dunno iffy gnosis

a divine god crooned to the voidlet there be musicand there was still silencethe void so full of emptinesslonging to be filled by songmore than lightthe void craved songthe void screamed at god through its mouthless holewhere is my song?and the beautiful wonderful god held his perfect finger to his lipsshhhh! listen….!and there there…..there it is….oh listenthe rumbling thunder was a deep bass drumit boom boom boomed in the distanceand the void trembled at its immaculate rhythmand god stood up tall from the bottom of the deepest seato the aeriest realms where atmosphereans dwell he was immensely huge/ he took up no spacehis face was the colour of a cloud before it rainshis eyes brimming with compassion and powerhe nodded his lovely head to the thunders beatthe thunder roiled and boiled and boomed and he laugheda great white flashand then the rain beganrattle rattle pitter pattera snare against the thunders big boomrattle boom boom rattle boomhis wife appeared a goddess herselfshe said whatever this is i like itand the lightning crashed like cymbals around her haloed headand morning came so rare and palea new new morningand birds began to sing singing around the rain and thunder and lightninglook said the goddessthe angels had gathered around their eyes were closed as they contemplated the beatas the god and goddess deep groove became apparent the angels thrilled to their wingtipsthe thunders boom boomthe snare rattlethe lightning crack!birds go tweet tweet tweetthe loveliest angel counted one two three fourand thenohtheir most perfect holy sensual voicesentwined and move within each otherthe he- angels pushthe she- angels givethey give give givethe voices go round and about and upon and behindthese were the words oami-pso calyenthis sonvaanae oami-pso uh huh uh huhno rholyiemphis no bixi emshunt yeh shunt id semifor in english this means oh my […]

a divine god crooned to the void
let there be music
and there was still silence
the void so full of emptiness
longing to be filled by song
more than light
the void craved song
the void screamed at god through its mouthless hole
where is my song?
and the beautiful wonderful god held his perfect finger to his lips
shhhh! listen….!
and there
there…..there it is….oh listen
the rumbling thunder was a deep bass drum
it boom boom boomed in the distance
and the void trembled at its immaculate rhythm
and god stood up tall from the bottom of the deepest sea
to the aeriest realms where atmosphereans dwell
he was immensely huge/ he took up no space
his face was the colour of a cloud before it rains
his eyes brimming with compassion and power
he nodded his lovely head to the thunders beat
the thunder roiled and boiled and boomed
and he laughed
a great white flash
and then the rain began
rattle rattle pitter patter
a snare against the thunders big boom
rattle boom boom rattle boom
his wife appeared a goddess herself
she said whatever this is i like it
and the lightning crashed like cymbals around her haloed head
and morning came so rare and pale
a new new morning
and birds began to sing
singing around the rain and thunder and lightning
look said the goddess
the angels had gathered around
their eyes were closed as they contemplated the beat
as the god and goddess deep groove became apparent
the angels thrilled to their wingtips
the thunders boom boom
the snare rattle
the lightning crack!
birds go tweet tweet tweet
the loveliest angel counted one two three four
and then
oh
their most perfect holy sensual voices
entwined and move within each other
the he- angels push
the she- angels give
they give give give
the voices go round and about and upon and behind
these were the words

oami-pso calyenthis sonvaanae
oami-pso uh huh uh huh
no rholyiemphis no bixi em
shunt yeh shunt id semifor

in english this means

oh my fucking god thou art so beautiful
your wife is a majestic delicious queen
if thou art not cool then who else can be
for you are everything and
she
is everything else

the god was pleased with this
he began

naxion celegriph tramelian em
dran shunt ver-meer empath tes

this meant
in english vernacular
something like

give me one for the money
give me two for the show

his wife then sang

westin ermelian traaph sif ne em
jarudi gog xephem ram bam
ba ba boom

perhaps that needs no translation

the god who was called simply god
instantly populated the world with all manner of things
violin trees
piano monkeys
beasts that groaned like a tenor
cats that mioaued like contraltos
crabs click click clicked like shakers
panthers purred like cabassas
the angels up above kept on singing like larks
the larks below singing like angels
the fishies in the stream going bubble bubble bubble
the cows chewing in rhythmic gulps
the lion hissed in the mountains
the whale under the bluest seas joined in
the bugs wings all going clicketty clack clack
god we’re with you they sing to themselves but god can hear them
music music music whispers the long grass
man suddenly appears stark naked but for a white fender strata -casta
he is a black man with wild hair
he suddenly springs down and the guitar wails just like the whales
yes says the goddess
the goddess of fortune
the goddess of sexual pleasure and winning the lottery
the goddess of good waves and bass guitars
the goddess of eternal wisdom and passionate kisses
yes says this goddess
the guitarist lays into his guitar
let it burn man whispers god
let it bleed for me
the guitarist started to play some chords
these chords did please the lord children
god couldnt even figure out what he was playing
because of the delay and strange tuning
and he was playing it the wrong way wround
his wife stepped forward

ne carrienthon on trovis on wintha..

this morning when i woke up
i had the lowdown fucking blues

ji gog
ne carrienthon on trovis on wintha

i said
this morning when i woke up
i had the lowdown fucking blues

sem trimmaa nopha ullis
sem nestlialien bimma sed

i felt so sad and lonely
lord you know i paid my dues

the surf pounded the shore like a kettle drum rolling on
the mooned even keened and simpered in the sky
the wind lashed the trees
the coyotes howled
the hippos and pigs grunted
the badgers snuffled
the crows cawed like rhythm guitars
the moles underground tapped their tiny feet
the bears growled
the camels snorted
the toads croaked
everything did what it could
the eagles cried
the lambs bleated sweetly
the horses neighed and champed
the great apes clapped and plucked
finally god
waiting for it all to simmer
found his moment
picked up his flute
and blew up another storm
wild was his song
and unbridled did the music run amok
penetrating everywhere
nothing could or would ignore it
gods flute was so on
it rippled mellifluously across the octaves
it defied logic it droned it moaned it telephoned
gods flute with its trills and spills
oh hosanna oh hosanna on high
and then the first song
on the first side
of the first day
was released
and it roared up the charts
everywhere!

