not asking for advice
i’m talking to the virtual silence
not asking for sympathy or suggestions
i merely murmur into the net
alcoholic elemental won’t let up
that old black spirit always demanding more and more
throws everything into chaos
first i battle my own addiction for 10 years
now i battle my addiction to someone else’s addiction
boy heroin looks like an easy foe next to alcohol
i mean heroin packs some fucking miserable wallop
but booze….. man its everybloodywhere…..
in yer cafe
in yer coffee bar
in yer face in boutique pubs and ads and billboards
alcohol blah blah blah
bottles of wine painted beautifully huge up n down the road
drive-thrus byos liquorshops off-licence bottle-Os go for it you idiots
fuckin’ booze is everywhere a blight on society IF EVER THERE WAS ONE!
its a joke they wouldn’t let you have it if it wasn’t so bad for ya!
thats right the people who protect ya have given us booze n cigs n dead meat
but i digress
a text book co dependent
going up n down with some fiend hell bent on their own destruction
stupid slurred pointless “conversations”
other idiot drinkers join in
oh they blame n blame n blame other people these drinkers
the world owes them a living
and i’m the reason everyone drinks…
how thoroughly stupid it all is
why don’t i do something?
what can i do?
its all my fault why don’t i do something?
why don’t i throw more money at the drinking?
why don’t i throw more time at the drinker?
after all i twist their arms n make em all drink don’t i
my kids are all sick
we all have some cold or flu making us demoralised and sad
they start picking on the little one
we go out for a walk in the park
the nasty stuff between the sisters keeps going
the stupid phone calls n texts still going off in my pocket
i fall further n farther behind in all the things i’m trying to do
its hard to get around to getting any work done….
thats what i guess i mean
will see you all soon