posted on March 31, 2012 at 2:27 am

darkest hour of the night

i’m staying here in melbourne at these apts

and my first apt was a dungeon n i asked to be moved

so they moved me to this apt upstairs

but this backs on to gay disco thingy

which starts pounding ‘orrible bleeding music

coming thru the walls

an unavoidable and irregular bang thud bang thud

that sometimes picks up momentum and resembles

a construction site

its impossible for me to sleep tho my ladyfriend can

3 in the morning the lowest point of the day

i am so tired but i could no more sleep thru this than a blizzard

one can only imagine the ferocious volume at its source

such a joyless racket so unmusical

oh i have had lotsa time to consider what this sleep depriving row is

it has but 2 bits in every song

a boom boom boom 4 to the bar kick drum sample

which sometimes turns into a stop

suddenly theres this stupid predictable little drum roll

then the whole hideous mechanical cacophony starts up again

one piece can go on for 15 minutes unswerving from its purpose

to repeat itself over and over like a replicating virus

it does not deviate for variation or originality or grace

it goes on imitating a demolition jackhammer

(at least they stop for lunch)

this is music untouched by human hand

it contains no love sustenance or life

it is dead and ennervating

its equivalent in ballet would be

someone just jumping on the spot

its equivalent in painting would be

someone flinging purple dollops at a pink sludge

its equivalent in film would be watching the same 5 frames

over n over n over then it stops n then starts over n over n over again

all at a crushing earthshaking level

that would drown out a fucking boeing 727

this is surely orwells awful future we live in

what a sad lifeless gigantic din all for nothing

a waste of electricity

a genuine dismal unbearable useless horror

not music at all actually

it has a beat but so does a dripping tap

stupefying idiot sounds rendered at a titanic volume

my idea of hell

good night all




46 Responses to “killer awoke before dawn”

  1. avatar
    Ryan | 31 March 2012 at 3:52 am #

    fuck, i feel for ya. some sort of village feast just started here and they’ve got catholic mass on loudspeaker 3 blocks away. it’s like north korea.

    but i hate that dance music crap worst of all. dismal unbearable useless horror indeed. orwell’s awful future. a waste of electricity. well said all around. when i hear someone pass by with that shit vibrating the cheap plastic of their car I just want to run them off the road. for the good of society.

  2. avatar
    colette | 31 March 2012 at 4:08 am #

    Nearly done there aren’t you, not much longer to go? Travel/staying away from home never as glamourous as it might appear. If it’s not that, it’s something else… actual building sites starting at the crack of dawn, garbage trucks, drunk people ‘singing’ or fighting, street parties, traffic, people fighting in nearby rooms, cats fighting. Yet some people (usually women)have someone almost constantly snoring in their ear, no matter where they go. Babies crying and possums jumping on rooves start to sound sweet in comparison.

  3. avatar
    eekie | 31 March 2012 at 4:20 am #

    Maybe this will teach you not to shove eekie over.
    Uh huh eekie sees how it is with you…while you’re stuck in the dungeon eekie’s great to skype.
    But get moved to a better apartment and it’s “talk to ya later eekie!” and nary a peep from you since.
    You’d be well advised to always, always remember: Hell hath no fury like an eekie not skyped!

  4. avatar
    . | 31 March 2012 at 4:21 am #

    i feel for ya’
    nothing worse than that kind of non-music
    i hope your sucky situation resolves itself soon

  5. avatar
    evilren | 31 March 2012 at 4:41 am #

    fuken ravers. Hang in there.

  6. Kraig
    Kraig | 31 March 2012 at 4:59 am #

    I’m guessing your next album won’t be disco!? Yeah, it pains me to hear this Steve! Sorry man you have to listen to that crap! I would think if i were a POW and i had my choice between water torture or that I’d pick the Chinese water torture! Time to move again! Besides, why you moving so much? Thought you had a nice tree view in last apt?

    • Kraig
      Kraig | 31 March 2012 at 5:02 am #

      …we have the same problem with the neighbors down the street every Monday night, we could hear from our house, i think some amateur DJ thing…every Monday at 12 midnight we hear it! Had to call police a few times since it was disturbing the peace!

  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 March 2012 at 5:04 am #

    I agree, its not music its a cancerous mutation of music!Sweet dreams Steve.

  8. avatar
    Mark Wingler | 31 March 2012 at 6:38 am #

    That was an awesome description of hell. At least your pain made someone smile. Hilarious 🙂

  9. avatar
    Bernadette Keys | 31 March 2012 at 7:18 am #

    Rock Accommodation huh? …bet you could tell many a tale about the places you’ve stayed in over the past 30 years.

