posted on August 18, 2006 at 12:36 am

who did this?
you did
i dunno
ok then

cleveland ohio
the home of rock
last nite in cincin ok
nice crowd
nice theatre
it was pretty good i guess
lovely dressing rooms
we go back to hotel after
up to roof garden
under the big red vernon manor sign
lookin’ out over the misty city in the weee small hours
have a smoke n a laugh
this morning we drive to cleveland
i arrive n do an interview
with 2 very cool guys in a religious bookshop
i drink iced peach tea
they ask about grant
the tears fill up mah eyes
still gets me sometimes
we talk about my favourite songs
jeff buckleys been on my mind a lot lately
forget her from grace #2
alternative take of dream brother
kanga roo
i stand out front of gig
meet some people
sign some stuff
someone gives me some jazz
(thanks nick!)
i i get to hug some people n get mah picture taken
hey honey i gotta picture with steve fuckin kilbey!
yeah but whos that olde hippy in the white shorts…?
oh…that is…steve…kilbey…
cleveland seems a little down on its luck as usual
all of ohio seems a little in disrepair
but not in a bad way
in an interesting way
gothic pointy roofs
weeds n trees
strange attic windows
the area here is kinda nasty
where the beachland ballroom is..
hey where the hell is the beach?
still all the people i meet are very nice
what would i know about cleveland?
i just got here
i have black beans n rice for din dins
people send vegan cookies grape juice, muffins etc
thank you
im sitting here under the gig rite now
rob dickos playin upstairs
pete n i do an interview with a lady
who doesnt seem to know anything about us
we walk into an underground shop(?) here
n a very tweaked lady walks up n says
i got under the milky way on my mind day n nite….
and then she says
who are you?
yeah whatever lady
have another margarita sweetie
the dressing room is long dark n hot
a loada fans hum n whirr warm air around
old bits of machines
busted up sofas
a room ful of gas canisters
im eating grapes
im drinkin pineapple juice
im smokin ohios finest
im waitin’ to go on
i should do yoga
i should unwind
i should empty my mind n forget myself
i think of jeff buckleys lyrics
dont fool yerself
she was heartache from the moment that you met her
yer hearts cold n still as ya try to find the will
to forget her somehow..
i think ive forgotten her now
oh jeff yer voice is such sweet sadness
i went down n hadda look at the mississippee river in n.o.
why jeff oh why didja go swimmin’ in there?
i wish ya hadna done it man
thats a mediocre lil blogg for ya
till somethin’ profound
comes around
and hey gareth of notts
youre a handsome bugger!

94 Responses to “assailant identified as my self”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 1:28 am #

    You’re pretty cute, yerself!
    Love Gareth

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 1:34 am #

    not so ordinary actually
    wish i could wrap my arms around you

  3. avatar
    Tic Toc | 18 August 2006 at 1:54 am #

    If I have to be alone
    Then I should make my mind serene
    After all you’re born alone, you die alone
    You might as well spend every moment in between alone

    But if I have to be alone
    Then it will be on my own terms
    I can never talk about it, ever show it
    Even though the world is watching while I squirm alone

    And your bleeding heart friends say, “Isn’t it sad?”
    Then they go make love
    While you go insane.
    It drives you mad!

    My mind, I love my mind
    And if no one can feel the same
    I’m a computer with a name
    And I’ve got no one else to blame
    If I have to be alone

    And if nobody understands
    That special creature that is me
    And if they fail to see the me I see
    Then no one else knows truly what it is
    To be alone

    Maybe once in a lifetime you lose your will
    Then you can let down your guard
    But they cower in fear.
    It makes you ill!

    My heart, my burning heart
    And if no one will quench the flame
    I’m not obliged to do the same
    And then they’ll have to share the blame
    Because I have to be alone
    But I don’t want to be alone

  4. avatar
    lizardlizard81 | 18 August 2006 at 1:55 am #

    This is slightly late in saying, but the mention of Grant makes me remember:

    Thank you, thank you, thank you for ‘Providence.’ Thank you for the memory of sitting in a dark little club with my love’s hand clasped in mine as you played. Thank you for the memory from years past of getting to know him and how the first time he ever dared –if ever so tenatively– to put his hands on me (so light — like I would bolt at the very idea), he sang along with ‘Providence’ as it played on the stereo. He came up behind me and put his hands over mine as I sat at the kitchen table (his turn at ‘Scrabble’ — love blooms to board games and Jack Frost). His voice was low, quavery and I knew for the first time that I could love this guy.

    Thank you for being part of peoples’ memories.


  5. avatar
    Renee | 18 August 2006 at 1:56 am #

    that’s too weird
    I was just listening to that song when you posted this blog,
    it’s one of my favorites from him
    I have it set on myspace,
    I had just changed it
    the video of that song is great too
    I was in memphis that same year just shortly after his death
    the river was murky and swift

    ‘Her love is a rose, pale and dying
    Dropping her petals in land unknown
    All full of wine, the world before her, was sober with no place to go’

    your blogs are never mediocre

    after tonight, 3 more shows to go!

  6. avatar
    Richard | 18 August 2006 at 2:03 am #

    Moderately encouraged by the reponse to my suggestion yesterday that it’s high time for some Church jokes I offer the following knock-knock joke:


    …yeah…yeah wait there!…(footsteps)”

    I’m sure someone can do better.