.

watch over me

the gently murmuring long grasswending our waythe delta landblack angel steps forwardwe follow her wandering waysi memorylessa merry wanderera good fellow well methefting my pack without complaintthe warm rain from heaven on my facedrops of His love soothe my burning eyeswe beside the mindless river we lie on its banks dreamingno sunjust a gentle grey hazethat goes on foreverone inevitable crow as a point in the skya blackness to emphasizing the faded greythe vegetation is a complexity remarkablemeaning and determination the hallmark of lifethe green purpose of it all still remains unknownto exist but not have to thinkdecisions all removedno right or wrongobeying an imperative to find lightfighting your way out of the darkness of earthto flower and bloomwither and returnatoms burnwas there anything ever there?

the gently murmuring long grass
wending our way
the delta land
black angel steps forward
we follow her wandering ways
i memoryless
a merry wanderer
a good fellow well met
hefting my pack without complaint
the warm rain from heaven on my face
drops of His love soothe my burning eyes
we beside the mindless river
we lie on its banks dreaming
no sun
just a gentle grey haze
that goes on forever
one inevitable crow as a point in the sky
a blackness to emphasizing the faded grey
the vegetation is a complexity remarkable
meaning and determination the hallmark of life
the green purpose of it all still remains unknown
to exist but not have to think
decisions all removed
no right or wrong
obeying an imperative to find light
fighting your way out of the darkness of earth
to flower and bloom
wither and return
atoms burn
was there anything ever there?

what kind of person reads the time being *

(please note : this idea is taken from the self-promoting ads thatplayboy used to run in its mags in the sixties and seventies :what kind of man reads playboy?) what kind of person reads the time being? a person with flare and style just maybe not todays flare and stylesomeone who likes to stick bubblegum noses on real estate guys pictures(and since when do real estate guys have their pics up everywhere?)(and have you heard of the doff girls? mary doff carry doff and tragic ilene doff)someone who can pronounce anathema correctly on tuesdayssomeone who stands a vase on top of a rubiks cubesomeone who doesnt read the instructions and doesnt care for the resultssomeone who drives a clapped out car with fiery seatcoverssomeone who smokes catnip cigarettes and owns a yoyosomeone who listens to the sea inside a shellsomeone who still believes in machine elvessomeone who names their kids after greek mythssomeone who loses their stuff all over the placesomeone who doesnt like plain and simple funsomeone who cant read a map but can read in between the linessomeone who remembers hamilton joe frank and reynoldssomeone who likes long rainy days spent elsewheresomeone who likes toasted sandwiches and a cuppa teasomeone whose favourite flavour is a butterscotch caramel vanilla crosssomeone who lives by the sea with a dog named johnsomeone who hates halloween but likes brigadoonsomeone who thinks bono is embarrassing and likes licoricesomeone who has a job as calf model and collects maskssomeone who wishes guy ritchie would just get his own castlesomeone who gives their cat a surnamesomeone who cant believe george bush has an iq of 125(where does the decimal point go?)someone who wouldnt couldnt ever eat a crab or duck liver patesomeone who lives in a spacious bedsit with railyard glimpsessomeone who gives not gifts […]

(please note : this idea is taken from the self-promoting ads that
playboy used to run in its mags in the sixties and seventies :
what kind of man reads playboy?)

what kind of person reads the time being?

a person with flare and style
just maybe not todays flare and style
someone who likes to stick bubblegum noses on real estate guys pictures
(and since when do real estate guys have their pics up everywhere?)
(and have you heard of the doff girls? mary doff carry doff and tragic ilene doff)
someone who can pronounce anathema correctly on tuesdays
someone who stands a vase on top of a rubiks cube
someone who doesnt read the instructions and doesnt care for the results
someone who drives a clapped out car with fiery seatcovers
someone who smokes catnip cigarettes and owns a yoyo
someone who listens to the sea inside a shell
someone who still believes in machine elves
someone who names their kids after greek myths
someone who loses their stuff all over the place
someone who doesnt like plain and simple fun
someone who cant read a map but can read in between the lines
someone who remembers hamilton joe frank and reynolds
someone who likes long rainy days spent elsewhere
someone who likes toasted sandwiches and a cuppa tea
someone whose favourite flavour is a butterscotch caramel vanilla cross
someone who lives by the sea with a dog named john
someone who hates halloween but likes brigadoon
someone who thinks bono is embarrassing and likes licorice
someone who has a job as calf model and collects masks
someone who wishes guy ritchie would just get his own castle
someone who gives their cat a surname
someone who cant believe george bush has an iq of 125
(where does the decimal point go?)
someone who wouldnt couldnt ever eat a crab or duck liver pate
someone who lives in a spacious bedsit with railyard glimpses
someone who gives not gifts stuff
some who has an impact but not impacts on things
someone who never says disempowering or saturn returns
someone who just wishes things were a bit nicer down here
someone who dots their t’s and doublecrosses their eyes
someone who hates frickin’ dance routines
someone who completely avoids reality tv shows
someone who reviles endless inane footy
someone who wishes there were more nights paddling canoes w/ little lanterns
someone who wishes there were more days on windswept beaches
someone who reckons the zoo is cruel but likes to dong mynah birds
someone who likes epaulettes
someone who likes floral
someone with a broken suitcase and a blunt pencil
someone with a lost ticket and a 4 oclock shadow
someone with a sticky wicket and gluey rice
someone with a bing bong device and a snuffle-cushion
someone who never uses the word misled
someone who likes sugar
someone who gets hotheaded yet has cold feet
someone whos axolotls are sean and colin
someone who left their keys on the bus
someone whos forgotten their combination
someones whos always standing in everybodys way at a party
someone who thinks men with gold chains are silly
someone who listens to the rain, cant you hear it pour
someone who likes raspberry but hates strawberry flavour
someone who wanders lonely as a cloud when they walk in the sun
someone who still hopes x-ray spex might work
someone who cant keep secrets
someone like you
someone else
thats what kind of person reads the time being

