posted on June 21, 2009 at 8:37 pm

yeah we did alright
my bass n i synch up
i love that fucking piece of wood
its my staff
its my wand
we are in deepest symbiosis
we are in love
no one else can play it like me
only to me does it offer itself up completely
so i play it at the h.o.b. chicago
what a gorgeous venue
what treatment n hospitality
what sumptuous groovy dressing rooms
(tonites is a damp burned out basement)
we did ok there
afterwards a bit of a feeding frenzy to get stuff signed
people really get into it over here dont they?
people carrying on as if…..
….they just saw the best band in the world……
meanwhile after show drive outta chicago
for hours n hours thru into whizz-consin
(looking just like perth)
stay at another anon hotel
get to sleep at 4
get up at 9
5 hours sleep like death
like black exhaustion
my wife….ah….my wife
sends me some pictures of herself
and i am stunned by her beauty
and how fucking gorgeous she is
and getting better n better with age
the pictures gob smack me
dear nk alias duckling dalton
you are officially the bees knees
and uh
i wish the 13 year old me
had happened upon these pictures
i think he may have had a religious experience
oh my lord!
moving right along
before i become becalmed in my wifes ample charms
we get up early n drive to minneapolis
i like it here
we are playing a very funky old theatre
its pretty bohemian
(is this what the odditorium is like?)
outside hippies n cops n frat boys
sometimes i despair for american malehood
for every brad pitt theres 4 million frat boys
or groan up frat boys
big pink round guys
stop with the beers n meat , fellas
cant ya see whats happening here…?
it wont be the commies or terrorists that getcha
itll be the colonel or ronald the clown
99 billion served says the golden arches proudly
i vomit my contempt
99 billion acres of forests destroyed
99 billion cows executed
99 billion greasy french fries going through sick stomachs
99 billion pigs fat ice creams served up
99 billion extra pounds hanging off the worlds guts
99 million times bad karma
one day we will all look back on this as a horror
the meat industry is the cancer in societys bowels
and the poor victims are the cows and the sick carnivores who eat em
such a shame
such a shame
meanwhile i experiment with eating hardly anything
and throwing myself into yoga
i want to be a performer
i want to rock and never stop
i want the glory and the power
i want the men to envy me
i want to bring the house down
i want to hit you on every level like the devil
i want it all
i want to do it right
i have the best bass n best wife in the world( for me)
the curves and angles
the sights and the sounds
im a lucky man
i hope you understand
more chances than i de-serve or what
my life..a comedy a tragedy a huge lesson
come along and see the show
buy my new box set poem music art thingo
total immersion experience
now for a bit more yoga
ok now for a bit more jazz
ok now for a bit more music
ok now
so go
go n do it
n tell em sk sent ya
and that the proofs in his pudding
and that verily
he doth rock

49 Responses to “mini- hopeless”

  1. avatar
    the dean | 21 June 2009 at 9:24 pm #

    you are a lucky man but it's more than that. Is it putting yourself out there?

  2. avatar
    m stricklin | 21 June 2009 at 9:55 pm #

    I discovered The Church in 1981. You haven't failed me yet. Much thanks.

  3. avatar
    Thomas Irvin | 21 June 2009 at 10:33 pm #

    I said it to you in person briefly last night, but I'll say it again–I've seen you guys play over a dozen times in the last 20 years, from Southern California to San Francisco to Minneapolis to Chicago to New York and even in my home state of Omaha, Nebraska, and the Chicago show was one of the best shows I've seen. (Might've been a tie with the first time, at the Fillmore on the Starfish tour.)

    Verily, he doth rock indeed.

  4. avatar
    fantasticandy | 21 June 2009 at 10:40 pm #

    it's the second coming!
    about time too………..

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 21 June 2009 at 11:55 pm #

    You knoe, prior to this tour, I only read your blog once in while…now I find myself checking it daily to hear a bit about your life on the road, and the 'second coming' of Kilbey and The Church. What fascinating reading. I think it has to do withthe fact that, before I know it, I'll be one of those faces in a crowd in an eastern USA city…the Church will not be some far off band making great music, but they will be live, in front of me, and I will have read the context of the tour on this here blog..the joys, struggles, triumphs, longings, observations, etc, etc, of the frontman of clearly one of the world's greatest bands. How cool. I can't wait to see this spectacle live, can't wait to bless your pockets with merch $$, and I think I will continue to read this thing, even long after you've returned to that land down under. Thanks for sharing!!!!