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 2:15 am #

    Sorry if this doesn’t relate to current entry, but this odd thought has been probing my mind today and i thought it was worth mention. A particular happening occured, long before I became an appreciate of the church’s music, (which incidently occured in 1987 when i purchased the double album with the suede shoes and inverted guitar on the front cover) I think i was around 11 or 12 at the time, it was 1981 or 2 and my family had taken to going on picnic trips on sundays around rural NSW. On one particular windy sunday-late afternoon, i was roaming around a historic churchyard (historic in terms of australia’s limited European history), listening to the radio on my walkman, reading the gravestones and having thoughts about the once lived existence of these engraved names. Suddenly i am alarmed by the announcers voice to an upcoming song, it was- Almost with you. This song seamlessly melded with the moment. I became entranced by the Stained glass windows, the church itself, the cemetery, the song and the significance of all things passing. Feelings of udadulturated glee folowed by a sinister distant foreboding transpired through me. Its one of those childhood memories i feel shall never be forgotten and whenever i think of that time, that day i am always filled with fondness and forlorn at the same time.

    Thanks for your time.


  8. avatar
    Thomas Irvin | 18 August 2006 at 2:16 am #

    How I wish I could be there. I was going about my errands today in Cleveland and started to feel a little feverish; not the proverbial rock and roll fever, but the old fashioned rob-you-of-your-energy fever. I have just enough energy to type, but barely. I hope my Cleveland compatriots treat you right. Fortunately, I saw the New York show and you still get my $30.00 from my advance ticket. You guys remain the best.

    Play good.

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 2:31 am #

    don’t worry love, they are never mediocre…

  10. avatar
    mrs. baal n zeus | 18 August 2006 at 2:47 am #

    ipod on random
    from the church
    right to guns n roses
    haha pretty bad

    Guns n roses
    however reminds me of
    “old bits of machines
    busted up sofas”
    and smell of jazz

    My father listened to them
    when I was little
    my father used to visit his friend
    who lived in a junkyard
    we used to play in there
    and old school bus
    a chicken coup inside a
    moving truck
    carpets outside
    leading up to the door
    of a large farm house
    where twenty cats and chickens
    inside the trash piled up as high as the refrigerator
    pink walls because it was
    cheap paint.
    you could see the basement
    through the bathroom floor.
    my dad always brought him
    maountain dew and buttered
    it smelled like dirty dishes
    and outside smelled like
    rotting cars
    a bit scary if you are walking around in a junk yard
    by yourself
    always looking behind you
    and trying not to get lost.
    Yeah, but guns n roses
    and ever hear ratt? ratt is the worst. but pretty catchy.

  11. avatar
    DJK082067 | 18 August 2006 at 2:56 am #

    Less than 24 from my outlook to Chicago ( its 9:00pm on 08/17 ). Hope Cinnci. was to your liking and waitng anxiously for yor post-concert report on Chicago and The Park West. One of my favorite venues observed from a fans point of view, not an artist. My B-day is 08/20, I beleive yours is close do so “Happy Onward” as it arrives. Chowing at a little cafe at around 5:30 pm at a small cafe couple feet west of the venue befor the show. Hoping my wife, Laura, and I cross you or your mates path in Chicago to wish you and your families well. As everyday passes, you are closer to home, as each hour progresses your loved ones and family await. I hope this final leg of the tour completes your adventure well. Heard you did a classy version of Reptile in one of your prev. shows. Oh would that be a delight. The Chicago crowd must keeping beggin for more until the city is forced to turn on its lights.
    See ya Friday and good health and fortune!

  12. avatar
    john in austin, texas | 18 August 2006 at 3:02 am #

    back in 88, i was a freshman in college… i think i may have heard “utmw” on mtv’s 120 minutes and had to run straight out and buy the album. i’d probably only had it for a couple of days (and had not really had time to give it a proper listen) when on one saturday evening my roommate and i decided it would be a good nite to drop a tab of acid and drive around the city. while on the way out of the apartment, i picked up my brand new ‘starfish’ cassette and said, “hey, this might be good to listen to”. well, suffice it to say, that night and the music on that album is indeliblely imprinted in my consciousness. we drove all around the city, through the hills, around the lake listening to ‘starfish’ over and over again until we knew the words to every song. we eventually pulled over onto some empty culdesac on the side of the hills overlooking the city, opened the doors to the car to the cold winter air, reclined the seats, and just watched the skies letting the music continue playing. it’s all hard to put into words, but i’ve been a fan of the church and your music ever since.

  13. avatar
    Cougarwombatgrapeswink | 18 August 2006 at 3:31 am #

    “knock Knock” Who’s there….???

    ARRRRh Fuk I am hearing things again.

  14. avatar
    plipwap | 18 August 2006 at 3:32 am #

    Numbers.. Does that one predict what I think it does.

  15. avatar
    heatherspace(d) | 18 August 2006 at 3:46 am #

    As much as I loved Grace, it wasn’t until I heard “Forget Her” that I felt the full weight of loss; it’s my favorite Jeff Buckley song. Seeing the words posted here feels like stumbling into a secret.

  16. avatar
    crucifiedinspace | 18 August 2006 at 3:52 am #

    Chicago has hills?

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 3:57 am #

    Ah, don’t be so modest – you guys rocked last night. Sorry about all the monitor issues you were having – it sounded really good out front (except for Peter’s
    vocals on A New Season, which were buried). And of course the moron talking… but all in all the crowd
    was definitely into it and mostly respectful, I thought.