  10. avatar
    andy | 31 March 2012 at 7:47 am #

    whatever happened to the culture of youth?….
    music in particular.
    yesterday’s startling hope-filled originality has slowly morphed into todays crushingly
    soul-less banallity.

    how in god’s name can a thinking, loving, rational person get off on such aural ugliness?

    • avatar
      Anonymous | 1 April 2012 at 3:16 pm #

      corporate noise — starting w/the Disney Channel. By the time they’ve grown that is all they heard and the corporate (media) tells them “cool.”

      …History repeating (w/the speed up of all our electronical doodads/slows time btwn changes… 3-5 more years — wait it out: the next cultural revolution will start. (probalistic methods used)

  11. avatar
    Jim Conrad | 31 March 2012 at 9:36 am #

    man, that’s a shame; living on major thoroughfare in one of the most hectic cities (Dallas) sure seems to beat that, every night!

  12. avatar
    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 31 March 2012 at 9:44 am #

    So Sorry Killer-

    But I chronically dwell in the land of Insomnia.

    I search for rest – I search for sleep….

    I’d have better luck finding the fuckn ring, precious,
    than ever getn a good night sleep.

    I hope , YOU , are able to find some ZZZzzzzzz’ s


  13. avatar
    IncorrectPolitically{} | 31 March 2012 at 10:47 am #

    So I go home and find a girl laying in my bed.
    I pull her hip bones closer as I pull her cold hands
    between my warm thighs I stare out the window at
    a darkening sky.
    Should I stayed checked in or begin to check out as my
    surrounding disguise.
    She said “im telln u im telln u”
    -I’m burning up the river”.

    I’m burnin up the river

    She slept over , with her body pressed up
    against me. I ly her gently feeling her hair
    Myself, waiting for sleep – in the early hours of

    In the earliest hours of daylight.

    Thess lips don’t move for they can not speak
    She once told me of her father working on the rail way
    Blowing his harmonica as he sang he sang .

    He said I’m telln you
    I’m burn inn up the river

    I’m burning up lifes river.

    IP {}

  14. avatar
    John Garratt | 31 March 2012 at 10:50 am #

    What is stopping you from blaring “Particles Matter” or “Chaos” back at them?

  15. avatar
    ChknAsOutlaws*+* | 31 March 2012 at 11:07 am #

    The sound of footsteps drives me insane
    The sound of your voice gives me someone to blame
    The sound of the engine tells me its time to go
    The sound of heartbeats can be heard across the lake of snow
    The sound of silence is not deafening
    The sound of a myth appears to be happening
    The sound of the door as it closes behind me
    The sound of the words good and buy
    The sound of me laughing just before I began to
    cry for of you.


  16. avatar
    Steven Krut | 31 March 2012 at 11:26 am #

    So your choice is between a dungeon or Hell? That sounds very Medievel. I guess you’ll be very happy to get back to your treetop heaven.

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 March 2012 at 12:02 pm #

    probably best then you couldn’t sleep (sorry for you, though), as wouldn’t nasty music make for some really frightening nightmare? grumpy from lack of sleep, better than the other possibility. (lyrics? I got the biz dist blues w/paper walls in a hotel’s back room… and the beat goes on.)

  18. avatar
    Anonymous | 31 March 2012 at 12:06 pm #

    probably best then you couldn’t sleep (sorry for you, though), as wouldn’t nasty music make for some really frightening nightmare? grumpy from lack of sleep, better than the other possibility. (lyrics? I got the biz dist blues w/paper walls in a hotel’s back room… and the beat goes on.)

    to the roof!

    (trying this again, but if duplicate — oops!)

  19. avatar
    carntspel | 31 March 2012 at 10:17 pm #

    Drum & Drummer

  20. avatar
    Boriah | 1 April 2012 at 6:47 am #

    Disco and…gay? Get the fuck outta there asap, for the safety of both your ears and…ass!

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      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 1 April 2012 at 1:06 pm #

      Hey B-
      I totally understand the death to disco. I watched it live here in Chicago as a radio stunt, a pile of disco slicks , thousands of crazy rockers ….and a huge explosion in the center field of a baseball park….EPIC HISTORY.
      The slam on gays, well, everyone is entitled to their opinions…I have family members and life long friends who are gay, all genders. So- I’m pretty sure that its not them u have to protect yours or anyone’s ‘ass’ from…my sister in-law is beautiful, gay, has earned her masters degree and is closing in on her doctrine all while serving in law enforcement alongside troubled Chicago area youth…(love ya tina).


