posted on August 27, 2009 at 7:46 am

the written word
slips from your fingertips
like sand
through the hands
of old father time
you see
before you
the mirror
the screen
the could-be and the has-been
comedy
tragedy
cocaine or heroin
every opposite merges in itself
the old and the young
male into female
negative and positive back n forth
children sometimes laugh n cry
at the same/time
so close are all opposites
lofty mountains turn out to be deep ravines
tears of joy
tears of contrite sorrow
my western world has warped
the coincidences have become jokes
like a pawn moving on jagged diagonals
risking everything on a handful of nothing
cant trust love n hate…
at the extremities they feel almost the same
like cold water feels scalding
like being burnt by ice
like day jar voo
like premonitions
and the telekinesis of the losing streak
oh i give it to you straight
only there is no straight
only circles
only the revelation of emptiness at the heart of everything
another paradox….some see this as the null n void
to others the blissful extinguishment
upson downes
round n round
truth out of lies
fact beyond fiction
this is my area
i mine this vein
it is mine to mine even if in vain sometimes
i absolve my self from responsibility
to anything other than my work in any medium
the mediums i have mastered
the mediums i have not mastered
i put my name to it
i put my face to it
its a song
its a picture
its a little video
its funny
its sad
its mediocre
its inspiring
its silly
its hilarious
its prophetic
its pathetic
its bathetic
its ripe
its tripe
its old
its bold
its this its that
its a load of old hat
ive heard it all
still you wont deflect me
praises or blames
a hundred biographies
or a three second pan in the gutter press
all the bitter old cronies
all the gushing young nongs
all the phony symphony hogwash n shite n bollocks
i am kilbey
i am everything you all say i am and more
in spades
and in hearts
i persevere and i prevail
dont you see
i am a charlatan who also happens to be the real thing
thats why you gotta love me
thats why i need you to love me
but understand this
my one virtue is this:
i dont easily succumb to the zeitgeist
and my mind stretches out to all perspectives
and you can call that a grandiose sickness
or you can call that astral quickness
its just dusk in the window to me
get your head around it
come to your senses
this is not a poem
this is not a film
this is not some broadway impro try-out
this is not a slow dissolve or a backwards fade
i swallow the same life as you
but i sing it back as a song
my songs career thru this world
your world is your world
but your world is one of many to me
and from those worlds
those almost worlds
i bring you back things
crude unfinished chunks
and finely wrought beauty
and traditional forms
and clumsy artifacts
and halfdone dreams
and polished knives
and all the rest
i have always existed
i have always existed outside
yet i have always existed inside
i can say anything and i probably wont
we are all looking through different lenses
i love you i hate you i care i dont care
i’m good….i made some people happy
i’m bad….i made some people unhappy
i’m confused
yes, thats it
i’m confused
tell me
who ever told me the truth
i cant believe everyone and
everyone listen
theres so many everyone in my life nowdays
look in everyone
the genius n the fool
in most mixed up
in me separated
in two congealed blobs
each wresting control
but both harnessed by my work
i indiscriminately let that fool run amuck
because , well, to tell you frankly
it amuseth me
and well
i tried all that mystery malarkey and
to use a boring word it was boring
after a while
and as i approach uncertainly certain death
as do we all of course
and knowing that is our heaviest burden
therefore
and in light that this is my scrapbook
my impressionistic diary
my confessional
my noticeboard
my little chatty bullshit lounge
my little chapel where my followers mayest come
actually its whatever
whatever whatever whatever
and i am the time being
you know what that means to you
you may not know what it means
but you know what it means to you
you dont have to read or watch
you dont have to agree or disagree
i am a medium level artistic freak
i am constantly improving
i will make mistakes
i will make great strides
i will continue
insult or injury
rewarded or acknowledged or no
no dice
no sugurlamp
no cigar
i have read several reviews of u 23 that say
its the best album EVER made
i read others bitching n moaning about it
me myself……fuck…ive already moved on
i’m still plotting my compleat lyric book
and editing together my jackfrost movie
or my next blim blam blom
you like my little films…?
you see me manipulate my elements
a true jack of all trades
a true jack of diamond geezers
tricky with words
handsome to boot
velvety voice
old n revered
who cares
not me
i never lost control….
ground control to major time being
TELL MY WIFE I LOVE HER VERY MUCH….SHE KNOWS!!!
expect the unexpurgated unexpectable
i stumble on regardless
tomorrow guest singing on some record
the next day abusing my illusion of disillusionment
i am all over the shop
but i am gloriously me
me me me
ha ha ha
wo wo wo
i rock to the east
i rock to the west
every body here know
my heart is in the right place
or how else could i have arrived here
here among us
among us brothers n sisters
among us, the living and the loving
the loving made
made mad by loving love
or whatever
yeah
and thats for sure

