man grove

deep n dirtythe wind burnsmy eyes are wildhurtling headlongfriction ripping off my layersi re enter an atmospherei plunge downwards towards the endi fall apart all over the placelook out nowwhen ya gonna learni achieve velocity with mere wordsput the petal to the metali explode in your mind like a balmi am all over the shop excuse mei blast out my raquet in the omni friggin’ present heati wobble before i pick up speedi overheat so easily in the marshessoon we are lost on the highway in :trees wave limply in the still airsomething slips into the waterevery move brings more stalematei randomly string sentences togetherand pretend its a blogor a poemor an impressionistick diarybarry came down the pool n punched my head indutch peter n lightfoot dragged him awaycovered in my bloodbarry slipped into the sea he was immediately snapped up by a nasty sharky shark which masticated him agonizinglysorry bout the grin thenin my dreamim singing some songin the heaty heatand ilikelook out n there is my accountant david rnow a knight of the garter snakeand i thinki’m glad he gotta good seat thenand theni wave my eyes aroundi open my armsgood god….i’m ascending…thru out…i twinklei hoveri disappearproperlyaway from the hoi polloiwho couldnt dig my deep tripin the swamp of my lifei flail i flounderi tread on dangerous thingsi put my hand in the wrong placesi trust my voice which whispers wordlesslyit saysonly when youre deadonlywhenyouredeadi enter samsaracheck in herethe voice warns me guides me guards methe voice in my head talks in a dead languagethe voice in my head instructs me to do unspeakable thingsthe voice in my head keeps mentioning some stupid namei begin to lose my temper down the long black halli imagine all the tiniest details of some roomi dont think ive ever been or […]

deep n dirty
the wind burns
my eyes are wild
hurtling headlong
friction ripping off my layers
i re enter an atmosphere
i plunge downwards towards the end
i fall apart all over the place
look out now
when ya gonna learn
i achieve velocity with mere words
put the petal to the metal
i explode in your mind like a balm
i am all over the shop excuse me
i blast out my raquet in the omni friggin’ present heat
i wobble before i pick up speed
i overheat so easily in the marshes
soon we are lost on the highway in :
trees wave limply in the still air
something slips into the water
every move brings more stalemate
i randomly string sentences together
and pretend its a blog
or a poem
or an impressionistick diary
barry came down the pool n punched my head in
dutch peter n lightfoot dragged him away
covered in my blood
barry slipped into the sea
he was immediately snapped up by a nasty sharky shark
which masticated him agonizingly
sorry bout the grin then
in my dream
im singing some song
in the heaty heat
and i
like
look out n there is my accountant david r
now a knight of the garter snake
and i think
i’m glad he gotta good seat then
and then
i wave my eyes around
i open my arms
good god….i’m ascending…thru out…
i twinkle
i hover
i disappear
properly
away from the hoi polloi
who couldnt dig my deep trip
in the swamp of my life
i flail i flounder
i tread on dangerous things
i put my hand in the wrong places
i trust my voice which whispers wordlessly
it says
only when youre dead
only
when
youre
dead
i enter samsara
check in here
the voice warns me guides me guards me
the voice in my head talks in a dead language
the voice in my head instructs me to do unspeakable things
the voice in my head keeps mentioning some stupid name
i begin to lose my temper down the long black hall
i imagine all the tiniest details of some room
i dont think ive ever been or wanna go
i turn on the radio and out jumps that voice again
the voice gives me addresses
it gives me messages from our beyond
from our far flung beyond over yonder
from some dead painter wanna use me
let me see
he says in some flemish cafe
as he counts out twenty ducats
the summer day has dazzled everyone here
we sit around languidly drinking n smoking
we celebrate the moon by strictly observed rites
kilbey types away
the painter has a sleep
the farmer grows his stuff
the dealer slings his bags
the singer sings things better left unsung
the junkie misses the vein
the driver misses the train
the lion misses the lamb
the lamb is jammed in a jamb
maybe it should ram
yeah i do my best
yeah i wander abroad
yeah i don a disguise
go amongst men as a beggar
please pay me for my bloggs
i shout feebly into the dust of caesars wanking chariot
i am whipped down by the mercenaries
who ride in empires wake
you dont know the half of it sunshine
kilbey has nearly had enough
time to close up shop
time to hunker down
time for private life
time for the trees that speak to me of their properties
time to muse on everything that ever happened to me
time to straighten it all out before i lay me down in slumber
leave me then
here
no where else to go
but wherever i want
but i dont believe it
not all the time

