posted on June 4, 2010 at 7:50 am

this sky’s disguise
rain pissing on
the wild madman broken down on the other side of limbo
aimlessly going nowhere soon
deep sadness heavy burden
feeling olden and helpless finally
as someday we all must
gotta start my picture again
too much hurt in this
oh i never fucking foresaw it!

the roof rattles
the window shakes
i turn towards my music but its out to lunch
my paints sit there untouched
just the fucking internet whence all trouble comes
tempting screaming begging me to log on again
one more time
give it a shot sucker
write the saddest most heartbreaking thing you can muster
that might just make someone stop and listen
listen to the sound of of some horrible terrible future
almost upon us
now separated by the flimsiest luckiest chance now itself unravelling
some kid of thirteen sees some stupid singer on tv
hey he seems so familiar….
and the kid leans into the future and shouts
does it really all have to be this way?
ok then this is the brave new world now
and anything goes and then everything goes wrong
and then you fight wrong with wrong and you get more wrong back
and no one ever learns and
long after i’m pushing up dazes
the same old idiots going thru the same old thing
squabbling over THE FUCKING DECK CHAIRS ON THE TITANIC!!!!
whatever you reckon
insert yer own pointless example of futility here
all these words but none of them going thru
absent voice : you hurt me…..
i’m sorry
absent voice : you hurt me good
look i said i’m sorry!
absent voice : you bastard you hurt me!
look fuck it all I SAID I”M SORRY
absent voice : Dont you Shout at ME !
I”M NOT SHOUTING!!!!!!!
I”M NOT SHOUTING!!!!!!!!!!!???????
(the actor (its roy scheider( from all that jazz))
appeals to the darkened audience
AM I FUCKING SHOUTING??
AM I FUCKING SHOUTING!!!???
but the audience are already leaving the building
silently
erskine turns to conesuela who shot him right between the eyes
erskine : why …..
conesuela : i didnt think the gun was so loaded…
and the people in the cinema say
aw fuck! is this the bloody ending
and they want their money back
and erskine wants his money back too
but boo hoo hes fucked whichever way he turns
he tries to be understanding but this magician has
no control over his temper trap
his magic seems awfully thin
his eyes are quite unmesmerizing
fuck! he says
and ya gotta laugh
and ya gotta cry
and you gotta wonder why
and you gotta get over it and get by
made your bed
you oughta lie
a nice long sleepy sleep
you wake up
n yer outta prison n outta hospital n outta the rain
and outta the cold and outta the hurt
and outta the poison
that clear almost tasteless colourless poison
going straight for mens hearts
like a liquid spear
killing everyone at once

29 Responses to “elegy”

  1. avatar
    cazziem | 4 June 2010 at 11:30 am #

    Though the storms keep coming with no relief in sight
    Please don't get negative cos things will be alright

    Remember, when you’re down it gives the enemy a stronghold
    You know who I'm talking about, that serpent from old

    Have faith in your ‘in’, he won't let you down
    Wherever you are he can always be found

    Your family and friends are here for you too
    You only have to say what you need us to do

    So remember whenever you’re down and low
    It's through these experiences that you will grow

    So may your sadness be lessened knowing that we care
    And that the lows you are feeling we also share

    Look to the rainbow that follows the storm
    It will make you stronger and help you transform

  2. avatar
    Freddie | 4 June 2010 at 12:48 pm #

    (speechless)

  3. avatar
    Broken Toys and Heros | 4 June 2010 at 1:50 pm #

    when u gaze into the trance inducing sight of ur glorious children and adoring wife…if that is not enough to snap back to reality…i feel sorrow for u. i can only hope that u can find the way…when the music vanishes, the pen of no ink, the paints dried up, the electricity searches for a spark…ur families love is the real creative energy that drives us. get off the web- take a break…prepare ur self for the new birth of "the time being" before u drift to far off course to find ur way back…any time soon.

    concerned,
    DJK082067

    unless ur just bullshitting us- than…cheers !!!!

  4. avatar
    evilren | 4 June 2010 at 3:43 pm #

    I chose to detach from dystopia, even the gods
    wish to be as the wise ones devoted to meditation,
    delighting in the calm of detachment, perfectly
    awakened, imbued with mindfulness. "An elephant
    does not walk a rabbit's path; great enlightenment
    does not retain a teacher." To put it simple, do not
    do anything evil.

    much love,

    ren

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 4 June 2010 at 4:07 pm #

    Seems like a good time to say I have been a fan for the past 25 years. I owe you that much.

  6. avatar
    Cocoamo | 4 June 2010 at 5:06 pm #

    Steve, if all IS one, Jungian or otherwise, I suspect you would be–on a deep level–the canary in the coal mine with your sensitive soul…

    Could you be feeling the pain inflicted by our massive oil spill?

