness Years set you did in the record shop. I asked you to sign the Brother Moon Sister Sun cd which you did. The way you then said,’so you’re Kohl Ette?’ with a distant and other worldly look (way past me)and in gentle voice as if dawn had dawned was priceless. I didn’t feel I could hang around to change that look. But I do remember you saying as I was walking off, ‘Good to meet you …. really’. Like the other night, ‘You’re looking very good … really’ but then you had more important things to do of course. Sorry for my habit of chuckling and looking away. I wanted to believe you.

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    DavidP | 2 July 2013 at 1:31 pm #

    works in progress we all are
    some learn just by the default of the hard knocks of circumstance
    some try to add to this some active conscious learning
    to purposely extract light from darkness
    to find true self hidden in the brambles and the chaff
    but still stumble in the dark, still make mistakes, hopefully learn
    you’ve summed up some of all of this here I think
    for a lot of things, we do not know that we do not know
    humanity is foolish and full of learned ignoramuses

  9. avatar
    Chris | 2 July 2013 at 8:15 pm #

    …..just a pop singer….typical sk humility…..sooo much more than that….

    • avatar
      thetimebeing | 2 July 2013 at 8:43 pm #

      jesus knows its hard to keep all the people satisfied chris

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        Anonymous | 2 July 2013 at 10:33 pm #

        Let the old SK out now and again, that’ll clear em out of your path for a bit.

  10. avatar
    Chris | 3 July 2013 at 12:12 pm #

    He sure did….’you can please some of the punters some of the time…’

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    kell | 3 July 2013 at 10:38 pm #

    Who said you had to ‘keep all the people satisfied’…? When you stay true to what’s in your heart of hearts, well, all the people ARE then satisfied! That’s how it’s worked all along. The people that resonate with you, do because you’re YOU. Don’t be a ‘pleaser’….at the sacrifice of your own energy/integrity. Time to please YourSelf…in the way that you like who you actually Are. (This is, um, your Higher Self speaking…perhaps(!))

  12. avatar
    Wynter | 7 July 2013 at 1:27 am #

    intimate

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    IP freely | 23 July 2013 at 8:45 pm #

    This one I like. Seeing into the sickness of another can often shed light on one’s own psychology. Reminds me of Mist your opportunity. Is this about the same thing ? No way to know.

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    Kohl Ette | 24 July 2013 at 6:05 pm #

    Dear Hackwit: there is a good (Im)Possibility given your astounding insight and tactful references to certain facts. I do think there is a stronger reference to ‘Everyone’, however. Excuse my tone, I have a reason for it but I’m sure you can surmise, although perhaps you have mistaken my tone entirely. Will think the best of you anyway, since I feel I love you.

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    I.P freely | 27 July 2013 at 7:38 am #

    ..Sometimes themselves writers do not know what they are on about. . . . I do not see this one is about “Everyone” .I have my own take on it. Maybe I am reading into it. So Be it. That is the nature of Poetry

  16. avatar
    I.P freely | 27 July 2013 at 7:39 am #

    text error above

  17. avatar
    Kohl Ette | 11 August 2013 at 11:57 am #

    really?!


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