seek doctors advice

exponential increasewe adjust our rangekilbey turns off at his streetis that kilbey?one foot in the pastone hand hiddenone eye larger than the otherone brainside firingthe other still mondays childe is fair of faceit doesnt look like himthe mirror must have lieda single black crow in the skya childhood spent senta bass guitar behind the doorjet blacklamp blackvelvet blackblackest black of blacksi need a black outlinemy head in a halo of blue flamescolour my eyes gravestone greymake my little fingers coldmake sure the fuselage is trimmed apply freckle decals to backmake the nose sharpishbring her round slowlystarboard starboard mr christian one more knee to gothen……let him loose…!kilbey appearsbut we cant get a fix (on him)aim for his heartaim for his memoriesaim for his lah-de-dahsa bit of a chamediansomething of the jungle about himhis wife arrives to collect himwhats he done this time? she says in her soft southern accenta policeman leads her to a cellextorting money from his subscribers, i’m afraid ma’am…they lead kilbey outhe looks tired and resignedsays ‘e’s the best lyricist in ‘istory sniggered pilatedont look like much now…the crowd obeying for bloodwhat does it all mean ? says your momits like rimbaud stumbling thru mozarts garden says crit-ickyer husband says he cant singyer wife says hes de-pressingyer conscience says confess confessyer clock say tick tick tick but never tockyer dog says wow but never bowyer canary goes cheapyer beatles go yeah yeah yeahyer wallet says dont giveyer feet say walk awayyer eyes say we are the whores of the sensesyer ears cant say anything they just listenyer heart going boom like a big bass drumtim powles lazily grips the steering wheel as he rides down route 66the nz born drummer peers thru the rainkiller he asksthe man next to him stirskiller ?says tim the man called killer awakeswere […]

exponential increase
we adjust our range
kilbey turns off at his street
is that kilbey?
one foot in the past
one hand hidden
one eye larger than the other
one brainside firing
the other still
mondays childe is fair of face
it doesnt look like him
the mirror must have lied
a single black crow in the sky
a childhood spent sent
a bass guitar behind the door
jet black
lamp black
velvet black
blackest black of blacks
i need a black outline
my head in a halo of blue flames
colour my eyes gravestone grey
make my little fingers cold
make sure the fuselage is trimmed
apply freckle decals to back
make the nose sharpish
bring her round slowly
starboard starboard mr christian
one more knee to go
then……
let him loose…!
kilbey appears
but we cant get a fix (on him)
aim for his heart
aim for his memories
aim for his lah-de-dahs
a bit of a chamedian
something of the jungle about him
his wife arrives to collect him
whats he done this time? she says in her soft southern accent
a policeman leads her to a cell
extorting money from his subscribers, i’m afraid ma’am…
they lead kilbey out
he looks tired and resigned
says ‘e’s the best lyricist in ‘istory sniggered pilate
dont look like much now…
the crowd obeying for blood
what does it all mean ? says your mom
its like rimbaud stumbling thru mozarts garden says crit-ick
yer husband says he cant sing
yer wife says hes de-pressing
yer conscience says confess confess
yer clock say tick tick tick but never tock
yer dog says wow but never bow
yer canary goes cheap
yer beatles go yeah yeah yeah
yer wallet says dont give
yer feet say walk away
yer eyes say we are the whores of the senses
yer ears cant say anything they just listen
yer heart going boom like a big bass drum
tim powles lazily grips the steering wheel as he rides down route 66
the nz born drummer peers thru the rain
killer he asks
the man next to him stirs
killer ?says tim
the man called killer awakes
were you asleep ? says tim
no…yes…its ok…where are we now?
his accent is hard to place
tim applies tiger balm to his temple
tim says that was the lemuria turn off back there
christ! the killer sits up
his brain is squirming like…like…like a …frog
if we keep going this way we hit el dorado at 4 oclock
in time for the soundcheck
whos on with us?
the low swinging dicks
didnt they just drop a member?
oh ha ha ha
whats for dinner?
starbucks?
nah!
waffle king…..
nah!
how about ma n pas vegan kitchen?
oh…ok..then
scene inside cafe
olde lady stands writing an order
so you want legless mayo and tempeh ribs
the kyoto accord sesame dressing with quorn dip
the loganberry cobblers and the stupid dill
knocked up mock hare with jugged bimbo sauce
and soya-goolies on the side…
can i get some not-pork buttons?
they come with the water sir…free of charge…
subscriber writes
if i buy you dinner do you promise to not put on weight?
another subscriber writes
i already gave at the office
another writes
my first born should be hitting your paypal tomorrow
no kidding i sigh
the police arrive and arrest the killer
his children beg for clemency
the leglessman begs for alms
the beggars beg for forgiveness
the police chuck ‘im in the lockup
bail is set
his wife opens her purse and its full of confederate money
the south will rise again someone offers hopefully
the west will never learn
the rest will follow
follow me says the killers killer
who are you? i ask
time he says

sunday too far away

this pic of neuman in sydney just addedcommissioned by ernst k in norwaycourtesy nelg ok thats heyday over and done withah…they were different timespeople actually bought your music for a startin 1986 people bought musicyou could tape your mates recordsif you knew how to negotiate all the malarkeydobly on dobly offco2 or blah blah bias….it either hissed like a bitchor was dull as a bastardand then what….they stretched n broken took ages to rewind….so in those daysif say 30 thousand people had yer music at homeprobably 27 thousand had actually paid for itnow my ipod is full of stuff i never paid fornot only thatbut i make copies of more of it for friendsoh you really like the low swinging dicks….?ok heres their other 6 albums and their first 4 e.p.swhy would you buy a record?only if you didnt have a friend whose got it in their itunes right?so wowthats greatthanks marty n ricki n all the others sharing their collexionsisnt this greati dont even go to the $10 cd store anymore(they went broke anyway in bondi) i just absorb my collexion by osmosiswow!…tee hee heei can get anything i want in a flash…for free..anything you can think of…this is the life, eh…?except….except….uh…hang on a minute….jesus….all my royalty cheques shrinking and shrinkingbecause….no one paying advances and stuff and i realiseim like a pearl salesman and everyones got their own oyster..!its a bad time to be a musician……so hencea la your storiesyou heard starfishyou went out n bought heydaynowadays you hear starfishyou rip heyday from somewhere else if you canno one buys cdsif i tunes are selling a load of my stuff i aint seen itor felt it are you seeing my pointilism here?i make something that most people dont pay for anymorei look at the stats for emc on karmic […]


this pic of neuman in sydney just added
commissioned by ernst k in norway
courtesy nelg

