posted on March 31, 2009 at 7:20 pm

sydney lashed by black storms
the rain falls all night long
and it whispers to me from outside
i hear it ratta tatta tatta on the roof
i hear it tap at the window
i hear it hit the shiny black streets
i remember being up before the dawn on other mornings
saying goodbye to elli n minna in stockholm
when they were small kids
my plane left at 6 in the morning
i started to cry a little and elli ran n hid
she was too scared of my crying to say goodbye
down onto the snowy frozen streets
man a stockholm street at 4 am on a winters day
wow that can knock the hope outta ya!
probably jonesing for junk to boot
struggle along in the street with my cases
looking for a taxi
another time when they were about 14
they came out to arlanda airport with me
it was such a comfort
god for a brief time before they became full on teenagers
it seems for a little while we could communicate
not so much anymore i guess
i s’pose i;m waiting for em to “come good”
you know when they get over being rebellious
n start understanding why you aint so bad
meanwhile the temp in sydney aint so cold
but the rain is whipping all the palm trees to a frenzy
its bloody bucketting down
i put my san pedro cactus out for a drink
hope he aint drowning in it
been working yessaday with jorden b
5 th member of the church n lovely geezer
been recording the spoken word bits for my exhibition
little bits of music n stuff
one piece we record in front of an open window
with the rain n the traffic n everything blending
(the water meters , the fire escapes)
other pieces we record with me holding a hand held mike
sitting on his settee
other pieces are recorded
me standing in a stairwell
to get some natural reverb
i guess when you enter the exhibition
you get given a discman cd player n a disc
n you walk around
stand in front of a painting called
“blah blah blah”
and you hit the cd
and you listen to the words n music
n you look at the freakin’ painting
thats what we hope
and we gonna give away a cd if you buy a painting
and we gonna make all twenty pieces of prose/music available eventually
and we hope you gonna buy something
prints or cards or an original
and we hope other galleries wanna have me along…
and soon my art career will flourish
and i can buy some company who makes tvs….
meanwhile
people are continuing to love the new church lp
with nae a bad word being schpoken about it
it is pretty good i guess
but thats the church :
pumping out undiscovered gems since year dot
like that song the time being off somewhere else
yeah my namesake
yeah my theme song
so many lovely changes in it
or some of the songs on back with 2 breasts
or besides yerself
or songs like unsubstantiated
or leverage
masterpieces we just casually chuck out
we’re not precious coz we can come up with another one anytime
the new church album is a tip of an ice berg
of all the actual recording done for this project
we’ll be releasing things from these sessions for years
we are hyper creative
we/i never run outta steam
why is that?
well the fact we really never became that big i guess
keeps us “lean n hungry”
my yoga and swimming
i cant emphasise these things enough
if you wanna be the best guitarist in the world
DO YOGA!
i dunno how it works but it works
whatever ya wanna be better at
DO YOGA!
its 7 oclock in the morning n still dark
the storm is dumping inches of rain on bondi
the city disappears into the fog n clouds
god glad im not on a plane this morning
i remember being in a taxi alone
or maybe with ploog
driving thru the early morning sydney rain
to jump on a plane somewhere
searching for another place to play
we should be on by now…
we smoked dope at the airport
climbed on bombed
and slept all the way to wherever it was
or sitting on a finn air flight
and one of our roadies crying up in business class
cos he was so fucking exhausted
(more from partying than work!)
i remember him sitting there bawling his eyes out
between 2 silent finnish businessmen
trying to hide his tears with his long hair
what a fucking sight!
eventually the tears subsided into great gulps as he sobbed
and then mercifully fell asleep snoring
(just as we landed in copenhagen…ha ha)
ready to start his snivelling all over again
listen i aint judging the guy
voice in another room: not much!!
an early morning flight
a lot of tiredness
a lot of alcohol
a lot of saying goodbye to people you just met
a lot of stuff to pack n remember
a lot of variables to keep in mind
the life on the road can be overwhelming n take you down quick
i seen guys just fucking go under cos they couldnt keep up the pace
we all had/have our mechanisms for coping
power naps
dope
booze
yoga
meditation
pills
sex
big noting yerself
hiding
being a real prick
being a real sweetie
keeping to yerself
lending a helping hand
etc
everybody tries everything once….right?
well maybe not lending a hand or being a sweetie…
any way
my next tour is in june in the us…hopefully
there will be little flying
and hopefully just driving around in the summer daylight
listening to our ipods
and character assassinating whoevers not in our car that day
nice work if you can get it i guess
then check in
find vegan food or as close as i can get
(note to smart ass from other day
i only ate the dal not the palak paneer..that was nks)
then DO YOGA!
then turn into a rocknroll moofo
then relax disperse n proceed to bed
ready to begin again begin again begin again
as the raspberries sang
play on
while the lights shine around your head
play on
every night in a different bed
and the nights go on n on…

ok i’m gonna stop now n
DO YOGA!
bye….