  6. avatar
    princey | 21 June 2009 at 11:58 pm #

    You haven't sounded this happy in long, long time sk since you've been on tour, amazing what love can do…she is a lucky duck indeed :))

    Stay healthy and happy sk,

  7. avatar
    Freddie | 22 June 2009 at 12:21 am #

    There’s an up-side to being away from home for so long. That’s going to be quiet a homecoming 🙂
    In the meantime, keep rockin’ east! Sounds like you’re wow-ing em all along the way.

  8. avatar
    veleska1970 | 22 June 2009 at 12:56 am #

    "people carrying on as if…..
    ….they just saw the best band in the world……"
    of course!!!!


  9. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 1:07 am #

    i enjoy fasting at 36 hour intervals once a week. freshens every experience including food.


  10. avatar
    lily was here | 22 June 2009 at 1:26 am #

    You sound SO happy. mk IS a vision to behold, and has such inner beauty.. and i imagine by those photos, a dash of cheekiness? 🙂 I wish someone could fly her and the girls over to you for a visit! Or well, considering those dreams, maybe just nk

    Of course everyone's excited!! Hell ive known you all for ages, get to see you now and then (not nearly enough) and I still get excited. And, when the band takes the stage, well, its like being home…Im in one of the best places in the universe, amongst magic and family.

    love xox

    ps get well wishes to Capt Mission! hope to see you writing here soon

  11. avatar
    jaime r... | 22 June 2009 at 1:57 am #

    WOW thank you guys sincerely!!
    I tried not to shed a tear.. and it was hard not to..
    you guys have something so very special.. its not a ruse or put on here..
    the sound that comes out of you all jamming is stellar..
    you all look so good.. vEG props no doubt!! I walk the path as well.. and it shows and feels..
    its just guys cant stop this Seance.. this collective..

    The songs all sound so great..
    I would easily pay 200.00 for a two set 4 hour show.. with breaks of course.. its just that there is so much talent and poise and wisdom that goes in and comes out of it.. and the audience as individuals have that realization of greatness of quality and art for life's sake.. its almost a given that we all feel like this is such a interesting situation to be in.. not only are we experiencing one of the best in the world in our time and space but there is such a juxtaposition of living these songs in public when these albums have been such personal tapestries that we have worn and found comfort and warmth.. It will never die and we all have found perfections thru our imperfections and you have championed that cause through song.. its a gift and my only regret of leaving this earth will be that I wont be able to listen to these beloved records..
    you guys mean the world to me.. its a blessing.. be safe and I will see y'all in Wisconsin.. peace and love Jaime

  12. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 22 June 2009 at 2:04 am #

    It must be hard to put together a concert song list. I talked to several people at the Chicago gig. Some prefer The Church 1980 to 1991, some like me prefer Hologram of Baal to # 23. The only concurrence is all love Priest=Aura like crazy.

  13. avatar
    joe801 | 22 June 2009 at 2:12 am #

    The Chicago show last night was excellent. You guys rocked! Flew up from Nashville on Friday night—nearly didn't get out of town due to storms around Chicago. The show was the best I've ever seen. The band sounded great, and I really enjoyed the choice of songs. So glad I got to see you guys this time around.

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    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 2:15 am #

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    JJ | 22 June 2009 at 2:35 am #

    WhiteHippyMoses –

    I heard from some who experienced the event that Chicago WAS indeed the bees knees, a most memorable show of major proportions – I wish, I wish I couldda been there at HOB. Two nights in a row with 5 hrs of sleep each, and I'm a walking zombie; I don't know how the band does it, the exhaustion would be crushing.

    Glad to read that NK's care packages still inspire; very gratifying. Still plotting and planning my east coast stealth travel for redemption of my own once the space rockers achieve liftoff. I will be there when they do, with the sackful of ashes I been carryon' ……when the lights to blue, I'll know what to do.


  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 3:01 am #

    Peaches make a nice, juicy snack.

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 3:19 am #

    Just arrived home from Chicago where my wife and I had the privilege of seeing the Church perform Saturday evening. A wonderful show, a wonderful venue. My fourth Church show at the Chicago HOB since 98 I believe.

