blurred speech slurred vision

yeah yeah yeah i know i was being stupid but i took some codeine then i went out and had a drink and a smoke i was at some friends place outside i was gonna make a phone call to somebody maybe my mother next i thing i know a bunch of concerned people are hunched over me you were out says frances who is a good friend as shes like cradling my head im sweating and my head is throbbing i beg for no ambulance and i sit down for awhile and then i go home frances incredibly kindly slept on my couch so that she could keep an eye on me ok thats enough of that yes im going to the doctor tomorrow so whattya think shuttup with the advice and listen because the place i went to wherever i went where i went ah yes it was the purest bliss an incredibly beautiful person she was talking to me there we were talking oh for hours in what must have been only a minute or so of unconsciousness a beautiful place maybe i was talking to an uh angel or sumpthin’ there was no pain there was only light and there was only love man i aint saying that was necessarily heaven i wasnt dead i was just knocked out loaded as bob says but man oh that place and oh that angelic presence wow is that really what a knock on the head can do? remember back in 08 when i got dehydrated and collapsed well that place was hellish a dark roaring abyss this was the opposite my friends i cant describe how shocked i was to wake up and find out i was just some old geeza whos collapsed in a garden in bondi it […]

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abide with me

abide with me

yeah yeah yeah i know i was being stupid

but i took some codeine

then i went out and had a drink and a smoke

i was at some friends place outside

i was gonna make a phone call to somebody maybe my mother

next i thing i know a bunch of concerned people are hunched over me

you were out says frances who is a good friend as shes like cradling my head

im sweating and my head is throbbing

i beg for no ambulance and i sit down for awhile and then i go home

frances incredibly kindly slept on my couch so that she could keep an eye on me

ok thats enough of that

yes im going to the doctor tomorrow so whattya think shuttup with the advice and listen

because the place i went to wherever i went where i went

ah yes it was the purest bliss

an incredibly beautiful person she was talking to me there

we were talking oh for hours in what must have been only a minute or so of unconsciousness

a beautiful place maybe i was talking to an uh angel or sumpthin’

there was no pain there was only light and there was only love

man i aint saying that was necessarily heaven

i wasnt dead i was just knocked out loaded as bob says

but man oh that place and oh that angelic presence

wow is that really what a knock on the head can do?

remember back in 08 when i got dehydrated and collapsed

well that place was hellish a dark roaring abyss

this was the opposite my friends

i cant describe how shocked i was to wake up

and find out i was just some old geeza whos collapsed in a garden in bondi

it seemed like that was the dream a painful aching sweaty complicated dream of bother and dismay

the other place was serene it was sacred it was my hearts desire and i met some presence there

it was a stupid thing but the vision remains of palpable peace and harmony of some other plane

i went there and stayed for hours even as i said it was a only a minute

it changed something in me

something im not sure what yet

i know ive hurt myself a bit with my body and my head

yet i still did 20 laps at the pool today

im seeing the quack tomorrow so cool out ok?

concentrate on the vision i perceived there

verily i tell you my cats

it was the bees knees

financials

my dear readers and friends you are all bored stupid by now with hearing about musicians and songwriters are earning virtually zilch these days well here i am and i am in the same boat with no tours coming up and nothing coming in so to speak of and 3 kids to support so i put this to you A) you can still buy every solo album i ever made and then some for a hundred bucks stevekilbey.bandcamp.com B) for 50 bucks you can commission me to write a blog about absolutely anything you can think of C ) for 50 bucks i will do you a postcard sized original painting on high quality art paper which will be signed numbered and thanked by me i am sorry it got to this and i would most be humbly grateful if any of ya can help out until something comes along my paypal is stevekilbey@gmail.com if you dont want any of that stuff you can still make any contribution and i will be eternally grateful SK  

my dear readers and friends

you are all bored stupid by now with hearing about musicians and songwriters are earning virtually zilch these days

well here i am and i am in the same boat with no tours coming up and nothing coming in so to speak of and 3 kids to support

so i put this to you

A) you can still buy every solo album i ever made and then some for a hundred bucks

stevekilbey.bandcamp.com

B) for 50 bucks you can commission me to write a blog about absolutely anything you can think of

C ) for 50 bucks i will do you a postcard sized original painting on high quality art paper which will be signed numbered and thanked by me

i am sorry it got to this and i would most be humbly grateful if any of ya can help out until something comes along

my paypal is stevekilbey@gmail.com

if you dont want any of that stuff you can still make any contribution and i will be eternally grateful