    For me the whole atmosphere of the evening was intense and enjoyable. The Asian patio show… The acoustic arrangements are extremely cool. I have so much
    respect for you guys continuing to plug away, doing what you do and staying true to your vision. Thanks!! Maybe Cinci does like you…

    Drew in Columbus

    PS – Tell Marty to chill out… heheheh

  18. avatar
    bucks burnett | 18 August 2006 at 4:06 am #

    I’m retiring from reading the comments section – gonna play guitar instead. But I’ll still be reading the blog. So if anybody ever wants to say hi, like Queen Helene or Valeska or Danial Watkins, or Keve Stilbey, stop by my blog:

  19. avatar
    syrinx | 18 August 2006 at 4:15 am #

    Q: Why did The Church cross the road?

    A: To get to the other side.

    Away from the hotdog vendor.

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 4:18 am #

    “assailant identified as my self
    who did this?
    you did
    i dunno
    ok then”

    fear not
    your words do not overwhelm
    or harm…
    they help awaken
    the senses, the mind, the heart.

    see how the tangled mind runs
    from its pain
    it seeks an aneasthetized life
    a senseless life
    an unconscious life

    to live, to love,
    is to feel all…
    the heights of joy
    the depths of sorrow…
    and to walk calmly,
    amidst it all,

    cultivating joy and serenity
    amidst the
    chaos and despair.

    to stop the terror
    to stop the invasion
    to stop the destruction

    one must first learn not to run
    from one’s own pain

    this is the challenge for
    even the greatest amomgst us
    the ones that will lead us
    out of this turmoil
    to a place of peace

    your words are stirrings
    for sleeping souls

    they form a thread
    in the tapestry
    of consciousness

    they help awaken and transform

    be not afraid to cry
    be not afraid to laugh
    be not afraid to sing
    be not afraid to dance

    be not afraid to question
    be not afraid to answer

    “who did this
    you did

  21. avatar
    Letango | 18 August 2006 at 4:33 am #

    I think of Jeff Buckley too sometimes. I was a fan of his father’s, late Tim Buckley’s, music and went to see a tribute to him at St. Anne’s in Brooklyn. It mussa been 1990 I think.

    I remember G.E. Smith hostin’ (sort of) and Sid Straw a playin’ and the big act of the night was Jeff Buckley (his first time playin’ out and one of his father’s songs of course!). It was amazing. His voice. My god how he could hit the high notes and so soulful. He wailed and he played his acoustic guitar damn good. He played two or three songs total (my memory due to the heightened emotion of the night tis a little foggy on the details). I was so buzzed with electricity I was spillin’ ektoplasm all over the place. The rapport of father and son, though cut off (physically speaking) from one another for so long, was imminent. Souls, genes, still communicating, still embracing one another– just pure pulsating electric spirit.

    A few years later he came out with his first album, which you mention SK, Grace. I was thrilled for him. I was so depressed and sad when I heard of his fate. I thought whose fucking plan is this? First Tim now Jeff (and through no fault of his own)! What horror!

    When father and son meet such an untimely fate makes me think the Greek tragedies are all spot on. It’s the way of the world it seems; but it seems uncanny how fate seems to work in pairs and threes, in first the wife then two months later the husband of 60 years. Is it coincidence? Was his spiritual imbilical cord tugged upon from the other side just a little harder than usual that day? Who was tugging? Was he? Was pops? Was time? Who, What? Karma? Fate? God? Do we really leave when the lessons are learned? I don’t think so. We always leave so much unfinished, have to keep coming back.

    All right. I get death for the most part and on the whole accept it. But it’s more bearable when some part lives on. I like progeny for that reason. Oh, I know, it’s cliche our search for immortality — been going on and on blah blah from the time of Gilgamesh and earlier and The Romans with their geneologies on display. But that sort of immortality is not what I’m referring to. One of the miracles of offsping (biological or other creative manifestation) is simply watching that spiritual thread in action. That continuum of light and life specialized into a tiny pinpoint ( I.. me.. you.. ) Following it so far back, back, forward and through. Like this:

    This is Jeff– Wow –how different
    What a spirit.
    What a gift.
    Nothing like it
    because see…

    see where he comes from
    see where he takes it…

    It’s just that: he’s a gift.
    And a small part of his gift (though I hesitate to say it for fear of diminishing
    his innate value) was having been the sole progeny of another wonderfully wild and true spirit.
    And what makes his death all the more tragic, to me anyway, is that it was the final pruning of that lifepath/thread. That energy in that form has been cut back and the tree of life will route its energy and resources toward other branches. What are we left with? Thank God(dess) for the Church!

    A few years before Jeff never returned from the water, a magical acquaintance of mine met a similar fate. He was simply a gentleman who touched my belly while I was pregnant with my son, who had also happened to bring me a little healing. I had just lost my husband, was deep in grief, and his words were a balm to my sullen spirit. He was one of the first to bring me the right words at the right time. His words helped me make a small step toward trusting life again. Anyhoo, he left our visit to go camping along a river. His journal was found some months later in the water. They never found his body.

    How does this all twine? (Forigive me for rambling.) Well the way grief and sadness does through us all. I have no clue really why I’m writing this, or why now– except that words from strangers, familiars, mentors, family, loved ones, our favorite magicians (er musician’s) blog, touch us and move us and sometimes compell us to reach out and try to touch some more.

    It’s the synchronicity of lost father, lost son, lost husband, lost magician, lost bag of waters, first cry, first milk, first hunger… and so on. There’s that thread again.

    Grace, the album, was a little grace come one year after I suffered my greatest loss.
    And Jeff’s death left me a little lost. Still does.
    The light is growing dimmer in here so many stars in the night sky obscured by the light of ego, man, machine.

