posted on April 13, 2009 at 8:57 pm

i have wandered thru this world
ive seen a lot yet most remains ineluctably hidden
ive had n lost money fame friends youth ambition
ive squandered my resistance for a pocket full of mumbles
such are promises….
ive rocked to the east
ive rocked to the west
i shot my mouth off
i blew my foot off
i blue my chances
ha! everyone knows my story….
what am i?
jack the lad, baby
and i got nine lives
dont ever say that its over for me
cos you might be surprised
true or false :
more westerners killed each year by falling coconuts than islamic extremists
i dare not reveal the true answer for fear of a war on coconuts
(was keith richards in the vanguard when he fell from tree ?)
this is a bizarre n random world
the world is run by older children, thats all
the religions that guide us are un-understood
or interpreted literally
i must be the only person i know
whose read the bible
i would wager my doo dahs that ive read more of the bible than
or you(any of you)
or any other christian southern baptist type
you see
the bible is my type of book
you see
being a second rate poet n all
and a lover of myth
and searching for lyrics
and researching the “good” book
i actually stuck with it
and the koran
and many many volumes of hindu stuff
do i think that vishnu literally lies there
with his wife fanning him
while he literally sleeps
and literally throws out universes from his pores?
oh my dear fellows
we do not have the words or minds to understand vishnu as he is
this is a crude human attempt to describe things
this is really an ineffable concept
just as a prawn in the sea cannot discuss botticelli
we cannot really find the words to describe
an immense and beautiful creator
who effortlessly “dreams” up universes
(you think vishnu labours over this?)
surrounded by all beauty luxury n wealth
as symbolized by his wife
goddess of fortune
these are human terms dreampt up by human minds
there is no language to describe vishnu and his magnificence
and guess what?
you can call vishnu god if you like
all names and images and stories are human approximations
much of all religion is analogy
much of all religion is metaphor
i have personally studied and compared religions
i see myth and charisma at work in everything
i am not immune to it
i am very attracted by obamas charisma and his burgeoning myth
it is amazing to see it in action
youre not actually supposed to believe in everything tho
life is a document to be interpreted
i know that
thats what my songs represent
the interpretability of life
everything happ’ning on many levels
no hard n fast
that has been the wests biggest mistake
to only see that one dimension..the everything
and then
you see
armed with a literally interpreted “bible”
we went about doing great harm
much much much more harm than islamic extremists
and it started with the crusades in the bad olde days
when we tried to get jerusalem back
and us
(christians, westerners, english etc)
we invaded and committed incredible atrocities
down in the middle east
and we been doing it a while now
this was why it was very un-PC
of mr bush to use the word “crusade” early on
because thats like
and it dont go down well anymore
(especially for the muzzies)
we had a few goes at jerusalem
and were well known for our dirty tricks
and our wholesale slaughters
this is king dick the lionheart n co
and then of course
after the war 2
we just said
you know
hey this is our biblical israel again now
and appropriated it
and i guess you can see why the arab world is kinda pissed off
if we had always left em alone
it mighta been ok
but weve niggled at them for years n years n years
how is it our right or bizness?
‘i dont bloody know
but how could i
i am a washed up singer in a pop band
old and bitter n all the rest
of the things they say
which are probably true
but its not me trying to arraign bush for war crimes
(eg bombing civilians in baghdad)
its a multi-national group of lawyers n humanists
i was just saying they were trying to do it
and i hope they succeed
(is that my gay-ness showing then?)
the “censorship” you talk of
is for the benefit of my other commenters
who were being attacked here
on my very own pages
my very own diary
my very own blog
please remember
this is my very own blog
and remember
you read mine
but i dont read yours
and guess what?
i decide what happens in my realm
if closing yer window on a horrible racket is censorship
than so be it
i’m a censor
i’m old (how can i deny it)
i’ m bitter (its true but seeing i say so myself
anybody else saying it is irrelevant)
i’m poor (sigh aint it the truth)
please kind sirs
dont castigate me for these sins on my comments
comments reprimanding me for my poor old bitterness
will no longer be printed
ie censored
because they are tedious
comments accusing people of being gay (puhleese! )
will no longer be printed
(that is they will not be printed)
you betcha!
comments insulting my father also censored
so there you have it
jehovah n out

41 Responses to “wherewithal”

  1. avatar
    restaurant mark | 13 April 2009 at 10:34 pm #

    very well said sir! oh wait there i go…becoming an ass kisser again???
    also…well said in yesterdays comments capt. mission. a smart, in touch, and decent fellow you seem to be.
    enjoyed your words as usual steve…

    take care everyone

  2. avatar
    Cee | 13 April 2009 at 11:09 pm #

    I wonder if they “get it” now…oh wait, short memories…that and the fact that some folx just have a fit if they can’t have the last word.