SK

 

book review I by tim earnshaw

i and i a guy in china tim earnshaw sent me his book a brilliant rumination on who I actually is and what is time and all that kind of thing the book is set in the present tense its funny its sad its sobering its philosophical  and eventually touches on the buddha himself asking the questions what is all this stuff? who am i? what is the true nature of the past and the future? earnshaw is the observer the observed and the observation we spend an endless second with him in a continuous moment on a train of thought as he brilliantly dissects time with his razor of reason he searches for the me yet fails to locate it everything is perspective and we are all deluded its true buddha would have called it maya but time is not what we think in fact it is nothing only willed into existence by humans as the joke goes: as a way to stop everything from happening at once the book is a paradox its nihilistically hopeful its not some dry old bit of academic jargon either its eminently readable and entertaining many wont get it though but it was certainly right up my alley i tell you very  grateful he sent it to me easily one of the very best books ive ever read his use of language is impeccable he points out lots of tiny details youve probably never noticed he connects up numbers and words and ideas you thought had no connection all the time he addresses you the reader you can hear the voice in his mind as it dictates this book to him right now much beyond that i cannot describe this marvellous volume a real treat that you’ll enjoy as well as making you think 9 and a half stars […]

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i and ii and i

a guy in china

tim earnshaw sent me his book

a brilliant rumination on who I actually is

and what is time

and all that kind of thing

the book is set in the present tense

its funny its sad its sobering

its philosophical  and eventually touches on the buddha himself

asking the questions

what is all this stuff?

who am i?

what is the true nature of the past and the future?

earnshaw is the observer the observed and the observation

we spend an endless second with him in a continuous moment

on a train of thought

as he brilliantly dissects time with his razor of reason

he searches for the me yet fails to locate it

everything is perspective and we are all deluded

its true

buddha would have called it maya

but time is not what we think

in fact it is nothing

only willed into existence by humans

as the joke goes:

as a way to stop everything from happening at once

the book is a paradox

its nihilistically hopeful

its not some dry old bit of academic jargon either

its eminently readable and entertaining

many wont get it though

but it was certainly right up my alley i tell you

very  grateful he sent it to me

easily one of the very best books ive ever read

his use of language is impeccable

he points out lots of tiny details youve probably never noticed

he connects up numbers and words and ideas you thought had no connection

all the time he addresses you the reader

you can hear the voice in his mind as it dictates this book to him right now

much beyond that i cannot describe this marvellous volume

a real treat that you’ll enjoy as well as making you think

9 and a half stars out of ten for this baby

 

http://rebuddharedux.blogspot.com.au

 

we were made to glow and fade

martin and i have our fifth album ready soon man its been a long time we been partners in this martin provides all the music i provide the singing and the words there was our first lovely album quite minimal in places the second album melodic and poppy the third album suddenly we hit a real peak the fourth album growing and changing now we have album number 5 glow and fade and lo we are now some weird prog rock duo with lots and lots of floydian references the slide echo guitar the percolating synthesisers the sheer length of track two and its transformations the songs are about wide eyed naivete and crushing cynicism the void the crowd nature of time time of nature the struggle and the defeat love in all its old disguises the illusion the disenchantment the mistakes it really is quite a journey and the moods are departures from before i think this a special record and those who may dig it will certainly dig it yeah amen    

a new spin

a new spin

martin and i have our fifth album ready soon

man its been a long time we been partners in this

martin provides all the music

i provide the singing and the words

there was our first lovely album quite minimal in places

the second album melodic and poppy

the third album suddenly we hit a real peak

the fourth album growing and changing

now we have album number 5

glow and fade

and lo we are now some weird prog rock duo

with lots and lots of floydian references

the slide echo guitar

the percolating synthesisers

the sheer length of track two and its transformations

the songs are about wide eyed naivete and crushing cynicism

the void the crowd

nature of time

time of nature

the struggle and the defeat

love in all its old disguises

the illusion the disenchantment

the mistakes

it really is quite a journey and the moods are departures from before

i think this a special record and those who may dig it will certainly dig it

yeah

amen

 

