posted on November 28, 2011 at 5:15 pm

hillman imp


lily strange bell yon child

the surging urging merging dark

far off in morningside far off in june

fiat lux or what you are the lark

more-ish dish of flying fish you wish

opulent pluperfect perfection a pinnacle

i turn the seasons wheel as slowly

for upon my shoulder my head like boulder

this frivolous flippancy of fops fakers and frauds

henceforth defence in govern meant to pepper mint

something blue my mind behind it all

i find it all amusing choosing the right worlds

you swirled me into the withheld hold hurled from hip

i dabble n delve near the reeds and the strings just gliss

your manikin approaches causes my falcon to hiss

no measure of the jester who just must of adjusted her

no quarter or dime for a daughter upon time

the pretender will not surrender the crown of king night

i serve no mortal tyrant though i am reliant on reliable stars

i am only aloud to move in diagonal squares but who cares

i severely sever the lever even steven leavin’ this evenin’

i hob nob with weave and bob i dob in the unicorn on the cob

feel free to feel something i hope you can cope hopelessly

touch my scars the healing mars the pain all over again

i got the music in a head i herd it embed i got it in stead

i reap  protection of some force of course it will one day be dead

i murder the slander slinger the moon singer the woe bringer

i embrace the face of the traces of jehovahs over study

vishnu i wish you knew him how universes come through him

jesus the anointed one the son the sun the nazarene with beast all gone

the sluts of babylon come on n on all tits and assyrian

those priestess slinky winky blinky

ooh they foment torment in a torrent

they ghost the dawn beyond our dawn

where all must walk

queen jack pawn




17 Responses to “insider”

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 28 November 2011 at 5:56 pm #

    Brilliant and fascinating !!! I know you are not a fan of the scope of music that prog-metal inhabits, but your piece of precision beats and gallops like an early prog band. Let’s say more of a early pre Bruce Dickinson version of Iron Maiden or a more modern Iced Earth. Well I know you are not very keen on bands of the sort. Iv listened to many of them and Alex (my first born) enjoys The Church as much as he delves into other styles of music. For a young man of 20, he maintains an open ear and mind to the different styles of music and lyrics. Like me, his father, I too will spin a Holdsworth cd followed by Fragile from Yes and than awaken the senses with some Fates Warning. They are a band that have been around for decades and contain a founder in Jim Matheos who has survived since the early eighties with his style intact. Such an achievement since the youth movement in that style of music chose to copy and condone at the same time that certain style. Your blog would easily have been molded into a brilliant landscape of a song with textures and riffs that wouldn’t over power the listener. Your artistry with words is miles above and beyond those young lads who didn’t quite grasp the ‘how to’ write a vision landscape of a song.
    Oh how I wish so many of them had used The Church as an influence than the rickety racket they chose. At least I know for certain I got it right when I played Blurred Crusade for Alex and strongly told him that this is divinity. Now he tries to show his peers how really important The Church was in their own evolution from Heyday to Forget Yourself. “Yeah Alex it sounds like two different bands – that’s the point”. The Church evolved, even though they pioneered. Who can say that for the current music scene. Little to no one. And their (the church) greatest work is still ahead of themselves, not dust you sadly brush aside from a time once long ago.

    Darrin K.

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 28 November 2011 at 6:00 pm #

      I’m very biased when it comes to explaining and defending The Church to the youth of this day. Damn them for not being expansive in their understanding of music and the pioneers who built and blazed that trail.

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    Stewart | 28 November 2011 at 7:14 pm #

    Holy walrustafarian bishops, Catman! I feel sorry that you can’t experience your writing from this side. I hope you can enjoy that you bring enjoyment.

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    Cocoamo | 29 November 2011 at 1:55 am #

    Aliteral stream of consciousness or unconscious dream
    From which now and then a glittering drop falleth
    From heaven to the earth beneath.
    And it is twice blessed.
    Slinky, Winky, Blinky, Stinky?
    Santa’s reindeer or Seven Dwarfs?
    You never fail to make me smile.

    Your Friend in Pennsylvania
    (Now in Cocoa Beach)

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    esclaremonde | 29 November 2011 at 3:41 am #

    I always used to try clearing the board of all the bishops as soon as possible… my own and opponents which was the hard part because you needed your own to get rid of their’s so it was a huge task to do so successfully. they always just seemed so powerful, that without them, to me the board was easier to float on and then it was so much fun; though I’d get yelled at/protested about because of my strategy. (It isn’t written in any book that way, so everyone would accuse mine wasn’t a valid strategy) – but then, even opponents had to admit, knights became the valiant players and the rest of the board became this beautiful kingdom to play in with an equally fluid dance, free.

