posted on January 16, 2006 at 11:35 pm

the black corridor of time
the delicious hit of space
death/sex/drug/fuck/dream
here we are
out here together
again
you know what i mean
were gonna seduce this whole universe
we gonna have our way with the stars
(the stars, baby)
you and i
all of you and all of i
the sweet merger of everything
atom for atom
bit by bit
tit for tat
we always knew this was all here
who kept us out
but ourselves?
im writing this to you now
because we have always been in love
in the anguish of our luscious separation
in the mornings of serene lonesomeness
during the unbelievable and outrageous struggle
just to be here now
at all
you were always on my mind
you were always on my mind
voices in side tell us what to say
ive spoken to you before
from the wings
from the shadows
i wrote you a letter
i couldnt post
i did a picture of you
i couldnt bear to start
i have gone through so much
so much more to go
weariness without you
but something charges us
intake of energetic refill complete
in dark nights prior to earth
we struck up a conversation
remind all yourselves
i was there
say it
yes you are my old companion
those were good times
million years of lives telescopes
2 compact seconds now
maybe irretrievable
you gotta try hard
you gotta try harder
you say
what do you want
who are you
why should i listen to you
i say
i dunno
maybe because we are
the only ones here
maybe because it
could make you smile
and for some strange reason
and despite all i know
when you smile
it makes me glad
that i waded through the swampy
forest/city/fortress/matter/spirit
baybee
im sorry to tell you now
look at the map
look at the clock
we only just began this yesterday morning
we have been resting
revive drive survive
now alive
and kicking at the pricks
from the thorny fucking paths
that lately i had been a’wanderin’
whatever that means to you
anyway
if youre still with me
its so sad that we meet this way
after all that we were along timeago
nevermind
ive started to get used to some of it
but i still wish that
i would get
invited
to the
reunion
i have to go now
i cant even think now
why it was so important
to tell you all this
im sinking back into character
my part reclaims me
i am back to normal
i still love you tho’
sk

56 Responses to “if youre still with me”

  1. avatar
    eek | 17 January 2006 at 12:21 am #

    Of course I’m still with you. …at least I think I’m still with you — sometimes I’m not quite sure where or even who I am. But I think it’s a journey worth making/taking, so, yeah, I’m with you.

  2. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 12:25 am #

    Kilbey,

    wow, man……

    I am finally free…../

    from my nitemare.

    Hallelujah!!

    pageeeeeee

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 1:26 am #

    I’m almost with you…

    Nope, I am with you.
    Finally released…

    Onward

    Rock on Kilbey.

    Brian Turner
    USA

  4. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 1:57 am #

    SK, I have listened to a snatch of TheChurch/Kilbey/Gilt Trip music every day since 1980, give or take the odd moment of inaccessibility, so the pleasure you have added to my life is incalculable…I would say this Straights/Bohemian debate, though, is adolescent nonsense, and to be avoided…I am a novelist with nine books published, yet I work a straight job to pay the bills and look after my new baby son…a Boho wrapped in a Straight Jacket, like one of those little canapes..what are they?…Horse and Rider…so to judge is fruitless…and when did this enjoyable online diary from one of our finest artists become so bloody serious? Get off Kilbey’s back, let him live the way he wants to live (and thank goodness – I won’t say God here – he does), or we’d all be the poorer…it exemplifies the problem in Howard’s Wonderland…you can’t express an opinion in this country anymore without some feckless mob jumping on your back and branding you insane or a troublemaker…keep it up Steve, I read you each day as NEWS, because the rest of it is codswallop (and for the younger out there, codswallop is fish excrement, as my granny used to say)…see you tomorrow…

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 2:21 am #

    SK keep on

  6. avatar
    Holly | 17 January 2006 at 2:34 am #

    Steve,

    You have a made a genuine connection through these pages. I’ve been listening to your music a long time and I’m gonna keep seeking it out. Your blog is so cool, I love getting a daily snapshot of your consciousness. Straight is a state of mind, it’s not how you earn your bread. You show us there’s a different way to live.