 

travel plans

compound fractured now the beginning and the end of us a short spell and we are all off i hallucinate the humdrum superimposing it on a magnificent reality beyond all this illusion and all this maya glory is unfolding like the darkest vanilla like a shot curving through the air springs forth spirit spirit free of mind mind free of body body free of death death free of life another ten minutes disappears into the gloom like a messenger my thoughts wander like stupid animals and are run over on the highway of synapse whether i am an idiot or a poet whether i am good or bad whether i am right or wrong thoughts bubbling up from a babbling fountain of inanity this and that so and so such and such mind out of control stop mind stop! i would say but it would only be mind saying it to itself mind thrashing wailing kicking trying to escape mind full of memories the fading ones and the ones you wish you could forget mind full of women and graveyards and weather and facts mind full of music and books and rivers and morning and children and friends and bastards youd like to strangle mind full of paint and film and past lives that can barely be apprehended guitars and cars and arrivals and transitive meander the dumb pull of the hand the blind touch of the tongue the fiery chakra at the base of the spine the saint in me watches on sadly the dreamer awake with fingers full of dream down another level and everything is heavier up another level and we just float away whatever it is i am trying to say suddenly… it doesnt matter anymore            

watt ever

watt ever

compound fractured now

the beginning and the end of us

a short spell and we are all off

i hallucinate the humdrum

superimposing it on a magnificent reality

beyond all this illusion and all this maya

glory is unfolding like the darkest vanilla

like a shot curving through the air springs forth spirit

spirit free of mind

mind free of body

body free of death

death free of life

another ten minutes disappears into the gloom like a messenger

my thoughts wander like stupid animals and are run over on the highway of synapse

whether i am an idiot or a poet

whether i am good or bad

whether i am right or wrong

thoughts bubbling up from a babbling fountain of inanity

this and that

so and so

such and such

mind out of control

stop mind stop! i would say

but it would only be mind saying it to itself

mind thrashing wailing kicking trying to escape

mind full of memories

the fading ones

and the ones you wish you could forget

mind full of women and graveyards and weather and facts

mind full of music and books and rivers and morning

and children and friends and bastards youd like to strangle

mind full of paint and film and past lives that can barely be apprehended

guitars and cars and arrivals and transitive meander

the dumb pull of the hand

the blind touch of the tongue

the fiery chakra at the base of the spine

the saint in me watches on sadly

the dreamer awake with fingers full of dream

down another level and everything is heavier

up another level and we just float away

whatever it is i am trying to say

suddenly… it doesnt matter anymore

 

 

 

 

 

 

stage directions

it has been a tough year one of my towers needs a complete refurbish and rapid eye strain from ogling all my dough all that kudos and praise it brings me entropy yes the displeasure is all my mine i am here this evening for the usual anterior motives renumeration and/or revenge voice in another room: a great title for a book or a song…or a painting..or something… argy bargy hustle bustle hurly burly a day in a city faraway the slaves in my vineyards under the sun at night the white delight of the sleep of the rich and the right oh yeah my oar is stuck in the med sea you must see i’m no salesman oh yeah i can see it from here when the damn waters are clear suddenly i’m in rhyme maybe you knew that all the frickin’ time anyway now i must away midnight is down and about i’m feeling inauspicious and inappropriate yes i believe in ghosts and they attracted to me yes the constant whispering the sound of tiny songs somewhere else those sad soft fingers all over my face listening to me breathe the glass all fogged up like a skull full of outside o heart full of unison diamond faceted face of your clock just 20 minutes to fall into my burnt caramel dream      

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hand some man a shoulder

hands off  man a shoulder

it has been a tough year

one of my towers needs a complete refurbish

and rapid eye strain from ogling all my dough

all that kudos and praise it brings me entropy

yes the displeasure is all my mine

i am here this evening for the usual anterior motives

renumeration and/or revenge

voice in another room: a great title for a book or a song…or a painting..or something…

argy bargy hustle bustle hurly burly

a day in a city faraway

the slaves in my vineyards under the sun

at night the white delight of the sleep of the rich and the right

oh yeah my oar is stuck in the med sea you must see i’m no salesman

oh yeah i can see it from here when the damn waters are clear

suddenly i’m in rhyme

maybe you knew that all the frickin’ time

anyway now i must away

midnight is down and about

i’m feeling inauspicious and inappropriate

yes i believe in ghosts and they attracted to me

yes the constant whispering the sound of tiny songs somewhere else

those sad soft fingers all over my face

listening to me breathe

the glass all fogged up

like a skull full of outside

o heart full of unison

diamond faceted face of your clock

just 20 minutes to fall into my burnt caramel dream

 

