posted on December 20, 2012 at 7:25 pm
 just me i'm afraid

just me i’m afraid

understanding everything backwards

we are endlessly manipulated with all kinda things

we follow blindly war upon war

same old kinda bunch

even tho we lose almost everything again

so many dead we never ask for explanations

tho they never do the fighting

its always us

all over the place involved in things we dont understand

in this desert away from our green fields and our family

we kill some persons and they kill us

why are we there?

why have we ever been there?

why are we far away from our green fields and family?

always some new reason some rationale

why we are there killing people again

just like almost every other year

if more people die will we all be free at last?

war is over if you want it i guess


24 Responses to “world of the end”

  1. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 December 2012 at 8:07 pm #

    That’s the problem tho, guy – many humans don’t want war to be over. Gets em what they want. War will only stop when it no longer achieves the aims of the participants. Killer Apes, some of us is.

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      Anonymous | 22 December 2012 at 7:17 pm #

      Apes don’t kill. Gentle vegetarian giants of the jungle

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    Kohl Ette | 20 December 2012 at 8:19 pm #

    If only we could wander free peacefully

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    kell | 20 December 2012 at 9:59 pm #

    You channel them well….yet you become where ur attention is…good 2 have compassion….and understanding….but remember Who you Are & That you Are…hence, where do u choose to place Your Attention…Dear One..?? You’re not killing, so…..what do u wish to Powerfully create Now..??? This goes 4 EveryOne…..

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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 20 December 2012 at 11:20 pm #

    I don’t understand War at all, but I try understand freedom and the cost of freedom
    cuz that’s ky country’s legacy. I have lost many relatives to War. Some I knew, the others ???
    ….I hopefully will find….in the next dimension or somewhere inbetween. My
    father killed people and landed in Normandy on D-Day. I , like my brothers, asked him
    often when I was growing up….”how many did u kill dad ??? How many did u shoot ???”
    Naive to the intenal strife that was really only slices below the surface. Before my
    father passed away in 1986, when I was only 19 years old. He was finishing up some
    related documents and forms for my uncle, who chose to take his own life than live
    with the atrocities he inflicted onto others , during ‘his generations’ war….Vietnam.
    He was living in and out of Veteran’s homes since his return in 1970 !!! And was suffering
    with severe mental illnesses for nearly 2 decades , along with heroin addiction. He killed
    himself, rather than face another day with the pictures playing repeatedly in his head.
    My father was very upset, not that he thought, or had any ill will towards his brother-in-law.
    No, he took that moment …sitting at our kitchen table to tell me what he did back in WW2….
    the war to END all wars……and to this very day , I still remember the strongest man in the world
    with eyes filled with tears, but NEVER letting one of them roll down his leathery cheek….he recited
    every kill as if it was a grocery list , with gory detail…when he stopped at 6…I was crying myself….
    How can a man I know to b the most loving and generous man , have killed even one ???

    I really miss my father today , and my uncle…and everyone else I knew, or those I will never know.
    Who lost a huge part of themselves , while they were off …somewhere across this small world…
    Fighting for my freedom, our freedoms…which I still…nearly 25+ years later…from that minute by
    minute detail tearfully explained to me ….I still will never understand…but I’m am forever in their
    debt…and in my county, which was born from war and only 225 years old and counting, a mere baby
    to so many other homes and lands of all the many flavors of so many people…I hope some day to know…
    Why we must continue to fight , when the only end result is death…and the birth of another war.


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    BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 20 December 2012 at 11:27 pm #

    …I hope my children will never have to understand the true cost of
    freedom…the blood and spirit of another human being. Is war necessary ???

    I know that life and love are ??? So what’s the real cost to have one , without the
    ultimate price of the other. I’m going to hug my children right now. And I’m going
    to the flower shop today and buy something nice for Xmas…and go lay them gently at
    the gravesites of those I love and miss the most. My father never met my son or my
    daughter or my wives…he would hav been such a great grandpa…he truly loved these
    magical holidays…

    …as do I.

  6. avatar
    Anonymous | 20 December 2012 at 11:43 pm #

    speak up, I can’t hear you… Ian Hunter calling for all those young dudes – carry the news/(don’t be afraid of nothin.}. different subject matter maybe and Bowie’s but MTH sang it best; I still think so at least. we’ve forgotten.

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    narelle | 20 December 2012 at 11:45 pm #

    I suppose…power and greed…of resources got us there…in part at least…add a dash of religion and a dollop of lunatic/s
    reading Orwell’s reflections on Ghandi today…its a good read and a reminder of the complexities we (humanity as a whole) face regarding our humanistic and religious attitudes…
    Martin Luther…they might kill the dreamer but they can never kill the dream…I think thats how it goes

  8. avatar
    jjo | 21 December 2012 at 12:47 am #

    Only have to take care. Enjoy family and friends while time allows. Enjoy the finery of music and all good things while time allows. Take care. Happy new mayan calendar. jjo

  9. avatar
    Andreas | 21 December 2012 at 4:06 am #

    Let’s kill our enemies by loving them to death!