    I see another photo of an oil-coated pelican, struggling to live, but dying a long horrid death. My lovely, beautiful pelicans.

    As a citizen of the US and resident of Florida, I am so sorry we put this pain on you, Steve. But then again, there was an oil spill off Australia a year ago so no shortage of pain to go around?

    Hate to do this on your blog, but, I must scold those who decided to bring their Obama hatred into your blog. U.S. Republicans, and teabaggers (Republicans who are ashamed to admit it) are so happy to believe the multitude of anti-Obama lies spread by the mighty right-wing U.S. media. They love, love love to hate, hate, hate.

    I could say to them, if you want to know the truth, read factcheck.org, or politifact.com, or snopes.com. But they don't want to know the truth.

    So, they vote for an anti-regulation government. The Bush administration, a government literally in bed with big oil (Minerals Management Services), big pharma, big finance, big beef, big money peroid.

    And the logical end of that scenerio is oil coated pelicans. And then they all want to wrap this up with God? Somehow, I don't think he approves.

    Sorry again Steve–just couldn't let it go. Okay, even those of us who campaigned for Obama aren't happy with all of his decisions (approving offshore drilling for example), but looking at Politifact, he has kept 10 promises for every promise broken.

    Ultimately, those of us who demand perfection from anybody are at fault, no?

    Your friend from Pennsylvania

  7. avatar
    Ellen | 4 June 2010 at 6:25 pm #

    You know the old saying (but oh SO true): "Blessed men go through …"

    Or as another saying goes: "If you're going through Hell, keep going!"

  8. avatar
    m.p.k | 4 June 2010 at 7:00 pm #

    I'm not sure, are you indulging in this frequency or has it got a hold on you? Things are fucked up but you and me are not the boss of this planet, these people here, let alone the bosses of this universe. It ain't up to us. We are just here a little while. The state of the world is not our responsibility, only our little corner of it.

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 4 June 2010 at 7:37 pm #

    The world IS a mess, and my biggest fears are for our children and grandchildren. How did our world become so, so …. effed up!!?? I get depressed about it, but there is nothing that one person can do alone, but we can only do our best to educate others, and teach our children what they are going to need to know in the future. We can only continue to be strong …. for them. We must do the daily drudgery … for them. We must put smiles on our faces and toughen up … for them.

  10. avatar
    persephone2u | 4 June 2010 at 7:39 pm #

    I hate seeing you suffer like this. There's light at the end of the tunnel, never forget that. Some people in life just aren't content with apologies and will try to suck your soul dry no matter what you do; no amount of apologies will ever make them happy and I speak from experience. You deserve happiness in life, not pain.

  11. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 4 June 2010 at 8:54 pm #

    nice poem above me i must say cazziem…
    Jonny

  12. avatar
    fantasticandy | 4 June 2010 at 9:54 pm #

    jeez…yer a miserable olde git these days……..
    try being me, just made a bloody great record, an absolute stunner!
    will anyone ever hear it?
    your'e blessed you lucky sod.

    we both still have to pay the bills though don't we?

    enjoy yer weekend!

  13. avatar
    eek | 4 June 2010 at 10:33 pm #

    I often feel there is no point at all — that everything we do and think and feel means absolutely nothing. However, the times when that feels a bit too bleak (ya think??!!!), I tell myself to do the best I can. Some days my best isn't very good, other days it's not bad at all. Nothing I do is going to change the world, but, so far anyway, it's getting me through.

    And a point to ponder — a few days ago I heard someone say on the tv that this is the most compassionate time ever. My first thought was what the fuck? But as I thought about it, I decided that person might just be right. Just a few generations ago we only knew what was happening in our immediate surroundings — if things were great in our town one day, then as far as we knew things were fine with the world. But now we can see events — in many case as they are happening — everywhere in the world. Huge natural disasters we never would have known about in centuries past we now see and send help (or even go ourselves to help). We have become invested in the lives of people our ancestors barely knew even existed. So of course we are overwhelmed! I'm not sure we are really ready for this much information.

  14. avatar
    MB | 4 June 2010 at 11:30 pm #

    I haven't commented on your blog for about two years though I love and read your blog everyday. I have loved you are the church since I was 11, I'm 38 now and have listened to you most days, so in a way I have thought of you everyday. You have been my longest and best friend for all those years and been part of my highest moments (or have been my highest moments) and got me through most of lowest moments (in fact if it wasn't for you and the church there might have been a chance that I would not have been here anymore), In fact you have have been the longest constant in my life. It feels like you have given me so much in my life and all I have given you in return is buying your records. What I'm trying to say is that you mean so much to so many and are loved by me and so many. Just don't forget how fucking cool your are!
    Take care
    love
    MB

  15. avatar
    LF | 4 June 2010 at 11:35 pm #

    Right on, Cocoamo. I was torn between 1) reminding some of the reactionary spewers of bile that this is not a site devoted to American political commentary or 2) just keeping out of it because this is not a site devoted to American political commentary. Oy vey. Sorry, Steve, that you have to endure our petty fights over deck chairs.