    All right. Good night, sorry for the rant.
    Only one more thing. When I think upon Jeff and his father I wonder:
    Do we ever know what we leave our children?

    When I think upon SK and his grieving Grant I wonder:
    Do we ever know what we leave behind?

    I don’t know whom I’ve touched.
    Worse I don’t know whom I’ve harmed.

    I’ve come to know so little.

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 5:15 am #

    Ill be C N ya tomorrow
    check out: Vancouver, Everybody here wants yu
    by Mr. Buckley
    My God what an angel
    missin him now
    jaime r……

  23. avatar
    The Other One | 18 August 2006 at 5:28 am #

    Letango, I understand every letter of every word you wrote. You didn’t harm me though. It’s confirmation all over again.

  24. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 5:35 am #

    You would be proud of me Steve. I put my all into it. I played some Hotel Womb and I a shredded. People applauded the solo. It was kind of like Sellersville when Marty blew the audience, the band away and we didn’t know where to go from there.

    I played some Patti Smith (you know the one). A couple originals that were very well liked. UtMW. in fact, someone came up to me and said they loved the movie Donnie Darko and how much they loved that song. You truly are a songsmith. And I only do your songs because I love them so much. keep on soldiering. Don’t lay down that helmet, Don’t lay that cape, boy.

    Love you ,

  25. avatar
    The Other One | 18 August 2006 at 5:45 am #

    Are you proposing that Immortality resides in a thread of DNA codes? Is this the living spirit we’re talking about instead of reincarnation? The continuity through the family…and not necessarily a spirit coming back one after another life? Certainly, I look a lot like my dead mother and my brother looks exactly like my dead father so that was my interpretation, as selfish and misunderstanding as it can be. Anyway, every time I look at a photo of the July’s mythical couple… I just get amazed at how we, my brother and I, are our parents’ reliving, relieving, living and leaving again… The breed is the spirit. Really an out-take, an alternative version of everything I ever thought. When will it stop? Sometimes it feels like an abysm.
    It perhaps explains the terror we both feel before the possibility of repeating their mistakes. Any resemblance with their lives which precociously (?) ceased at age 39 and we panic. We must be carrying pieces of their complexes, constructions, but we can’t forget our identity. It reminds me of some issues which appear in “Man” lyrics, obscure b-side from, ha!, Magician Among The Spirits. “In the darkest hours
    We wrestle with our ancestors
    We will resist their power
    The powers that be”.
    But I must sleep. The petrol world doesn’t want to know if I have a spiritual inclination at such an early time. Or late thyme. Have to be up at 8am. [hard mission of being a humanbeing]

  26. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 18 August 2006 at 5:46 am #

    wish you were here…
    Ne iko

  27. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 5:50 am #

    dON’T fool yourself
    she was beart ache
    from the moment
    that you met her

  28. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 5:52 am #

    Tim met an untimely demise
    So did his Son
    Yet they knew very little about one another.

    Nuture vs. Nature/

  29. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 5:56 am #


  30. avatar
    ben | 18 August 2006 at 5:57 am #

    saw the show in cincinatti..kicked ass. Suprised to see ya minglin outside before the show.Ya seemed happy outside the dark shades u were flossin. I had taken an asperin after havin a spliff and feelin like shit, paranoid maybe. the concert started and i was lifted to a place familiar however different. strange to question except to say ima human sensitive to feeling and unfotunately people. I enjoy others around in bad times,not negetively but when the demons are gone im free to enjoy me. extreme ups and downs, but one good attribute learned from my need of friendhip has been the neccesity to only see the good things in people. Im very discerning of people due to abuse early on in my childhood,naturally as well. I remember a man who said his music was only a tool to help those in need. I agree and can say thats why i listen to the church, unlike A CHURCH that feeds ya will fruitless men in love with their ministries as opposed to god. But most people are not like me and ive never experianced the kind of mood that i unwillingly experianced within those walls. I instantly was sucked out of body on the opener Block and remained until Tim(blew me fuckin mind) lost the groove on peters tune. I think steve udont believe yourself of what i and im sure others do, and thats u are a good man. Sounds silly probally to some who know how many jackholes tell ya ‘great album man’ killer show duude.’But u truly dont believe people get ya. I know, yura loner in desperate need to heal the frozen anger ya have thats not blaming anyone. not even you anymore.Some people are smart enough to prevent being skitzo but healing and forgiving the past il take care the anxiaty. Me god dont boast a name but allows me to love myself evan though i feel undeserving and you helped me

  31. avatar
    Valerie | 18 August 2006 at 5:59 am #


    A very sincere THANK YOU to you, Peter, Marty and Tim for an INCREDIBLE Cleveland Show!


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    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 5:59 am #


  33. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 6:02 am #

    BEN. how raw. I lve it.

  34. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 6:09 am #

    Onto Wisoconsin! woo-hoo

  35. avatar
    The Other One | 18 August 2006 at 6:17 am #

    Ben and Letango… A Karmic fest here today?
    Now, I will really sleep (just wrote “spell” before…grass + alcohol takes sleep to spell).

  36. avatar
    Letango | 18 August 2006 at 6:47 am #

    The Other One said…

    Are you proposing that Immortality resides in a thread of DNA codes? Is this the living spirit we’re talking about instead of reincarnation?


    Just in case you are referring to my previous comment. I’d like to clarify for the record:

    No, that’s not what I’m proposing at all.

    It’s all spirit to me. Form (even at the minutest level) is just a vehicle. So it appears in my limited perception.

    Have you ever heard the parable of Indra’s Net?

