posted on August 29, 2007 at 2:13 am

busy being nothing
wasted on pleasures excesses
some power animates me still
the sea is cold and clean today
i swim through the water unfeeling
i do my qi gong
i feel the air move round my body
i expel my breath carefully
i vaguely touch the invisible source of power
the ocean is more beautiful
than all the pictures ever painted put together
refusing no river
accepting the rain patiently
its mysteries are deep
it reveals them ever so slowly
they say vishnu lies in the causal ocean
as he sleeps the goddess of fortune watches over him
whole universes emerge from his pores
as he dreams everything up
dreaming dreaming dreaming everything up
into each thing a tiny tiny drop of spirit
the spirit which can divide itself like a flame
it can give and give and never be exhausted
oh lord you are so around us everywhere
that like fish in the ocean
we cease to be aware of you
i care not
for people who
never having prayed
say that you never answer prayers
you have always answered mine
i care not
for those who have never meditated
who say
there is nothing out there
for those who have not striven in yoga
who say
there is no union
for those
never submerged in your sweet service
who say
there is no one to serve
o vishnu
to walk and talk with you
ah vishnuloka
your abode
i imagine myself in some eternal twilight
the tulsi flowers
the lotus
birds sing evensong
a flute in the distance
and women singing
a song about all songs
their voices chime like bells
and sustain like a fender guitar
the jungle all around us
the indian night
how i have longed for this everlasting twilight
all my lives have dazzled me
i have been burnt by lifes fire and old flames
mistake upon mistake
life afterlife
now in the fullness of time
after everything has taken place
when all that might happen happened
i find myself here in this wild garden
dressed in fine clothes
perfect temperature
and the warm evening breeze
carries all lovely scents
as you smell them
a million memories come to you
memories of deliciously lovely things
you gathered from your lives
memories of white snow and yellow sand
memories of underwater light playing on green rocks
memories of familiar music
memories of memories
now so faded away and thin
like a gossamer veil
you can look straight thru
and you see
the first time someone told you they loved you
on some warm lovely night like this
someone took your hand
and whispered the soft words of love
someone kissed your forehead tenderly
and sighed in the falling night
and you got the strangest feeling
a dizzy elation
a fulfillment
a deep hit in your heart
but that hit o vishnu
is as nothing compared to
the love that made you dream it all up
the love that caused life
as you set everything vibrating
as you put the planets on their courses
as you figured it all out in a flash
an interlocking everlasting work of art
this whole trip……even im almost speechless
all art is to glorify you
all music is to glorify you
and who are we
but you as well
each in a form they have devised
each in a life they deserve
for if you do not deserve your life….then who does?
each coming back again and again
one more
two more
oops three more
thousand times again
i have at last turned a corner at least
sk will just be a thread in ttbs coat of many colours
look
just there
that little piece
you can hardly see it
along with the countless others
each essential thread of life
to sew these garments i will one day take on
kilbey is a day in a classroom
kilbey is a moment in a game
kilbey is hay in a needlestack
kilbey is a cloud on a huge sky
kilbey is a smile
kilbey is one tear in a river of grief
kilbey is just one more
one of the passing parade
the kings and fools
the stars and the freaks
the mighty and the maggots
kilbey is a note in a symphony
kilbey is a small stone by the side of a highway
kilbey is just here and now
kilbey a while longer maybe…
when this kilbeysuit falls apart
o who will i be then, my dear lord?
let me not forget
the lessons i should have learnt as kilbey
let me retain
let me go on
let me speak with you
alright
its enough

58 Responses to “howard juno”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 3:45 am #

    Discover The Church are more sonic than Trip Hop, hear their Jimi-ness. In my music book, you’re superstars and have you been inducted into the Experience Museum?

    How I love The Church- each and every one of them.

    Why was Jimi banned from the BBC? Have you any knowledge of his unreleased autobiographical sci-fi rock opera?

    That’s a lovely writing you have today, Mr. Kilbey…I’m very much in awe.

    Art

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    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 3:49 am #

    the pyramid killer you ignore/ you love these amazing eastern stories of vishnu and eastern religion. conisder man wondering why. you ignore the interference from the intelligent ones who built the pyramids …… the great illuminatus who still rule all of us. the beautiful thoughts you are so lucky to have are a lucky chemical mistake. and in your beauty you struggle to find a reason or a path. enjoy your lovely story or religion as it was …. but it was I who created you……33 is the number , you know it ‘s true

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    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 4:17 am #

    Well SK…this life,just blows me away!as well …To think that my others..past,or future,would be as marvellous as this one?..could that be even possible?….I believe!….love to you,as always,gen xxxxx…P.S. you are a mountain,,and a river,and the ocean,and the sky …there’s nothing inconsequencial about you Sir!