    While there's no denying the early Church material you played (e.g. You Took) was powerful, I loved the newer material–the numbers off of Untitled 23 rippled with depth and resonance, Operetta and Pangaea in particular.

    Also had the opportunity to pick up a number of Church merch items I'd been wanting. Didn't hang around for any signature signing sessions. Not to slight anyone who did so, but that's not something I want or need–the music is more than enough.

    I did get the opportunity to see an example of the Church's sterling work ethic with Marty sheparding product to the merchadise desk. I also got a chuckle out of Marty imploring the throngs of fans to back off and give the sales clerk "10 effing minutes" to get things set up.

    I did purchase the Kilbey Kennedy project "Unseen Music, Unheard Words" and had an opportunity to listen to it for a good part of the day on our return trip to the homeland. I believe it to be among the finest things you've ever done or been involved with, and it may be my favorite of all of your projects, Church or otherwise. Etheral, floating, melodic, elagic, melancholic, and ineffably beautiful.

    Thank you.


  18. avatar
    m.p.k | 22 June 2009 at 3:24 am #

    what veleska said…

    i want to bring the house down
    i want to hit you on every level

    that's the true spirit of rock right there…

    no wonder…

  19. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 22 June 2009 at 5:06 am #

    good old dinkytown, i went to Cedarfest with the Suburbs one year down there…
    Jonny U of M

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 5:13 am #

    Super-size here: The Denver show was amazing – fifth time seeing you blokes and this was by far the best, not that the others were shabby. You especially were on and amazing. Thanks for making the best music around, and following it up with a fantastic show.

  21. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 5:20 am #

    SK –
    Fer starters when ya get to Grand Rapids yer probably gonna wanna eat somethin' veggie. This link gives you some ideas – most places not too far from The Intersection (where you'll be Rockin' Wednesday night).
    When I lived in G.R. I had a friend who took me to the Gaia Coffeehouse off Diamond – this was over 10 years ago and she loved the place. I got nothing from the joint but the @#$%ing runs.

    That leads me to somethin' – somethin' that you "Mr. Vegan Killa King Space Rocker" jus- might wanna dig, see?

    The reason why we Americans like our critters fried is 'cause we're all better off that way, alright?
    And I'd venture further to say that Vegan Killa King Space Rockers (such as yourself) are actually HURTING Man-kind by your actions and, thereforeth and sofurther, you should be A-Shamed!
    Ya think we'd have the Pig Flu if there were less pigs spendin' time catchin' virus'ses? Well now – I rest my case – 'tis righteous indignation (such as your Space Rockin' Killa Self) against us "Protectors of Man" that is causing an epidemic through this world. You ain't doin' your part, SK.

  22. avatar
    plumlady | 22 June 2009 at 5:47 am #

    Thank you for a great Minneapolis show; I'm so glad that you love this place of 10,000 lakes, Dinkeytown, Varsity Theatre and Loring Pasta Bar. You truly do have many long time fans here. I'm sure you would have rather been home with your girls on this Father's Day, but you all rocked out like the stars you are!

  23. avatar
    Mary | 22 June 2009 at 5:52 am #

    NK is very lucky to have such a loving man as you, to mention her in such way, im sure she misses you very much and cant wait for your homecomming, what a loving couple!

  24. avatar
    Mr. Argent | 22 June 2009 at 6:50 am #

    Thanks for righteously rockin' Mpls! I hope Marty shared my jazz records with you. He is such a gracious man.

  25. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 7:34 am #

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    linjo | 22 June 2009 at 10:17 am #

    Another inspirational blog! to hear a man and wife so hot for each other after 3 kids and ten years, beautiful! NK I will say he is a lucky man to have you! you must be a sweet and beautiful lady.
    We are getting 'supersized' now by no discounts, unless you buy 2! Great! you only have to look in the trolleys to see the cartons of coke, white bread and green cordial to know why kids have err 'ADD' blah!
    Great comments on the shows Steve, congrats! Linda

  27. avatar
    iseult | 22 June 2009 at 10:52 am #

    verily you do impress me and number 17 on the blog charts way to go you should be able to bypass your previous ascension to 13 at this rate kilbesque

  28. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 11:31 am #

    No, Brien, I do not and never did rate Priest=Aura all that much. Sorry, fanboys. Sorry, yesmen. Hey, you guys ever thought of coming to KC?

  29. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 11:40 am #


    Keep heading east to Falls Church. We're coming up from North Carolina to see you.