  37. avatar
    stealthblue | 18 August 2006 at 7:12 am #

    Great entry, Steve-o. Now…on to Ill-n-noizy…
    This Chi-town is hungry for ya, there is excitement in the air today. I can feel it, man! I’m diggin it. Was strollin down the lane and the sun was warm and gleamin’ and the birdies were whistlin’, the girls were smilin’, folks all around just being nice!!…and there he was….CURTIS himself!! No shit! Old Cab Calloway right there, sitting on a stairway…he stopped me and gave me the low down. He said, “You know,there’s a heavenly little venue down the road in Lincoln Park, with a heavenly little Ozzie band opened by a strappin’ Brit Lad, gonna grace us with some holy tunes this Friday Night!” Per the advise of Curtis the Blues Man; We’re all sliding on down to the “Triple Rock” (Park West actually)to catch The Reverend Cleofus(Steovus) to get some CHURCHIN’ UP!! We gonna get wise and get to CHURCH!!! Amen…
    See you there, all you lovely people. If you can’t be there physically, you’re there in spirit! Say hello if you happen to “find” me, I’ll be the one in the “Watery” Shirt, floating around in a heavenly trance with a cute girl at my side. ๐Ÿ™‚

  38. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 7:18 am #

    Am i going on the right path?

  39. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 7:27 am #

    sometime I feel like I am a record skipping. it’s like rebirth though. just when I think its doomed the grace of enlightenment intervenes. Whether it be the The Band ( and you know who I mean), the blog, my creativity. It all comes together to find a nice place in this occidental palace. Oh steve, you have gifted us. I first heard Heyday in 89. And I was awestruck. I fell away from the band for some time, then I don’t know whaT caused it, but I found myself in the parking lot of some big corporation and relistening to your tapes (I had just went on a spending spree @ a record & tape store) and I was reblown away!!! Ever since then, I have not strayed.

  40. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 7:29 am #

    cmon I’m up to 207. read me. I could be 52,245th ๐Ÿ™‚

  41. avatar
    lorrain | 18 August 2006 at 8:56 am #

    hello inspirer
    surely not mediocre blog, maybe not profound, but full of tenderness, images, taste, reality, tears, honesty, understanding, respect, universal love and humour (the Dude also had fine white shorts ๐Ÿ™‚
    as long as you enjoy this odyssey with your bandmates that is fine by me
    I am thankful

  42. avatar
    BJ | 18 August 2006 at 11:34 am #


    any of youse seen the shai summer season 2006 catalogue?

  43. avatar
    fergal | 18 August 2006 at 11:38 am #

    maybe we were all on that roof garden with u, jeff buckley included, in a parallel universe.
    finish the tour in style lads

  44. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 12:00 pm #

    sk, I have to tell you, I was lucky to have seen Jeff Buckley live here in downtown Melbourne years ago (at a small place called “The Lounge” where you had done a poetry reading many moons ago) and GOD it was the most MIND-BLOWING gig I have ever been to!!! The whole place was in total awe of HIM, even his young band were watching him go off in disbelief, it was pure magic and I’ll never forget it for as long as I live…I cried so much when I found out he drowned. I remember walking into the venue that night, it was still kind of empty and he was playing pool, I was so “starstruck” I couldn’t pluck up the courage to go and talk to him and I’ll forever kick myself for that….all I wanted to ask him was “will you marry me?”.

    Love you always,

  45. avatar
    Samosanx | 18 August 2006 at 12:05 pm #

    as soon as i read “iced peach tea” I thought of Grant

    another thread perhaps…peaches (renee)

    I’m a Tim fan, and melquiades, wish I had some patti with me now…it’s the pavlovian thing I guess (“down by the ocean…”)

    ding ding, tic toc

    hello Steve. Peace

  46. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 12:49 pm #

    patti’s good. I saw her perform in Baltimore a few years ago. I said hello to Mr. Daugherty. She’s an awesome performer. so captivating. her one recommendation was to eat garlic, raw, and lots of it. ha ha.

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    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 1:03 pm #

    hey Steve it’s not mediocre you’re not mediocre. I’m still waiting for the entry about you clipping your toenails and picking the lint out of your belly button. that’ll shoot you to #1!

    love you ,

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    veleska1970 | 18 August 2006 at 1:50 pm #

    mediocre, my behind!!! steven kilbey, you are ANYTHING but.

    glad to see you’re in better spirits.

    lotza love…..

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    sue cee | 18 August 2006 at 2:21 pm #

    Steve, kicking back on the rooftop at night with a smoke, sounds like heaven to me!

    Yes, Jeff Buckley was the voice of an angel,and a tragic loss.
    Speaking of heaven and angels, there’s a free download of my favourite Grant McLennan song at Beggars Banquet – go dl and listen to it if you havent heard this and dare yourself not to cry!
    Fingers by Grant McLennan


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    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 2:21 pm #

    Hey Steve,
    Keep those plates spinning,
    For those of us who must daily,
    You assist in the conciousness.
    As I must sit this a.m., and continue, the ‘Grind’,
    the beachland tunes remain…
    and press through the mundane.

    Can’t thank you enough,
    – from the parking lot groupies-

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    CeciliaGin | 18 August 2006 at 2:34 pm #

    I’ll try to make the lights flicker at 8pm Chicago time, watch for any irregularities…

    Wishing I could be there!