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    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 4:24 am #

    oh,and most importantly SK..You are part of the Milky Way…xxxxxgenx!

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 4:27 am #

    benajmin frankiln JFK Marilyn Monroe ….33

  6. avatar
    Faye | 29 August 2007 at 4:45 am #

    am inspired,even more every day SK!and that’s a little miracle in itself..Your words open doors,penetrate steel,and melt blazing fires ’til they’re white hot! xo

  7. avatar
    the dean | 29 August 2007 at 4:57 am #

    Sometimes I wonder in the cycle of reincarnate whether I on the way up or on the way down.

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 5:51 am #

    Hi! I hope u must b doin fine. I can teach how to play guitar as I taught jimmy. Anywaz look to see ya n don’t worry cos u might be nervous but i will handle it. Also I will teach u about Indian music.

    Peace out!
    Indian scholar

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 6:07 am #

    i wish to let myself go in this way.
    should be easy but it ain’t…at least fer me.

    ahm werkin’ on it.

    beautiful place you de-scribed.

    -glynnis

  10. avatar
    syrinx | 29 August 2007 at 6:09 am #

    Thanks in a thousand tongues.

  11. avatar
    verdelay | 29 August 2007 at 6:42 am #

    I feel much the same way about my Lady, the mistress of Summerland, who as I write feels the aching of her bones on this misty late summer morning. Her time is almost nigh, and while she languishes in her fruit-heavy bower, my Lord (still but a boy) plays in the lushness of the garden, acting out his role, unaware of the true horrors of the hunt which await him.

    His fate. Her fate. Our fate.

    Again and again and again this happens. A lifetime in a year; a year in a lifetime.

    Each drop of summer dew holds an ocean of eternity.

  12. avatar
    fantasticandy | 29 August 2007 at 6:50 am #

    i’m too stunned to make a meaningful comment.

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 7:25 am #

    I’m lost for words too sk, everything you’ve been writing lately just melts my heart, you’re an amazing human being, Time Being.
    Have a beautiful evening.
    Love,love,love to you,
    from your friendly fiend Amanda

  14. avatar
    daniel12 | 29 August 2007 at 9:45 am #

    Oh it’s all too beautifull, yeah Vishnu baby, Love always..

    Look Nevets I often enjoy your wordplays but this Vishnu shit just poisons it for me.

    Particularly the lines “each in a life they deserve, for if you do not deserve your life then who does”
    A few weeks working with the disabled would quickly dispel that notion. I do work with the disabled and I find the Hindu notion of “each in a life they deserve” deeply offensive.
    The beautiful souls in faulty vehicles i work with did not choose nor deserve there phight’s.
    Do any of your followers actually know anything about Hinduism ?.
    Before you all start a we hate daniel12 fest perhaps you should do some reasearch.
    For those who can’t be bothered I try and put it in a nutshell.
    The basic premise of Hinduism could be summed up as ‘all men are created unequal’. The Hindu religion is a throwback to India’s dark ages and creates a three caste social hierarchy. Basically it’s the doctorine which enslaves hundreds of millions of Indians to inescapable lifes of begging,prostitution and shit cleaning servitude. Vishnu is one Hinduism’s main gods.
    With the basic Hindu notion of reincarnaton is the notion that people born underpriveliged or disabled deserve it because of there past life sins.
    I’m not going to list the horrors endured by India’s untouchables here. I’ll just say it’s a ghastly religion and menton of it ruins todays blogg for me.
    Cant you talk of beautifull Budda instead?. Or is it you consider yourself a Brahman or something?.