32 Responses to “in the early morning rain”

  1. avatar
    Freddie | 31 March 2009 at 9:07 pm #

    “saying goodbye to elli n minna in Stockholm
    when they were small kids
    my plane left at 6 in the morning
    i started to cry a little and elli ran n hid”

    Killer, you’re makin’ me misty.

    So you were/are the sensitive sort of Dad 🙂

    Your girls will come around
    Once they leave these years behind
    These are the difficult years for girls & boys too
    They want to find their own identity
    and somehow they feel that parents are injurious to that, any parent
    but you have to admit, having Steve Kilbey as a father
    would be pretty huge
    “Oh, you’re Kilbey’s daughter!”
    Yeah, he’s good and blah blah blah or he’s horrible #&%^#^%
    But what about me? I’m someone too!
    that sort of thing
    But I’m quite sure they’ll blossom into lovely young ladies
    just as long as they know that you love them dearly.
    Do they read your blog?
    Does elli remember that morning?

  2. avatar
    John Garratt | 31 March 2009 at 9:10 pm #

    What are you going to do again?

  3. avatar
    EDD | 31 March 2009 at 9:16 pm #

    Do you think Bono does Yoga?

  4. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 31 March 2009 at 9:18 pm #

    The critics who do review and cover The Church seem to have great reverence for them. WE MUST NOTE THAT NEWSPAPERS AND MAGAZINES ARE IN DEEP FINANCIAL TROUBLE AND THEY RESORT TO HYPING THE REALLY BIG COMMERCIAL BANDS(U2,PRINCE< MICHAEL JACKSON< COLDPLAY< STONES, MACCA>RADIOHEAD>SPRINGSTEIN) as a means to economically survive. Even DAVID FRICKE has digressed.

  5. avatar
    princey | 31 March 2009 at 10:13 pm #

    I’m so happy to read that The Church are still “lean n hungry” to write and create for years to come sk, that’s all I need to hear :))))

    I was shocked (but rapt!!) to read that the hairy guitar wiz MWP is playing solo at The Toff in Town in April, wouldn’t it be nice if the one and only sk did the same before jetting off to the U.S……pleeeez sk, one more for ol’ Melby town, airfares are cheap, just an hour away and the sun is shining and it’s 30degrees, just do it!:)
    love Amanda

  6. avatar
    captain mission | 31 March 2009 at 10:40 pm #

    my memories are very strange, they don’t seem to operate the same way they once did, i can’t force them, if some one asked me a question about what i did last night, i’d more than likely give them the wrong answer. things just have to surface, then i remember. there are memories that transcend this problem, and many are of various church gigs. (i saw bowie play heaps but can’t recall any of it)
    one thing i will always remember is you doing yoga in the sun.

  7. avatar
    restaurant mark | 31 March 2009 at 11:09 pm #

    nice one man.
    waiting impatiently for the new album…and the summer tour.
    very rainy here as well…love thunderstorms, but not driving in them like i was on the way home.

    take care everyone
    mark

  8. avatar
    Louisa | 1 April 2009 at 12:00 am #

    Yes, DO YOGA!!! I too have no idea how it works, but it does amazing things for your mind and body. I also find bellydancing leaves you feeling the same as yoga. How about a bellydance class Steve? 🙂 Have been listening to The Church for years and have started reading your blog daily since you were ill, thank you for sharing your thoughts. Louisa

  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 April 2009 at 12:05 am #

    yoga. yes. it is the key. twice a day, olde beane.

    richard

    play asheville

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 April 2009 at 12:07 am #

    Hi Steve,

    Great day down here, here’s some thoughts on the following;

    “meanwhile
    people are continuing to love the new church lp”

    – Good, they should…

    “with nae a bad word being schpoken about it
    it is pretty good i guess
    but thats the church :”

    -Ditto…

    “pumping out undiscovered gems since year dot…
    or some of the songs on back with 2 breasts
    or besides yerself
    or songs like unsubstantiated”

    – I’ve got a great live recording of ‘Unsubstantiated’ – bloody awesome actually – from the USA (Some big gig you did back in the day that was played on Triple MMM), and it only ever got a nanno second on that movie – Tequila Sunrise!

    “masterpieces we just casually chuck out
    we’re not precious coz we can come up with another one anytime
    the new church album is a tip of an ice berg
    of all the actual recording done for this project
    we’ll be releasing things from these sessions for years
    we are hyper creative
    we/i never run outta steam
    why is that?
    well the fact we really never became that big i guess
    keeps us “lean n hungry”

    – I think that’s the catch 22 or something?

    “my yoga and swimming
    i cant emphasise these things enough
    if you wanna be the best guitarist in the world
    DO YOGA!”