steve kilbey
antarctica
south X south

42 Responses to “the written word”

  1. avatar
    heatherdaydream | 27 August 2009 at 10:32 am #

    ..and thank goodness, or zues, or god, or red sonia, or whomever

    this would be a sorry sad bereft universe without you Steve Kilbey

    you are oneinazillionzillion

    xxKittykat

  2. avatar
    A. Kite | 27 August 2009 at 10:51 am #

    It's always good to soak in the Written Kilbeyspeak after so many vids. I've been visiting a lot of the TTB back pages lately. I'm amazed, I'm bewildered, I laugh, and sometimes I damn nearly cry… and it's all here: the sublime, the ridiculous, the good, the bad and the ugly. This is one hell of a body of work you are building. That's from the outside looking in… I know you probably don't really see it so much in that light. Have a good evening there.

  3. avatar
    Richard | 27 August 2009 at 11:03 am #

    "…but you know what it means to you"

    I honestly DON'T

    I just know how much it means

  4. avatar
    cazziem | 27 August 2009 at 11:55 am #

    This is beautiful, very emotional and extremely true. It is the fact that you are you and like no other that brings people like me every day.

    As usual, you're spot on when it comes to opposites being so close to each other. But without them there'd be no contrast in life and we'd all end up with the charisma of 8:47 AM yesterday, probably even with the same name, 'Anonymous'! We all need to remember that if we didn't have any bad times, how the hell would we be able to recognise the good ones?

    I'll always be grateful that I had a random chat where ‘The Church’ was mentioned, because I believe that what is meant to be will be, and as such, the path of MY life not only lead me along a route which opened emotions and feelings I had long suppressed, but ultimately brought me to the fold, YOUR fold.

    Each day now as I watch or read; I laugh with you, I cry with you and I love the fact that you can be yourself no matter what, when a lot of us have no choice but to be and act in a way others expect us to.

    DON'T EVER CHANGE. xxx

  5. avatar
    princey | 27 August 2009 at 11:56 am #

    Thanks for sharing and caring Stevie:)

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 August 2009 at 12:23 pm #

    Steve said: "i have read several reviews of u 23 that say its the best album EVER made i read others bitching n moaning about it"

    Considering something the best or the worst thing EVER won't change what it really is. Trying to understand or judge a Kilbey or Church release is like trying to pour the whole of the sea into a single bucket in order to analyze and see how it's made. I prefer feeling, admiring, and listening to it as the sensorial phenomenon it is. I long purchasing u#46, u#69 and so on…

  7. avatar
    Jasperina | 27 August 2009 at 1:05 pm #

    As much as I love your picture blogs…I was starting to miss the prose…oh there is something to be said for the written word. We can imagine our own pictures…there's always something magical in your words.

  8. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 August 2009 at 1:15 pm #

    i do like the words

    B.Bon

  9. avatar
    Freddie | 27 August 2009 at 1:41 pm #

    Up and down and round and round…as human creatures, I think we’re all confused. I suppose that’s why folks grasp onto religions and artists and such who mine the vein. They want something to tell em what’s right. I don’t know what’s right so you tell me what is. The only problem is that nobody really knows.

  10. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 August 2009 at 1:57 pm #

    As I read this after getting back from my weekly recovery support group meeting (not the tyrrany of AA but something a bit more "user" friendly) I can equate the genius/fool battle and letting the idiot run amock to past and current behaviours.
    Ahhh, the amazing mutilayered ask 10 people and get 10 different answers beauty of the Kilbey written word.
    The first few vid blogs seemed a bit couldnt be arsed putting fingertip to keyboard so I'll wave a cam about but the last few days were brilliant, and in yesterday's case very funny.

  11. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 August 2009 at 2:16 pm #

    Ciao Steve.
    This words are really beautiful and rich of meanings….Is this poem a possible candidate for us? I hope so. You can even add sounds or ask to delete parts obviously, but I don't want to ask you too much. Hope to ear from you soon.

    Have a nice day.
    Enrico for movingBOX

  12. avatar
    Big B | 27 August 2009 at 2:30 pm #

    "i swallow the same life as you
    but sing it back as a song…."

    golden.

  13. avatar
    Ellen | 27 August 2009 at 2:52 pm #

    I have to say it again: there is nothing that compares with the written word.

    Like a powerful rip tide, your prose pulls me right in every time…

  14. avatar
    davem | 27 August 2009 at 2:53 pm #

    That was really heartwarming.
    You're a master of the written word and I remain in your debt for enriching my life for so many years.