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 10:07 am #

    Um? …Daniel 12…..I am Gen x…I am blind…I have been gifted with my sight{or lack thereof,as you seem to percieve it}…It seems that the only people who have issuesabout the shortcomings and second-rate citizenship of “disabled”{which is such a silly word…cause,all of us are incapable of something or an other }are the people who actually look down on them,as lesser,and unworthy…I respect your opinion,BUT,please,unless you are aware of the gifts,and joys of being blessed by circumstance,and a karmic reminder ,with which to teach the rest of the world..I don’t see that you qualify to preach on my behalf…I can tell you of literally hundreds of times,in the last 8 years,where I have had brief meetings with people ,who were motivated,touched,and inspired by my life,inner strength,and outlook…there is a reason for everything,and a place for everything…I admire you for doing your work,but never take the” independance,or right to feel just the way they feel” away from your clients fascination with gods?…HELL YEAH!…love,genx

  16. avatar
    Thelonious | 29 August 2007 at 10:08 am #

    SK, i have never met you although I have seen you many times yet I admire you so much. You are truly a magician among the spirits. You have so much to offer. Thank you. I normally try not to suck up but thank you SK.

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 10:13 am #

    I have never had a prayer answered.
    Unless it was with ‘no’.
    Several times things have got substantially worse after praying.
    Was that the response?
    If so, I can only wish I’d listened to the old dictum:
    “May the gods ignore you !”

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 10:17 am #

    Gen,I heard that “The only people who feel sorry for the “disabled”,were the “able”,because the “disabled” are human beings,and prone to bouts of happiness,as much,if not more than the “able”” xx to U

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    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 10:21 am #

    het Daniel12 – I wouldn’t know one goddess from another; and
    isn’t it true that “religion” is a perversion of spiritulity for those lacking in imagination, courage, and personal responsibility?
    The best poetry, music, painting, dance; all art, connects to our spirit, to our souls, to some secret universal yet singular moment, and leave us with that hum of resonating molecules…..

    Kilbey does this, at his best good or best bad – today’s is sublime –

    this is why we read ttb, aint it?

    anyway, speaking of accepting without question what you are told, your view that only males like to admire a good looking member of the opposite sex is rather, er, ignorant. (ie do some research and you will find that this is not true).

    peace and love; kittykatxxx

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 10:42 am #

    anon at 8.17 …I AM A VERY LUCKY AND VERY HAPPY LADY!!!!!!!!!…You have a lovely night too! xxx

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    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 11:25 am #

    when i observe the perfection of a bird or some other small creature in my yard i find it very hard to believe that all of this came together out of a chance and random assortment of matter and molecules…i think that if we could go back far enough in time to the start of everything, we’d find the point where science and religion would meet…just my humble opinion…
    love always
    -The Hellbound Heart

  22. avatar
    daniel12 | 29 August 2007 at 12:10 pm #

    Hey Gen X and Kitty

    Sorry Gen I wasn’t specificly commenting on you . My opening remark was just meant as a generic(no pun int) ttb fawning comment.
    I was mostly meaning to express my thoughts on the Hindu element to todays blogg.
    I honestly forgot about your sight issue and i was in no way meaning to speak on yours or anyone elses behalf. Sincere Apologies..

    Looking at my previous comment i also feel that i’ve come across as somewhat cynical and perhaps a bit nasty.
    I honestly think most of you regulars seem like nice folk.
    However sometimes i find the unthinking fawning nature of commentary here quite cringeworthy.

    Kitty Kat you cant take Vishnu out Hinduisim anymore than you can take the caste system out of it. And the caste system is horrible!. I don’t think anyone can take poetic licence with Hindu gods without considering it’s implications. If “religion is the perversion of spiriuality etc” then why praise a God from a very perverted and enslaving religion?. I beleive I have a valid point.
    Also Kitty. Of course i know girls like girls, my housemates in the club were both bi.

    Love and best wishes to all of you
    but please think for yourselves.

    Repeat after me

    WE ARE ALL INDIVIDUALS !

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 12:14 pm #

    SK..I’ve read this four times.Each time I read it,it becomes more and more 3 and then 4 dimensional…to have written this,you must truly be from the 5th….My ears tingle,and my pulse twitches..the goosebumps which call my flesh home,are holding on tight.I think they are sensing a shift.I believe they want to fly too..was Vishnu a space rocker too?he could have been a bass player?!..have a loverly night…/gbx {aka c.s.lewis..absurdly speechless}

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 12:32 pm #

    Daniel 12…no offence taken…but as a point of reference? religion,as in structured religion,is an unfortunate tool for those whom confuse and infuse it with the ego-centred need for one-up-man/womanship and use it as they see effective…much the same as you forgot that I am blind..because I am able and part of many communities..it is all perception,and anything is always possible,no matter what your circumstances..Honestly,I don’t believe that Mr.Kilbey’s hinduisms,and Bishnu references are aligned with such ignorance ,or thoughtlessness,or manipulation.If he were to speak of the Norse gods,we couldn’t knock him over the head for supporting the viking maurauders,and barbarians…really?could we?…xxxgen x