    – Yep, i’m onto it…yoga and guitar that is.

    “i dunno how it works but it works
    whatever ya wanna be better at
    DO YOGA!”

    – I think i’ll show my Yoga teacher your comments!

    🙂

    Cheers,

    Jon from Geelong.

  11. avatar
    loolaabillions | 1 April 2009 at 12:21 am #

    ummm
    i was always under the impression
    that The Church
    was actually one of australias
    bigger exports……xx

    teenagers can unintentually
    hurt a vulnerable heart
    but
    their love is unconditional
    even when hidden

    just think…
    you still have three to go
    lucky geezer.x

  12. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 April 2009 at 12:53 am #

    You can”have”more,but you can never”be”more.The split mind never stops searching for being.know you’re devout puss!was just testing.love!Osho.namaste.

  13. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 1 April 2009 at 12:58 am #

    “the new church album is a tip of an ice berg of all the actual recording done for this project
    we’ll be releasing things from these sessions for years”

    Good news indeed.

    And while you’re at it, Steve, how about another collection like Freaky Conclusions? Or how about re-recording some of all those
    old, unreleased songs of yours such as Insect World, Rocking Horse, When I Come Back, Another Inkling, I See You Beginning, You’re My Idea, etc. These songs are too fucking good to be ignored, Steve…

  14. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 1 April 2009 at 1:15 am #

    The Church # 23 Deserted Island CD
    1)Sealine
    2)June
    3) Maya
    4)Telepath
    5)Anathesia
    6)Louisiana
    7)Tranquility
    8)The Dead Man’s Dream
    9)Numbers
    10) Aweful Ache
    11)Easy
    12) Unified Field
    13) Song To Go
    14) Ripple
    15)Comedown
    16) Aura
    17) Another Earth
    18) Buffalo
    19) Heading South
    20) Grind
    21) Reptile
    22) Block
    23) Radiance

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 April 2009 at 3:30 am #

    I hope i dont miss you guys this time. I will start saving money right now. And please consider Memphis again.

  16. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 1 April 2009 at 3:51 am #

    i’m one step off sobbing like a wimp ‘cos i’ve been to the dentist and they had to use a fucking pair of pliers or something to get a wisdom tooth out and stitched my mouth back up and now i feel like someone’s belted me in the side of the face…..boooo hooooo

    love always…..

  17. avatar
    simon | 1 April 2009 at 4:08 am #

    i’ve been listening to somewhere else lately – and the time being found the spotlight for the first time – been hooked on by cut in two for ages

    recently bought backs with two beasts, and you’re not wrong

    perfect church weather developing in melbourne these days

  18. avatar
    captain mission | 1 April 2009 at 4:31 am #

    the teen years are a strange rite of passage without context or meaning, i really felt awful about my estrangement from my son during this time, he was alien to me, but teenagers go through the rite of passage and they invariably kill their father (metaphorically) this is celebrated in some cultures with some form of ceremony, the youth returns as adult, independent from his or her, father but filled with respect and love. this will occur for you, they will return knowing they have been blessed. these strange things are played out unconsciously.

    you are indeed a free spirit, i see that in you, it’s quite an amazing thing really.

  19. avatar
    Richard | 1 April 2009 at 4:50 am #

    Brien

    I presume you left invisible off the list so that you’d have an incentive to get off the island.

  20. avatar
    steve | 1 April 2009 at 5:21 am #

    Steve

    Here is a request a Spoken Word Poetry cd I have enjoyed your earlier work like this as well as Shriek.

    US sounds good this summer

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 April 2009 at 6:05 am #

    Governor,

    Teenagers… lets hope the come around quickly, mine is straining …. Stuck in Texas with greased up men in tights… I believe its more common then you would expect here in Dubya country… yoga you say…. Perhaps I’ll give it a shot… seems everyone is recommending it recently… but my only time off is in my bunk… full of excuses today…

    Best,
    J

  22. avatar
    princey | 1 April 2009 at 6:08 am #

    After reading your blog again sk, I forgot to say “thanx” for pushing the point about the benefits of doing yoga, it’s motivated me start up (again) as I’ve been SO slack over the summer months, too many excuses! I feel better just thinking about it.

    Captn Mission, my son’s only 5yo, but I’m dreading the day he gets to that age where he won’t want to know his mummy, but then again, Greek mums have a way of keeping their boys at home til they’re 35-40yo, so it’ll be a while yet haha!

  23. avatar
    davem | 1 April 2009 at 6:22 am #

    My copy of #23 hasn’t arrived yet but I’m really excited about it given all the reviews.
    Great news about the US tour. Hoping and praying that you might pop over to Europe for a date or two.
    Look after yourself SK.
    Love you Sir.