  52. avatar
    secretBeatinMichigan | 18 August 2006 at 2:46 pm #


    A big weekend coming up. In three days your life will be your own again – so give San Fran, ol’ Milwaukee, and even Chicago (lousy White Sox bums) all ya got left. If they whoop and holler loud do them the pleasure of “Jazzy-Reptile” for I fear this rendition may fade into that Mystery of History (or is it just because we weren’t able to see it for what it was at the time?)
    Give’em good shows, SK, and tap that digital recorder “On” so’s we might get a “Live” CD out of this tour someday – it ain’t too expensive to make and produce CD’s now and ya don’t even have to spend much time cleaning it up ’cause we’ll buy it anyway (you could call it “Church in the Raw – Live!”, or somethin’ like that … well,… you might wanna artsy-up the title more than that maybe).
    It’s gonna be a quick three days SK but enjoy them for what they are – thanks oodles, to you and the boys, for makin’ the trip. I know it might be redundant and the least on your daily plan but please let Peter, Marty, and Tim know that we really appreciate them and their Art. Damn – you guys are a great band. I’m sad that you’re leaving the States – but enjoy your lives and please see us again soon.

    And thanks for this blog SK – I’ve looked forward to reading it everyday and hearing about your travels and thoughts.

    Peace (a most hopeful Peace, in the Now and what we know Is to come) to you and your concerns, ol’ lads. Keep groovin’, Space Rockers!

  53. avatar
    starfish | 18 August 2006 at 2:53 pm #

    Great show last night. Hopefully Cleveland is back on the map. Just like I told you earlier, some of you most faithful and ravenous fans live here.

    I’m glad I could provide and smoke “Ohio’s Finest” with you. (Honestly, it was a little harsh – I had to drink OJ and tonic to get my throat back in order) – I see it didn’t affect your lovely voice, though Rob complained a bit during the set that he smoked too much before the set. ๐Ÿ™‚ Steve, this is the best live singing I’ve heard from you. All the acoustic arrangements were very nice indeed.

    Providence was moving – I could feel Grant wandering about. Unguarded Moment was a perfect arrangement – I could feel Ian Curtis wandering about. (a few verses of JD’s Atmosphere sung for great measure).

    Jazzy Reptile – very nice indeed. Think of Cleveland as a bit of a Violet Town. BTW, the Beach was exactly 2 blocks walk from the parking lot. Bring your swim shorts and board next time. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    Mega-Jason | 18 August 2006 at 3:07 pm #

    Not medocre in the least, Steve

    Closest I get to seeing you this time round

    But, look…Someone put a bit from Irving Plaza on You Tube. Sigh…

    Any one have any more?

    Any chance of a last minute gig add in Portland or Seattle? How about peace in the mid-east?

    Oh, well.

  55. avatar
    secretBeatinMichigan | 18 August 2006 at 3:09 pm #

    Cleveland heard Jazzy Reptile??

    (“Bless the Browns and the Indians – ah Indians, how I wish you still had Big Jim Thome instead of …. them lousy White Sox bums!”)

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    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 3:20 pm #


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    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 3:30 pm #

    Mr. SK,

    First of all, thank you for the great show in Cleveland! It was very nice meeting Pablo and you too! It is odd (and at the same time brilliantly mysterious) when one gets up in the morning having no clue what kind of “adventure” will one end up at the day’s end. On my drive home all I could do was smile ๐Ÿ™‚

    Also, I got your card/artwork of “Vishnu in Bondi” -great vibrant colors.

    Anyhow, the blog of yours that was quoted in another musician’s blog and that got me interested in your personal writings was on Friday, June 02, 2006 by David Poe on his blog. The post starts like this :

    you gotta cultivate vitality
    you gotta breathe in the sweet prana that permeates the universe
    you gotta walk in the park and talk to the wind
    you gotta save a struggling insects life
    bless the fledglings in the nests
    look at the individual blades of grass
    regard the sky with wonder
    feel the rain on yer face
    get out of yer fluoro lit office
    run n skip n jump
    me n my doodles e and a
    we skip to school everymorning
    people say
    there goes that olde hippy skipping with yon twinnies
    but skipping is hard when ya 52
    but its so good for ya
    do something people
    take up some thing
    read the gospels
    read the gita
    implore lord vishnu to fill yer heart
    he cannot resist yer sincere prayers
    he WILL speak to ya if ya but ask…

    Beautiful! ๐Ÿ™‚

    The band that does a cover of your song and that got me hooked into your music is called Tangerine (although they only do it live, so is not recorded)… you should still check their other music/free mp3’s downloads, though! Beautiful music and lyrics!

    Best of luck in Chicago tonite and keep doing what you’re doing!!

    Hopefully will see you soon again!
    Buena suerte! ๐Ÿ™‚

    Play Pittsburgh next time!
    And good luck with the documentary, Pablo!

    -Lucia ๐Ÿ™‚

    You can visit my own “internet place” on myspace or Lucia’s space

    PS: While I know I’m running long in here, a comment about Jeff Buckley….

    This might sound harsh, but I think he always knew he was gonna leave this earthly world sooner rather than later…. inherently he knew. And although it would be beautiful to have him here singing with his powerful and moving voice, I doubt that the impact that his death left would come close to the one as/if he was alive. I know it sounds harsh, but I do believe that some people are meant to touch this world through their life, others through their death. I myself lost my older brother when he was 6 yrs old and I was only 5yrs…. a very tragic and senseless death…. but it had such an impact…. only God knows at the end…

    And as for myself, I’ve dreamt of Buckley a couple of times, always as a symbol of going “within”.

