posted on March 9, 2006 at 11:40 pm

greetings earthlings
this will bee but a short blogge today
the further thoughts of nevets yeblik
so much on my mind right now
so many things coming to fruition
bad news
good news
the trick (which i have not yet mastered)
is to stay even, steven
dont go up and down with this world
dont get sucked into the argument
ignore the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune
last nite i watched tarnation
a movie a guy made about his life
cinema verite
absolutely brilliant
as someone said a few days ago
i have a song on there
a record i made hundreds of years ago
in 1988
featuring ms d thayer on vocals
the song was diviner
the guy in the film actually mimed to this song
i was very proud to be in the film
check it out
its heavy but its good
tell em olde sk sent ya!

i have so many calls to make
so many things to remember
times to juggle
meetings, deals, blah blah blah
i must remember who i am
i must not be swayed this way and that
i must not get angry with little insects
that pester and hamper me
failure and success
fame and infamy
rich and poor
loved and unloved
these are the poles that keep us turning
chasing this
running from that
people who used to idolise me
wanna crucify me now
people who wanted to know me
now they dont wanna know me
sometimes i wish i was a bricklayer
didnt have to hear all the praise and blame
charms and blues
be like this
be like that
dont write yer blogg anymore
i dont want to know about you…
write more personal stuff
write more about the chchru
write more about 1988
when i was impressed
sing this song
dont get old
act yer age
quick, relax
so many voices clamouring
i need to keep cool
consider my options
funny enuff
no one ever wants to fuck with me face to face
all the critics and criticisers
gee when i meet ya yer so kind and polite
only brave when its once removed, aint ya!
come backstage and tell me yerself how i suck
or piss off and let me be
anyway im trying to get above it
trying not to fight fire with fire
trying to let it all go
so much happening
i’ll see ya all soon

49 Responses to “if you could just hold still….”

  1. avatar
    captainmission | 10 March 2006 at 12:22 am #

    hope i am not contributing to the crisis, ya know i love ya.
    all the best, walk lightly carry a big stick and don’t be afraid to use it.

  2. avatar
    Handyman | 10 March 2006 at 12:37 am #

    Be who you are, nothing else
    Stick to your beliefs and follow your heart
    Don’t let anything or anyone guide you to sacrifice or betray those
    It’s what makes you…you, and the Church…the Church, to us
    Keep up the fight, man
    We’re right behind ya


  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 12:38 am #

    you know what
    I love what you’re doing
    and who you are

  4. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 10 March 2006 at 12:40 am #

    just like captainmission said; i hope i’m not contributing to the crisis. things will get worse before they can get better, esskay but you already know that. i can’t wait to “feel ya” my brother.

  5. avatar
    Krissythegroupie | 10 March 2006 at 12:55 am #

    Who’s criticizing you?! I’ll beat them up. Ignore the peanut gallery! You know what’s good man..keep on keeping on! I sound like a hippie, alriiiight!

  6. avatar
    Daberhasher | 10 March 2006 at 1:01 am #

    …the wig was more than warm,
    it was hut…

    keep laying it on the line,
    keep burning and keep shining…


  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 1:04 am #

    Ahh, the complexities of being a polymathic giver…giving in art, in music, in words, and leaving yourself open to the world on so many fronts…for every jewel of a song written there are a thousand moaners who can’t understand how such a jewel can arrive, for every painting, ten thousand chin scratchers who don’t know what they’re looking at, and moan as a way of hiding that inadequacy, for every eleoquent journal/blog entry, a hundred thousand who feel a streak of bile at the back of their throats that they can’t be YOU, and can’t even write a letter to the milkman…it is and always has ben the LOT of the artist, and SK you are an artist, and sometimes the most important thing is what the art gives YOU, and stuff everybody else…but it’s a privelege to come along for the ride…for that this humble scribe offers thanks…

  8. avatar
    Joe | 10 March 2006 at 1:21 am #

    Yet another outstanding episode. Life is so full of episodes. Thanks for all the narrative.

  9. avatar
    fergal | 10 March 2006 at 2:24 am #

    u never did like the connoisseurs, autograph hounds and yes-men did u sk?
    and who could blame u?

  10. avatar
    mike a | 10 March 2006 at 2:52 am #

    I wonder if you were a bricklayer in one of your past lives, you keep mentioning it in your blogs!!