 

 

a voice in another room

blasting bastard of a day sickly hot searing sun in my mind where i toil everything has been going off god protect me from all attack decay sustain and release in my mind where the pictures roll on tho i may no longer choose to speak them in the mind of madness in the delusional fields where i slave away in the worlds where i will miss everything only i will miss you more if i could orbit and swing back before corroded memory sleeping seeped into my reveries an enemy within ah but how to fight it..? my food is sunburnt my touch evaporates away the illumination was not expected enraptured by my torpor the seconds coalesce solid anxiety my constant and incessant companion whispers whispers what though..? asks a voice in another room it whispers in a tormented language of a hiss and a whistle it bristles around my ears at a rakish angle like a halo of sibilance drowning out your words its dull dazzle blotting out everything in tiny geometric stars at night i fight on in my dreams where you appear dressed in my burst fears and maybe yes the straps perhaps the dread i feel heels me and hemmed in by my skull the thought compounds the consuming bonfire of looming future stretches out its fingerling flames to burn present the elapsing collapsing time tick tock tick baby i know it full well i cant tell if thats the clock in another room or the rattling charms of a snake eye dice that stares up with black eyes the yawning void opens up sucking us in to its straw like vapours we are smoked and then blown away like nodding off at the wheel of a fastest car or hurtling through a million geezers […]

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is that me for a moment

is that me for a moment

blasting bastard of a day

sickly hot searing sun

in my mind where i toil everything has been going off

god protect me from all attack decay sustain and release

in my mind where the pictures roll on tho i may no longer choose to speak them

in the mind of madness in the delusional fields where i slave away

in the worlds where i will miss everything

only i will miss you more

if i could orbit and swing back

before corroded memory sleeping seeped into my reveries

an enemy within ah but how to fight it..?

my food is sunburnt

my touch evaporates away

the illumination was not expected

enraptured by my torpor the seconds coalesce solid

anxiety my constant and incessant companion whispers

whispers what though..? asks a voice in another room

it whispers in a tormented language of a hiss and a whistle

it bristles around my ears at a rakish angle

like a halo of sibilance drowning out your words

its dull dazzle blotting out everything in tiny geometric stars

at night i fight on in my dreams where you appear

dressed in my burst fears and maybe yes the straps

perhaps the dread i feel heels me and hemmed in by my skull the thought compounds

the consuming bonfire of looming future stretches out its fingerling flames to burn present

the elapsing collapsing time tick tock tick baby

i know it full well i cant tell if thats the clock in another room

or the rattling charms of a snake eye dice that stares up with black eyes

the yawning void opens up sucking us in to its straw

like vapours we are smoked and then blown away

like nodding off at the wheel of a fastest car

or hurtling through a million geezers or bitches

my ears talk my mouth tastes my tongue hears

futile tears from the hanging man

hung by the hangman in a dangle

those angles and those lines

by the sea the pines only remain from the past

when a cool wind finally arrives

i shiver in my freckle skin inside some man i dont understand

i quiver before your arrows that enter my ventricles nerve

a swerve then i serve myself the desert you left in the kerb

the blurb bubbled forth it ripped ahead off

the murk i shirk has worked away at on me

the dark weave even steven cannot be leavin’ alone

a glance at my phone

and i wonder why you never comin’ home..?

 

 

kilbeys night 1

black cats in the night dont see me this invisibility keeps me liquid quaking emperor your scene is over the warmest days of october the thousands i saw in the mirror i shalala down the street of streets on a festive night the doors are flung open and interiors emit a greenish light the songs are sung again and young again alright the chains my brilliant brain stupidly forged from pain the ropes were hopes billowed on bluest skies a reprisal oh vibrating night quite inevitable really you should come around the ground rush up to greet thee as you meet me with your sound in earlier lives in outrageous close i had my little dance upon the toes one lent morning i was bent bourn and horned upon yonder lawn the swagger equivalent to the dagger i stagger to wield in the war fields under the stern thrum of the drums we marched parched by a mirage my companions and i plied with powder and keg we beg for more from the floor embracing your 3 faces with a taste of some unguent gum some imposter bossed me around i enliven my strings the very things upon which i siren my shots and my slings abound a tremulous caramel kiss is it for me to visit an artificial bliss not much different from this words rushing me crushing me crashing me into my own walls it takes balls to admit the water in your throat soon you will no doubt be floating on air my desolate trespass upon magical realm at the helm of my disaster faster and faster we spun the funny void of andromeda one i’m down the back in the black inky seaside shack by the glorious ocean where the merman bathe bravely on the reef toothless fish […]