    I’ll be down the hall if anyone wants some homemade magic cake and discuss Jesus (Chuy) or the Kings of Convenience.

  3. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 April 2009 at 11:40 pm #

    Obama can send troops into Afghanistan because you like his myth but Bush bombed civilians. What a fucking hypocrite!

  4. avatar
    Anonymous | 13 April 2009 at 11:44 pm #

    What do you call 4 coconuts in a spa bath?

    A: Gorillas in the mist.

    Dutch Pierre

  5. avatar
    princey | 13 April 2009 at 11:49 pm #

    Keep doing what you’re doing sk, it’s a beautiful thang.
    Love Amanda

  6. avatar
    seoigh | 13 April 2009 at 11:55 pm #

    Oh, Steve.

    Yes, you have read a lot. But not more than everyone. Not more than some few of your fans.

    Yes, you have understood a lot. But not more than everyone. Not more than some few of your fans.

    Why, you even have fans who cringe a little when you make a grammatical error in the middle of pronouncing your sovereignty. Or sometime even in a song.

    Do not choose to be so graceless. It is your ugly side — and the source of quite literally all your pain.


  7. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 April 2009 at 12:11 am #

    “Attracted to Obamas charisma” Same thing you would have said in 1939 about Hitler. If one innocent civilian is killed by the 21K troops Obama is sending to Afghanistan, which of course will happen, does that make Obama a war criminal? Simple question.

  8. avatar
    linjo | 14 April 2009 at 12:20 am #

    Good Lord what a come back.
    I dont think any of use need to stick up for Steve, he looks after himself brilliantly. Bit sad if someone has to make derogatory comments about a loved family member of his. I do love the educational factor of TTB. Linda

  9. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 14 April 2009 at 12:25 am #

    A very erudite and judicious blog Mr. Kilbey. I would become increasingly insane if I no longer yearned for a Creator. I even find creedence in the fall of man. I think men are the demons on the planet and animals are the tortured souls. And by the way Untitled # 23 is gradually assuaging my tortured soul with meataphysical and healing salves and balms. Gandhi tried to unite when he said I am a Hindu, a Muslim, a Christian and a Jew. He was then murdered for uttering words of conciliation.

  10. avatar
    matt davison | 14 April 2009 at 12:32 am #







    on other matters… how are ya brother!!

  11. avatar
    heyday2day | 14 April 2009 at 1:00 am #

    i have read alot of the bible. much i remember, more i forgot. my great grandfather was a southern baptist preacher at a church in the booming metropolis of quannah, texas. most of my family elders are steeped in that southern baptist fire and brimstone rhetoric. church was a very persistent (important) part of my early childhood. i was made to read bible verses every night before bed, heard verses interpreted and spun every wednesday night and sunday morning. like i posted in the comment section a few days ago, i began to question the doctrine and stray from the baptist course as a 11-12 year old when music became important to me and the answers that the church gave me to my questions didn’t fit. my weekly church visits began to be fewer and farther between as my parents went through an acrimonious divorce and i wandered from the nest.

    years later, married with children and having not attended church in many years i began to question myself in regards to being a good parent. my daughters were pretty ignorant about church and began to ask questions about christian religions. questions that can only really be answered by attending. i wanted them to be informed without pressure; to let them make up their own minds without influencing them too much either way. thats very tough to do in western society. at about the same time, i made a conscious decision to try to read the bible. i failed. it is very hard to read without questioning the veracity of long accepted truths, it is hard to read without throwing certain scientific truths out the window. i couldn’t do it. good on you for achieving it. with my past experiences i don’t believe that i can come at it from the same angle as you.

    rather long story/post just to say that you probably have read more of it than me. sorry

    steve, i’ve been asking in all the church places but still don’t have a firm answer. not sure if you will be able to provide one but worth a shot. the dates on the u.s. tour, are those all or could there be more added along the way? specifically, ANYWHERE in the southern states (texas would be great)? thanks for your time, answer or no


  12. avatar
    Kim Chestney | 14 April 2009 at 1:18 am #

    On a lighter note…Art, Man and Tech pix now up @

    See the controversial Obama painting itself……

  13. avatar
    loolaabillions | 14 April 2009 at 1:28 am #


    the temperature
    is again rising
    in here……

    hey babe
    the world is
    no doubt turning
    as it should.

    and no one can stop that. xx

  14. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 April 2009 at 1:55 am #

    are you like trying to be some kind of piece of Phil Spector’s brain?

    bad blog

    bae bloh

    baf bloi

    bag bloyebik

    hai kilbey!