  11. avatar
    No Comment | 10 March 2006 at 3:13 am #


  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 3:16 am #

    i saw tarnation last summer. it’s a difficult movie to get into, but then you’ll want to watch it again (if just for the soundtrack!)

    steve, get a good night’s sleep and you’ll feel better tomorrow. and if you still don’t know what to do, well, wait til the day after that.

    saw neil young on the daily show last night (with jon stewart). he said that he can’t just write a song when “needed”, but that the songs come through when he’s “unattached” and he’s more of a vehicle for the creation of the song.

    so whatever you do will be right in the end, as it is…

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 3:44 am #

    Who said what, where, when?
    All the comments I read yesterday seemed pretty positive and polite.

  14. avatar
    sue cee | 10 March 2006 at 3:55 am #

    Im wondering if some get on a Gilt Trip if they dont comment?

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 4:06 am #

    ‘come backstage and tell me yerself how i suck’

    give us a free tix and booze i’ll think about it…

  16. avatar
    sue cee | 10 March 2006 at 4:24 am #

    ps I’ve not heard of Tarnation before, came out in 2003 they say, will seek it out just for that scene. Read a snippet about it and it looks pretty intriguing.

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 4:37 am #

    etves yelkib

    everyone’s a critic.


  18. avatar
    Jnfr | 10 March 2006 at 4:46 am #

    “This above all, to thine own self be true.” – William Shakespeare, “Hamlet”, Act I, Scene 3


    “Nothing is more difficult to sustain than a bad reputation.”
    – Jean Cocteau

    Just thought I’d throw those in the pot!

  19. avatar
    aaa | 10 March 2006 at 5:24 am #

    dear anon from the other day many thanks for information on where to find Church dates



  20. avatar
    Rehan | 10 March 2006 at 5:24 am #

    Your blog is interesting because you write ONLY what you see fit Your ups and downs…your moans ..and groans…the way you make no bones…the magic and tragic..the yin…and the yang And that’s the way it should be. Don’t stop and dont let the bastards grind you down! Love and peace…

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 5:27 am #

    Anyone who doesn’t know the self-titled “Hex” album (SK and Donnette Thayer), which includes the song ‘Diviner’, should make every effort to find it. (not easy)!

    It’s my pick for ‘greatest senselessly obscure record ever’.

    Who am I?
    Anonymous, of course.

    the second album “Vast Haloes” is brilliant too.

  22. avatar
    matt davison | 10 March 2006 at 5:55 am #

    I cant figure it out who’s better
    James Dean Bradford or you.
    The (manics) fight you guys for the top post.
    Although Mortan Harket is in there for the photo finish
    Any chuhcr fan needs to hear the album No 1 in Brit…. Analogue

  23. avatar
    lily | 10 March 2006 at 7:17 am #

    Being yourself, no matter what anyone else says, can be challenging but it is also the most rewarding and important thing you can ever be. All your musings and ruminations aren’t just for our entertainment, they’re cathartic for you. Write what you feel, when you feel. I personally love reading about the very essence of SK.

  24. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 8:36 am #

    Great blogee,today ie = real, as in more of the real person,love ya sk.x.

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 9:07 am #

    at the end of the day ya gotta do what rite for you…its funny that u have to get older to think fuck ya everyone and stop wasting time worrying…I wish I could have realised that earlier in life.

  26. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 9:07 am #

    all praise to thee, kilbey!
    well, so much for that…
    here’s manfred from germany finally (after months in the virtual underground…).
    the critic who comes backstage and has the guts to tell you that saltwater was better than refused, remember Utrecht…
    didn’t have the honour to do an interview yet, and anyway, i’m a really german journalist and therefore still listening… and as always, it’s still evolving… and definitely a thumbs up as well!
    so – easy, baby…
    and as that first “hex” record was mentioned – i’ve got a really strange cd pressing of that, not containing anything like diviner, but some new-orderish kind of house-soul-disco with female vocals, does anyone here have the faintest idea what that is?
    at least you should know, sk, with your vast, incredible and incomprehensible knowledge…
    bye for now

  27. avatar
    lily | 10 March 2006 at 9:47 am #

    Some suggested listening for you as you blog: “I’ve Gotta Be Me” by Sammy Davis, Jr. and “My Way” by Frank Sinatra. Because who else would you look to for life advice besides the Rat Pack? Though you could go with the Sid Vicious version of the latter, depending on your mood…