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 2:45 am #

    Still with you but back to an earlier blog to deliver some cheer.

    1982 In Germany on the autobahn….
    Nina Hagen,
    Dar Kommisar ( dawn of doof doof )
    The Birthday Party getting punched on stage by fans at the Paradiso…

    Hot Summer
    The Church at the Venue in London ( awesome)
    The Falklands War
    Maggie Thacha ( she banned the Mitsubishi Pajero)
    Haircut 100 ( ouch)
    The Chameleons
    The Comsat Angels
    The Fixx !
    Now there was a band – some good lyrics & guitar but the singer sounded a wee bit constipated
    Stand or Fall eh?
    Have a good break

    Dutch Pierre

  8. avatar
    mike | 17 January 2006 at 2:58 am #

    Your blogs are as potent and beautiful as the music you create – I can’t wait to read the next one!!

  9. avatar
    wytch | 17 January 2006 at 3:01 am #

    awesome entry
    again
    brings me to tears

  10. avatar
    bpd | 17 January 2006 at 3:05 am #

    blog on, sk, blog on

    bd

  11. avatar
    Jnfr | 17 January 2006 at 3:07 am #

    Everyday I come back to this place and it never fails to take me out of my space for just a few blissful moments. Your words strike me like a crystal under the surface of the sea being struck by the suns blinding rays while at the same time being dashed about by the waves. Ok, so I never professed to have a gift with words, just trying to get across how it makes me feel. Beautiful. Volatile. Sparkling. Grey. Blue. Blinding.

    Enjoy the walkabout… Cooee!

    Jennifer

  12. avatar
    verdelay | 17 January 2006 at 3:33 am #

    I knew a straight once. Bent as all buggery. And this boho cat that used to prowl down my ally, she’s gone to the dogs now. That’s the last time I try to take sides. In the battle of This versus That, we just had to lay down in front of their horses and cry wolf…we glamorous few know exactly what to do.

  13. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 3:43 am #

    You should know that you don’t need an invitation. I’ll always be here for you.

  14. avatar
    Tony Pucci | 17 January 2006 at 3:54 am #

    (applause)
    .
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    …this is only the latest chapter…

  15. avatar
    captainmission | 17 January 2006 at 3:57 am #

    in the empty places the soul stripped bare
    of skins and hearts

    been with ya since i heard that line 25 years ago man and it just gets better and better. welcome back to YOUR blog

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 4:14 am #

    who u trying to get in touch with?

    fergal finn

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 5:39 am #

    Although I now work a “straight” job (and pretty good at it too), I’ve always been a boho, mystic, dreamer at heart and always will be. However, I’ve always been surrounded by artists, especially musicians, including my brother & ex-husband/best friend and it seems to me that SK’s “straight” vs. boho theme comes from his experience with the music “business”. Even though I work a “normal” job to pay the bills, I think if anyone had seen the disgusting excess of mindless ego and rampant abuse of “power” in the music “business”, they would have the same sort of opinion, at least I do. Anyway, SK and The Church remind me of the magic in life on a daily basis. Please keep up the blog, I don’t post regularly, but I read it every day and find inspiration to keep my boho side going.

    Coriena

  18. avatar
    Laurie | 17 January 2006 at 6:27 am #

    Well, well, well special K- as promised, you delivered what you said you would in poetry- only more. Thank you so very much. How could I ever look at Thom Wolfe, Wilde, or some of my other favs. again?

    Thanks for telling us your side of the drug ‘slap on the wrist’. In my mind, you’re a angel compared to a former friend I’m about to tell you of.

    The irony of the Boho vs. Straight, hm…a short story for you all:

    A former best friend of more than twenty years was the top student (3.98) in his class of over four hundred students. His genius lied in physics, math, english, computer science, pretty much everything; he claimed he wasn’t creative though. He was completely charming, warm, loving, down to earth, strikingly good looking, had a brilliant family with no need of money. But Georgie had a secret. Since he was fourteen, he’d dealt drugs/was an addict. You name it man, he dealt/did it. The feds. gave him a year as soon as he turned twenty one. Then another year when he was about thirty-eight- he’d also served a few months here and there btween the long stays. I heard he’s doing well in re-estate now, but my heart could never take another sentence. Best wishes to a long lost friend.