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2010 at 12:22 am #

    Its the switched on smart ones that are perplexed by the world and themselves.
    This is from a man and a fan that recorded one of your songs Grant Lee Philips

    Humankind

    And the point of my life is what
    What if it doesn’t add up
    And the trouble is all for naught
    Chalk it to the state of the world
    Revelations are soon forgot

    If only human kind was not so heartless now
    Heartless now
    It’s hard to love your fellow man
    However can I help myself
    From harboring such evil

    And the reason of pain is clear
    Never learned the lesson of bliss
    All the riches to squander here

    If only human kind was not so selfish now
    Selfish now
    It’s hard to love your fellow man
    However can I help myself
    From harboring such evil

    And the point of the stars is to shine
    Shine a little light in our way
    When the fear in my heart leads me blind
    Even in the light of the day
    Come stumbling out
    Oh

    If only human kind was not so heartless now
    Heartless now
    It’s hard to love your fellow man
    However can I help myself
    From harboring such evil

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2010 at 12:24 am #

    Humankind

    And the point of my life is what
    What if it doesn’t add up
    And the trouble is all for naught
    Chalk it to the state of the world
    Revelations are soon forgot

    If only human kind was not so heartless now
    Heartless now
    It’s hard to love your fellow man
    However can I help myself
    From harboring such evil

    And the reason of pain is clear
    Never learned the lesson of bliss
    All the riches to squander here

    If only human kind was not so selfish now
    Selfish now
    It’s hard to love your fellow man
    However can I help myself
    From harboring such evil

    And the point of the stars is to shine
    Shine a little light in our way
    When the fear in my heart leads me blind
    Even in the light of the day
    Come stumbling out
    Oh

    If only human kind was not so heartless now
    Heartless now
    It’s hard to love your fellow man
    However can I help myself
    From harboring such evil

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 June 2010 at 3:02 am #

    Hi sk,

    Nearly had forgotten what the sun was. What a pleasant surprise for us Sydneysiders to wake up for once and not see the grey old wet world around us.

    Bet you're out and about with the fambley enjoying the sun while we can. It sure makes us feel better doesn't it? Think we have all been depressed without the rays of sun.

    Peace & love
    Therese

  19. avatar
    haaz | 5 June 2010 at 4:13 am #

    post-tour let down gettin' ya, mr. k?

    well, imagine, yer roger waters

    he's gunna do "the wall" all big an' grand

    just got back from playin' "dark side" all over the world

    he's gonna go back to his castle in manhatten

    an' then what?

    we value you, as you help us see through our walls and the walls of the world.

    don't ever change

    'cept how it comes upon us quite naturally

    in which case,
    do what chya hafta

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    Hellbound Heart | 5 June 2010 at 9:41 am #

    steve….you want sad, mate?
    i found out from my daughter on friday and one of her friends that there are a few older kids (ie assholes)in her class saying shitty things about her behind her back and bullying her and bullying anyone in the class that is friendly to her or wants to be friends with her and so as a consequence hardly anyone in her class has anything to do with her….this has been going on for months….and every day she goes to school happy and comes home happy and she is still a loving affectionate friendly sensitive little girl who still thinks well of people…..
    does that break your heart?

    love always…..

  27. avatar
    DavidP | 6 June 2010 at 3:59 am #

    Yeah Mr. Killer Bee, its been raining oh so long lately in usually sunny Sydney. Thank goodness its sunny again now!

    To add to this post-blog discussion I think the mess of the external world is a reflection of the mess of our internal worlds. People act or don't act based on what is within them. And actions speak louder than words.

    There are those that say we ordinary human folk are nothing more than animals with an intellect and a creative mind and a capacity for self-awareness which separates us from the other animals.

    On the bright side, they say we also have a spark of the divine within which has the potential to grow and transform ourselves spiritually. How about that eh?

    What a world that would be if the majority of people were like that or at least interested in pursuing it…

    If love is the law then we gotta Love our enemies. Easy to say, hard to do. But if we can then in my experience the rewards are great. We need to die to our egos.

    "… if man did not know the light from the beginning of time, how would he recognize darkness?" ~Judas Iscariot, The Flight of the Feathered Serpent.

    6 June 2010

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2010 at 4:57 am #

    cheer up — You have so much more going for your than some people. You are a very inspiring person. Look around and feel blessed. Hang in there – we all have tough dayze – they too shall pass ………. I admit growing older sux big dogs ….but it is part of life.

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 6 June 2010 at 6:32 am #

    n i love you too,james.haha,xoxoxoxoxo


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