posted on January 5, 2010 at 8:20 am

not much to say
my life seems complicated beyond all reason
so many things to do
so many things to read to write
so many other things
the pressures off in some ways but
i cant relax
hedonism sucks me in
paranoia whispers
i give in to anger
i give in to inertia
have to force myself sometimes
my protestant work ethic has kicked in
after all the years when i didnt do much
i got loadsa things all on the boil
what about this
what about that
of course i got the kids
they demand and deserve time
they need guidance help n discipline
i battle with trying to make them exercise n be outdoors
the computers n tvs n ipods make laziness easy
elli n minna are complex personalities
elli is like a female me
if i was gorgeous blonde swedish and 18
the problem with being like me
is that you hate any one saying
oh youre just like me
so elli cant see thats shes like me
shes simultaneously smart n stupid
and mercurially switches between either
its a tightrope of diplomacy to talk with her
this seems to be a time of argy bargy
twice the paddywagon in my street
dealing with aggro booze fuelled domestics
DID YOU FUCK HIM? DID YOU FUCKING FUCK HIM?
demands a yob of his missus at 4 a. m.
on a very very quiet morning
he then demands more specific info in graphic terms
until another neighbour goes out on her balcony n screams
will you shuttup…..? i got kids in here….
I GOT FUCKIN” KIDS IN HERE ….bawls el yob in reply
there are arguments up n down the road in the hot steamy weather
dead pine trees litter the streets celebrating what….life…?
on a planet needing all the trees it can get…..what a shame….
i bought a new car today
sorry
fuck it
i need to drive about
i bought a 9 year old pale gold ford falcon station wagon
no frills
hope its not a pale gold lemon
i can chuck gear in the back
i can park in loading zones
its like tibor but a bit better
my musical gear arrived
what it is is nothing really exciting
i got a mic
i got some very good but pricey speakers
i got a focusrite interface
i got a keyboard n stand
n some other stuff
now i got no room for it in here
in this room where i sit n i type
i cant have a painting studio n a rec studio in one room
but i dunno what to do
blather blather
anyway
thats my stimulus spending spree over
i am an addict to the bubble tea thingies
had a dip in ocean today with biggle n starr
etc
ah….thats it….
life

32 Responses to “yabber yabber”

  1. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 5 January 2010 at 9:24 am #

    individuals (with children) like the ones you describe today really give you hope for the future, don't they……
    a car, ay? kinda a necessary evil, dunno what i'd do without my wheels…..
    loved yesterday's blog as well…

    love always……

  2. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 5 January 2010 at 9:25 am #

    FOR CHRIST'S SAKE CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME WHAT BUBBLE TEA IS!!!!!!

  3. avatar
    Thomas Thomsen, Denmark | 5 January 2010 at 11:19 am #

    Writing reviews for my upcoming music reviews site, while listening to The Church and Steve Kilbey solo & side projects:

    Myrrh
    Destination
    Reptile
    Surrealist Woman Blues
    Pharaoh
    Terra Nova Cain
    Monday Morning
    Essence
    You're Still Beautiful
    Disappointment
    Grind
    Paradox
    Day Of The Dead
    Lost My Touch
    Loveblind
    Two Places At Once
    Limbo
    Sleep With Me
    Fall In Love
    Double Exposure
    Anaesthesia
    Ricochet
    This Is It
    Traitor
    Blessed One
    Keeper
    Selfish Portrait
    After Everything
    The Awful Ache
    Song For The Asking
    Nightfriends
    Espionage
    Sealine
    The Theatre And Its Double
    Telepath
    Maya
    June
    Nothing Seeker
    Reversal
    Refused On Temple St.
    Transmigration
    No Passage
    Block
    Real Toggle Action
    Song To Go
    Snowfaller
    Saturation
    Deadman's Hand
    Happenstance
    Pangea
    Sunken Sun
    Anchorage
    Lunar

  4. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 January 2010 at 11:20 am #

    BUBBLE T,is not disimilar to a bic lighter.To peel the label off,is to unremind of its nature.Bubble T,is addictive too,they say.-Robert a la tommy,.

  5. avatar
    Anonymous | 5 January 2010 at 11:38 am #

    nice choice of car…a suitable colour for the locale and the killer bee-bees…..
    nothin's gonna get you when you ch ch ch ch change those golden gears…ohh whobobobabee..

    luverly

    xxkittykat

  6. avatar
    veleska1970 | 5 January 2010 at 12:34 pm #

    sorry you're so overwhelmed right now. that sucks. but you have a new car, so your mobility has increased.

    take care, steve.

    lotza love…

  7. avatar
    Brien Comerford | 5 January 2010 at 2:48 pm #

    I have always been awed in reference to SK's stress management as he lives a very productive life at a bustling, harried and frenetic pace !