    Take good care Steve, on your journey….

  19. avatar
    matt davison | 17 January 2006 at 7:38 am #

    Yes well SK Tell ya sumfing about Boho/ Normal whatever!!
    IT matters..
    Its the line between the falling cascade waters.
    war /peace
    Fuct/not fuct
    winner /loser
    the benchmark for human existance is how open minded one is.
    the stiffs,the cronies, the white haired silver foxs like
    Packer/Murdock..will never understand..The boho way of thinking..Open your eyes you lot.
    SK Morton Harket(A-ha) 10 million take on me’s ten million Indonesians saved with his help..
    not only helped revolutionised people, saved insects, rain forests.. the list goes on
    Why caus he’s Boho..Not Bono
    Great muso too…
    Matt

  20. avatar
    sue c | 17 January 2006 at 8:24 am #

    Ahh…its a sunny day in paradise.

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 10:31 am #

    SK, you’ve made me laugh, cry, sigh…but tonight you made me melt….

    “I get a kick out of you!”

    Love your blog SK xxx

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 11:05 am #

    This blog is better than Asian porn. Great stuff, Steve. Keep on peeling back the layers – someone needs to do it!

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 11:36 am #

    What I love about this blog is that it’s straight from the heart or quite simply sincere and honest. Its great to here someone who you greatly admire, say simply I dunno. Unlike, the bastards in power, the fucking politicians, who have DELUSIONS OF CANDOUR(except for maybe Natsha Stott-Despoja, as she’s kinda hot and digs bands like the Jesus and Mary Chain-don’t know much about her politics, but she sounds like she makes sense, when I have heard her interviewed and she’s also kinda hot, said that already I know, but she really is kinda hot).
    I also agree with the guy who said “this blogs becoming addictive”, just like the music. I have spent a good part of my life in a pair of headphones, thanks to SK and the rest of the bunch-the albums should come with a warning-MAY LOSE LONG PERIODS OF TIME.
    I also got my first fix for free,(thanks Nanna!) because of a lotto ticket 18 years ago, maybe?. I have to admit when I won something like 14 bucks, I was kind of bummed that I didn’t win the million(first time I was really young), so I walked into a record shop, liked the look of an album cover and bought my first church album, although, I’m pretty sure I had heard some tunes first.
    Anyway now I can’t stop and the blog is taking over too, soon I’m not going to be able to leave the house. Am I bummed I didn’t win the the million, well yeah! Am I glad won the 14 bucks, fuck yeah!

  24. avatar
    crack in a smile | 17 January 2006 at 11:51 am #

    Mr. Kilbey, I certainly am not with the Jet or Missy Higgins.

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 1:20 pm #

    nothing straighter than a “blog” get over your self righteousness.

  26. avatar
    12str | 17 January 2006 at 1:26 pm #

    well!!
    what else is there to say….
    the thoughts
    the words
    the poetry of everyday life

    everybody….be good to and take care of eachother.

    12str

  27. avatar
    chukleslovakia | 17 January 2006 at 1:49 pm #

    SK 35-11:

    been away for a couple of days and
    now i come back to this. my God man, always eloquent. where is the chink in yer armor?
    p.s. a palm tree nodded at me last night, is that odd?

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 2:09 pm #

    Dear SK,
    Would you ever consider writing a full length novel?
    Laurie above is right, your not just a great song smith and poet, you’re like a real writer, when I say that I mean Oscar Wilde, Hermann Hesse, Camus etc.
    As, if what you havn’t done isn’t enough, sorry getting a bit greedy there.
    Love the Blog!
    Thanks for connecting and looking after your fans.