ok thats heyday over and done with
ah…they were different times
people actually bought your music for a start
in 1986 people bought music
you could tape your mates records
if you knew how to negotiate all the malarkey
dobly on dobly off
co2 or blah blah bias….
it either hissed like a bitch
or was dull as a bastard
and then what….
they stretched n broken took ages to rewind….
so in those days
if say 30 thousand people had yer music at home
probably 27 thousand had actually paid for it
now my ipod is full of stuff i never paid for
not only that
but i make copies of more of it for friends
oh you really like the low swinging dicks….?
ok heres their other 6 albums and their first 4 e.p.s
why would you buy a record?
only if you didnt have a friend whose got it in their itunes right?
so wow
thats great
thanks marty n ricki n all the others sharing their collexions
isnt this great
i dont even go to the $10 cd store anymore
(they went broke anyway in bondi)
i just absorb my collexion by osmosis
wow!…tee hee hee
i can get anything i want in a flash…for free..
anything you can think of…
this is the life, eh…?
except….
except….
uh…
hang on a minute….
jesus….
all my royalty cheques shrinking and shrinking
because….
no one paying advances and stuff
and i realise
im like a pearl salesman and everyones got their own oyster..!
its a bad time to be a musician……
so hence
a la your stories
you heard starfish
you went out n bought heyday
nowadays you hear starfish
you rip heyday from somewhere else if you can
no one buys cds
if i tunes are selling a load of my stuff i aint seen it
or felt it
are you seeing my pointilism here?
i make something that most people dont pay for anymore
i look at the stats for emc on karmic hit
must be that a big most downloaded and didnt contribute
some people were generous
but most didnt bother…they just took it
i have no moral qualms with that either
i would probably do the same
especially without all the trouble of getting paypal or whatever
gosh but its making it kinda hard for people like me though
i love the technology but i hate the results (hmmmmm aint it always so?)
its wiping me out before my eyes
i already had the worst deals in the world
im already dealing with a load of disparate corps flogging my stuff
i have no idea what they sell and how much they tell me they sell
i never have and i never will
i have been ripped off blind
dudded and tricked and fucked over
cos i was young arrogant
AND CAN ONLY THINK WITH THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY FUCKING BRAIN
i write the best lyrics in history but can i read a contract?
in my arrogance i thought that i’d be such a big star
that it didnt matter if they ripped me off
cos i was gonna have so much anyway
or that “god” would look after me
or that someone else in the band would read it
or that so and so was honest and actually cared
ha ha
so there you go
all those records out there
that i dreamed up
only ever getting a fraction of my due
3 companies going bankrupt n never paying a zac
and now
no one buys it anymore anyway
not to even mention my shrinking popularity
(i said not to mention it!)
i wake up and find i’m going broke
so you’ll forgive my preoccupation with money
and i’m gonna mention subscription one more time
and i’ll fucking well drop it for a while
heres the thing
i hate to see people saying on my comments
oh sk im sorry im a bit broke i couldnt donate
please my people
i dont expect you people feeling the pinch to donate
i dont expect the people who donated already to donate more
i dont expect the people who make those v.generous donations
to donate ever again….
i also know that you know
that my current state of broke-ness
is my own doing from recklessness and stupidity
so i bear all this in mind
still there is a deep undercurrent of readers
who never comment and never subscribe
and i only ask the fortunate ones among them
the ones who can afford to
not the broke ones like me
not the strugglers n dispossessed
not the artisans and minstrels
not the kiddies or pensioners
just this
if you are sitting there
on a fat wallet stuffed with euros
and you enjoy reading me
(after all i’m one of the best…if you like this kinda thing)
then take the trouble
open yer paypal account
a dollar a week….how cheap is that?
pay in advance by all means
a dollar by itself will be chewed up in commission
there you go
send me some dough
you’ll feel better
i’ll definitely feel better
and its keeping those wolves from my door
i usually spend a couple of hours a day writing these blurbs
so its eating up my time
its a labour of love
it comes from my heart
not my need to earn a crust
but that would be a nice side effect
as far as other ventures go
we are going to begin rehearsals for zoo story mk 2
up at andrew hmelnitskys new gallery up at bondi junction
bondi junction is about 2 or 3 miles up the road away from the sea
its a bustling little jumping spot with the southern hems biggest mall
(wow!)
andrews opening on aug 10 and im gonna sing a couple of numbers
but anyway
me and sebastian are gonna start up zoo story again
and itll be running sometime in september
hopefully we can have a good season in his intimate little space
i love to act and i’m voracious to get better
so i’m looking forward to it
i hope it makes a bitter money too
but thats not why i do it
i dont do anything for money and thats why you love me
you know you can trust that my products were not created to generate dough
i hope they do
but that doesnt come into their creation
when i write songs or paint pics
its the furthest from my mind
you know thats the truth
and you’ll feel it when you hear painkiller
or if you buy one of my paintings
talking of which
go to my painting website and check out my latest paintings
under the new magnifying feature
you can now see close up how good or bad i really am
nelg showed me my get stoned n paint video as it is so far
and jesus i think it looks really good
its got some good painting moments and some good whacky bits
nelg also gave me a nice good haircut which is a relief
when will the vid be finished?
nelg says before the end of the year…..!?
as far as painting goes
having successfully finished this 3 n a half foot by 2 n half foot
jobby
i’m going bigger n bigger
cos lets face it
size does count
and from here on in
im gonna be doing some big pics
nelg if youre reading could you email me a jpeg of this one
so i can put it on a future blog? (see above!!)
anyway
i hate talking about money
i really do
its fucken vulgar
but it seems …..
ah you know
see you soon
no more moneytalk
sk killer

dear reader

i fucken love you guysive been really touched by your reactionsive been really touched reading yer youthful memoriesi know 1985 kilbey would have been chuffedi mean 23 years into the future people still digging itwhy cant we have those heydays over and over….?ah…..if i could figure that outi’d like to thank all the people who donated yesterdayi really appreciate it!things are a bit skint chez kilbey at the presentso we really thank you warmly for generosityyou didnt have to do it but you did……nice one! i listened to it myself yesterday…1st time in agesits where we really turned into ourselvesheyday facts.emi aust dropped us after heydayit only sold 20 thousand odd copiesi had a hilarious conversationwith some 1986 emi dennis eton hoggecomplete with yes…a hairy chest and a libra pendant he was a hog a pig and a borei told him i wanted our next album to be a doublei told him i wanted our next album to explore instrumentallythe ebb and flow of naturemore choirsmore orchestrasmore peter walshthe pig sat there stunnedthe next morning i was informed by telephonejust as i was about to jump in a cabto begin pre-rehearsal for our next reckordthat the church were dropped from emiour next album sold nearly a milliondo you reckon that the pig ever got his porky ass kicked?(oooh im a childish little sod, aint i?)fact 2more than one proud parent has named his daughter tristessethats truethey shoulda researched it moreits the “sadness that comes after lovemaking”eg. post coitum animal est triste3 there are 1 million acoustic guitar overdubs on each songthe original title4 of already yesterday was hover5the beginning of hhg was called polandmarty n i wrote that in bondi in 82 and slipped it in there6the original title of roman was transylvania7columbus was written in ….columbus..i was stuck with […]