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 12:54 pm #

    Daniel12! I meant heterosexual women perving on well-formed and pleasing males! Lord! (I said opposite sex – or is that too confronting for your dear lad?)

    genx, well said re the Vikings…

    Daniel12, the world is what we make it; all myths, gods, godesses spring from the same spirit – we reinterpret and reinvent them as we go through our morphing cultures

    christianity stole pagan rituals and myths; you know that I’m sure…I refer you to Joseph Campbell on the symbolism and continuity of myth and religion.

    xxKittykat

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 1:13 pm #

    hello kitty kat!…where ya been girl?…xxx..Love,genx

  27. avatar
    Jen Jewel Brown | 29 August 2007 at 1:26 pm #

    oh lovely moon
    red and bountiful, swollen and magical
    a long night watched by teenagers chatting on a front wall
    mothers round-mouthed staring
    dogs entranced and slow-pawed
    reluctant to come inside
    a late night stay-up of a flirtatious, cloud-peeping semi-veiled and then proudly out moon
    our earth sandwiched between her and her beacon, the sun
    our shadow straying like a mantilla across her face
    slow and teasing, taunting
    the imagination moon
    a sliver scimitar then sings with light
    till she is gone

    love to all you moonstruck moomintrolls

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 2:09 pm #

    hiya genx! – i bin moving house …got myself a place with a yard and a pool (in the block)…excellent for star and tea-stained moon gazing; and cool refreshing water in the upcoming horrid build-up season….and am now back on internet but only dialup…love kkatxx

  29. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 29 August 2007 at 2:47 pm #

    This merits inclusion in the best of The Time Being. So much reverence for our fellow creatures and the majestic ocean. Gandhi and George Harrison would have been enthralled by today’s blog. Who knows maybe they Are enthralled by it.

  30. avatar
    restaurant mark | 29 August 2007 at 2:47 pm #

    beautiful today steve..and so were the couple before that. been out of town working again…had to play catch up.
    take care everyone

  31. avatar
    Candy | 29 August 2007 at 2:58 pm #

    sweetest dreams..and a deep sleep for you ..peaceful,restful..love xo

  32. avatar
    CSTCoach | 29 August 2007 at 6:46 pm #

    Beautiful.

    Beautiful prose and a beautiful vision.

  33. avatar
    Hair Zeus | 29 August 2007 at 7:35 pm #

    am I 33? xxx

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    daniel12 | 29 August 2007 at 8:19 pm #

    Hello again Gen X and Kitty.

    First of all Gen x I’m not infusing “egocentric oneupmanship” with anything to do with my comments tonight. What i’ve told u about are the basic pillars of Hinduisim. Personally i find the notion of veiwing the underclass and disabled as paying for karmic debt very offensive. You can take it however you like.

    Secondly Kitty Kat not all myths,gods ,godesses spring from the same spirit.
    For extreme example you could compere Nazi philospy with Buddisim.

    Though not one to boast of my buns or calves ,i do know a something of female perving..
    No I don’t find it at all confronting.
    I even quite like sometimes……

  35. avatar
    davem | 29 August 2007 at 8:25 pm #

    It’s so good to see you with a sense of peace, perspective and contentment.
    I have to say I’m extremely happy to have been around to share the Kilbey thread. Wherever you turn up you’ll be significant.
    Nice to read todays blog and I thank-you. I’m normally very happy with this existence but I’m struggling at the moment – I feel as if I need to be doing something different. In the meantime TTB is an oasis to me &, yet again, I’m in your debt Killa.
    Love you more,

    davem
    xx

  36. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 9:04 pm #

    Divine anthropomorphic claptrap?…gods, godesses, religions, theology, culture…mankind is at the root of these evils. The whole heavenly gang. Perhaps I just made ’em up and worship ’em…or perhaps I perceived their eternal essence and revered it…or perhaps my synapses fired randomly and I just got a bit caught up in all the ensuing psychedelia…or perhaps I am a deluded nut…or perhaps… any number of permutations are possible.

    But I wake up in the morning and feel her by my side, her reflection in the great mirror of everything. Who am I to deny her? Why would I want to? She is beautiful.

    And I have yet to think a perfect thought.

    All I have is imagination.