  10. avatar
    marathon | 21 December 2012 at 6:05 am #

    So this is Christmas
    And what have you done?

  11. avatar
    monger | 21 December 2012 at 2:28 pm #

    occupying land, stealing resources, the royal family are pirate descendents

  12. avatar
    Crasher | 21 December 2012 at 4:00 pm #

    Wars loved by the hawks (unfair slur on an actual hawk trying to claw a living).
    too often these sociopaths, mixed with a sprinkling of psychopaths, get in positions of power..e.g u.s.,u.k. and australia in iraq. what did they find among the carnage ? weapons of maths instruction..e.g a giant slide rule.
    gotta keep a sense of humour though and avoid eye contact.

    now to that lovely gig at the corner on november 29th.
    i’ve seen the church many times. haven’t seen a bad show. but setlist wise, this one was my favourite. the highlights were stunning performances of nightfriends and is this where you live.
    and all those tasty morsels from forget yourself !!! gosh AND heck i say.
    from my position, the crowd at the corner loved it as well.
    and to cap it off with creep..oops, i mean the unguarded moment.
    a double gee whiz from me.
    i thought the crowd did a pretty fucking good job with the backing vocals too. it’s a damn fine song and deserves to be heard (from time to time that is).
    i’m starting to warm to your new drummer tom or tim isn’t it ?
    it takes a while for a south islander to like a north islander..even longer if they’re from orcland.
    wishing a great festive season to all the kilbey clan and fellow band members.

  13. avatar
    Duchamp Sidestep | 21 December 2012 at 7:20 pm #

    I saw the church in December 1982 and have never seen them since. The money & the opportunity never coincided. Now, a bit weirdly, I’m not sure I actually want to see em again. In my mind I can still see SK on stage, wearing a sort of light blue/grey polo neck, singing Sisters. It would be a hell of a dissonance to overlay that with the current band. Especially as you’ve been playing Is This Where You Live and Field of Mars! But then, given the opportunity, how could I not go?! This indecision is sending me mental in my mindtank!

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      Admin | 21 December 2012 at 8:09 pm #


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        andy | 22 December 2012 at 11:10 am #

        y’know ‘sisters’ is one of those songs that never leaves you….
        i for one would love to see you guys put it back on the menu.

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          Admin | 22 December 2012 at 4:06 pm #

          cant see that one myself….but ya never know…..

  14. avatar
    Melissa | 21 December 2012 at 7:23 pm #

    The scent of Thyme carried on the wind,
    stings your face into remembering
    cruel nature has won again.

    On Battleship Hill’s caved in trenches,
    a hateful feeling still lingers,
    even now, 80 years later.
    Cruel nature.
    Cruel, cruel nature.

    The land returns to how it has always been.
    The scent of Thyme carried on the wind.
    Jagged mountains, jutting out,
    crags like teeth in a rotten mouth.
    On Battleship Hill I hear the wind,
    Say “Cruel nature has won again.”

    PJ Harvey, ‘On Battleship Hill’

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    Anonymous | 21 December 2012 at 9:24 pm #

    the city unfurls
    its towers, imposing
    culture shock
    cars chopping in front, back burners behind, aghhhh
    shaky foundations
    in the tunnel, black breath
    where are my lungs
    compressed by brakes
    oversized trucks
    let me out!
    people, sitting, talking
    six weeks and barely a verse
    now my jaw is grinding
    to the beat of others, they have the answers, they know
    talk, talk, talk
    already wilting
    hair cut, noise peaking
    tears next me, butchered do, can’t be fixed
    mine is divine
    christmas trees, christmas cheer
    i’m still on the headland
    i’m diving in cold water
    i’m sitting on a rock
    i’m, meditating
    i’m contemplating
    i’m duelling with my quills
    back in the car
    everyone slows, p platers speeding, swerving
    food to go, out with the garbage
    stomach churning
    unpack, new bed, doesn’t sink
    scattered sleep
    craggy dreams, changing rooms, changing lives
    new day
    talk here, talk there – talk, talk, talk
    nothing finds me, nothing knows me, just anxiety
    another bed, another window
    it’s getting easier, it’s getting harder
    back to something
    i missed the end of the world
    but all I can see is nothing

    • avatar
      BROKEN TOYS AND HEROS | 22 December 2012 at 12:52 pm #

      Hell ya !!!

      Brilliance ur alibiez !(+)!

  16. avatar
    hellbound heart | 22 December 2012 at 7:54 pm #

    too many people grow fat off the spoils of war……

  17. avatar
    Anonymous | 23 December 2012 at 5:22 pm #

    oh steven you always do this
    the wave of warm fuzzy helplessness soul piercing bewilderment
    the here and now feels all wrong but we can’t explain why
    it’s there, what we long for, what we miss, just out of reach
    stretching to touch it and we’re almost there
    but it’s always almost, close but not quite
    we must be serving some kind of sentence here, right?
    who the bloody hell knows…

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