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same old same old

same old same old

black cats in the night dont see me

this invisibility keeps me liquid

quaking emperor your scene is over

the warmest days of october

the thousands i saw in the mirror

i shalala down the street of streets on a festive night

the doors are flung open and interiors emit a greenish light

the songs are sung again and young again alright

the chains my brilliant brain stupidly forged from pain

the ropes were hopes billowed on bluest skies a reprisal

oh vibrating night quite inevitable really you should come around

the ground rush up to greet thee as you meet me with your sound

in earlier lives in outrageous close i had my little dance upon the toes

one lent morning i was bent bourn and horned upon yonder lawn

the swagger equivalent to the dagger i stagger to wield in the war fields

under the stern thrum of the drums we marched parched by a mirage

my companions and i plied with powder and keg we beg for more from the floor

embracing your 3 faces with a taste of some unguent gum some imposter bossed me around

i enliven my strings the very things upon which

i siren my shots and my slings abound

a tremulous caramel kiss is it

for me to visit an artificial bliss not much different from this

words rushing me crushing me crashing me into my own walls

it takes balls to admit the water in your throat

soon you will no doubt be floating on air

my desolate trespass upon magical realm at the helm of my disaster

faster and faster we spun the funny void of andromeda one

i’m down the back in the black inky seaside shack

by the glorious ocean where the merman bathe bravely on the reef

toothless fish in the lagoon soon a fine raining mist persisting and sprinkles

i am then among the winkles in the shrinking light

in the bright moon ray or hidden from sight

i bend to the pool whirling and churning and turning with life

i send out my thoughts the things our sweet victories have taught us

i caught us a beam whose silver will seem to solve everything

and dissolve you to white

 

 

 

 

bobby pin

voice in another room:  he’s not written much lately voice in yet another room: ‘s got writers block some other voice: he hasn’t done nothing at all for ages female voice: just sings a bit thats all i walk the down the long way home theyre coming back from the beach all sunburned a sultriness in the sky voice in another room: he’s lost his way voice we havent heard before: he’s lost his fuckin’ mojo an official voice: gone off the rails..! a sad voice: he makes me sad i can see the sea at the end of the street its flat and silver under the grey sky the flats for lease and the chucked out bits of furniture the skeletons of long gone bikes a bloke pushing a pram and smoking a cig the temperature is humidly perfect the guitar shop with its pink fender bass i will never own the bottle shop with the air conditioner unit that sounds like womens choir my english skin is tanned and freckled my beard is white my nose is pink my shirt is black my eyes are blue my chest is brown my dreams are inexplicable my memories are fading my choices are made for me by some dice or fate my jaw aches my leg aches my teeth ache my ears ring my heart misses beats my blurry fucked up eyesight  my world is receding  my beautiful dutiful daughters within their own lives my friends shaking their heads reading this my incredible run of luck my stupid immaturity my naive surprise when i get burned my finger hurts still from when it was shut in the gate my breathing is very shallow and my pulse beats slow my rages and my sulks but also my generosity and my hopefulness  […]

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shambles

shambles

voice in another room:  he’s not written much lately

voice in yet another room: ‘s got writers block

some other voice: he hasn’t done nothing at all for ages

female voice: just sings a bit thats all

i walk the down the long way home

theyre coming back from the beach all sunburned

a sultriness in the sky

voice in another room: he’s lost his way

voice we havent heard before: he’s lost his fuckin’ mojo

an official voice: gone off the rails..!

a sad voice: he makes me sad

i can see the sea at the end of the street

its flat and silver under the grey sky

the flats for lease

and the chucked out bits of furniture

the skeletons of long gone bikes

a bloke pushing a pram and smoking a cig

the temperature is humidly perfect

the guitar shop with its pink fender bass i will never own

the bottle shop with the air conditioner unit that sounds like womens choir

my english skin is tanned and freckled

my beard is white my nose is pink my shirt is black

my eyes are blue my chest is brown

my dreams are inexplicable

my memories are fading

my choices are made for me by some dice or fate

my jaw aches

my leg aches

my teeth ache

my ears ring

my heart misses beats

my blurry fucked up eyesight 

my world is receding 

my beautiful dutiful daughters within their own lives

my friends shaking their heads reading this

my incredible run of luck

my stupid immaturity

my naive surprise when i get burned

my finger hurts still from when it was shut in the gate

my breathing is very shallow and my pulse beats slow

my rages and my sulks but also my generosity and my hopefulness 

voice in another room: if thats all hes got he neednt have bothered

a mocking voice: that aint poetry..!

