posted on August 18, 2011 at 4:02 pm

" .......when an aerie spirit accosted me ......"

i am in love with englands blue skies and her fair children

i ramble her meadows and woods alone or attended by distant angels

my ash staff charged by my art coiled about its latent power like an adder

with certain lenses the glimpses tomorrow has ill afforded

yes i am in communication with them

in trance the universe drains into a hole in my astral skull

i am thrown to this world like a thief in eden

i walk the old paths i speak the old tongues

i sing life or death though none may hear these arcane theses

i move through hells walls a frozen shadow retaining all memory

my eyes have seen the naked kali black and winged

my hands have touched the ice that fire cannot endure

my ears have heard the power love will never abide

but soft and softer still

i made terrible mistakes i was burned within my skin

i trusted men with my head but my heart said no it should not be

falling in an out of favour

with a world maddened as it moves away from the christ

oh virgin monarch you bitter withered hag-queen of nescience

your advisors appear from orange and flanders and vanish on scaffolds and racks

the treachery of some courtesan who once fucked some duke

the unction of some priest buggered before the cross

the hypocrisy of fortune

the idiot crowd existing in the common stupor

the morbid thrill of a shark moving through the court

i leave her shores from expediency no longer the glamoured novice

of necessity my exile in black papered mirrors that reflect the thoughts of the dead

kelley and his gift twinned with insatiable wish

he was right about some things though i cannot be that mistaken

he knew the true name of gold and also its subtle sound

he knew the taste of failure manifested in a sour phlegm

he fashioned the stains of seraphim into a seeming spell

and i dreaming fell under its night

and it fell upon me

and so i bid my albion farewell on samhain eve

and i walk the forests of some illyria disconsolate

and invisible


58 Responses to “dee remembers”

  1. avatar
    Boriah | 18 August 2011 at 6:33 pm #

    Nick Kershaw has re-recorded his famous song after looking at your photo:

    “Wouldnยดt it be good to be in your shoes, even if it was for just one night…”


    PD: good boobies!

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    eekie | 18 August 2011 at 6:35 pm #

    Just a little ray of sunshine, aren’t you? ๐Ÿ˜‰

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    andy | 18 August 2011 at 6:58 pm #

    ‘i am in love with englands blue skies and her fair children’
    well…..get on over here then!
    you and mr dee were perhaps cut from the same cloth methinks………..?

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 18 August 2011 at 9:31 pm #


    We are merrily in awe by your presence alone…

    My King !!!

    Darrin K.

    Saturday is my birthday. I have always disliked the celebration of my such day. I see that all different now because of my sweet angel, my avatar, my Kristina. She wants daddy to have many presents-so she can open them. She wants daddy to have a wonderful cake, so she can blow out the candles…over and over. I have no plans for this day, outside of loving my wife and children. Any ideas…??? Have you ever wondered why they spent so much time on creating a intricate document, the birth certificate, and yet failed to put on an expiration date??? Would you/we/I have lived this life differently…???

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 18 August 2011 at 9:34 pm #

      Sorry…not being morbid, just wondering how you and all that reside here on ‘ye olds bloggee’ feel about birthdays.

      Darrin K.
      Born : August 20, 1966

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      Anonymous | 19 August 2011 at 11:40 am #

      food fight! you’ll smile, I swear. happy birthday…

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        BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 19 August 2011 at 1:24 pm #

        Brilliant !!! Bombs Away !!!!!!!!!!!!

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      anon | 20 August 2011 at 10:21 am #

      aren’t they just little treasures. A delight to the heart.

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        BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 20 August 2011 at 5:22 pm #

        I so agree with you. I envy their innocence. Everything is simply just fine thru their eyes. Eventually, they will become cynical and realize this world is not so pretty, but until then…let’s try and ensure they all smile, laugh, and thoroughly enjoy themselves. That’s what my wife and I try and do our best with Kristina…each and every day.