    I have all my bob dylan shit for you to sign, since bob won't sign it. your signature will do. yes, it will do.

    yes, mcdonald's has taken over america's landscape. my 4 year old boy has already begun his boycott, since McD corporate would not allow Ronald McDonald to appear at his birthday party.

    as for falls church setlist, would love Anesthesia and Seen It Coming.
    am guessing they're either in the setlist or they're not, but thought I'd try.

    Wilfred Paradise

  30. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 22 June 2009 at 11:40 am #

    oooooh boyo put the kids to bed and turn the lights off when you finally come home….me thinks nk won't know what hit her whem you walk through the front door! ;-P

    by the way, will your box set poem music art thingo be available through church merch?

    peace and love….

  31. avatar
    Jasperina | 22 June 2009 at 12:42 pm #

    Feel the momentum clinking along, the wheels goin round and round. Just have to pinch myself to think your still doin your thing taking something sacred out there casting your magical net over the wide land across the seas. I wonder at it and am enjoying the moment too.

  32. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 12:45 pm #

    Flew up from Atlanta to the HOB. Great show – my fave of the many I've seen over the years.

    Three things:
    1) PK is criminally underrated. Marty gets the guitar press and you get the attention from fans, but that cat is the consumate professional and rocks his socks off. Is he really the gentleman he always appears to be?

    2) You are underrated as a bassist. Not only are many Church basslines tricky, but playing them and singing at the same time? You referenced Pangaea in an earlier blog, but there are many songs where you make difficult basslines look easy. I've been playing bass for 20 years, and I know. The basslines you play don't follow the vocal rhythms. It's truly doing two different things at once.

    3) The Church's music is great and some can claim to be fans based on that alone, but until you see the band live… there's a whole different level of appreciation there. For those who haven't seen Steve & Co live, take your love to a new level and do it!

    Danke for all you do, SK.

  33. avatar
    CSTCoach | 22 June 2009 at 2:47 pm #

    So glad to hear the tour's going well. I can feel the anticipation building. And with each new city, you guys are getting closer and closer to here. Lookin fwd to welcoming the best fucking band in creation to me own backyard.

    how are the 2 yoga sessions / day holding you out against the rigours of the road? All those hours spent cramped up in a van, you must really need it!

    What's the word on this box set? Rumour? Innuendo? The pipe dream of a church fan? I'm assuming it's the art show stuff?

    Been listening to k/k nonstop since it arrived. can't get it out of my head.

    The bio should finally be here any day now. Got the notice it shipped last week. Inundated with goodies these days.

    I remember so well those years when we had to wait one or two years for some new offering from the church. Those bleak days before the net, when each new CD was a random joyous find in a record store. When i had no idea of your back catalog (or anything at all about you guys), just those sounds, that voice, and those words that stirred something deep inside and hinted at undiscovered worlds and unseen wonders…

  34. avatar
    CSTCoach | 22 June 2009 at 2:50 pm #

    eekie, just saw this:

    Ryan — Do I have good news for you! Check out Steve's brand spanking new Art, Man & Technology CD and prints set currently available only at the merch table on this tour! Subtitled "Total Immersion Experience: Paintings, Poetry and Music" the cd is the soundtrack of SK's recent exhibition in Pittsburgh. The cd is over 72 minutes long as there is a track for each painting and the set includes a print of each painting.

    Kick ass! You rock!!!

    There better be one of these left for me to purchase by the time you get to canada kilbey, or you're in for the most unpleasant yoga session of yer life 😉

  35. avatar
    Ellen | 22 June 2009 at 3:01 pm #

    Steve, I just ordered both 23 and Painkiller and can't WAIT for them to arrive.

    I love reading your blog first thing in the morning. It just sets my day.

    What you say about fast/junk food here in America is spot on. I weep for my country and agree that it won't be terrorists that kill us – we're doing it to ourselves with our SAD (standard American diet). I've been a vegan for many years now and feel and look MUCH better. Your diet and yoga regimen show wonderfully on you! Keep it up!

    And what a sweet mention of your wife. She's a lucky lady and you are one lucky man.

    Stay well.

    P.S. Can't wait for the opportunity to see you live again and this time stay afterwards and say "Hello."