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    CeciliaGin | 18 August 2006 at 4:06 pm #

    i get to hug some people n get mah picture taken
    hey honey i gotta picture with steve fuckin kilbey!
    yeah but whos that olde hippy in the white shorts…?
    oh…that is…steve…kilbey…

    Pude abrazar alguna gente y tomaron mi foto
    Oye amor, tome una foto con el pinche Esteban Kilbey!
    Si, pero quien es ese hippy con los ‘eshorts’ blancos?

    It’s like miniature theater, I can’t wait to act this one out!


  59. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 4:09 pm #

    Jazz on the roof garden, eh? Sounds cool.

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    megdog61 | 18 August 2006 at 4:19 pm #

    brilliant cleveland show
    loved the jazzy reptile
    rob was amazing as always
    got to chat with him a bit
    your right, he is a descent bloke…

    what was with the wheelchair guy?
    somebody shoulda shoved one of those subway veggie sandwiches in his freakin’ face…what a wanker…

    don’t judge us for one we know nothing of…

    gave marty a mix cd
    hope it rocks the van a bit
    woulda added a herbal inspiration
    if i would’ve thought ahead
    another time another place
    he was a nice chat also…
    too cool for school…that one…

    thanks for coming to cleveland
    no hotub backstage at the beachland…guaranteed

    i think we DO love you here
    your an inspiration to the artist in us all…


  61. avatar
    baby | 18 August 2006 at 5:46 pm #

    when your imaginary friends show up to the confessional, that’s when you know you are in trouble.

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    Demeter | 18 August 2006 at 5:58 pm #

    Nevets, I do recall you saying that you suffered through Shark Boy & Lava Girl at one point. Here, the rental copy was cruelly yanked after a few minutes, and sent on back home to ye olde video/dvd rental store, that we parents refer to as c*ckbuster video, when the wee ears ca not hear us. Truly, you wear a nimbus of a parental halo! A paragon of fatherly virtue.

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    Renee | 18 August 2006 at 6:32 pm #

    haven’t suffered through that one,
    did just recently watch the Corpse Bride though
    just think Steve, soon enough you’ll be back to watching G rated movies with the doodles

    let’s see, what are some new ones
    I’ll check blockbuster online, hold on………

    Barnyard- b buster says it’s about a cow that learns to walk like a man
    Over the Hedge- about a bunch of animals getting into peoples garbage a shit
    Ant Bully- I’m sure many of us can relate to that story

    then there’s the wiggles, veggietales, barney

    doncha just luv it!!!!!

  64. avatar
    veleska1970 | 18 August 2006 at 6:43 pm #

    i’d rather a movie than some of the kiddie games. christina always wants to play “go fish” and “candyland”. those have to be the two most boring things anyone can do~~”this is your brain on pure boredom. any questions??”

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    leelinau | 18 August 2006 at 7:05 pm #

    O M G they are giving away tickets to the show here in Milwaukee…I couldn’t even get thru to be ANY caller let alone caller, 12 >.< The first caller however wasn’t 21, so he couldn’t go. The next caller was female, and she was all aflutter. The DJ asked her to name ONE song.. O N E song and she said UTMW >.< I’ve been trying to get thru to them to TELL them you guys STILL make fucking fantastic music, cuz apparently the church was relegated to the flannel flashback??? WTF? Why must they always come up with lame gimmicks?? Anyhoo….your almost here…and I’m positively humming with excitement. Still trying to get the tickets though… Lucky ass caller 12….and considering that the only song she could name was yea…utmw, she doesn’t even deserve those tickets! lol ahh well, what can ya do. Even if I have to stand on the street and catch snippets of the music from outside, I’d do it, I know, I’m such a dork. “protected by her mantra”

  66. avatar
    Melquiades | 18 August 2006 at 7:14 pm #

    Leelinau, is Milwaukee sold out??

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    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 7:16 pm #

    Buckley does not move me as much as he used to. When I was younger, I fell for a girl who later became a drunken, drug addicted mess on a downward spiral. I related to the pathos of his music, the sentiments behind “Sketches for my sweetheart, the drunk”. Several years after our last fling, she died from a mixture of alchohol and pills. I think I’ve taken “forget her” to heart in the sense that the longing emotional attachment, pathos is gone. Perhaps I don’t find self destructiveness romantic anymore and can’t find much lasting inspiration from people who are clearly not going to change their self destructive ways. I would never allow myself to attach to such a person again. I’m much more inspired by artists who are still playing, and improving with age, revealing deeper truths such as they continue to unfold such as the Church, and the late Michael Hedges. I’m inspired less by what is brilliant and dies young. Everything young can be brilliant, but those who still have it at 40, 50, 60 are the ones who inspire me the most.

  68. avatar
    leelinau | 18 August 2006 at 7:22 pm #

    Milwaukee is not sold out, I called and they said they are selling well, but I’m guessing they would say that just to get people there to buy beforehand.

    *crossing fingers*


  69. avatar
    daniel 26, 22 | 18 August 2006 at 7:47 pm #

    Buckley also doesn’t move as much as he used to

  70. avatar
    daniel 26, 23 | 18 August 2006 at 7:47 pm #

    I apologise!