  28. avatar
    Rubikon | 10 March 2006 at 9:50 am #

    As they used to say in Rome – “Non illigitamus carborundum”

  29. avatar
    carousel | 10 March 2006 at 10:47 am #

    now look
    some of us are suffering paranoid allusions
    me included
    even though i haven’t been commenting much
    so i hope it’s nothing to do with yesterdays comments
    and all to do with manoeuvrings in your music biz life

    i still want to know ya sk
    there’s no shortage of that going on around here
    already feel like i do
    as much as i know myself that is
    how much difference can there be?
    eventually none?
    it’s all that’s important!

    face to face backstage
    did that once
    but i was not there to criticise
    or tell ya how you suck
    not one tiny percent
    just had to say hello
    for my own infinitely small
    but logical reason
    nothings changed

  30. avatar
    Rock Journo - Eve Flain | 10 March 2006 at 1:58 pm #

    1988 – I give “Starfish” album of the year and I’m sticking by it – Eve Flain – INL Newspapers (Christchurch Star).

  31. avatar
    Anonymous | 10 March 2006 at 3:44 pm #

    there there
    whats 1988 got to do with anything?
    you are beautiful and loved
    in your face and behind your back

  32. avatar
    CSTCoach | 10 March 2006 at 4:00 pm #

    Cool about the film, SK, I’ll look it up.

    I love both of the Hex albums. So beautiful and ethereal. I still listen to them often.

    Hard to find, but well worth the effort! I’m hoping Karmic Hit will rerelease these, as they have with SK’s solo work, and bring them to a whole new audience.


  33. avatar
    From Steve Kilbey to Steve Kilbey | 10 March 2006 at 4:51 pm #

    Well look at you,
    Hands full of money you always wanted to have
    Saying sweet life is a downright drag
    Down to the very last seed in the bag
    As if it’s never gonna end
    And the scene is through
    Summer slipped under in this neighborhood
    I’d like to hold onto you if I could
    But now I’m gonna have to let you go for good
    My disenchanted friend

    They say that character you play is rising fast
    So you get drunk, make a half second jump
    And experience it as the past
    But this is it, the closer you get
    The deeper you go, the tighter the net looks to me

    Do you enjoy the view
    They say it makes you dizzy your first time up there
    Till you get used to breathing rarefied air
    Auditioning for the part of Mr. Despair
    Well I know him personally
    And this hotel’s a zoo
    You gotta be some creature to get a room in here
    You can live like a king on a throne of tears
    It’s a mighty long way from the innocent years
    And it waits inevitably

    And I’m asking you
    If you think that success is its own reward
    Now then go and see what your persistence has scored
    The voice is a’calling and it can’t be ignored
    You might be underground but you’re overinsured
    You used to be unknown now you’re mapped and explored
    You like to be untouched now you’re handled and pawed
    And it’s never gonna end

    yr still beautiful baybee


  34. avatar
    Kev | 10 March 2006 at 10:26 pm #

    Man, I was impressed in 1988 and I’m still impressed in 2006 (“Block” rocks, to put it simply, however old it might sound to you by now).

    This entry of yours makes me think that all the new types of media that are being developed, of which blogs are one, are just exciting new forums for feeling stagefright all over again! Isn’t technology wonderful.

    I’ll add my encouragement to the pile. I’m of the mind that liking or not liking doesn’t have much place here–it’s just a strange new form of expression whose ultimate meaning will be some time in coming. It’s a treat for those of us who’ve had our awarenesses affected for the better by your explorations to have this additional source of (thought) provocation.

  35. avatar
    off the subject sort of | 11 March 2006 at 1:13 am #

    I love the song above SK!

    Has anyone noticed the how sterile or that there’s something odd about ipods. Could just be me but if feels likes there’s something missing, even when I’m listen to my fav The Church, but the ever since I bought the thing, nothing has the same vibe and its kinda scary, but my mini discman is still great, I use the same headphone $20 sony pluggs or my beatutiful AKG 240s

    I put on Block in my car the other day, driving along with a girl ten years my junor(23,who never heard of the church). Then the night is very soft came on and she’s like that guy has the sexiest voice are they a new band, ha, I got a kick out of that.