      • avatar
        Boriah | 2 April 2012 at 4:12 am #

        Yeah man, it was just a funny comment. I´ll play a Pet Shop Boys album in your honor! Or do you prefer Mika????
        Get well.

        PD: remembah the God of Metal, Mr. Rob Halford, is gay. Ouch. And I´m a big fan of Bob Mould´s music (who´s also gay).

        Edit: I´ve changed my mind. I´m playing SLAYER !!!

  21. avatar
    Boriah | 1 April 2012 at 7:18 am #

    Just came from a seance. Got a message from Jimmy Somerville for you: HOLD ON!!

    • avatar
      Anonymous | 1 April 2012 at 10:09 am #

      do you not need to have expired to be showing up at seances?

      • avatar
        Boriah | 2 April 2012 at 4:14 am #

        Not at all. Free entrance, happy hour at 3:00 AM

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 1 April 2012 at 7:32 am #

    Everthing always seems worse at 3 a.m. The sad thing is there is a whole generation that has limited exposure to any other music. Nine out of ten shops you go into and that’s what is playing, along with that generic little girl voice coming out of young women backed with you guessed it. The Sythetic Beat. Maybe this is what our parents thought of what we listened to. Surely not at 3am though. Tolerance I know is the answer. That or head phones and a good meditation recording. Hope your last few nights go well.
    Quote: Hell is full of musical amateurs. George Bernard Shaw.
    Take Care Mr K and Girls.

  23. avatar
    veleska1970 | 1 April 2012 at 8:21 am #

    hope you were able to get some sleep. sweet dreams.

  24. avatar
    colette | 1 April 2012 at 2:57 pm #

    yep that kind of music can be highly irritating. I joined a synth pop music group or two on fb. While I’m not heavily into it – there’s a lot of stuff I don’t listen to- I have to admit I find it quite interesting. Maybe because I learnt piano. I was told I wasn’t that good at it, but as I’ve grown older, I feel statements or attitudes like that are political. Now I become increasingly interested in music, I wonder if without a band of my own, I could ever synthesise some? It percolates in my brain these days. Or maybe when my piano is fixed I can get on there and create something… I’ve spoken to some of the people who are actually producing music in these groups and it is interesting to find out about their creative process. some music is better than others in any genre. Even good bands have varying songs. I like synthetic music’s roots in bands like Kraftwerk and other new wave bands(not Spandau Ballet or Duran Duran so much). I feel a bit cautious about criticising the young in this way. I would hate to sound like my parents when I went to see lots of live bands in the 80s and they hated the sound of that coming from pubs and clubs. And why is a mature man’s deep voice preferable over a little girls’? From a biassed point of view, yes I’d prob prefer a mature man’s but it is not superior. Equally valid to any other, the rest is personal taste. But when something you detest keeps you from sleep, yep it all seems worse.

  25. avatar
    colette | 1 April 2012 at 3:30 pm #

    A keyword I meant to mention above is ‘experimentation’. I see the potential for that with synthesisers and any other instrument for that matter. But for an avant garde sort of sound, synthesisers can be very eerie, weird, ambient whatever. So, was saying in a previous post re sk’s ‘Earthed’ how important experimentation is. Many great artists were amateurs to begin with and some considered amateurs all their lives til after their deaths the penny dropped with the public. Btw above I should have said ‘valid as’ not ‘valid to’. If ever I become a keyboardist, don’t say I don’t have any powers of self criticism.

  26. avatar
    That Girl | 1 April 2012 at 7:23 pm #

    When we were growing up we had things to look forward to. Some youth of today don’t have to wait for actually anything.So by the time they are ready to grow up and be something , well it’s all too boring really isn’t it . Lets pop a pill not because it might make us feel better for a minute but just because I can. Music is the same thing , music is in the eye of the beholder and I choose to lose myself in it because I can , I don’t have to like it , it’s all about the night I just had and how I feel the next morning ,what a great night but I can’t remember a thing and yes, I am still bored and there is no excitment period,end of story . I’m not a big fan of house music but each to his own. If you are a fan listen to it because you like it not because it’s a meaning to a short end.
    Hey Sk is there any discussion about being this production of Van Park on the road to other states ? maybe something to look forward too.Did I say that!

  27. avatar
    colette | 1 April 2012 at 10:28 pm #

    I don’t think i got it quite right. Kraftwerk had already started in the 70s. I think of them as 80s. But I saw a video of them once and they looked like a bunch of hippies before they went new wave. I think of Roxy Music as quite synthy and the Doors and other psychedelic bands in the 60s had that electric keyboard sound as well… a shame that kind of thing evolved into doof doof music but there’s some more musical electronic/synth music too. And some really minimalist atmospheric stuff as well.