i fucken love you guys
ive been really touched by your reactions
ive been really touched reading yer youthful memories
i know 1985 kilbey would have been chuffed
i mean 23 years into the future people still digging it
why cant we have those heydays over and over….?
ah…..if i could figure that out
i’d like to thank all the people who donated yesterday
i really appreciate it!
things are a bit skint chez kilbey at the present
so we really thank you warmly for generosity
you didnt have to do it but you did……nice one!
i listened to it myself yesterday…1st time in ages
its where we really turned into ourselves
heyday facts.
emi aust dropped us after heyday
it only sold 20 thousand odd copies
i had a hilarious conversation
with some 1986 emi dennis eton hogge
complete with yes…a hairy chest and a libra pendant
he was a hog a pig and a bore
i told him i wanted our next album to be a double
i told him i wanted our next album to explore instrumentally
the ebb and flow of nature
more choirs
more orchestras
more peter walsh
the pig sat there stunned
the next morning
i was informed by telephone
just as i was about to jump in a cab
to begin pre-rehearsal for our next reckord
that the church were dropped from emi
our next album sold nearly a million
do you reckon that the pig ever got his porky ass kicked?
(oooh im a childish little sod, aint i?)
fact 2
more than one proud parent has named his daughter tristesse
thats true
they shoulda researched it more
its the “sadness that comes after lovemaking”
eg. post coitum animal est triste
3 there are 1 million acoustic guitar overdubs on each song
the original title
4 of already yesterday was hover
5the beginning of hhg was called poland
marty n i wrote that in bondi in 82 and slipped it in there
6the original title of roman was transylvania
7columbus was written in ….columbus..i was stuck with the title
now headquarters of my art empire…hiya eek
8peter walsh had a big brother also a producer he used to ring for advice
9peter didnt like the word “slump” he had me remove it from a song
10we called him the young english knob twiddler when we played pinball
11we hired the persian rug from a store in rushcutters bay
12the church werent wearing paisley at that stage
it had gone after 1982
i wore black from there on i guess
we did it as a retro laugh on ourselves
13steve sutherland called hhg
“like felt stumbling thru a big country rehearsal”
most american rags gushed however
14disenchanted was written about russell
but when he asked me i denied it!
15the last record to have lyrics printed
ok
thats it
im racing against a “blog outage”
so im gonna post this
and wish you all a happy heyday weekend
sk

heyday…..no seriously

a man can get into trouble re-interpreting his old workis it better to let it sit there in all its mythic glory…?yes my friendsheydayafter the first record which is a bit awfulthen the glorious sounding but slightly insubstantial b cthen emi/nick launay ruined seance with its eighties crud (thanks, nick…it dated real well!)then remote whatnots patchinessthen…ahathen we unveiled our first almost masterpieceremember it was the eightiesit was the fucking frigging eightieswe had to fight just to remain organiccan you understand that almost every idiot in the bizwanted to make you eightieseighties as epitomized by the thompson twinsor boy george or a million awful stupid bandswho’d hi-jacked the glorious futurethat the beatles had left wide openwe had punk which shook it upand then……even listen to what neil youngor new order (new ordure) got up to in the eightiesof course it was harder to fight eightiesness in the eightiesbecause only hypersmart hipsters like me even understood what was happeninglike fish in water most of the imbeciles back then couldnt tellthat they were swimming through an era of embarrassment and tripethe haircuts and cutesy little hats and the way girls looked back thenthe beginning of the most ridiculous malaise in rock musicwhich was the perceived need for a huge punctuating snare drumeg. what they tried to do to seance:electric lash espthey were experimenting with “firing samples”which meant when yer drummer whacked his snare on the tapea sample of another drum playedthis other drum would have been considered “better”than whatever your own drummer played on his snareso these guys carted there primitive snare samples around the globesticking em all over peoples recordswe probably got the same ones as midnight oil hadand then after us the models….one particular fault was the samples played a fraction lateand a fraction of time in a song can be […]