  71. avatar
    Anonymous | 18 August 2006 at 8:38 pm #

    Hey Mr. Kilbey, Canโ€™t believe itโ€™s been 20 years on since my first Cleveland Churchie gig in 86 and only to come full circle to another beautiful one in the same city! And thereโ€™ve been many other lovely gigs in between as well as my first gig in 84 in Pittsburgh that truly turned me on to the music. Anyone can tell the yogaโ€™s treating you well, and your voice is in truly fine form. Itโ€™s always nice to see a fellow Virgo passionately doing it and doing it well! And Rob D is a wonderful opener and real sweetie pie. Havenโ€™t had a conversation with you since GAF tour, but the memories are goodโ€ฆKeep shaking those Beatle boots! ๐Ÿ™‚ Life is better with your blog. Love ya for another 20 years, jl

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    John Garratt | 18 August 2006 at 8:54 pm #

    thats a mediocre lil blogg for ya
    till somethin’ profound
    comes around”

    Meeting me must’ve been a letdown.

    I think I came across an idiot.

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    Joe Burns, Chicago IL | 18 August 2006 at 9:04 pm #

    Hey Steve – I’ll be there tonight in Chicago. Can’t wait to plug into the magic you guys whip up and transcend a little bit of this world for a couple hours.

    I wish I could bring you some jazz or some vegan goodies, but I’m comin straight from work (where I pretend to be a ‘str8’). I’ll be beaming as much positive energy as I can up to the stage. If you see me, send some back. I’ll be the guy in the old Starfish tour t-shirt with the Hidsight cover on it.

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    syrinx | 18 August 2006 at 10:01 pm #

    Dear sue cee:

    that linked clip was the first human voice I’ve heard today. And you’re right, I lost your dare. That was sad and beautiful. Do we all seem to prefer the bittersweet to the sugar-coat around here? Is that the deal? I guess because bittersweet is a felt thing from within, sugar-coating a manufacturing process.

    My long and short lists for music purchase have both kind of disappeared lately. They get clogged with a few too many “shoulds” to keep hip. For what reason???? I think I’m just gonna go on gut, whim, and the suggestion of good people for awhile. The folks here have given me *so* many new people to think about during the course of reading this wonderful blog.

    thanks, sue.

    I was advised to stay completely away from Jeff Buckley until better over some recent heartbreakage, however. ๐Ÿ˜‰

  75. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 August 2006 at 12:28 am #

    SK,Now we gotta know what Gareth looks like!

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    sue cee | 19 August 2006 at 1:10 am #

    Yr welcome Syrinx. Grant wrote many poignantly sad songs getting over Amanda Im told…he probably would’ve really related to Forget Her. Immersing yourself in sadness and flushing out the hurt is a good thing for your mind and soul!

  77. avatar
    sue cee | 19 August 2006 at 1:10 am #

    And so is loud rock’n’roll ๐Ÿ™‚

  78. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 August 2006 at 1:45 am #

    Melquiades, you are going to make this blog number 1 single handed!

  79. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 August 2006 at 2:59 am #

    here’s a comment for you cause you only got 8 you usually get more
    don’t feel bad though i aint got any

  80. avatar
    Gareth,Notts | 19 August 2006 at 3:02 am #

    sk,to have a comment like that from my all time hero is cool as f*ck!seem 2 have got a new nickname of johnny depp,thanks to the dreads.however the compliment is always returned as when people mention various movie stars,i always point them in the direction of a church album cover and tell ’em id prefer to look like sk than b.pitt,no contest mate!if frank has shown u pics hope u like em.wasted my vocation,should’ve been a photographer!!!p.s. been out on the lash,plenty of peeps checked out my G.A.F. t-shirt! always spreading the word!!!

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    mrs. baal n zeus | 19 August 2006 at 3:04 am #

    I’ve never worn
    white shorts or pants
    cause they might get dirty
    I admire those who can

    Mr. Piper didn’t wear any
    shoes in front of the
    sellersville stage
    and I stared at his feet

  82. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 August 2006 at 3:12 am #

    do more comments
    bring you closer to number one?

  83. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 August 2006 at 3:12 am #

    do more comments
    bring you closer to number one?

  84. avatar
    mary | 19 August 2006 at 4:06 am #

    i can kinda see why you have a messiah complex when you look so much like the “white” arab we have all come to recognise as jesus, son of.
    keep up the magical musings and please don’t stop the blog, it’s one of my daily rituals now and makes me feel connected

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    nickfiction | 19 August 2006 at 6:47 am #

    Hi Steve, what an amazing show here in Cleveland ,Thanks so much for posing for photos, and chatting . To me there is only one real ” rock ” star left…… and his name is Steve Kilbey. Hope you enjoyed the ” jazz ” , your friend and fan, Nick

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    Cameras 4 Eyes | 19 August 2006 at 7:16 am #

    Irving Plaza on You Tube


    You know, SK, You Tube has a chart, a rating system, rankings, the whole biz.

    A new world to conquer

  87. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 August 2006 at 12:39 am #


    Sorry to hear you got the blues lately. Guess thats a trait with creative genius. Guess a cross country trip through the states and almost a week in Florida will do it to you. Sure you miss the family mainly. I totally forgot my 12 yr olds birthday this week due to working too much now thats bad. Hes pissed at me.
    Suffer from depression myself but meds dont seem to do much. Those were some heavy words how you can feel the pain of the “ordinary man” you see on the street. Very good stuff lately. All we can do is be happy for what we do have and enjoy the happy times when they come. Best of luck the rest of the tour. I love your road stories.


  88. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 20 August 2006 at 1:07 pm #

    sing for us and we will bend rivers to meet you..

  89. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 20 August 2006 at 1:15 pm #


    come back here!…

  90. avatar
    calling down baal and zeus | 20 August 2006 at 1:17 pm #

    im stuck here in this trolley truck of accidental love

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    someone you know | 21 August 2006 at 2:47 pm #

    thank you for the show at GAMH, San Francisco last night.
    twas dreamy

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