  15. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 August 2009 at 3:09 pm #

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6MQUGjd21MA

  16. avatar
    CSTCoach | 27 August 2009 at 3:20 pm #

    great interview yestaday. that's a kickass tour you guys are working on. who wouldn't want to play antarctica? (well placed reference to the scott expedition too)

    and i agree with ya mcwallop. libya's the next happening place. you need any help arranging transport, you let me know. i know some guys with some camels. getcha there cheap.

    i'm flying to london today, will expect yer answer when i return. the horn of africa tour, and the unforgiving north. yeah baybee.

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 August 2009 at 4:34 pm #

    you repeat i am me, me, me, but as a spiritualized person (?), you know this affirmation doesn't worth much. you never reflect on criticism, do you? it always serves as a way of proving you're a failed superior again and again. but your failures are charming, they add to your art. people who criticize you are a waste of time, the garbage of the universe according to the 30 sick and blind morons who starve for your crumbles. that's ok, how can it be different? i certainly don't want it to be. illiterate at an at or not, i have a point of view which isn't illiterate. and you seem to be illiterate yourself in spite of your deluded rainbow of words because i didn't say you're a third rate artist, but a third rate in terms of popularity. it implied that you have a lesson of humility in this life time, just that. off course i rate you as a great artist, otherwise i wouldn't be here at all. i'm not that childish. but you are. the way i make you shower words in your reply and in your long post just prove that i have a point that somehow resonates in you, otherwise you'd just dump. but instead you have to write and rewrite about how important it is to be who you are. and that's ok too. it's a way to get your own perspective a little bit clearer, believing in a rivalry. but don't think i hate you, kilbey. i don't even know you. i can't love you or hate you. these people who don't know you can't either. they love your art, your image, your status and that's all. is this the true revelation of emptiness? in the end, you got to love yourself but i don't think you're able to. me, me, me, but can you love your me? i don't care. and i'm sorry but your full of prejudice and it shows in many places not only in the silly vid and it isn't compatible with the holistic posture you claim to have. if you didn't claim to be so many things you wouldn't be charged, so this is the burden of impersonating the advisor, the priest, the master. anyway, i encourage you to continue to grow as a self-absorbed sob. and people, i remain annoynimous because if i ever leave anonymity it'll be hard to believe in many things that kilbey states here and elsewhere. it's better this way. and i'm definitely leaving, sk. and the funny thing is only i know how it hurts you.

  18. avatar
    pennybridge | 27 August 2009 at 6:06 pm #

    Bonjour!
    Thanks for the remarks yesterday My only word was provoking some of you, it seems.
    Wow … And im NOT an anon!
    Like swearing in the church :D. Thanks to you Steve, you let me thru the filter.

    I´ve followed TTB since September last year, and it´s definitely the only blog worth reading. I agree often, disagree sometimes
    sublime,funny beautiful,surrealistic, ordinary …
    Anyway it always affects me and is a highlight in the boring life i lead.(you said it Ricky)

    LOVED today´s post.
    Whatever, who cares
    i'm just another
    cocky teenage (Rasputin?) girl/she-devil.

    And I guess
    Mr Kilbey himself
    has never met
    such a person
    in his whole life
    and gets very offended…

  19. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 27 August 2009 at 6:44 pm #

    the loving made is a beautiful line…
    Jonny

  20. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 August 2009 at 8:17 pm #

    aaahhh words…. been waiting for them, kinda

    mime

  21. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 27 August 2009 at 8:43 pm #

    The critics who have asserted that The Church have hit their zenith with the release of # 23, obviously have not listened to or thorougly listened to about five other Church masterpieces recorded within the last 12 years.

    Nothing like a great Steve Kilbey blog. The videos must be alluring evidenced by the high number of comments.

  22. avatar
    Anonymous | 27 August 2009 at 9:23 pm #

    HAVE YOU EVER NOTICED HOW THIS ANONYMOUS PRICK THAT KEEPS SHREDDING KILBEY IS ALWAYS THREATENING TO LEAVE. MJ FRIMODIG

  23. avatar
    steve kilbey | 27 August 2009 at 9:46 pm #

    dear anon at 2.34
    no you dont hurt me
    but i do object to my readers being called sick and blind
    (isnt that prejudiced against blind people?)
    and guess what
    it isnt 30
    its like
    i get a 1000 readers a day
    (you can look up the stats for yourself)
    and i dont think that they're sick morons starving for my crumbles (sic) (morons….isnt that a bit strong..?)
    actually i dont know what you are saying anymore
    i have admitted i contain contradictions…dont we all….i dont think my blog was prejudiced or superior..
    it was a couple of blokes "'avin' a bloody laugh'
    no offence meant to anywhere..
    and oh bollocks
    just go away then…
    as for ms pennybridge
    a letter in broken swedish
    hej orebro
    sa fint att har dej har med oss varje dag
    om du tyckar det var helt trakigt…ok
    jag kan inte var dunder hela tiden eller hur
    mycket puss o kram
    kilbey