a man can get into trouble re-interpreting his old work
is it better to let it sit there in all its mythic glory…?
yes my friends
heyday
after the first record which is a bit awful
then the glorious sounding but slightly insubstantial b c
then emi/nick launay ruined seance
with its eighties crud (thanks, nick…it dated real well!)
then remote whatnots patchiness
then…
aha
then we unveiled our first almost masterpiece
remember it was the eighties
it was the fucking frigging eighties
we had to fight just to remain organic
can you understand that almost every idiot in the biz
wanted to make you eighties
eighties as epitomized by the thompson twins
or boy george or a million awful stupid bands
who’d hi-jacked the glorious future
that the beatles had left wide open
we had punk which shook it up
and then……
even listen to what neil young
or new order (new ordure) got up to in the eighties
of course it was harder to fight eightiesness in the eighties
because
only hypersmart hipsters like me even understood what was happening
like fish in water most of the imbeciles back then couldnt tell
that they were swimming through an era of embarrassment and tripe
the haircuts and cutesy little hats and the way girls looked back then
the beginning of the most ridiculous malaise in rock music
which was the perceived need for a huge punctuating snare drum
eg. what they tried to do to seance:electric lash esp
they were experimenting with “firing samples”
which meant when yer drummer whacked his snare on the tape
a sample of another drum played
this other drum would have been considered “better”
than whatever your own drummer played on his snare
so these guys carted there primitive snare samples around the globe
sticking em all over peoples records
we probably got the same ones as midnight oil had
and then after us the models….
one particular fault was the samples played a fraction late
and a fraction of time in a song can be everything
they also did weird things as they’d “refire”
eg the snare rolls in electric lash
sounds like a machine gun
which launay must have thought was cutting edge
but its still making most people groan 25 years later
funny thing is
i liked what he did to midnight oil
he spruced up a band and pushed em through his filter
trouble was the church was not a band
to go thru anyone elses filter
cos it was already going thru mine
so anyway
its important for me that you understand
how everything i did
with nearly everybody
was a fight
the church werent that successful
and everything was a fight for me..
i heard new gold dream and i liked its feel
it was mellifluous and organic
it was modern but not eighties
it was prod n eng by peter walsh
and he could understand ambience
he could also understand that i wanted this record
to have a spiritual component
and sonically he was ready for that
the band had decided to write most of the music together
this gave it a fresh cohesion and an added interest for the others
they were our songs
not just my songs
tho i was still the chooser and editor and general overseer of music
the others came up with brilliant bits n pieces for their parts
and all three shone as co-composers and musicians
peter walsh turned up to find 2 earnest guitarists
a prankster drummer and me
just turned 31
and i wanted to make a record
a non eighties record
with loads of guitars
with orchestras
with melody
with my first true authentic sk lyrics
the album opens with a masterpiece
go on listen to myrrh again
probably one of the best songs us or anybody ever wrote in rock
the music and words unfurl like a dream
no one could do what we were trying to do
but on myrrh we nailed it
everything was right
even the sounds of construction walsh flew in right at the end
construction that started early in the apts where he stayed
so he recorded it on a little dictaphone and stuck it on the record
peter walsh was the loveliest bloke i ever worked with
he was only about 26 when we did this
we spent lots of time playing pinball with him
in the foyer of the studio
a lockout of 6 weeks in 301
in the heart of sydney
8th floor up
we ruled up there
smoking so much fucking dope
but no other drugs
walshy ‘d have a beer occasionally
when he smoked the dope he’d go quite loopy
mainly tho he worked away steadily
he was always cheerful and tried to include everyone
he was a good mediator and everyone got on well
it was a good time
and it shows
walshy was good with all instruments
he knew how to mike and record stuff
he was old school in that way
he knew we wanted to be organic and he kept it that way
everything was great
i even splashed out n bought this renault floride
a 1959 convertible
and walshy n i rode out to the arrangers place in south sydney
with the top down
we were young we were happy
seemed we were on the verge of something
walshy n i figured out the arrangements with this guy
and lo n behold a week later these players turned up
and played on h.h.g and tantalised n night of light
at the end of night of light i had an idea
that the orch. all follow my sliding fretless bass
and they did
everyone was great
everyone was easy
heyday was so much more accomplished than starfish
starfish sold cos it had utmw
but heyday was much better
warmer realer nicer
im talking sounds here not songs
anyway
peter walsh was the producers producer
unlike the next 2 geezers who were uncouth bullies
who got lucky for a little while
gav mckillop was like peter walsh….a real producer
anyway
heyday had its weakspots
in our one argument
walsh didnt “let” me play keyboards
and theres some slightly average stuff on there
he didnt “let” the others sing either
so thats me singing everything
(as on p=a too)
i wasnt mad on disenchanted or youth worshipper
but walshy had heard the demos and he wanted em on
also when the record was repackaged overseas
record companies stuck as you will and the view on the end
which quite frankly was not what i had intended
just like when ziggy stardust finishes and then some other thing
comes on…yes its value for money
but no it disrupts the flow
roman was s’posed to end heyday not the view
it was a b-side!
anyway some understood it
we immediately jumped back up the ranks in australia
and played totally sell out shows everywhere
in sydney they were queuing round the block at midday
in england a few idiots gave it bad reviews and nothin happened
in the us it” only” sold 60 thousand
and got us dropped by warners
and look at us on the cover
ah so pretty so pretty
in paisley as some kinda statement against….
ah i dunno
big fat record execs with their starsign pendants on their hairy chests
against spand-o ballet and belinda carlisle
against the outfield and preppy college kids
against howard jones and madonna
against oafs and brutes n non poetic types
we were the church
we were more beautiful and slender
we had more hair and better guitars
we were well read and we liked to take hallucinogens
we constantly wangled and fluked our way thru
we stayed in amazing hotels and we flew biz class
we were cooler than fuck
christ
it was our heyday
it could never last
but it was
and theres the irony of it
the beauty of it
the extra-temporaiety of it (thats my word)
(which is always my gift..to see beyond these times)
thats why i’m the time being
the eighties couldnt constrain me
i could stand apart from the zeitgeist
i could deliver this in 1986 (made in 85)
and it still sounds fresh as the day it was made
congratulations are in order
if you enjoyed the heyday story
hit your donate button ..hard
if i get some dough in there sharpish
maybe i’ll give it to ya
on another hundred levels
god forbid!

memory lain

i whispered those songs to him thenand now you knowand that was the end of iti am a living spiritunravelling the tangled skeins of fleshsuitsi talk through electrical spasms and knocks thru the walli bring him words i bring him songshis cup is never emptyhe understands bit by bit how it all goes togetherjust a slow but steady learnera slow and steady burnerthere is spirit behind everythingthe one one onethat is whyand here it isthis is you writing thisthis is me reading itit is us togetherjoined at the mindjoined at the hip of the galaxywe are in spaceright nowthis is this is this is thisor whateverthe moment is gonei am experiencing constant interruptionsruptures in continuityam i mad or seeing visionsvisions of madnessbut i am patently only pretending to be madand that is a form of madness alsofor examplethe next person to click on my sitewill have an “o” in their nameor maybe a full stopdeath is a full stopin a sentence of livesthen sleep is a commaor is a comma a comaone day approachesyour heyday i speak ofthat day of days of daysthat day that hey hey heydaymake heydays while the sunshineshey up and hey down, my childrenheydays only seen from behindwhen theyre over , theyre overthey linger on in a salient lightthey blossom on in memorythey appear as they might have beennot as they were oncethe things themselves have diedbut something has preserved them in outlinehey day 22 years gone do i long for you?i cant tell anymore if i dothe day must come and gothe night will passthe heynights and blacknightsthe shortcuts and spotlightsnightclubs and jailsits all overits all about to beginin the merry month of maymay bemay be junemay be wintertimemaybe in for some more rain and no reignwhat was i saying…?have you lost our mind…?have we […]