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 2:32 pm #

    Hey, anonymous at 12.20am is the Osars or Desparate Housewives over already, righteous your self and piss off!
    Its very easy, if you don’t like the blog, don’t read it and why would bother to leave a comment, really who’s self righteous, I mean C’on.
    Give me your web or blog address so I can see why I have’nt yet bought any of your art or connected on any level with you what so ever. If you’re stuff’s any good I’m sure everyone here, would be happy to check it out.

  30. avatar
    LOL | 17 January 2006 at 3:16 pm #

    don’t loose your bearings, mr kilbey…we’re in your heart
    keep on steve …you’re a blessed one

    your kindred soul from france

    laurent

  31. avatar
    CSTCoach | 17 January 2006 at 3:42 pm #

    Still with you, bro. Wouldn’t be anyplace else.

    ryan

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 6:38 pm #

    Steve?

  33. avatar
    Joe Burns | 17 January 2006 at 7:38 pm #

    Endeavor forever Steve…

  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 17 January 2006 at 7:59 pm #

    It’s good to know there’s still magic in this world and it’s coming from you Mr.SK. Many of us have listened and learned by your experiences for upwards of 24 years now. I am here everyday reading your wonderful blog, I don’t get to comment often enough.
    Please don’t let a few distractors
    bother you. I will be here reading and patiently waiting for Uninvited like the Clouds. Until then I keep playing Back with Two Beasts.
    Glad to hear you and your family enjoying life. I can’t help but think of Henry Miller’s quote:

    THE AIM OF LIFE IS TO LIVE, AND TO LIVE MEANS TO BE AWARE,
    JOYOUSLY,DRUNKENLY,DIVINELY AWARE.

    Thank you SK for your time and your craft.

    Sincerely, Robert “sleepmonk”
    1/17/06 2:58 pm

  35. avatar
    baby | 17 January 2006 at 11:02 pm #

    lasciate ogne speranza, voi ch’intrate.

    love

  36. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 18 January 2006 at 2:39 am #

    looks like you blew everybody away with that blog, i have to admit it, you blew me away too. you and i are going to rock this universe inside and out. the stars will shine so brightly on all of those involved in our epic struggle. new mail is on the way…

    M.J.N.J.R.

  37. avatar
    old town john | 18 January 2006 at 2:41 am #

    Nam myo ho renge kyo. There.

  38. avatar
    Laurie | 18 January 2006 at 3:19 am #

    Thanks anon. Choose SK or the other writers in the Universe? when he’s writng to us all? Well, I’ve really quite enjoyed this blog. Please keep going! OK, pins and needles to read Rob Lurie’s Novel about Steve.

    I can’t put the books, songs, movies about artists down- it’s like trying not to guzzle an icey cold beer on a scorching hot day.

    Kilbey, do you mean moi?? *Slaps Austrian palm on nordic forehead. It just now occurred to me we had some conversations about reaching for the stars, excruciating struggles, creativity. It was all those years ago, yet it seems like a moment ago as fresh as it’s stayed in my mind. I think of it so often as I’ve watched you develope artistically, etc. How dramatic you’ve become. (I thought the wrath of Kilbey was coming down on ‘lil straihemian moi.) Then you turned another mood. You’ve really emerged from the smokey background with other things you can do. Keep it up!… it’s so good to convey again.

    You know I think the world of a mother and her children; honestly though, the one more beautiful thing to me is a father with his children. Please tell more stories about your girls! Including N.

    LG

  39. avatar
    Tony Pucci | 18 January 2006 at 3:35 am #

    I must say, Jimmy Buffett wrote a pretty entertaining novel…almost Vonnegutesque. You’d be a natural for such an endeavor.

  40. avatar
    saint louis | 18 January 2006 at 6:32 am #

    Too much time in babylon, anonymous. What you straights/bohos appear to leave out of your well-thought-out grievances is what you miss from your brilliant lifestyles.

    God, I wish I had one of yours! Do you ya see yourself here? Keep laughing.