  24. avatar
    Richard | 27 August 2009 at 10:06 pm #

    online translation of SK's message to pennybridge:

    hi orebro said ruse that had dej had with ourselves every days if yous bigger it was wholly trakigt. okjag able do not be thunder heal terms ors how much kiss un hug

    I think there's something in that for all of us

    (I also tried translating some of his english stuff into english – but it all comes out the same!)

  25. avatar
    Ellen | 27 August 2009 at 10:16 pm #

    Thanks, Steve, for coming to your readers' defense. 🙂

  26. avatar
    veleska1970 | 27 August 2009 at 11:08 pm #

    very beautiful and moving today. **sigh** it's blogs like this that i really look forward to.

    thank you for you.

    lotza love…..

  27. avatar
    crumb chaser | 27 August 2009 at 11:25 pm #

    “i remain annoynimous because if i ever leave anonymity it'll be hard to believe in many things that kilbey states here and elsewhere. it's better this way."

    Well, isn’t that special. 🙂

  28. avatar
    princey | 27 August 2009 at 11:56 pm #

    Ha, thanks for sticking up for the sick and blind sk.

    Been listening to "Hear In Noiseville" turned up to 11, it's my daily morning "pick-me-up" song at the moment, it really puts a smile on my face! Already over 1000 listens on youtube, you guys should be selling this song sk!!!

  29. avatar
    Mr. Ricky | 28 August 2009 at 12:18 am #

    Well, that was a lovely piece… I needed that!

    and now…

    ADDRESSING THE STUPIDITRON

    People coming on here and having a go at SK or making their grand one-word statements are just giving everyone the green light to abuse the fuck out of them. FACT!

    there is an old saying:

    "if you don't have anything nice to say, then shut the fuck up"

    Lets keep it positive and insightful around here, is that so much to ask for??? Go read Bono or Mick Jagger's blog instead… Can't you see?? Isn't the fact that this blog exists enough for you??? People can be so unappreciative.

    Nobody likes/respects a yes-man or sycophant but if you really hang around here just waiting for SK to "slip up" in your eyes then what the fuck does that say about you???

    I think its pathetic!
    Just like a journalist/failed musician giving a record a bad review… It's so transparent. Nobody wants to be subjected to the bitterness. Especially around here. COME ON!!!

    When people give the green light. I just let 'em have it. I feel it is my civic duty for their own good and my amusement… people should realize that when they comment with one word, like "boring" for instance, they really are asking for it BIG TIME! and it says more about them than anything else…So, think again next time you feel you have something to say because you clearly do not.
    Lets try and keep it interesting… Negativity will ALWAYS and indiscriminately come back to you. Thats just a natural fact… I don't come on here to hurt anyones feelings or be mean, just rattle their little fucking cages a bit. I hold the lantern for you to see your own reflection in the mirror. Don't blame me if you don't like what you see…
    I didn't make you, you did!
    I am perfectly willing to be an "asshole" or a "dick" to show people how fucking lame they are being because I know if they have half a brain, they will see that what I am doing is helping them out…

    So, go ahead and send your abuse! I can't wait to read it! It's gonna give me so much faith in humanity and it's gonna make you look GREAT!!!

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JACV6nPsgtQ

  30. avatar
    AssMidget | 28 August 2009 at 2:02 am #

    I like drama in the comment section. Dont go away!

  31. avatar
    Cocoamo | 28 August 2009 at 2:09 am #

    Ah
    You are all of that and more
    clearing away the fog of stupid mystery–
    The reality is so much better.
    You, your music, your mind..
    all perfection.

    Everything precisely where it should be.

    See you in the ether.

    Sending love, strength, and clear vision from Pennsylvania

  32. avatar
    the dean | 28 August 2009 at 4:27 am #

    Hip orebro sa fine to have dej have with us every day if you tyckar it was fully trakigt… yoke I cannot was thunder all the time or how much kiss and embrace

    I dig

  33. avatar
    Anonymous | 28 August 2009 at 5:32 am #

    Hey Steve, why do you let this dickhead mr ricky continue to post?

  34. avatar
    Anonymous | 28 August 2009 at 7:51 am #

    antarctica, lucky u. That is one of the places on my wish list.