  36. avatar
    sue cee | 11 March 2006 at 2:35 am #

    ipods – I’ll let you know the day I can afford one.. but there’s definitely something special about listening to songs thru’a good set of headphones with your eyes closed, preferably not when you’re driving 🙂

  37. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 March 2006 at 3:43 am #

    Is there two Hex albums, I got one off ebay, the one with (stirling street, can’t remember any of the other titles)I do remember however some guy in a record shop in Bruskwick Steet Fitzroy was trying to convince me that there was this other album didn’t sound anything like Mr Kilbey had no title so did’nt buy it,thought he was telling porky pies.
    Now ze german guy manfred? describes something that sounded like it could have been it.
    Thought I had em all (even the hard to find e.g. gypsy stomp/white star) line)
    Maybe I don’t

  38. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 March 2006 at 3:53 am #

    Actually I found out I do have the first Hex (theres not a song called sterling street,I got it wrong) not the second and the thing the guy was trying to sell was probaly Fake.
    Ze german Manfred got his wires crossed the strange pressing he’s probably talking about is a genuine Fake, not the V Halo.

  39. avatar
    TINKU BHAT | 11 March 2006 at 5:14 am #

    OK, you’re so busy + I’m so busy = we’re very busy.
    OK, take the flexy time you need.
    OK, come back often.
    OK, more time for painting and music.
    HM, does this mean we don’t get to exchange recipes?

  40. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 March 2006 at 8:03 am #

    Who put the S in Sydney?

  41. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 March 2006 at 8:13 am #

    C’mon Steve, don’t be like that, we love you. You’ve just had a hard day at the – hang on a second, you’re a fricking rock star (sympathy withheld for political and jealousy reasons).

  42. avatar
    Arno Sojo | 11 March 2006 at 10:11 am #

    Captain, oh my Captain ! SK I first met you after the Paris gig at the end of the Forget Yourself Tour. Man, were you bitter and exhausted, and not willing to talk (which I could only sympathize with, as a loving and respectful fan)… “Yes”, “thanks”, those were the only words that you would let out… Never mind that now, my wounded hero, I feel I’m all the more able to enjoy each and every bit of your new bloggincarnation. Speak your heart out SK, tell the hopes and fears, share the love and hate, get it all off your chest, it’s so much healthier that way. Loving you just the way you are, and thanking you for being who you are. Arno Sojo

  43. avatar
    Anonymous | 11 March 2006 at 2:45 pm #

    Pretend you’re a nobody and start again. This is all dreamland. Simon.

  44. avatar
    TINKU BHAT | 11 March 2006 at 5:31 pm #


    C’est moi encore. Just had to let loose a little inspiration….no time to explain just now, but here you go baybee!

    I’m just catching up with some awesome painter friends of mine. Please google the lovely pair:


    If you’re just getting into abstract, then oh my dear they are a serious trip (and exceptional people of course)!

    Love always,


  45. avatar
    Mr. Ricky | 11 March 2006 at 9:05 pm #


    You’re makin’ me worry, man!!!

    You are in my heart and in my thoughts ALWAYS!!!

    Always wishing the best for you on all fronts…

    You have a wonderful perspective on humanity and what’s really important in life…I am very reluctant to make any kind suggestions to you as it sounds like you’re getting plenty of that already…!



  46. avatar
    Krissythegroupie | 11 March 2006 at 9:57 pm #

    Bah! Ipods are wonderful, and I’m not just saying that cos I work parttime in the Apple store in Soho. I listen to the Church everyday during my subway ride. Song in Space is my morning jam.

  47. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 March 2006 at 12:13 am #

    Really that means I must be going deaf, I was hopng no one would say that,don’t get me wrong I think iPods are the greatest invention, but my hearing must have lost low and high end sometime in the last year. Might have to get my ears checked out.
    Thanks anyway bunnygirl
    Btw nice webpage layout, fun read too.
    No one in particular.

  48. avatar
    Anonymous | 12 March 2006 at 1:35 am #

    i’m missing
    your intellect
    your humour
    your rhyme & reason
    you’ve got under my skin
    somehow sneaked under my radar
    not part of the plan
    well obviously the plan
    and those eyes
    and that voice
    and that…
    when are you coming back?

  49. avatar
    Claude Burton | 12 March 2006 at 2:59 am #

    oh mr kilbey…dont be so harsh on yourself sir….love reading your blog. Gives me a good laugh…

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