  41. avatar
    Jeffrey Von Stetten | 18 January 2006 at 9:06 am #

    dear mr kilbey,

    I visit your blog spot often since you’ve started it, would you check out mine and listen to a song? I’d appreciate it alot, you can even leave a comment, like “Dude, fucking awesome blog, even nicer song can’t wait to hear the rest, keep up the good work” and thing of that nature 🙂 I’m laughing as I say this so I hope you are too. But would you visit my blog to? It’s only fair….
    It’s at http://www.Jeffs-Site.com, and the part with my songs is on my tunes, I think you’d like both I’ve got up righ t now. It would mean alot, and yes to keep in the spirit of comments and blogging this did have anice flow to it, but your stuff about the bombs and kids ws great too, because it was so honest, and raw, and true . Never feel bad about feeling broken and sorrowful, a potter can’t mold shards and bits, he needs it melted down to shape into something unseen before, and better than what it was. No need for apologies necessary, be sorrowful,sing songs, either one is ok, you are a dear dear friend from across the globe, and your words are appreciated either way.

    Hope you listen, hope you stop by.

    Your bud,

    Jeff

  42. avatar
    Bionaut | 18 January 2006 at 9:10 am #

    “the sweet merger of everything”
    we are all star stuff
    sagan said it (moby sung it)
    atoms on earth
    perhaps our atoms intermingled before
    maybe your t-rex ate my stegosaurus
    when our t-rex fell for good
    and rotted
    and became soil
    we grew in competing trees
    fighting for sunlight
    and dropping as fruit
    till you rolled away
    and floated downstream
    into another chain
    through eons
    to now
    where we meet again

    God, I wish I knew how to quit you!

  43. avatar
    wytch | 18 January 2006 at 9:49 am #

    on wednesday night
    i blogin
    only to read your site
    and then
    to find no new post
    left me feeling empty, no really
    but to re-read your last
    you poet
    made me realise how damn gorgeous a human you really are
    amazing

  44. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 12:56 am #

    Where ya at Steve? Are you with us?
    Just received Unearthed today from Karmic Hit. I am glad that this gem is available again…
    Karmic hit seems to be getting most of my pay lately…

    Brian Turner
    USA

  45. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 2:03 am #

    you and i and ? together… with you every time i’m here…

  46. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 2:20 am #

    1,2,3,4…testing.

  47. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 4:54 am #

    I want my daily fix.

    A silver haired and silver tongued bard…

    ‘cmon olde rockah have mercy on a plebe like me,we,us.

    theglynnisjohns

  48. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 5:20 am #

    Know what you mean anon, above

    Co’s the blog diary’s running pretty low, and when it comes back, I do want to know.

  49. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 19 January 2006 at 6:12 am #

    hey anonymous/Brian Turner/USA
    remember SK said that after the poem he would be gone for a spell
    so just bare with it, we all have to wait for our fix. i know it sucks, but SK needs some alone time as well. peace out…

  50. avatar
    fergal | 19 January 2006 at 6:53 am #

    here in this desert …

  51. avatar
    Sweed | 19 January 2006 at 9:27 am #

    Miss you…

  52. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 6:02 pm #

    you are with me but”you” could be annybody starring at me from my”book of poetry” ‘you’ are nameless
    just like the words . Cheap sandwiches’ why are they cheap, why must I want them to recognize who the painter is. I simply want to pass on a good thing..

    The poser cafe’stylish attendant boy told me’we promote local artists. than you told me to come back and maybe later you’d buy my book, so i took you up on your word. what you forgot to say is that you dont see art. You dont see annything but dollar signs.

    oh was it a little to harrowing, a bit to homeless and drug afflicted, did I not rhyme in time with the bell from your cash register…..

    Im blessed, I know that…
    I come back for my book. You say “oh you want it back?”
    No, I want someone who has no interest in my poems to hold onto my most private words.
    when you especially state that you have no interest and that if you find it, You’ll give it back…

    well Hip cafe’ bookstore im gonna have to charge you 15$, cuzz you lost my book….

    I dont want to sell my book because i need to.