  15. avatar
    RushBeckHypochristian | 14 April 2009 at 2:10 am #

    It should be clear that you censor do to the fact anon chose to attack totaly innocent people.

  16. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 April 2009 at 2:26 am #

    Of course it is your blog and we are very lucky to read your diary.
    You could be on a mega salary if you were getting paid by a publisher for all the hours since day one you have spent writing these daily entries.
    For Easter D gave me the Beach Boys "Pet Sounds" cd. "Lets go away for awhile" is beautiful music, reminds me of music from those old romantic movies.
    Still playing Untitled, liking it more each time, fav songs constantly changing.
    Hope you make a surprise visit Fri nite, would love Marty and you to sing "Happenstance".
    Have a good week and enjoy your swims and yoga.

    Peace & love

  17. avatar
    Freddie | 14 April 2009 at 2:33 am #

    Sir Steven you never need to explain your acumen to anyone. Your body of work and the things you say here every day tell the story. I could go on and on and on about your vastness but you don’t need that either. Don’t let anon hits get ya down or bring ya down.
    We heart ya. (hugs)


  18. avatar
    lily was here | 14 April 2009 at 3:03 am #

    I’m getting old I think, all the hoo-hah over an opinion is like peeling wallpaper. But speaking of Obama (who is a breath of fresh air) the colours in your painting of him at the 15Minute Gallery look stunning.

    PS so how many unoriginal people are now going to go out and get themselves a Portugese Waterdog? Probably the same ones with forgotten Nemo’s in their fishtanks

  19. avatar
    Richard | 14 April 2009 at 3:51 am #

    you ARE completely wrong about eggplant

  20. avatar
    Jasperina | 14 April 2009 at 4:25 am #

    mmm always so much more going on than we can imagine. Being aware of the magic… I wonder whether most people just don’t see it and maybe never will. The real magic cannot be merely observed it works intuitively on a higher plane than most people are tuned into. Nice hearing your thoughts on this one today…time for me to create some magic of my own and start a new painting.

  21. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 14 April 2009 at 4:33 am #

    what you say you don’t read my blog, ouch…

  22. avatar
    captain mission | 14 April 2009 at 5:28 am #

    mark – i’ll let you down, it’s an affliction i have, one of many i compensate for in other ways i hope. but thanks for the compliment.

    while on the subject of holy books i think all the great books, the old testament included cannot be taken literally, but within shines some mirror of consciousness for the time. the old testament gives us the idea of one god, his name is irrelevant, the new testament propositions empathy and the idea of love, the east however has it’s own books which i think look more inwardly and are concerned with compassion and escape from suffering. there is no doubt in my mind jesus visited india. i do think within the western frameworks are the metaphors to liberation but they are oblique and difficult to decipher.

    the mystics / magicians path if followed correctly is to eventually open up a new method of thinking and follow in the tradition of these other works. none are the root cause of any problem, they are just ideas, that become memes.
    the problem is the appropriation by various other bodies with vested interest. paul is responsible for the myth of jesus and the foundation of the churches expansionist dreams as it swallowed up existing pagan concepts and superimposed its own control, all these books and ideas are misappropriated by the authority.
    the solutions to these vested interests are not political nor religious, for these constructs will fail any scrutiny. the only way to combat them is by fighting the war within, for this is the reflection of reality, just as the internet is a hologramic representation of humanity, good and bad.
    fight your own battle on your own terms and find some sort of inner peace. ultimately one begins to see that good and bad and the whole idea of duality is the main problem. thus the paradox of existence.

    brian – i to find credence in the fall of man to, i think in many ways we have to accept the earth does not tolerate discord in it’s awakening. fortunately the survivors will be the peoples who have always lived in the same way, in harmony with their environments. the forest dwellers and the guardians know this is day coming soon.
    yet i am a father, and know that i must never give up hope, that some thing can turn it all around, ayahuscia is possibly the only thing i know that may work. if i could i would put it in the water supply.

    these are just my thoughts. don’t attach any significance to them.