    Without her I’d feel lonely.

  37. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 9:14 pm #

    Good Morning lovely Mr.Kilbey!..I do hope your Blissful state is continuing today!You are an inspiration,and a precious gem!…a beautiful day to you,full of sunshine,and light,and warmth…love,as always,genx xxxxx…P.S.This entry is so incredibly ,incredibly sparkling…I’ve read it over,and over again!

  38. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 10:29 pm #

    Hi sk, just wanted to write an unthinking fawning comment and express my hero worship to thee…but oh no!! I’m going to get a slap on the hand and a screwed up face from wiseman Daniel12, how could I be so stupid!!! I love you sk and everything you write & sing & paint & create & touch etc, etc..
    Love from one of your many fawners,
    Amanda

  39. avatar
    Cee | 29 August 2007 at 10:53 pm #

    …thought I saw you from the corner of my eye

  40. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 10:58 pm #

    Hello…../cw X

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 29 August 2007 at 11:17 pm #

    Saints preserve us!

    Another set-to on religion….no matter, it’s all running the way a proper discussion should. No personal attacks, good spirit of community intact!

    We are all individuals as KK so rightly says and I’m gonna stay out of this one…except to say…

    God bless Sue C.!!

    B.Bon

  42. avatar
    andmoreagain | 29 August 2007 at 11:23 pm #

    For an ex-egomaniac rock star you’re coming along alright Kilbster. I like the Dolly Parton reference too. “Coat of Many Colours” has never seemed so psych.

  43. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 August 2007 at 12:32 am #

    andmoreagain….you are #42….you are the meaning of “life,the universe,and everything!…peace,and love../Jesus ox

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    Anonymous | 30 August 2007 at 12:49 am #

    Vishnu: the creator, the destroyer, the mentor…all in one according to some legends. It’s a good one Daniel12, please trust me and try not to think pre-Ghandi. I think you’re a dear one for getting emotional…I know of some things you speak of. Now what about that holy cow that’s still in the road? Please laugh along with me, not at me? Indian scholar @3:51…I love you!! I’d love to hear more of your music and see your arts…

    I say a prayer every day to everyone in need more than I…in the extreme case that I pray for myself, I’m usually answered. I also say many thanks that I’m in existance…again, today.

    Art

  45. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 30 August 2007 at 12:52 am #

    Daniel 12

    Kilbey is not supporting the caste system. Hinduism is not an evil religion. Pecaeful Buddhism, Jainism and ahisma(universal nonviolence) emanate from it. I hope you’re not a carnivore. If you are, your body is a graveyard and deadly karma permeates your soul ! My body’s a den of vice but no dead creatures are allowed into my the digestive track. There’s no room because I eat too much savory vegetarian food.

  46. avatar
    Sacred Cowz | 30 August 2007 at 1:17 am #

    yes,Daniel…Hinduism is the Mudder of eastern religion..SK is worshipped,and we bovine believe that he is so utterly cool!..{that took a lot of restraint,not to put the “DD” in the udder reference}..smiling,at you..xxx

  47. avatar
    timf | 30 August 2007 at 1:45 am #

    you’re all insane!
    udderly insane!

  48. avatar
    timf | 30 August 2007 at 1:47 am #

    …i withdraw my comment of 2 minutes ago.

  49. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 August 2007 at 1:59 am #

    Polly want a cracker?

  50. avatar
    knot tired | 30 August 2007 at 2:13 am #

    sleepy giant god
    send me candy colored dreams

  51. avatar
    TING | 30 August 2007 at 2:46 am #

    jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjing…….zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzing…vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvving….ssssssssssssssing…BING!

  52. avatar
    sharka | 30 August 2007 at 2:51 am #

    beautiful words today, Steve.

  53. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 August 2007 at 12:52 pm #

    what would lemmy do?

  54. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 August 2007 at 1:10 pm #

    tract, Comerford, not track

  55. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 30 August 2007 at 1:42 pm #

    Anon 11:10

    U r write. Eye cannt spel !!!!

  56. avatar
    lily was here | 30 August 2007 at 1:44 pm #

    B.Bon … did i sneeze?! 🙂

    Sue C

  57. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 August 2007 at 2:19 pm #

    SK..after reading this blogge,I believe that you can do anything!../.gbx

  58. avatar
    Anonymous | 30 August 2007 at 2:28 pm #

    I have an instictive trust of 1 god…CW


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