    Any news of sydley gigs for the time being, or a sk/mk one to perform their new cd? Would luv to hear it live.

    Back to antarcitca dreaming, on such a winters day.

    Peace & love,
    Therese

  35. avatar
    Anonymous | 28 August 2009 at 7:56 am #

    i like dickhead rick. and for all you drama queens father time, see 8/27 sk blog above, made me a grandfather today. so make room for another church fan up front people.

    this is steve in florida

  36. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 28 August 2009 at 8:01 am #

    i think #23 is unreal……i am an individual and i think for myself and i've said it before, if there's anything that steve posts that i don't agree with i'll be the first one to differ….fortunately that doesn't happen too often….so put that in your pipe and smoke it, anybody who thinks that i am a syncopant….

    love always…..

  37. avatar
    EDD | 28 August 2009 at 7:06 pm #

    I think it's ok to disagree with a friend. It's essential. You have to question them some of the time. You have to agree to dis-agree. Different opinions and perspectives are good, especially from those you know and love. From strangers, limited understanding is expected. From those we know and love, it is understanding that SHOULD BE EXPECTED. I'm afraid of this most times but it is something I'm trying to change.

  38. avatar
    m.p.k | 28 August 2009 at 9:33 pm #

    The SK detractors are both incoherent and cowardly. They'd never dare to spout this crap if this was a real room with real people in it.

    There must be some name for this particular type of ignoramus, because I've encountered them before. They think they have vast psychological insight that no one else does. They think that they are playing a game that somehow enlightens people with their revolting cruelty. They always have some new snake twist. A bizarre form of narcissism perhaps?

    They love to hide behind anon. They'd never say it in public. They'd only say their worthless brand of tripe when their is no chance of real reprisal or accountability.

  39. avatar
    m.p.k | 28 August 2009 at 9:43 pm #

    I think this is a great entry SK. The thing that differentiates you from others of an artistic bend is you bring it into actual existence. There are a lot of us mystical thinkers and dreamers out there, and we've seen some of the terrain that you are able to describe. Certain songs come on that you've brought to life and I'm so often thrilled. I say to myself sometimes I always knew that place, but SK and the Church described it in a song And it's not just the words, it's the images, the sounds the entire thing that you able to do that makes you an artist. A lot of us understand what you are doing, but we don't have the craft. We can see a vision, but we don't have the craft to make the art. It's not about how big your audience is, it's whether or not you are crafting the material that is coming thru, and you are. This is the great success that many long for and never attain. You've got it. It has nothing to do with money or recognition. I disdain those except for what I need to create. If anything else extra comes of course I'm happy to accept it, but it's not required.

  40. avatar
    eek | 28 August 2009 at 10:56 pm #

    Well, I like you, Steve. I don't always agree with you, but hell I don't always agree with anyone. Not only are you one of the (if not the) most interesting people I've met, but I find you a genuinely decent human being. I know there are people who will scoff at that last bit, but that's just too damned bad. Until I see for myself evidence to the contrary I'm sticking with my decent human being assessment. 🙂

    "i swallow the same life as you
    but i sing it back as a song"

    This used to freak me out. I would think "holy shit, everything — every conversation, every comment, everything he sees or hears — is fodder for song, poem, blog, painting, interview, anything!" Most people don't do that. For most people the things we see walking down the street only last as long as we are actually walking along that street (unless something odd is there or happens along the way). But for you it's a rich vein of images and feelings to be mined for your art. EVERYTHING you see/feel/experience/discuss/hear is filed away and pulled out for use when needed. It's extraordinary and quite wonderful.

    To Mr Ricky — when I read STUPIDITRON I laughed so loud everyone in Kinko's (my fucking pc's in the fucking shop! ARGH!! >:( ) turned and stared at the crazy woman in the corner (aka me). lol! STUPIDITRON — What a great word…I'm gonna have to find places to use that one. 🙂

  41. avatar
    Sharon Love | 29 August 2009 at 3:16 am #

    Its smart of you to be moving with the times by writing a blog. Mass media is changing because of the internet. Artists are having to find new ways to make money from their work. There has been a rise in ticket sales for concerts because the personal appearance is rising in value.

    "The early 21st century digital revolution is having as profound an impact upon culture as the mid 19th century industrial revolution."
    Andrew Keen

    I really enjoy reading your poetry, I think it's luminous.

  42. avatar
    lily was here | 29 August 2009 at 11:56 am #

    me myself……fuck…ive already moved on
    i'm still plotting my compleat lyric book

    oh yeah. you're moving into some compleatly 🙂 wonderful zones sk, unlimited imaginationing

    xxxxx


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