i whispered those songs to him then
and now you know
and that was the end of it
i am a living spirit
unravelling the tangled skeins of fleshsuits
i talk through electrical spasms and knocks thru the wall
i bring him words i bring him songs
his cup is never empty
he understands bit by bit how it all goes together
just a slow but steady learner
a slow and steady burner
there is spirit behind everything
the one one one
that is why
and here it is
this is you writing this
this is me reading it
it is us together
joined at the mind
joined at the hip of the galaxy
we are in space
right now
this is this is this is this
or whatever
the moment is gone
i am experiencing constant interruptions
ruptures in continuity
am i mad or seeing visions
visions of madness
but i am patently only pretending to be mad
and that is a form of madness also
for example
the next person to click on my site
will have an “o” in their name
or maybe a full stop
death is a full stop
in a sentence of lives
then sleep is a comma
or is a comma a coma
one day approaches
your heyday i speak of
that day of days of days
that day that hey hey heyday
make heydays while the sunshines
hey up and hey down, my children
heydays only seen from behind
when theyre over , theyre over
they linger on in a salient light
they blossom on in memory
they appear as they might have been
not as they were once
the things themselves have died
but something has preserved them in outline
hey day 22 years gone
do i long for you?
i cant tell anymore if i do
the day must come and go
the night will pass
the heynights and blacknights
the shortcuts and spotlights
nightclubs and jails
its all over
its all about to begin
in the merry month of may
may be
may be june
may be wintertime
maybe in for some more rain and no reign
what was i saying…?
have you lost our mind…?
have we been reading that stuff again?
the worlds full of these olde idiot-mystics
peddling their c.s. blueish sigh-fi pomes
about lost master peace and the winged genius of love
i wanted the hard facts about those lyrics
and now….this
prepare to stop
expect delays
caution children
soft verges
slow
give way
burn thru the hole like a spirit in flame

the pool of lives

there once was a pool of livesoh everybody knew about it onceand everybody who swam in itcame out changed foreverwhich life do you want , sonny? coughed the hagas i stood there awake and dreamingthe dark water swirled and ran away undergroundthe hag sat patiently waiting for my answer i want kathy and dad back …i finally blurted outashamed to find myself cryingthe hag cackled and rubbed her bony hands togetheroh ho little master any life will lead you to them…then it doesnt matter then…i said…does it?oh yes it matters…she saidoh yes it does matter she saiddo i take off my clothes…? i askedoh yes boy…plunge into your new life nakedshe watched me lasciviously as i undressedand she winked at me rudelygo on boy jump in over there where its deepthe water looked cold and uninvitingquick before i change my mind and demand a kiss…or something..!i closed my eyes and i jumpedthe cold shock of the water made me gaspit was like icy firei started to go down at oncestruggling and kicking for i did not know how to swimi saw the hag above through the surfacereaching through it to meshe was screaming somethingi felt her hands clutching at my wristsbut i was too heavy and she was too weakshes trying to save this life i thought as i drownedthis lifethat lifei thought as i gave upit was nice to give upas if all my life i’d been struggling to stay awakeand now i could finally sleepi tried to open my eyes but if i did it was still blacki tried to feel the cold waterbut everything felt rather pleasantly softwhich life witch life i mused sinking or risingi must be dreaming i dreamedi saw some things behind my eyesdreamy scenesat a childs party on a lawn long long agoi […]

there once was a pool of lives
oh everybody knew about it once
and everybody who swam in it
came out changed forever
which life do you want , sonny? coughed the hag
as i stood there awake and dreaming
the dark water swirled and ran away underground
the hag sat patiently waiting for my answer
i want kathy and dad back …i finally blurted out
ashamed to find myself crying
the hag cackled and rubbed her bony hands together
oh ho little master any life will lead you to them…
then it doesnt matter then…i said…does it?
oh yes it matters…she said
oh yes it does matter she said
do i take off my clothes…? i asked
oh yes boy…plunge into your new life naked
she watched me lasciviously as i undressed
and she winked at me rudely
go on boy jump in over there where its deep
the water looked cold and uninviting
quick before i change my mind and demand a kiss…or something..!
i closed my eyes and i jumped
the cold shock of the water made me gasp
it was like icy fire
i started to go down at once
struggling and kicking for i did not know how to swim
i saw the hag above through the surface
reaching through it to me
she was screaming something
i felt her hands clutching at my wrists
but i was too heavy and she was too weak
shes trying to save this life i thought as i drowned
this life
that life
i thought as i gave up
it was nice to give up
as if all my life i’d been struggling to stay awake
and now i could finally sleep
i tried to open my eyes but if i did it was still black
i tried to feel the cold water
but everything felt rather pleasantly soft
which life witch life i mused sinking or rising
i must be dreaming i dreamed
i saw some things behind my eyes
dreamy scenes
at a childs party on a lawn long long ago
i wasnt really there
it was a drawing someone had done…maybe kathy
no…i was there and dad was there too
it wasnt exactly dad though but he talked like dad
no maybe it was a painting someone had done for a calendar
for the merry month of may
i thought about aunty may with her blue black hair
i thought about little canoes with lanterns in a film i saw
i thought about a story with a dead twin
i thought about a picnic with my sweetie in a forest
i thought about the white flesh on her back
and her earthy aroma
i thought about an old man looking in a mirror
at the ruins of his youth
i thought about musical instruments
how i would love to play and sing and dance
i thought about death
i wondered if this was death then
if i was a drowner
if at this very minute
the hag was going through my discarded clothes looking for coins
and our little empty house
and about lost children everywhere
just wishing and wishing they were back at home
and wishing that their father was strong and kind
and wishing their mother was soft and sweet
and wishing they had a sister like…..
i struggled to remember her name
i could still see her behind my minds eyelids
with her sandy brown hair and everything
remembered how she looked sleeping
how she loved to wake up and find it had snowed in the night
i tried to hold on to her face
but other faces were superimposed on it constantly
strange beautiful faces
proud faces
savage faces
sad faces
sometimes i felt like i had woken up in a room
i was all connected up to something
and every part of me hurt
people stood around talking dressed in white
when they saw me open my eyes they seemed surprised
dad? i heard someone say
not having the strength to keep my eyes open
i sink back
or rise up
again
i flicker in a place where i seem to wake up
ive been sleeping somewhere
oh i ache a bit too
i’m holding a guitar and a cigarette
i’ve nodded out in a studio
i’m s’posed to be playing a song and….
more blackness
steve…..? someone says
i open my eyes
i start plucking away at the guitar
lucky i think my fingers know what to do
i smoke the cigarette which is a joint
i’m in a room with some guys
young guys all with long lustrous hair
one blondish guy sits banging the drums
(the drum i think…kathy didnt want me to play the drum)
2 other dark guys are fiddling about with stuff
another blond guy
with long curly hair and almost feminine features sits there
too much wacky tobaccy , steve… he says in a soft english accent
you’ll g-g-get used to that, p-p-peter stutters the drummer
the other 2 guys keep fiddling around with stuff
peter the blond guy starts talking to me
have you written any words yet?… he asks
yeah i seem to be saying through a distance
i pull out a piece of paper from my pocket
something typed out unevenly upon it
the blond guy smiles
oh i like that already he says
emerald haunt in overdrive……hmmmm