  23. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 April 2009 at 6:20 am #

    As I feel how the world is doing, and think long and hard about it, I sense a growing unrest in the people that are


    And the brave ones with rational thought can face anything in these changing times, and we do not fear the unknown, we grab onto it and try our best to understand it.
    Because if you have the knowledge, you have the power to be at peace with yourself, and you have the power to change things if you decide to be good, because the only way that evil can flourish is through the apathy of good men.

    Anonymous people remain anonymous because they are frightened.

    I never miss a comment where I don’t post my name and region where I live:
    Galveston TX

    PS- Love all that you do Steve! Be yourself always, and keep living for love, killer!

  24. avatar
    lily was here | 14 April 2009 at 7:53 am #

    Therese, Steve and MWP will play together on 28th April at The Vanguard, Newtown (Sydney). Someone PLEASE record it for me.

    Steve, I confess, i can read Homer’s Iliad and Odyssey from start to finish again and again; but the bible I’ve only ever read in snatches. Lost track of how many times I tried to read it in order rather than just flick through the good bits.

  25. avatar
    jaime r... | 14 April 2009 at 8:27 am #

    I mean Christians or most of modern day society owes everything to the Arabs who preserved the arts, medicine and real philosophy while the Christians were busted and burning everything they couldnt understand ie.. the dark ages.. funny how people just cant handle the fact that Obama is of African decent.. its like a short circuit that it happened.. they just cant believe it.. If there is one thing i have.. its having had lunch at Mellow Yellow in Hyde Park with a good friend and Obama came in with a friend way before he ran for Prez.. I got to meet him and as I shook his hand my heart and soul told him I am down for the future.. He knew that of me no doubt.. Yu see Im from Chicago.. and if yu think its easy.. yu wouldnt last a day in the real jungle babe.. it aint ego.. its knowing what real suffering is.. something Christ knows about.. Aw Im tired of people that watch too much T.V. sheeit.. how can one even bring the truth to such people.. I mean maybe yu people are supposed to be so indignant about Obama Hussein haha! yu people can still burn crosses if yu want to.. yu cant change ur stripes.. or can we??

  26. avatar
    iseult | 14 April 2009 at 10:27 am #

    wanna swap a blue mumble for a striped gumble?

  27. avatar
    Anonymous | 14 April 2009 at 10:43 am #

    Killa, you know as well as we do that the ‘censorship’ stuff was just Barry the Anon thinking he was smart enough to outwit you into letting him spew his bile on here again. Good to see he failed yet again…story of his life, really…

  28. avatar
    eek | 14 April 2009 at 10:48 am #

    the religions that guide us are un-understood
    or interpreted literally
    The literal interpretation has always surprised me. I mean, think about it. To me it’s very obvious they were never intended to be taken literally, but were like fairy tales — having a point/meaning, but not meant to be taken as something that actually occurred.

    i would wager my doo dahs that ive read more of the bible than
    or you(any of you)
    Yay! You get to keep your doo dahs! I have read most of it, but I have to admit I tire quickly of the whole “do this, don’t do that” nature of most religious texts.

    you read mine
    but i dont read yours
    And I am forever grateful for this! lol

  29. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 14 April 2009 at 10:55 am #

    well, there you go….do you have to remove many fuck knuckles from your comments section on an average day, steve?
    love always…

  30. avatar
    ross b | 14 April 2009 at 11:50 am #

    my songs represent
    the interpretability of life
    everything happ’ning on many levels
    no hard n fast
    that has been the wests biggest mistake
    to only see that one dimension..the everything
    and then
    you see
    armed with a literally interpreted “bible”
    we went about doing great harm
    – so true, so true, I love these words! And that’s why I love your songs so much.

    I never liked the bible, it depresses me, like i’ve read it a thousand times before (and probably have), i find it, umm…too didactic.

    I went to this astrologer years ago, VV in BJ actually, who told me I likely held a high position in the Catholic Church in a past life!!! I’m glad I’m in this life 😉


  31. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 14 April 2009 at 1:07 pm #

    Steve, why do you even respond to the anon(s)? You chose comment moderation – just stick with it. I can’t believe you think “accusations” of you being gay, etc., even deserve an answer.