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    Lara | 29 November 2011 at 7:19 am #

    Just turned on KEXP for some tunes. Guess whose voice greeted me with a station intro?

    Will find some time soon for journal suggestions, promise!

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 29 November 2011 at 7:40 am #

    I am very sad today. Monday at 11:30am Chicago time, I held my 18 year old orange tabby- Raz in my arms as he was gently put to sleep by an excellent and compassionate veterinary staff. My sweet boy became very sick over the past few days and this rainy sad morning, became unable to walk and was in pain. He was brave till his last breath, he was such a good boy. He was round, at one time before illness, like Garfield and looked like a Morris/Garfield clone. He loved music because when it did get loud- he didn’t cower and hide like many cats. He was probably trying to decifer Marty’s chord progressions on ‘Happenstance’…LoL . He was always calm and cool unless you had pickle juice on your hands, he’d smell it and hop around like he was possessed or catching a buzz. He truly enjoyed his catnip on a lazy Sunday afternoon and Laura, my wife, carried him around like a furry baby all these years- and he never seemed to mind it. I/We loved him very much and he returned that love in spades. Last March 2010, his adopted brother, my other furry boy, lost his fight with kidney disease and like today – I held and kissed him good-bye as he journeyed on to his afterlife. Now the 2 of them are together, causing a stir in their next lives. Hopefully together at each others sides like they were for 17 or so years.
    I miss and love you Raz….and I am sorry if you suffered at all.


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      Lara | 29 November 2011 at 11:42 am #

      Sorry to hear that, Darrin.

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      Cocoamo | 29 November 2011 at 1:13 pm #

      Orange tabbies, for some reason, always seem to be sweeties. Sounds like you had a really special one. So sorry for your sadness.

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        BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 29 November 2011 at 2:12 pm #

        Thank you both, that was very compassionate. My wife is crushed, and tomorrow is her birthday and she feels so hollow. Pets are larger than people in the way they can offer unconditional love with no strings attached, except maybe for a tasty treat. 2011 has been such a strange year. I, personally, cannot wait for the calendar to flip.

    • Kraig
      Kraig | 30 November 2011 at 6:11 pm #


      I feel your pain ten fold! My kittie Cosmo has lymphoma cancer and has been fighting it since April 2011…he’s been a good boy and is still holding up, took him to vet today, but still holding strong, but has his ups and downs, but the house is becoming one big litter box for him, we lay down plastic around the boxes, he misses, but hits the plastic. We clean, nurse, and bring him confort. I know his days are numbered like Raz n his little brother, but they will meet and greet us someday in heaven where we will all get to live the rest of our souls together. I watche bio channel the other day a show called “Survived…Beyond and Back” where a guy died and was greeted by his dog, but had to leave and go back to his body…this alone gives me hope and should to the rest of us that we will soon be with our furry friends, even after oh so many more years on this earth…yes, we will be with them again. I truly believe this. God Bless You Man and so sorry for your family’s loss. A prayer is in your honor and for Raz.

      • Kraig
        Kraig | 30 November 2011 at 8:25 pm #

        Poor Cosmo is only 11 years old and i don’t feel he’s been with me long enough, how sad i feel too, he had a rough start, although he’s traveled with me to Phoenix, Florida, Kansas City, Oklahoma City and back, 2001- Present, put on a leesh and some peeps thought he was a doggie, but to me he’s my little Buddy…i truly feel yur pain today Darrin…my blessings throughout your soul and until the afterlife.

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    Jesiah6 | 29 November 2011 at 9:03 am #

    Congrats on being inducted into the Australian Songwriters Hall of Fame!

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    caitbrid | 29 November 2011 at 12:47 pm #

    “withheld hold hurled from hip” Channeling G. M. Hopkins? I read his poetry to my mom too on her last night (him and Seamus Heaney). Sorry to bring up my mom again but you once again unwittingly made me think of my last night with her which is very nice for me so thanks. Also love the last 6 lines–a great definition of temptation. And I second Stewart’s comment above!

    Kathleen in Philly

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    hellbound heart | 4 December 2011 at 9:06 pm #

    isn’t the english language a marvelous thing when in the right hands???? stunning!!!
    love always…,

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