a dry voice: dont you see, its a new simplistic authenticity

voice in another room: authenticity..? youre joshing me…

reader who lives up the junction: at least its free..eh..?

a mocking voice: and so it fuckin’ should be

a sad voice: i’m still sad

 

 

lovely november day

on rare day off i have a early swim with george where the water is effervescent its good to be alive we have breakfast and then i pretty much do nothing till some professor arrives to interview me for 2 hours re my “bohemianism” i am apparently a modern version of the australian bohemian altho being english doesnt seem to matter really a bohemian made slightly good and flirting with the mainstream according to herr professor it was a great interview and i had a good laugh at myself and my pretensions oh ha ha ha yes that was good am i a bohemian or just a lazy old git …its a fine line well im leaving on an aeroplane again tomorrow FFS! done enough flying for while but no back in seat 15 fucking g i go i’ll have aisle please dont wanna sit next to any fatties babies smellies or grotty little swine yes i’ll have a glass of fucking water and the vegetarian option but lo a horrible fellow next to me is tucking into the pulled off pork well you become what you eat and he is already undergoing the transformation… ive seen all the fucking movies and i am the reigning world virgin champ at rock trivia theyve got starfish in the record selection hoping no one sees me listening to my own record after about one minute i drift off and dont listen to any of it baby it goes in one ear and out the other one of the hosties is quite attractive in her uniform and like your humble scribe is no spring chicken oh i get my gin and tonic for free and she gives me a smile this is on the house mr kilbey well alright thats better i guess boy […]

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shot silk

shot silk

on rare day off

i have a early swim with george where the water is effervescent

its good to be alive

we have breakfast and then i pretty much do nothing

till some professor arrives to interview me for 2 hours

re my “bohemianism”

i am apparently a modern version of the australian bohemian

altho being english doesnt seem to matter really

a bohemian made slightly good and flirting with the mainstream

according to herr professor

it was a great interview and i had a good laugh at myself and my pretensions

oh ha ha ha

yes that was good

am i a bohemian or just a lazy old git …its a fine line

well im leaving on an aeroplane again tomorrow

FFS!

done enough flying for while but no back in seat 15 fucking g i go

i’ll have aisle please

dont wanna sit next to any fatties babies smellies or grotty little swine

yes i’ll have a glass of fucking water

and the vegetarian option

but lo a horrible fellow next to me is tucking into the pulled off pork

well you become what you eat and he is already undergoing the transformation…

ive seen all the fucking movies and i am the reigning world virgin champ at rock trivia

theyve got starfish in the record selection

hoping no one sees me listening to my own record

after about one minute i drift off and dont listen to any of it

baby it goes in one ear and out the other

one of the hosties is quite attractive in her uniform

and like your humble scribe is no spring chicken

oh i get my gin and tonic for free and she gives me a smile

this is on the house mr kilbey

well alright thats better i guess

boy the gin and tonic slides down fast

and i get up for a wee wee squeezing past the hostie who smiles again

in side the toilet there  am in the mirror frowning at myself

at that moment the plane hits the turbulence and i find it impossible to have a wee

as if someone was waiting for that to happen

we are one hour into the flight and im restless as all harry

i take out my lappy and listen to whatever i can find on there

life continues to be strange

something i thought i’d lost returns to me in negative only better

a new version of an old idea

then theres bowie in perth

and hanging out with Adalita is there anyone sweeter?

tim rogers too he’s a funny sod

the camaraderie of the troupe

the violins and the bassoons

singing those marvellous perfect songs

bowie told me in a dream i have his blessing

anyway i do my best

a cog in the mechanism

saturday night will be gig i have accepted a private do

someone especially requested me

i hope they like my performance

oh itll be ok probably a real pleasure you never know

how these things may go

then im having a bit of rest

not too much on a sporadic gig here and there

yeah