the whispering wood

old face-ache was the king of the goblinshe was a hobgoblin in fact and a right bastardhe was married to bloodblister the witch a real bitchand they had a brood of unpleasant bratsno bloody wonder i need to get outta here …face-ache thunderedhow can i dream up evil and malice with this lots racket?i thought you bloody enjoyed a nasty din…said his wifeONLY IF I’M BLOODY MAKING IT MESELF !! bawled the kingand then he strode out of their homewhich was an abandoned eagles nest connected to a big hollow tree‘ere you lazy sprites and bent pixieshey you dopey gobscall yourself imps or fucking wimps?get your armour shining ,boneswaxyou, mr stinkjolt, straighten your bloody gaitersand whats this…? pimple and bumballs?sir!?wheres my cup of cold vomit with a hair in it?bumballs proffered a cup to the kingface-ache explodedTHIS BLOODY VOMIT IS WARM YOU IDIOTWHO WANTS TO DRINK WARM VOMIT IN THIS WEVVER?after the king had been placated with some brownie souphe called his generals around himorright lads, gimme the story on the warand no bullshit please gentlemencos you know i will have yer guts for fishnet gartersi’d love to see olde bloodblister in fishnets.. giggled a generaloh would you now indeedy …? said face-ache turning on himsorry king, it was just a joke…said the cringing goba joke….? a joke….?well it was not funnythe fishnets were not for my wifeif i gave ’em to her, she’d go n catch eels in ’em..they were for me…oh ha ha ha..!and face-ache prodded the cheeky black goblin with his pitchforkanyway…enough of this malarkey boys….andshow me the dead faeries…..!face-aches face was ugly and grimwe got some problems in the military oh king ..said hogeyewhat kinda problems ..said the kingoutbreaks of goodwill, sire…GOODWILL??!! the king fumedand little kindnesses ….LITTLE KINDNESSES??!!blokes dishing out compliments without warningFUCKING COMPLIMENTS!?the king […]

old face-ache was the king of the goblins
he was a hobgoblin in fact and a right bastard
he was married to bloodblister the witch a real bitch
and they had a brood of unpleasant brats
no bloody wonder i need to get outta here …face-ache thundered
how can i dream up evil and malice with this lots racket?
i thought you bloody enjoyed a nasty din…said his wife
ONLY IF I’M BLOODY MAKING IT MESELF !! bawled the king
and then he strode out of their home
which was an abandoned eagles nest
connected to a big hollow tree
‘ere you lazy sprites and bent pixies
hey you dopey gobs
call yourself imps or fucking wimps?
get your armour shining ,boneswax
you, mr stinkjolt, straighten your bloody gaiters
and whats this…? pimple and bumballs?
sir!?
wheres my cup of cold vomit with a hair in it?
bumballs proffered a cup to the king
face-ache exploded
THIS BLOODY VOMIT IS WARM YOU IDIOT
WHO WANTS TO DRINK WARM VOMIT IN THIS WEVVER?
after the king had been placated with some brownie soup
he called his generals around him
orright lads, gimme the story on the war
and no bullshit please gentlemen
cos you know i will have yer guts for fishnet garters
i’d love to see olde bloodblister in fishnets.. giggled a general
oh would you now indeedy …? said face-ache turning on him
sorry king, it was just a joke…said the cringing gob
a joke….? a joke….?
well it was not funny
the fishnets were not for my wife
if i gave ’em to her, she’d go n catch eels in ’em..
they were for me…oh ha ha ha..!
and face-ache prodded the cheeky black goblin with his pitchfork
anyway…enough of this malarkey boys….
and
show me the dead faeries…..!
face-aches face was ugly and grim
we got some problems in the military oh king ..said hogeye
what kinda problems ..said the king
outbreaks of goodwill, sire…
GOODWILL??!! the king fumed
and little kindnesses ….
LITTLE KINDNESSES??!!
blokes dishing out compliments without warning
FUCKING COMPLIMENTS!?
the king rounded on his generals
he straightened his stolen gold crown on top of his big ugly bonce
he was bloody impressive in his ‘orribleness
no ordinary goblin could challenge a hob
and face-ache was pure hob as far as any gob could remember
sire….? general wartsley an old goblin spoke up
yes wartsley you senile olde gremlin ..what is it?
some of the men are afraid, sire
they say the faeries have got johnny goblinkiller back..
WHAT?!
sire, he’s already killed 7 of my best men…
WHAT?!!
sire, the boys are grumbling about it and…
WHAT??!! GRUMBLING……?
cool down sire…we have a plan
A PLAN GENERAL WARTSLEY….YOU BETTER “AVE A PLAN…
wartsley called something to one of his men who ran off
he was back in a jiffy with a prisoner
he pushed the prisoner into the kings presence
and all the goblins began to jeer and call out
SILENCE YOU HAIRY BOLTS! he ordered
what is this we have here , wartsley? he asked in a growl
it is a half human half faery child, lord said wartsley
a groan of anger went up from the goblin soldiers
and they surged forward towards the prisoner, bristling
BACK YOU FILTHY SQUID! yelled the king and they fell back
sire we captured her wandering in the whispering wood
aha! said face-ache..pull back the hood..!
a goblin soldier pulled back the childs hood
to reveal a pale tearstained face
the girls mouth had a dirty scarf tied over it
let this monster speak said the king coldly
the soldier undid the scarf and prodded the girl forwards
what is your name, you ‘orrible childe?
face-ache asked in a voice of ice
what is your name and whither were you bound?
the girl choked back a sob
my names kathy…she said