  24. avatar
    fantasticandy | 1 April 2009 at 7:58 am #

    brien…….no glow-worm?
    especially apropriate after reading todays blog!

    why do oodles of folk come on here slagging off u2?
    as though they are usurpers of the church’s throne?
    i don’t even hear the vaguest similarity between the two bands.
    u2 = tosh.
    church = beauty.

    HH….ouch!

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 April 2009 at 12:13 pm #

    I’d sooner be in Stockholm in winter than Australia in summer. Can’t stand heat.
    But hey, Killa, when GAF turned out to be less than stellar, howcome you didn’t re-record Unsubstantiated for it or do a proper version of Frozen and Distant to boost the quality quotient?

  26. avatar
    crack in smile | 1 April 2009 at 12:32 pm #

    So let’s make a deal: a Church gig in Brasil, then I do YOGA. Fare enough?

    I love unsubstantiated, BTW.

  27. avatar
    lily was here | 1 April 2009 at 12:58 pm #

    Sometimes the circle gets a little wonky but your girls will come back to you, back where they started. xxx

    ps farewell Hallelujah, hello Operetta.

    HH, ooh your dentist didnt give you a strong painkiller prescription? And actually i was in Cobar earlier tonight, you’re not far off.

  28. avatar
    matthew | 1 April 2009 at 1:33 pm #

    I'm so glad you mentioned "TTB – The Song"… that one struck me powerfully from the 1st time I acquired the 2-cd package back in the Ninetease… And yes! – so many lovely changes indeed. I can even recall listening to that one in my car a coupla years back and suddenly crying, during some crysis… (oh… i want life… i want it now and forever…) So, yes… a permanent fave & evocative song for me. Than ks sk.

  29. avatar
    CSTCoach | 1 April 2009 at 3:10 pm #

    a lovely blog today, sir.

    catching a plane on an early raining morning in stockholm – such a beautiful city on a sunny day, but yeah, those morning departures sure are sad. (i’m headed back there at the start of May – ever been to a place called Motala? i think it’s midway betwixt stockholm and g’berg?)

    re: the gems you guys crank out, i’ve always thought some of your b-sides and those little “extras” were some of your best work. i’ve always loved ‘unsubstantiated’ and ‘the time being’. ‘authority’ off sometime anywhere (that’s full of odd gems, very different from your prior work). absolutely everything off the brilliant back w/ two beasts (ionian blues one of my favourite alltime songs ever). a quick smoke at spots contains some brilliant songs. can’t wait to hear this new material. planning to order this weekend, soon as the album’s up on cherch merch 🙂

    lookig fwd to the US tour. you know i’ll be driving down to a couple shows! soon as the dates are up i’ll sort my travel schedule around it (got an invite for india this year, killa, and a few other places).

    re: yoga and why it can make a musician great, i’m working on a resource now to explain a bit of why it works (how it helps you tap in) and to make it even more accessible to hard living music types. first small installment should be headed your way in less than 2 weeks, with more to follow. i honestly believe if more people could connect like you do, they’d live longer healthier lives, and just maybee, they’d experience a burst of creativity the likes of which you’ve been riding for years.

    the art exhibit sounds absolutely kick ass! LOVE the idea of music and spoken word stuff to go along with the paintings. wonder how far of a drive that is from here?

  30. avatar
    catchow | 1 April 2009 at 4:55 pm #

    lucky guys,in the US! SK tour in
    june…and what about Europe?…
    Will the new CHURCH lp come out in
    vinyl?
    about yoga ,i think i’gonna buy a book and try…

  31. avatar
    eek | 1 April 2009 at 8:15 pm #

    i guess when you enter the exhibition
    you get given a discman cd player n a disc
    n you walk around
    stand in front of a painting called
    “blah blah blah”
    and you hit the cd
    and you listen to the words n music
    n you look at the freakin’ painting

    Yep, that’s the plan!

    It’s going to be a great exhibit. The opening reception is scheduled for May 1. More info and a peek at the paintings will be up soon at the SK art site.

  32. avatar
    Kev | 6 April 2009 at 5:44 am #

    You know, for some reason I was really glad to read your mention of the ‘offhand masterpieces’.

    I think songs like “Jazz”, “Snowfaller”, “Pantechnicon”, “The Time Being”, “Leverage”, “Crash/Ride”, “Cantilever”, “Trance Ending”…I could go on…are just outrageously good songs. Songs that most bands would sell their drummers to write. Some of my favorite Church songs, that produce the strongest and longest-lasting emotional responses in me.

    And it’s always kind of astounded me the kind of quality that ends up as leftovers, b-sides, etc. Somehow it’s just nice to know that you’re proud of these songs.

    I’ve been listening to so much other music lately that I wondered if I’d stick with you guys, but now here I am enjoying the heck out of the Second Motion EP downloads and looking forward to the new album proper. Keep up the good work and take care.


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