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    Karen | 18 August 2011 at 9:35 pm #

    oooo I like that pic, make a nice painting, great poem as well but i was bit distracted by the boob..not that Im gay… looks good :O

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    . | 18 August 2011 at 9:47 pm #

    i heard them angels whispering from the trees
    discussing who we are and what we ought to be
    “peculiar two legged creatures, full of love and jealousy
    exiled to a glowing orb of joy, suffering, pain and hypocrisy
    the gods in heaven look upon down them with pride and indignity
    who are they, they added, but a perfect mix of confidence and insecurity”
    my aura detector began to ping more and more as they spoke of these
    eternal things, and we narrowed in on their current position quietly
    our energy traps were triangulated yesterday when we saw feathers and wings
    inside the forest, across the fields, and on the beaches by the sea
    “this is where they must congregate” i exclaimed and everyone did agree
    “we’ll be able capture one now” said the captain quite excitedly
    and he gave us our orders to “tag me an angel” if you could, pretty please
    “they’ll fetch quite a fine price at the space market, so keep ’em clean!”
    such were the fancies of him who had lived his latter life so miserably
    “you took my only son” he said, “now, I’ll have one of yours” capiche?
    and we did and placed the angel in the hull of our ship, the time being

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    Wilfred Paradise | 18 August 2011 at 9:58 pm #

    SK – i had a feeling you were getting laid on a regular basis. careful though of the femme fatales. they are out there, m’man.

    roll on, then take a turn, bring it all back to the States.

    Wilfred P

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      Lara | 19 August 2011 at 2:37 am #

      Wilfred, you are nothing if not persistant. I like your determination to make it so.

  8. Richard
    RichardJohnson | 18 August 2011 at 10:05 pm #

    I was at Wordsworth House in Cumbria a couple of weeks ago….
    Not commented here much of late, but still reading. Hope you’re well and staying human in the face of the world around you.
    Peace and love,

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    davem | 18 August 2011 at 10:50 pm #

    my ash staff charged by my art oooerrrr!!

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    Warren Jason Street | 18 August 2011 at 11:00 pm #

    A lovely piece of writing, and a stunning image. No aerie spirit worth her salt would go around encumbered by mortal clothing.

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    Anonymous | 18 August 2011 at 11:13 pm #

    though absent all is reedemed in a summer’s end to the universe under lies forever in a twelfth night’s darkness as was in time back to a garden… those earlier times… it is so early here and a busy day but stillness before the sun is still time to see

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    Lara | 19 August 2011 at 1:04 am #

    Why do you look so surprised? ๐Ÿ™‚

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    evilren | 19 August 2011 at 1:16 am #

    Vivid memories.

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    JW | 19 August 2011 at 2:59 am #

    Nice boob. Who’s the chica?

  15. Jmb066
    Jmb066 | 19 August 2011 at 9:32 am #


    Happy Birthday, my birthday never bothers me personally, its when my kids turn a year older I feel it creeping up on me. Excited for my kids on their special day, sad knowing they are growing up so fast and time is slipping through my hands like sand.

    Steve another fantastic post, am I ever going to get to purchase David Neil???

    Premium Download??

    After your facebook tease last week of about half the album and now this week naked women you are torturing me. Just kidding but I really am having a hard time getting The Wilderness Years, Red Eye out, Heyday out, Second Motion, good idea?

    Anyway I will keep hunting and you keep writing.

    Take Care,


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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 19 August 2011 at 1:26 pm #

      Thanks Jason !!!!
      Our children give us a sense of purpose like no other.

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    miss muse | 19 August 2011 at 1:06 pm #

    should i be jealous? nah, mine are bigger/nicer and my ‘daddy’ knows it! lol

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      thetimebeing | 19 August 2011 at 1:18 pm #

      i cant believe how obsessed all you lot are because there is a breast in this picture
      for fucks sake

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        Anonymous | 20 August 2011 at 2:10 am #

        a few months ago (at a gallery in NY) the same photo (in spirit brougt to man) was displayed… “As You Like It” was it’s title… both that artist’s and this are very beautiful… (there were a lot of people hanging around that pic too; mostly men; well, gee, you think? – I thought, maybe they were looking at the meaning; probably so, huh)

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        belfrank | 20 August 2011 at 2:12 am #

        Seems a right tit breeds more…..