    Id rather let you read it, if you’ll simply take in the words
    w/o ascociating how much capital you might gain when i die or others catch on.
    This I suppose is a reflex mini-blog..
    SK..I couldnt stand in line to shake your hand
    . Not that I was proud
    I fealt if we were to meet
    we would, But Id rather not be one in a million hands forgotten.
    So I sat and watched them all gather around you, even got in a picture but a girl cutt of my face.

    perfect metaphor…I remain faceless…But one day
    My face comes to me in the mail.
    and Its a portrait, one of your first in ’05… That, to me
    was more meaningful than an autograph, or a picture.
    Because I knew, Just like I respected your words, let them resonate, you did the same…
    and Now 2 “famous” artists have
    painted my portrait, I did not ask nor seek them out.
    But There I am , In your perspective….and I think, If i did not try, and these talented
    established and learned men took time to read my words from decades ago, that were never intended for page, but a diary of my times in the single-minded heroin streets, Maybe I should try.
    _B. Raine
    PS,eventually, i joined my brother, who you were talking with, and as i went to introduce myself, my porcupine quilled cocaine,alchohol and god knows what else stepped in front of my face, and rambled some staggerring words,with eyes so red, you said something like ” mate, it’d take me alot of cash to get that ——(australian word for completeley fucked up…) so with that I walked down past the knitting factory and a boy was set on copping he said for you, and I so wanted to go with him, but I knew
    these kids didnt have a clue and probably would end up getting ripped off,,as they didnt know NYC,or never copped there….God
    If big bro wasn’t there,Id of
    gone….
    But I enjoyed the music
    everything else was
    just the universe….

  53. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 6:15 pm #

    re:above

    referring to the capitalist

    bookstore when i say ” you told me to come back and maybe later you’d buy my book, so i took you up on your word. what you forgot to say is that you dont see art. You dont see annything but dollar signs.”

    Not You, Steve,,,ok is that muddily clear?

    first time reader
    first time poster
    but im a pro ,
    ahh these blogs are so
    cut through all the BS
    they are simply streams no ascociations, or kissing butt
    they are who we or you are in the truthfulness of your personal moment, sure not as many would read some anonymous joes as much as
    sks, but i must say, I love the medium,,No special lyrics in the cover of starfish,,,lol
    BR.
    no expectations, noone swims amoung the others

  54. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 6:48 pm #

    The Choich will always be with me.
    See U next Spring in Paris ?…
    Love,
    MB from Lorraine, France

  55. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 10:45 pm #

    Dear Master of Soul
    born in 1971 I am on the same Rock&Roll quest as U thanks to education, against anything brutal, the straights (stricts in french), for Mother Earth…
    I was called upon by Priest=Aura’s cover in 1992 and I will never forget the sublime discovery and experience it still is. I knew about Marty (we finally had a conversation last spring in Paris) from readings and AAE. Since then I have searched all of your works and the boys’.
    I dig artists U are likely to appreciate, like Pink Floyd, Prince, Mike Scott, Steve Wilson, Yes, Fish, Joni Mitchell, Concrete Blonde, Kate Bush, Rush, Pendragon and so on. See ? The Great Family of talented Muse Lovers you belong to. Ange and Hubert Felix Thiefaine are good French surrealist french rockers…
    What U do is right dear Word Lover
    Lotta Love
    Forever with U, Angel
    EmManUel

  56. avatar
    Anonymous | 19 January 2006 at 10:52 pm #

    It is cold & lonely out in this bloggishere without SK. I reread your past entries and enjoy all that you give.
    Last night while listening to the Church,I was thinking of the 4 times I saw you live. 3 shows on Starfish tour and 1 on Hologram of Baal tour. On the Starfish tour, my girlfriend & I meet you and the band backstage all 3 times. She worked for a label and Peter Murphy was her artist and he opened for you then.
    You talked with me for about 1/2 hour in Chapel Hill and gave me some of your toberlone chocolate bar. You & Marty were very gracious to us both and I feel lucky to have found your music when I did. Just wanted to say thanks for the music and great memories.

    Sincerely,
    Robert-sleepmonk


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