The Time Being | Steve Kilbey

one step forward
one step back
something good
something bad
i sit here writing lovely songs
but out there my life unravels drip by sip by blip by dip
still it doesnt matter
i am a survivor
i go on n on regardless
my yoga my meditation my swimming my pure diet will sustain me
clear headed and on form i am
yet so dismayed by a constant stream of lowdown tricks
and slaps in the face
you wouldnt believe the half of it
now i feel so tired and spent
just an old bloke
being used up for all his worth

i will forgive
but i will never
ever
forget

fuck i’m a ‘andsome bastard
and guess what
i been clean for one month
yes thats right
sober as a (stephen) judge
unintoxicated by anything
just swimming just doing yoga just creating more stuff for you
for your pleasure for your delight
oh its almost unbearable to be me right now
seeing things so clearly
i’m gonna take this to its logical conclusion
no more blurred crusades for this knight
i got words pouring outta my pores
and my paws
i got offers pouring in my inbox
steve can you do this
steve can you do that
i got a hilarious musical i’m gonna be in
i’m gonna send myself up n i’m gonna enjoy it
i can sit back and have a laugh at myself
its better than crying
i’m a survivor
the luck of the devil
im deaf and blind but boy can i sing n play bass
i’m pushing 60 baby …what a hoot…
i guess i’ll never grow up now
well you know i worked hard for this
2 hours of yoga a day
being a vegan
not watching telly
hardly ever n now never drinking poisonous booze
no cigarettes or cheezy pizzas
no sitting around like a couch potato
screaming at a tv screen with the “boys”
its a high n lonely destiny (ha ha!)
i’m a workaholic
i walk the talk
i got some good friends now
and i appreciate them
i can sing i can dance i can knockout a haiku
i appreciate fine literature
i meditate again
i wanna reconcile it all before i die
i in love with jesus christ
i in love with krsna
i in love with cs lewis
i in love with dylan n lennon
i in love with iliad n odyssey
i carry the torch
my next few records will blow yer socks off
i got experience oozing out my ears
is that why i’m so deaf
i got no time for arguing the toss
i miss my dad… fuck he was a great guy
i get on well with my brother rusty
i’m glad we’re good mates now
i need his love and support
my children are my joy
my business is a pleasure
and pleasure is definitely my business
you can well imagine
you will have to imagine
even though i am chased
i am from now on chaste
thats right
to pursue my dream
i am sacrificing everything
no nothing for me
i need all my energy for the work
the rakes progress
redirecting desire into concrete abstractions
i contain huge contradictions
i am obsessed with myself
its easy and its cheap
i dont need anyone else
i have my deep mind to fall into and drown in
ha ha ha
dont you love it
and out of all this vainglorious hubris
i got some seriously decent music coming atcha
i got my kilbey mega site
theres gonna be loads of stuff
new unheard works
films from the past
i’m gonna open up my scrapbooks my scrapheaps
i’m gonna open up my chest cavity
n lay my still beating heart on the line
i’m gonna give you insights outsights and oversights
my past lives
my past loves
my foibles my peccadillos my shoo sighs
all the kilbey you can handel coz i know some of you fiendss are hooked
i dont blame you
theres a lot of shallow rubbish out there
n not too many renaissance blokes like moi
so the time being . com coming real soon hopefully mid july
you can get it free
or you can pay n arm n a legge and get premium kilbey
if you recently subscribed here we’ll accommodate ya too
its gonna be a comprehensive one stop shop for all yer kilbey needs
i’ll take the money and abscond to lemuria
where i’ll live in a decaying palace waited on by flying monkeys
we’re planning on having loads of special stuff for ya
yeah i know you cannot wait…too bad…you have to…
bring on the bile my detractors
youre impotent hillrods and boors
no one gives a flying fuck what you whingers write
i rule
old king coal
in the winter of disco tent
a real panther …growl !
a gentleman , ma’am yes i am
a beggar outside the door of love
i’m only here for this moment
you can trust me to be straight with ya
but can you be straight with me?
i’m gonna give you the goods with both barrels
the kinda thing you need as an antidote to all the jim jims
the sad ugly little clowns trying to bring this world down
i cant stop em but i’ll give y a few good CDs to listen to
as we all go under
a few laffs
a few fucking tears
a few mistakes fuck i made few
i been ‘onest with ya
i aint no saint even though i look like one
my grey blue eyes see deep inside
my voice in yer headphones: i sing you your life
i’m not for everyone…i’m too good for just anyone
my music heals and it feels
i’m onto something here
stick around and watch this space
i’m reaping the reward of 55 years
a grand master flashed
i ruin you for all the others
i cold i clear i so very very near
i gone daddy gone
thats it
i feel better now
wow blowing your horn is hard work
im tired after all that immodesty and arrogance
i gotta go
bye bye

steve “killer” kilbey /jeffrey “caino” cain
a real dynamic duo
hidden away in sunnyhurst bondi
making izzy-door 2
caino has not failed to come up with the goods
as you might expect a load of subtle tricky elusive yet familiar music
a worthy successor to our brilliant first album only more brilliant natch
i’m very excited
the words are flowing out unto me from the universes
from the cosmic subconscious
from the eternal well of art and groovy things
caino manning the computer manipulating the data
killer behind the mike (as it should be)
this music inspires the words that i would elsewise never have written
of course i am filming the whole thing (kip!)
and it will be available on my coming mega-site
the making of isidore 2 (yet to be titled!)
wow! im excited i’m valve bouncing
we’re both on a roll here
this is the stuff you been waiting for folks
this is the good shit that’ll (gregory) slay ya!
nice work caino youve done very very well
ooh what a beauty
another great record coming down the line atcha
in spades baby in spades
and in hearts too…..

i hate vodka
i hate what it does to people
i hate what it does to families
i hate the way it takes over and takes control
it is an unstoppable juggernaut of destruction
i saw it in rehab
i saw it in rocknroll
i saw it in my friends n enemies
i saw it in women n in men
i saw it in the young n the old
a frightening nightmare exploding in yer brain
a delusional toxic devils piss of a drink
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
more addictive than the worst drug
itll fuck ya ten times quicker than smack or crack or anything else
and totally legal
i saw whole rooms of finns slugging it out
i saw people driven rabidly foaming mad
i saw the aftermath too
the hollow wrecks it leaves behind
the burnt out shells of those it hath possessed
the emptiness the messed up blank and black eyed stare
more like a methylated spirit than a drink
its a clear cut killer of life and love and reason and beauty
stealer of youth
causer of quarrels
a violent horrible sickening poison
i saw a young geezer have a grande mal seizure on the filthy stuff
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
you can hardly taste it but its gonna get ya down on yer knees
by the fucking balls
the anti-muse
nothing good comes from it
just trouble and strife
destroyer of life
oh i hate it
alcohol entity and elemental eating you up from the inside
making ya stupid and angry and coarse
i hate it
oh i fucking loathe it
oh i d-test it and what it does
i hate standing by watching it chew thru its victims
i hate that inchoate state
i hate its pernicious trespass upon humanity
its all bad
it rots yer guts
it fucks yer liver
it burns yer throat
it makes yer brain smooth n wrinkle-less
until you never ever gonna think straight
oh i despise vodka
oh i could scream
oh i could writhe in agony at its pointless poisonings
oh i damn the spirit of vodka which infests man soul
and swallows him whole
spits ya out dead if youre fucken lucky, mate
its evil its wicked its rotten its disgusting
oh i hate it i hate it
oh i truly and absolutely hate it more than anything
oh i do hate it so badly
oh i hate it so