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      ChknAsOutlaws*+* | 2 April 2012 at 1:33 am #

      It will always be those REAL innovators of that sound and evolved into
      so much more>>>>>^ Depeche Mode


  28. avatar
    mattyc | 2 April 2012 at 12:57 am #

    The sterile monotony drones on
    soundtracking us to the future.
    Enabled by technology,
    the web tightens and breeds isolation.
    Devoid of compassion,
    it is a Brave New World

  29. avatar
    mattyc | 2 April 2012 at 1:03 am #

    Enjoying my new copy of Earthed as I read write and think. Beautiful, thoughtful and compassionate. Music that inspires imagination and dreams. Full of emotion and humanity, just the way I like it. Thanks so much!

  30. avatar
    Jesiah6 | 2 April 2012 at 1:08 am #

    That’s the worst part of going out to a club. There’s no good music, just one horrible song after another that takes on an endless din of noise.

    Also Sucks to not be able to sleep!

  31. avatar
    ChaoticEmbrace*+* | 2 April 2012 at 2:13 am #

    Depression is Possession
    Depression knows all of your weaknesses
    and exploits them.
    Depression welcomes the fight as doctors
    and family assist in any every way.
    But Depression lives in true darkness.
    The blackest of black. The further down it takes you.
    Depression cannot be measured.
    Depression cannot he seen under a microscope,
    so many regard Depression as being just all in the mind.
    Your right. They’re right. Everyone’s right.
    Depression is in the head and puppeteers the body of its host.
    Depression has no bias, no choice of victim.
    It would have us all if it had the chance.
    Depression grows within the stream of stress, the
    river of insomnia, the oceans of pain. It is a weed that cannot be
    killed off so you have a nicer lawn than your neighbors.
    Depression has been here before man and
    will remain til everyone’s gone.
    Depression has but one agenda.
    To deactivate the host to the point of
    becoming unrecognizable. Catatonic Stare.
    Depression has won countless wars, it brazens
    in plain sight, possibly in a person right next to you.
    Can Depression be overcome???, Can Depression be beaten???
    I believe yes is the answer, but Depression is never truly destroyed.
    It awaits, oh so ever patiently, til it senses the weakness of its host.
    And begins the Devils Dance once again.

    Just repeat to yourself over and over again :

    “I am stronger than Depression and the darkness is all but lies”

    over and over and over til you take back what is rightfully yours
    ——your life.


  32. avatar
    Mark Wingler | 2 April 2012 at 2:55 am #

    I just had to come back and re-read this again. I feel for ya’ man but the description is funny enough to draw one to tears. My fave line

    “then the whole hideous mechanical cacophony starts up again
    one piece can go on for 15 minutes unswerving from its purpose
    to repeat itself over and over like a replicating virus.

    Hope you blow out of that apt. with quick haste!

    Mark Wingler

  33. avatar
    Mark Farley | 2 April 2012 at 6:14 am #

    Steve, this is very reminiscent of a recent week in Bulgaria, city called Shumen (means ‘Noisy’! fucking right..) Same deal hotel was over a bar, next to clubs on a main road.. sounded like. anyway price you pay for budget holiday accomodation. in the end the noise was less intrusive and brain shaking to be actually outside within it ( eye of the storm type thing).As this kind of tripe you describe is meant to be ‘felt’ or ‘experienced’ in a setting with many others ( excuse if this is a generalisation anyone). keep it in a bloody soundproof warehouse, in the middle of nowhere, preferrably on Mars or in an alternate universe where there is no one to hear it….Well that’s better, exit grumpy old bastard mode- but ido mean every word. Thanks and good night.

  34. avatar
    hellbound heart | 2 April 2012 at 8:16 pm #

    doof DOOF doof DOOF doof DOOF DOOF DOOF AAHHH SHIT!!!!!
    hell’s bells man, your dicky ears would sound better….
    love always….

  35. avatar
    Once | 4 April 2012 at 10:15 am #

    Hi SK!

    1. Please do NOT assume that all disco is “gay”. I know gay peeps who rock. Then again, I have never been to Melbourne.

    2. That kind of “music” is generally appreciated by those on ecstacy, who seek a rythmic thump thump, and nothing more, to mirror their physical beat – as their minds are clearly elsewhere.

    3. Congrats on the play – a fabulous accomplishment.

    Love ya.

  36. avatar
    Lenny Vegas | 6 April 2012 at 6:35 pm #

    kind of makes the maker less of a musician and more of a technician…its all over Las Vegas.

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