this aint the northern hemisphere
and here summer rules in royal blue and bursting green
the surfers surf
the dealers deal
the users use
the bills hit your letterbox
damp from the torrentials
my back courtyard is an alluvial plain peopled by bugs and ants and spiders and snails and slugs
the plants go on growing
the cactus out from thorns spring delicate unanticipated flowers
i smoke my weed i swim my laps i meet my friends
i struggle with my money
i get behind on everything
i get confused by everything
my mother has finally succumbed to forgetfulness and is going out now
on a wave of mixed up memories
the cafes are full
a new one seems to spring up each day
and there are the cashed up geezas and their bints
sipping their java and munching on the smashed avocado on spelt bread
that night they will drink boutique beers and snort some heavy cut coke
through a rolled up ubiquitous fifty dollar bill
they will watch net flix and order a svens pizza
they will go to a bar where they have to shout over the music
i have forgotten how i arrived in this place
here in this peaceful warm bedroom where i sit and type and type
there was music there was drugs there was violence
there were crowds there were cops there was sex
there was a limo and an ambulance
you were rich poor in the middle totally bankrupt
its always summer
you pickup your girlfriend in your datsun 120b
you could get your bass amp cabinets in there
dad always puts too much chlorine in the pool and your eyes are always red
your nose is crimson with sunburn
russell and johns hair has been bleached white by the summer and the chlorine
you go to a record shop where you can stand in a booth while they play you records
you dressed in thongs you dressed in levis cords you got a western shirt
you drive down the coast to cabins and caravan park
you have poached eggs on toast and chips for dinner
there was a full dress rehearsal
there was a police interview
there was a morning in darkness
and an evening in light
there was a time nobody knew you
and a time everybody was reading your name
you were parked in a lane off wellington st
someone had gone in a flat with your money to get you something
they were taking such a long long time
you were pushing the twins up a steep hill on a hot day
you were listening to caroline says
lou reed was softly crooning
when she takes speed they laugh and ask her
what is in your mind?
what is in your mind?
she put her fist thru the window pane
it was such a…funny feeling…
there was a 10 dollar cd shop and you lashed out on strange music you didnt understand
you shopped at the IGA and the local corner store where maurice worked
you had a wife and a bunch of kids and a station wagon car
you read the kids to sleep at night
and you and your wife were happy
there was a cheque there was another bill there was a demand for payment
there was booze and there was cordial and there were frozen soy ice creams
there was mercyndol tablets and doof doof music coming from below
i walked the kids to school and then i had a swim
i got in a plane and i flew to america
i got in a car and i drove to a show
there was a standing ovation
there was a complaint
there was a bonus and there was a deduction
there was nice room there was a hovel
there was lsd and there was passion pop
i lost most of my hearing and vision in one eye
my hair was thin
my teeth fell out
my skin now old
i paint a thousand paintings suddenly out of nowhere
i write a thousand songs
i eat a thousand meals
i go to doctors dentists and solicitors offices
i go to banks and bus sheds and terminal A
i go for walks and acupuncture and i do yoga to indian music on my balcony
my eldest daughters go to school they get jobs they become singers and models
my other daughters go to school they leave school they have boyfriends
my cars get booked they rust they fall apart they get taken away for scrap
i am in the details
there was a nasty argument
a hand went thru the pain
there was blood on a towel
there was not a person waiting around for you
the summer burns on into night
you buy lollies and eat em as you plod on up yer street
the shots have blurred
the snaps are stale
the words are mechanical
the chances of winning almost nil
the surveillance camera twitches in its nest
your numberplate makes you easy to find
the keys jam in the locks
the screws turn within the bolt
they lock you out and out and out and out
the line goes taut
the line goes dead
someone on the other end just an electronic bark
the reception is patchy
the freezer has thawed
people can hear you shouting down the street
when cars slow down looking for a park
and the sea at the end of the street like a dark green undulating field
and someone explains some new dismal thing which has just happened
and the weather forecast says no rain as you stand there getting drenched
back at home past present future split
the 3 ways forward and the 3 ways backwards
the trap the snare the jaw the imprisonment
the feint the blow the weave the woof
the girls who wrote to you said theyd do anything for ya
the men wrote to you told you where to go
in the the grinding miasma of my twisted dreams where I’m skewered side on
in the temporary hold on my credit
in the grease left on the brown paper by the cake
in the stuff that wouldnt wash off the plates
in the indentation of where you lay against the sky
in the febrile thoughts in hypnogogic states
in all the nameless nights that lead up to lent
and the characters you cant type out with your alphabet
and the dumb ideas your stumble upon with your thumb
the dalliances with some countess of the scene burned numb and snow blind
and the saint who helped jesus score
and the cat who shot up achilles
and the guy under the fluro who looks like a spook
and the sad ladies who sit there with empty eyes from crying
and the angry guys who have believed all of the lies
and the disappointed children trying to make everything all better
the bats chattered hidden in the trees
australia loomed out of every ion
there was a faint sweet song on the breeze
i sit at the keyboard i type type type
my brain fires off in sequences
all its knowledge spat out at random
my dad had a lovely woody smell
the column shift on my mazda was clunky
i met a girl at dickson pool and kissed her as it began to rain
i ran around a tennis court at night
i tripped on mescaline and remembered all those other lives
and i pierced the thin veneer of civilisation
and i lived a hundred years in a few hours
and it was 10 01 pm
sleep was taking me down
my thoughts become cloudy and condense
the memory of brilliant nights
the agony of separation
the used car place lit up at night all empty
the motel with sea-views and pool. AC .colour tv
the grey fences rotting away
the smell of seaweed upon the beach
and the seabirds that pick thru it
ocean city or malibu or brighton or bondi
its summer and its dressed in a black cloak with stars
and its limitless horizons stretch out to the shores of her heaven
its romantic down the back of the club with that tiny sweetie
oh steve she said
i just want you to see what you are doing
in the dull glare of a fake candlelight i know i had one too many
1 2 many
in the chatter and buzz of the stupid nightclub
where im sweating like a horse
my face is quite red and my pupils are huge
my white shirt looks good with my tan
i pretend to be skinnier then
i order a platter of fruit and more champagne altho by now in underground carpark
ive lost my ticket and the waiters have all gone to bed
round at your place someone in the shower says
i’ll be out in a minute darling forever
and then when you go in theres no one even there
youre tired now as fuck as your old eyes dim over with mist
you lay down in the forgiving darkness
afraid of the dreams that are brewing in your once brilliant mind
you burnt out your clutch with too many revs
you slipped down the charts and there was nothing you could do
people ignored what you did it didnt matter anymore
at night when you lay down you rush out of your head
you fly round the city and you see all the people
its lovely to fly i feel young i feel free
i hang motionless over my own place
and i watch you writhe in your sleep
you shout out for justice and snatches of conversations
you grumble about bastards doing better than you
you crumble before dawn when you wake up aching
in the blue lake of the light fighting off Insomnia
walking down by waves as the sea raves inside your shell
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