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        Cocoamo | 21 August 2011 at 12:07 am #

        We thinks the gentleman protests too much?

        It’s not the breast,
        It’s the implication.
        The mouse the cat left at the door.
        The heavenly goddess who allows her image to be displayed
        For all the world to see.
        Your frozen expression.
        You are a paradox.

        Your Friend in Pennsylvania

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      mm's fair god mother | 20 August 2011 at 5:53 pm #

      Miss muse, I hardly think there is anything to be jealous of… I mean the pic shows a man staring at the CAMERA not the bared lady. It’s as if he’s more interested in the ‘effect’ of the photo and less interested in the lady, if that’s even possible for a testosterone-fueled chap ๐Ÿ˜‰ And girl like you said, she got nothing on YOU!

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        thetimebeing | 20 August 2011 at 7:16 pm #

        for heavens sake how many times do i have to tell you people i can see your I.P. address….
        doesnt matter your pseudonym ..i can see the number of your modem…or whatever….
        sorry the picture got you going so much
        and uh gee ….did you ever read the blog actually…..
        i live at bondi beach my friends where topless bathing is not uncommon
        i myself i assure you
        lost my fixation with “tits” about 2 weeks after my mother weaned me off breast milk
        seems to be an american thing …the over importance of the ladies bosoms
        and the need for them to be covered up at all times……

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          miss muse | 21 August 2011 at 3:16 am #

          Well, seeing as I’m an American female and also relatively chaste (except in my own home – where ‘things’ should remain PRIVATE *ahem*), MINE will stay covered up ’til I’m safely married!

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    Steven Krut | 19 August 2011 at 1:38 pm #

    I just read the words and didn’t even notice that there is a breast in the picture. If I was an arrested adolescent, then I’d be hung up on that breast in the picture, but I didn’t even notice that breast.

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    Anonymous | 19 August 2011 at 1:51 pm #

    Was that a real woman, or just a blow up doll?

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      thetimebeing | 19 August 2011 at 5:05 pm #

      was that a real comment or just a blown up moron?

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        BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 19 August 2011 at 6:22 pm #

        I don’t know how you tolerate comments like that. Nice comeback, but why even give the jagbag the joy of reading their own ‘contribution’ to something you have worked so diligently on. I guess when you think you’ve read everything-someone always tries to fuck up a perfectly good passage. I don’t understand how you do it…and not snap and pull the plug. After all you give, they still want to take from you. It really angers me, they’re fucking with ‘art’.

        Darrin K.

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    monksphere | 19 August 2011 at 3:26 pm #

    I’m actually obsessed with the lighting and how well you captured the aerie spirit. After I crossed over to the darkside by purchasing a stupid ass smart phone, I’ve been able to console myself mostly by taking pictures. The sepia and solarize effects are two I like a lot. Yeah there’s been a lot fuss over a bit of tittie. Anyway fantastic picture Mr. Kilbey.

    Love to love you baby!

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    thetimebeing | 19 August 2011 at 5:04 pm #

    no its not….

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    Melissa | 19 August 2011 at 8:34 pm #

    nothing wrong with a maddened world ๐Ÿ˜‰

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    herman the German | 19 August 2011 at 9:20 pm #

    These electronic comment pages are often full of people waffling on about their homemade, lofty conceptions of art and philosohy…but show ’em a bit of tit and suddenly half start salivating and the other half wonder if theirs are better/firmer/browner/paler/shapelier etc. Why don’t you appreciate Kilbey’s blog for what it is, his writing that can be sublime, with thoughts and views yer won’t find on the back of your packet of cornflakes! Songs and poems for the asking, with more erudition than a university English faculty and more boogie than an (early) T-Rex record. In addition, I can’t think of anyone in Kilbey’s position who allows the public such an intimate view of his personal life, thoughts and dreams. It’s a scandal that foolish people like all those achingly dull Hollywood actors bathe in their Twitter popularity, while Joe Blow public continues to turn his back on the real thing, even when it’s so tastefully offerred!