  36. avatar
    kyle farley | 22 June 2009 at 3:04 pm #

    Constantly nagging creeps…..usually anonymous, gotta spew about how they have been taken advantage of, while they are really only spotlighting the greedy fly mentality that has made America so "GRATE"! As for the larger number of "far from FAN" Disciples that truly show you fellas a heartfelt love…..Yes you are a lucky man….with fire in your hand, SK!

  37. avatar
    Cee | 22 June 2009 at 3:31 pm #

    Password protect those photos, Esteban!

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    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 3:36 pm #

    Grüss Gott Killer,

    shame you fellas aren't gonna come to Germany or Austria, but enjoyed a little taste of things on yer kilbey myspace page, when ya played at the us radio station. Some sweet sounds and NSEW rocked! And that Kilbey humour is still alive and kicking…you guys are awesome.
    Cheers from Germany

  39. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 22 June 2009 at 3:43 pm #

    Forget Yourself will probably always be my favourite The Church album, 'cause to me it's simply The Church at their creative peak. But then, I love Gold Afternoon Fix and After Everything Now This just as much. Choosing a favourite The Church album is one hell of a difficult task. Priest = Aura, Hologram Of Baal, Uninvited Like The Clouds and Untitled # 23 are also timeless, classic art rock albums. I'll need them all within close reach for the rest of my life.

  40. avatar
    davem | 22 June 2009 at 4:35 pm #

    buy my new box set poem music art thingo…….I'd love to. Will it be appearing at church merch?

  41. avatar
    frank | 22 June 2009 at 5:50 pm #

    OK You can take away my meat, you can take my french fries, you can even take my dunkin' donuts but please don't make me feel bad about drinkin' some good American Craft Brewed beers!!!!

    Does meat really turn you pink?

  42. avatar
    Anonymous | 22 June 2009 at 5:50 pm #

    You're No. 18 Blogspot!!! Just passed the porno site…

    There's a groundswell!! Maybe you can feel it here. Everyone I've played #23 for has went out to purchase it. A powerful surge has reawakened the Man and his brothers. Take thy staff and go hither and yon…spread your sonic seed my friend!!

  43. avatar
    frank | 22 June 2009 at 6:01 pm #

    Ya can't have any pudding if you don't finish your meat!!

    At least that's what Pink Floyd said in The Wall.

    No excuses but the English side of my family had a motto meat meat and more meat. Pot roast, Leg of Lamb, Roast Beef, Roast Turkey, every Sunday was a meat fest.

    I need a meat intervention. I get the shakes if I don't eat meat. I am trying to wean myself off red meat with fish, Sushi, and fowl. Sadly I'm a meat addict….

  44. avatar
    mike | 22 June 2009 at 8:26 pm #

    Was at the Minneapolis Show last night!! It was really amazing much better than the last 2 shows in Minny. It really felt that steve and the band really enjoyed themselves and put an a very enthusiastic show. Even got to meet the band afterwards!!!

    …..BTW I was near the front row and there was an asian woman and her husband in front of me with a camera taking pictures in the very front. If you read this would you please contact me I would love to have copies of the pictures you took!! Thanks

  45. avatar
    Daberhasher | 22 June 2009 at 11:12 pm #

    bloody hell, garudasana in shoes is hard!!! those Blunnies must be like a second skin…

  46. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 June 2009 at 1:42 am #

    I am an American and have been to australia and it is incredible. Down to the person they are all healthy eating vegetarians. It is hard to walk the streets because they are all lined up doing yoga. Thanks for the advice kilbey, as an average american I thank you on behalf of the entire country. Are there any negative health effects of smoking pot everyday? I want to be just like you kilbey. Now take our money and go back to land of healthy eaters where you can blog about the negative aspects of americans hopefully for months to come. Thank you again preacher kilbey.

    PS. I lost $500 on non-refundable plane tickets to K.C. which you cancelled. I certainly could have bought alot of healthy food with that money but unfortunately it is lost for good. Wanker

  47. avatar
    Mary | 23 June 2009 at 6:20 am #

    guess u took a shitty chanve huh anon 11:42 guess u cant eat that healthy food but pot is good for ya 🙂

  48. avatar
    Howard | 23 June 2009 at 5:58 pm #

    What's the new box set poem music art thingo that Steve is referring to?

  49. avatar
    Ron | 25 June 2009 at 2:53 pm #

    I better have on two pair of socks for the Show in Va this weekend…

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