  8. avatar
    robertmadore | 5 January 2010 at 3:15 pm #

    Sounds like yer ready to record Killer(albeit snug)! Now if you can get the neighbors wife to keep it at home you won't need to spend
    1k on soundproofing.
    I just started recording my own humble thing. It's a learning curve, this new technology. I spend more time reading my recording software manual than I do playing guitar…not really but it ain't putting on a reel of tape and pressing play/record. There ARE sound/cost benefits as you well know.

  9. avatar
    gavgams | 5 January 2010 at 3:16 pm #

    I remember Tibor, bless it's metal heart.

  10. avatar
    Freddie | 5 January 2010 at 3:21 pm #

    Another Ford Falcon?!! I thought you were an adventurer, a risk taker. 🙂

  11. avatar
    jaime r... | 5 January 2010 at 4:24 pm #

    shake it.. dont break it..
    good thing when yu make it… wishing yu strength.. ive been trying to get real organized n productive.. no more sitting around.. waking up early.. working out hard.. getting rest.. meditations.. burning sage.. making lentils n rice by the bulk for myself.. pushing things around.. advancing my skill palette.. I aint looking back.. i gotta pick up where my parents left it.. not easy to learn all the financial workings but i have no choice.. its sink or swim n i cant be dragged or pretend it aint there.. gotta push it.. gotta will it.. I feel ya killer.. gotta love ur kids sometimes yu gotta do the dirty work.. Hold it up.. find the balance.. ride the wave.. om tat sat.. jaime = life..

  12. avatar
    knot | 5 January 2010 at 6:24 pm #

    ah, you did find a car.
    off to the chariot races then my brother.

  13. avatar
    CAPTAIN BEYOND | 5 January 2010 at 7:00 pm #

    ah…thats it…life by the drop…
    Jonny Hollywood

  14. avatar
    eek | 5 January 2010 at 7:02 pm #

    "my musical gear arrived
    what it is is nothing really exciting
    i got a mic
    i got some very good but pricey speakers
    i got a focusrite interface
    i got a keyboard n stand
    n some other stuff"

    This is wonderful — an investment in yourself. The possibilities are very exciting. I do commiserate with you on finding a place for it all though!

    Great news on the car too!

    "so elli cant see thats shes like me"

    One day it will dawn on her, but when you're young you think you are completely unique. Age teaches otherwise.

  15. avatar
    andychrist | 5 January 2010 at 8:29 pm #

    Woke this morning
    Feeling junk sick, though not
    What is just a dream?
    Stagger Stagger over to yabber yabber
    Knowing I'm not the only one
    Won't quite cut it today…
    It doesn't seem to matter

    "Pale golden lemon
    and new tech gear"
    not seeming to connect to anything
    all I can feel is FEAR

    Going forward is all I can do
    Till it's time to remove the lid
    and listen to Numbers
    It helps
    I can forget, yes….life

  16. avatar
    davem | 5 January 2010 at 9:09 pm #

    Loads of things on the boil = good news for us.

  17. avatar
    eek | 5 January 2010 at 9:13 pm #

    Hellbound Heart — Google is your friend.

    Want to know what bubble tea is? Google it!

  18. avatar
    Mary | 5 January 2010 at 9:52 pm #

    lol Hellbound!!!!!! i have been trying to find out what bubble tea is too, no one will answer me, i figure it is iced tea with soda water lol, thats all i keep thinking it is until someone tells me otherwise, and Steve I know the feeling of being overwhelmed, thats me everyday, trying to make this new year different, less stress and hope it will make a difference with the Fucking MS i have, still numb and its driving me nuts, wish there was a cure already!
    love ya
    Mary

  19. avatar
    iseult | 5 January 2010 at 9:55 pm #

    want some egg cartons for your shed?

  20. avatar
    linjo | 5 January 2010 at 10:01 pm #

    Hi Steve, congratulations on finding a car. I dont think you need to apologise for that, of course it is a necessity when you have a family and work. You balance your emissions with your veganism. Thats all we can do, contribute in any way that is within our limits.
    I understand your concern about kids and indolence. So frustrating to see kids sit about on a beautiful day glued to the computer screen etc. I live 200 metres from the beach and it drives me crazy when my teenage boys stay inside all day talking to their friends on the net. No wonder there are so many obese people around now including kids. Remember when we were kids and there was the one or two chubby kids at school. So sad to see many now.
    On another health note, a dear friend of mine rang me recently and told me of the incredible health benefits from going on the anti-candida diet, including a huge weight loss, mental clarity and a wonderful feeling of wellbeing with boundless energy and sex drive. I went to the library and got out a book on it and it seems that many of us who have been on antibiotics in life are probably infested with yeast cultures manifesting in sugar cravings, depression, aches and pains, lethargy. To starve the fungus a diet eliminating all sugars, processed foods, including sauces and canned and bottled stuff, no bread (containing yeast) alcohol of course and initially fruit. Anyway, I thought I would just mention it here. It is interesting to read that when the spleen is congested with fungus, it can lead to terrible immune disorders and other health problems because the spleen produces the white blood cells.
    Ok Steve, have a lovely day. The rain has finally cleared here and oh such beautiful days. Linda xxx