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      Anonymous | 20 August 2011 at 12:21 pm #

      I know and sometimes with no more than only two chords! (to everything…)

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    matthew | 19 August 2011 at 11:12 pm #

    It’s all a bit ‘Benny Hill reviews serious art'(Phwarr… honk-honk!)(Cue music and fast-motion)

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    davem | 20 August 2011 at 12:50 am #

    i am in love with englands blue skies and her fair children

    i ramble her meadows and woods alone or attended by distant angels………………………………………………………………………..There aren’t too many fair children left but scratch below the surface, get away from the rioting masses and our countryside is still wonderful. I’ve had a couple of weeks off and have been in North Devon and then closer to home visiting National Trust houses and gardens. Just lovely. An England that never really existed.

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 20 August 2011 at 5:35 pm #

      I am so sorry for what the world is witnessing from a media’s perspective of what is dreadfully occurring in you and Andy’s homeland. Is their a particular, educated insight into the chain of events that either of you two could share with us who are so far away. I know I respect your (and Andy’s opinion ) viewpoint and it may shed a clearer light on the darkness coming from the telly overseas.

      Darrin K.

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    JW | 20 August 2011 at 1:46 am #

    FYI, I was purposely being a moron for bad american humor sake. Americans like breasts. What can I say?

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 20 August 2011 at 5:29 pm #

      On the contrary : ‘we like our guns, but breasts are not allowed’ …even in 1988 – SK was educating us before ‘ye olde bloggeee’ was even a thought…or in some cases…a wet dream…

      Darrin K.

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    Ceemoon | 20 August 2011 at 1:50 am #

    Remember the ruckus Janet’s breast caused…it was the breast that brought down the live feed, from then on 3 to 7 second delays. I’m guessing that’s a sm chicha.

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    Ceemoon | 20 August 2011 at 3:45 am #

    Oh and “boobs not bombs”! (.)(.)

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    captain mission | 20 August 2011 at 8:34 pm #

    as i read your words i felt the spirit of william blake in them somewhere, i think he would have loved your work steve. there’s a wonderful patti smith song called ‘my blakean year’ don’t know if your familiar with it but it’s one of my faves.

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    davem | 21 August 2011 at 12:19 am #

    Darrin – Happy B’day and this is from The Guardian last week:
    Three days on, with youths skirmishing with police in Lewisham and attacking businesses in Hackney late on Monday, it is clear that Britain, and particularly London, is experiencing some of its most serious and most destructive urban violence since the Brixton and Toxteth riots of 1981. Thirty years on, some of the echoes of those traumatic earlier events are very strong: riots taking place against the backdrop of a royal wedding and an economic downturn; riots in some of the same locations, even in some cases the same streets; riots repeating many of the same patterns of events โ€“ including the looting of clothes and televisions โ€“ and all of it resulting in many of the same public and political responses. Some things, though, are different.

    One of these, much debated over the past 24 hours, is the role of technology. There was much speculation, back in 1981, about secret organisers pulling the strings of copycat riots. Almost all of those allegations โ€“ those were the days before mobile phones โ€“ proved to be as baseless as the earlier claims that French secret agents were behind the Gordon riots of 1780 (in which 285 Londoners were shot dead) or that 19th-century outbreaks of rural rick-burning were masterminded by “distant and foreign incendiaries”. This time, there is no lack of anecdotal evidence about the use of social networks and BlackBerry Messenger to focus and co-ordinate some of the rioting. It would be astonishing if there was no such role. But it is dangerous merely to dub these the BBM riots and leave it at that. Rioting should not be condoned, much less romanticised. But it tends to represent something more than a conspiracy. Experience teaches that even rioting needs to be treated as chosen and explicable conduct โ€“ even when it is indisputably wrong, as now.

