the week started terribly when i found out our kate had passed away
no more big smiles
too soon too soon
i hate that thing when you cry and your throat starts to ache
kate i know you can read this
craig told me you had starfish with you when you went
that kinda makes me so happy and so sad
i dont know whats going on here
i hope things are calm and peaceful somewhere else
my life hurtles into turbulence it surrounds me
running from shadows
last night we played the enmore theatre in syd
we were good they say
feel free to write a review here
i’m sorry the meet n greet was unsatisfactory
i’m a bit exhausted and i just put my heart n soul into it
i shouldnt be meeting anyone
i need to walk in the warm darkness outside
i want to know if the children are asleep yet
the rocknroll has poured outta me just as it poured in
i’m just any-old bloke whose a bit dopey
no point in meeting me
ive done my thing and ive had enough
but i’m sorry if it didnt work out for some reason
i’m sorry if someone was rude
i had spent all afternoon there trying to get it right
we have just driven back from newcastle
i have some more personal argy bargy in my life
i have some things to contend with
the creative side of me is outraged by the drain on resources
i am out of balance
last night i call on an energy to animate me
and it does not fail to arrive
i feel like i could levitate into the air
it has finally happened anyway whatever it is
too late but better than never
we just laid 30 odd top notch songs on the audience
i allow the music to flow thru me i dont grasp at it anymore
i have no message for the audience
i dont know what i’m doing
i’m reflecting something out there
some idea that is so vague and powerful
we did a good show
whatever we ever hoped to achieve surely we did last night
sure some ninny is gonna give us a bad review its inevitable
they dont like my interpretive dance whatever that is
i just do what that thing tells me to do
sometimes it tells me to dance because some music is for dancing
the characters in the songs animate one after another
its all so deliciously easy i mean i’m not even trying
i mustnt try …trying is the worse
i gotta be in it jump in boots n all i suppose
or risk hurting myself even more
last night i moved closer to invoking the thing
when it comes it takes care of everything
can you believe i’m saying the thing is playing and singing me
anyway being a good frontman dont solve no personal problems
the world is still out there
i am in conflict as i always have been
there cannot be the energy without the conflict i see that now
its weird to be a geezer that some think is the bees knees
whilst others think is the worst guy in the world
i am actually neither but you already knew that
its a pity its so confusing
isnt it ?