  21. avatar
    CSTCoach | 5 January 2010 at 10:29 pm #

    wow, transmigration has been acheived and the noble Tibor has been reborn. this is good gnus indeed.

    great that you've grabbed some new musical gear too. we obviously have selfish motives to be happy for ya in that.

    but bubble tea? jesus kilbey, it's a wonder you still have yer own natural teeth.

  22. avatar
    Ellen | 5 January 2010 at 10:59 pm #

    Alas, I cannot commisserate with you because I have no children, but I have sisters and friends who know EXACTLY what you're going through! What do you expect having a couple of gorgeous 18 year olds? They're total male magnets!!

    Hope that golden car serves you well and thanks for sharing your frustrations and all that other stuff with us.

  23. avatar
    Jasperina | 5 January 2010 at 11:04 pm #

    Gold frankincense and myrrh I can already hear the purr of your Ford Falcon blending in with those incessant cicadas. I share the dilemma of my kids imagination being stolen via pods welded to their hands. The life gettin sucked out of them. I live in hope for the novelty to wear off…weary mothers sigh..oh and my Studio is just a fancy name for my art/junk store room. I continue to paint on the dining room table. Feeling much the same about life and the universe twirling about in a seemingly erratic state, creative stuff simmering about and trying be an attentive mum as well.

  24. avatar
    EDD | 5 January 2010 at 11:06 pm #

    Gotta car? Where you gonna go?

  25. avatar
    cazziem | 5 January 2010 at 11:17 pm #

    Today I just feel I should say thanks considering everything that’s going on for you right now, its great you took the time to provide our ttb fix, and even though you reckon ‘not much to say’ its obvious from other comments that I am not alone in finding your yabber yabber interesting. It’s lovely to hear such positive thing, excluding the neighbour’s domestic of course, but I reckon you’ll find all the girls are like you in one way or another, perhaps you just see it more in Elli? We all have traits and characteristics inherited from our parents whether we like it or not. I’ve lost count the number of times I’ve heard myself say ‘oh my God, I sound just like my mother’.

    Pity about the pine trees though, and as you say on a planet where we need all the trees we can get. It’s it about time the powers that be looked at changing the law so that if it was so important to have a real tree at Christmas then they have to be bought in pots so they can be replanted at the end of the festivities? Failing that, the wastrels who buy them should be made to take them to a paper plant or something similar. It’s not just the trees that suffer, but the animals too; when the trees shed their needles they can be very dangerous to animals. Oh dear, I think I’d better get of my soap box on this topic!

    Enjoy the girls; time goes so quickly they’ll soon have flown the nest. Enjoy the music making; it’s good to know that you have are in a position to expand your instruments etc. Enjoy being cramped up; there was a time when you dwelling wasn’t so harmonious and at least you have the love of NK where you are now. Oh and if the studio you mention is the same one as depicted in your artwork entitled ‘view from my studio’ then look outside, use that brilliant imagination of yours, and hey presto outdoors becomes indoor and space is somewhere where astronauts go!!

  26. avatar
    Martin L Kennedy | 6 January 2010 at 12:19 am #

    "my musical gear arrived"
    Excellent! That opens up a whole world of possibilities….

  27. avatar
    Hellbound Heart | 6 January 2010 at 12:47 am #

    i think anon at 10:20 may have been pulling my chain a wee bit-now i know what bubble tea is….i googled it…..isn't the tapioca a bit rubbery?

    love always……

  28. avatar
    Ross B | 6 January 2010 at 3:56 am #

    Congrats on the car & the new gear Steve. I kind of know what you mean…i'm feeling strangely & uncomfortably distracted precisely at the time of year I should be feeling most relaxed. Trips up & down the coast & beach offer temporary respite. Sometimes i wish to chuck this city in and nomad.

    and yet when i'm back in my wee library i feel more motivated and energised to be doing other things, when there's generally less time to be doing them…

    off to put the kettle on…

    …and then to bj mega-stores to buy some adjectives! 🙂

  29. avatar
    Steven Krut | 6 January 2010 at 5:29 am #

    Spending sprees are fun.

  30. avatar
    vortex | 7 January 2010 at 7:52 am #

    I feel you brother…
    I just sole some 3 grand of gear to pay bills…
    Sterling makes a damn good FET mic for pretty inexpensive, no preamp needed.
    So, why couldn't you do some session work for Tim Powles in exchange for some gear? Seems like he's got a full blown production facility from the pics i've seen.

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