    There is, though, an important difference between 1981 and 2011. Thirty years ago, Lord Scarman’s landmark report concluded that the Brixton riots were “essentially an outburst of anger and resentment by young black people against the police”. The evidence for that conclusion was overwhelming. Thirty years ago, London’s police had provided repeated provocation for concern and anger. Much policing of that era was too aggressive, too high-handed, based on crude and often racist stereotypes, and lacked any convincing accountability, either strategically or for individual abuses.

    It would be reckless to pretend that the latest riots owe nothing to bad policing as well as bad people. The circumstances of the shooting of Mark Duggan in Tottenham, the official response (or lack of it) to a protest against his killing, and the local backdrop to these events, must be fully examined before a final judgment is made. Moreover, police use of guns will always run the risk of lethal abuse. But it is also clear that there have been major changes, almost all of them for the better, in the policing of London and of black communities, in the years since Scarman. Police training, behaviour, leadership, methods and accountability have all been qualitatively improved. Tottenham is also an improved place in countless ways.

    Today’s rioting has set that all back, in heartbreaking destructive individual and community ways. Yet the riots of 2011, like those of 1981, still have to be understood, though not in any way excused or justified, so that they can be overcome. The riots are a product of the lives which the rioters choose or feel constrained to live. Blaming the riots on individual wickedness, conspiracies or on government spending cuts is too glib for such complex issues, though they cannot be dismissed altogether even so. Both conspiracy and deprivation are part of the complex and grim story, as is the cult of violence, especially guns, and a rage against exclusion from consumerist fulfilment. A new Scarman would no longer be able to explain these riots as an outburst of resentment against the police. But they are an outburst of resentment and a mark of manifold failure all the same.

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 21 August 2011 at 4:14 pm #

      Thank you Davem, for the well wishes and the information regarding the present situation in your homeland. That was a great read. Unbiased – iinformative and exact. It displayed, yet controlled, your passion towards theses events. I can understand it better coming from you, someone with no specific agenda but to educate and inform.
      Thanks again…and the best of luck and safety/grand health to you. It just seemed so close to home when you described it. Got me a bit worried for you, and anyone who could get caught up in the danger that still is at the surface.
      Be careful.

      Darrin K.

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    Once | 21 August 2011 at 5:07 am #

    It’s an intense and gorgeous photo. Period.

    The prose moves right through me, hitting upon truths that I didn’t know I knew…

    Freakin’ brilliant.

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    Once | 21 August 2011 at 5:16 am #

    From last night, no photo with this (sorry, chaps)…


    If you’ve got some spare time
    If ya live in real time
    Look up
    If ya drop your conscience
    Forget about your monsters
    Look up
    Everything ya see is sharper than clear
    Every pine has needles the kind ya don’t fear
    Look up, breathe the air
    Walking in the sunshine
    Coffee in your timeline
    Look up
    Everybody passing
    Is silently asking
    Look up
    Everyone ya see is exactly like you
    Every body holds a soul hidden from view
    Look up, meet their eyes
    Piloting the car home
    Brain rain radio drone
    Look up
    Accelerate and brake fake
    Lane change and piss take
    Look up
    Every car holds a quivering being
    Everyone in transit they all got a theme
    Look up, give ’em room
    Walking through the front door
    Disgusted that it ain’t more
    Look up
    Settle with your lifespell
    Close your and eyes and dream well
    Look up
    Everything that is does not have to stay
    Every second bows to you as you live your day
    Look up, and change man.
    Look up, you can change.

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 August 2011 at 11:17 am #

    Mmmm I thought Im the only one who believe in sprit can travel through the time and place between. Its so powerful I cant stop thinking about it.

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    hellbound heart | 23 August 2011 at 9:35 pm #

    that was a lovely piece of prose, am going to make it to the olde country one day….
    love always……

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    Thomas Thomsen | 26 August 2011 at 7:01 am #

    England? Barf! I’ll take America over England any day!

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