  32. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 14 April 2009 at 1:27 pm #

    “much of all religion is analogy
    much of all religion is metaphor”.

    I agree! If only more people didn’t take the various religions so literally, I would take them so much more seriously. If they were actually capable of thinking for themselves and questioning things instead of quoting the Bible or the Koran, etc.
    Embrace what you consider to be beautiful and useful and just discard what you dislike.

  33. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 14 April 2009 at 2:15 pm #

    Ahimsa meaning do no harm to any living creature is the ideal that needs to be actualized.

    Captain Mission has an elaborate and refined cerebral modus operandi. Empedoles “The Purifications” is a must read for veggies and Kilbey.

  34. avatar
    matthew | 14 April 2009 at 2:17 pm #

    “we do not have the words or minds to understand vishnu as he is/
    this is a crude human attempt to describe things” …hmmm …could this apply also to “Jehova” and his scribes?

  35. avatar
    A.M. | 14 April 2009 at 2:46 pm #

    “just as a prawn in the sea cannot discuss botticelli
    we cannot really find the words to describe
    an immense and beautiful creator”

    perfectly stated, SK!

  36. avatar
    matthew | 14 April 2009 at 2:55 pm #

    PS – oh crap, really? – comments insulting your father? That’s just lower than low! Censor on SK.

  37. avatar
    Michael W. | 14 April 2009 at 6:02 pm #

    Mr. Kilbey, have you ever read any of Russell Hoban’s work? I think he’s right up your alley (and that of others here). Here’s a quote from his book PILGERMANN that seems appropriate for the last few days:

    “…there is a mystery that even God cannot fathom, nor can he give the law of it on two stone tablets. He cannot speak what there are no words for; he needs divers to dive into it; he needs wrestlers to wrestle with it, singers to sing it, lovers to love it. He cannot deal with it alone, he must find helpers, and for this does he blind some and maim others.”

    Here’s another random good one from Pilgermann:

    “We are, for example, clever enough to know that a year is a measure of passage, not permanence; we call the seasons spring, summer, autumn, and winter, knowing that they are continuingly passing into one another. We are not surprised at this but when we give to seasons of another sort the names Rome, Byzantium, Islam, or Mongol Empire we are astonished to see that each one refuses to remain what it is.

    ‘Why are you weeping?’ said Bembel Rudzuk.

    ‘I am suffering from an attack of history,’ I said.

    ‘It will pass,’ said Bembel Rudzuk.”

  38. avatar
    EDD | 14 April 2009 at 6:28 pm #

    Ok,Steve, Jeez……A firm hand slap for us all. I’m glad you said it, though. I could give a toss either way. I just think that you need these people for balance(sans the ones who target your parents, shame on them). While I think you can take care of yerself, so can the commenters. I’ve seen some brilliant comebacks on their part. I think these aggresive comments are in response to your bitterness sometimes. There just so happen to be people who, in a different way are bitter too. I’m not saying you should stop. I’m saying you should realise it. Anyway Don’t you go changin’ LUV BEB

  39. avatar
    davem | 14 April 2009 at 7:10 pm #

    jehovah n out

    Now that was very clever and very funny.

  40. avatar
    smoochgirl | 14 April 2009 at 9:26 pm #

    hey! i was just perusing itunes, something i haven’t done recently, and came across your coffee hounds ep. i was pleasantly surprised to find the hounds of love cover! is that your one and only cover or am i missing anything? not that it matters, really. and it’s really not a surprise that the church would cover kb as you all are amazing artists. it was an unexpected find and i can’t wait to tell my hubby who turned me on to both of you!

    i’m hoping to see more dates added to the southern states as well and cast my vote on texas too! hubby and i were at your houston show and have been anxiously awaiting another tour since. and we now have a house of blues in town! i remember you commenting on how nice a venue it was, unlike the dive you played in last time. just a suggestion…it would be cool to see you in austin too.

    your words are inspiring, whether in your lyrics or this blog. thanks for “hearing us out” by allowing your readers to comment. take care!

  41. avatar
    Warpedjohn | 16 April 2009 at 9:49 am #


    FYI : tHE cHURCH have made a whole album of covers ” Box of Birds ” released in , I think , 1999 (? )

    its great. you should hear it.

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