a secret sung

fiendssyour humble bumbling hero did wella lovely venuea big crowdan appreciative bunchthe triffids played like demonsi came on 2/3 rds the way thrusing stolen propertyeverything goes according to planthe words now lodged in my headi am free to interpretwhat an amazing songit goes down greatnext lonely stretchwow we knock it deadnext wide open roadgood but not as good as the othersencore :field of glassi go to fucking townrunning about screaming myself horsei fall to my kneesi wave me bloody arms abouti give it everythingi let my mind shutupand i let my voice just roar n singthe words all come off their carousel in my headi nail iti nail it goodno major cock-upssome minor timing issues,,,nothing morewhat a great niteim knackeredgo homeeschew after party bollockstomorrow : bimbadgen wineryok i’m well on courselovekilbey

fiendss
your humble bumbling hero did well
a lovely venue
a big crowd
an appreciative bunch
the triffids played like demons
i came on 2/3 rds the way thru
sing stolen property
everything goes according to plan
the words now lodged in my head
i am free to interpret
what an amazing song
it goes down great
next lonely stretch
wow
we knock it dead
next wide open road
good but not as good as the others
encore :field of glass
i go to fucking town
running about screaming myself horse
i fall to my knees
i wave me bloody arms about
i give it everything
i let my mind shutup
and i let my voice just roar n sing
the words all come off their carousel in my head
i nail it
i nail it good
no major cock-ups
some minor timing issues,,,nothing more
what a great nite
im knackered
go home
eschew after party bollocks
tomorrow : bimbadgen winery
ok
i’m well on course
love
kilbey

season in hell

melnibonetoo thousand plus ninetemp : 117 degreesaltitude : cruising, thank youdestination : yet to be confirmedmission : to lose myself within 4 songswhile simultaneously getting l’audience off this only will be accomplished by giving it my alltonight hamer halli must be marvellous yesbut i must subsume myselfto the greater purpose: the transcendence of l’audienceits not about mei am a cog in a big mechanismwow they gotta lotta playersbiggest band i ever played with2 drummers2 keyboardistsup to 6 or 7 guitarists2 violinstsi cellisti bass player (but what a player)sometimes electric vibesand a whole bunch of singersa three hour plus extravaganzaa crash course in the genius of dave mccombif you aint crying at the end of this…….rehearsed yesterdaymanif its as good as it was yesterday tonighti’ll be well pleasedwhen i sing these songsi release some inner beastsand they come roaring up to the surfacekicking out that smirking detached kilbeyand replacing him with some charged upsouped upgeed upgeezer wow but they are great songs to singyou can never love yer own songsthe way you love anybody elsesits not possiblemy own songs ….ah i know how they were doneother people songs i can lose myself ini play a partbut the part swallows me upi am amazed everytime i open my eyesi’m just singing a song i hope the triffids extravaganza comes to a town near youcos this is like the last waltz or rolling thunder revue or sumthingi got butterflies n goosebumpsjust sitting heredressed in a towelin some hotel just behind the gigits already hotter than than the billy-o(a line from a song i sing tonightsummer vacation n its 40 degrees)oktime for yogalunch meetingsoundcheckwait aroundwait aroundwait aroundthenknock knock knock…mr kilbey……..YOURE ON!

melnibone
too thousand plus nine
temp : 117 degrees
altitude : cruising, thank you
destination : yet to be confirmed
mission : to lose myself within 4 songs
while simultaneously getting l’audience off

this only will be accomplished by giving it my all
tonight hamer hall
i must be marvellous yes
but i must subsume myself
to the greater purpose:
the transcendence of l’audience
its not about me
i am a cog in a big mechanism
wow they gotta lotta players
biggest band i ever played with
2 drummers
2 keyboardists
up to 6 or 7 guitarists
2 violinsts
i cellist
i bass player (but what a player)
sometimes electric vibes
and a whole bunch of singers
a three hour plus extravaganza
a crash course in the genius of dave mccomb
if you aint crying at the end of this…….
rehearsed yesterday
man
if its as good as it was yesterday tonight
i’ll be well pleased
when i sing these songs
i release some inner beasts
and they come roaring up to the surface
kicking out that smirking detached kilbey
and replacing him with some charged up
souped up
geed up
geezer
wow but they are great songs to sing
you can never love yer own songs
the way you love anybody elses
its not possible
my own songs ….ah i know how they were done
other people songs i can lose myself in
i play a part
but the part swallows me up
i am amazed everytime i open my eyes
i’m just singing a song
i hope the triffids extravaganza
comes to a town near you
cos this is like the last waltz or rolling thunder revue or sumthing
i got butterflies n goosebumps
just sitting here
dressed in a towel
in some hotel just behind the gig
its already hotter than than the billy-o
(a line from a song i sing tonight
summer vacation n its 40 degrees)
ok
time for yoga
lunch meeting
soundcheck
wait around
wait around
wait around
then
knock knock knock…mr kilbey……..
YOURE ON!

the tragedians

dont come here looking for answersi am quite patently madmy parallel universes are leakingvishnu swirls it all aroundthe walls and barriers have collapsedeverything is oneverything happens at onceclairaudiencei got it in spadesi’m sitting in the park with kathy my twin sisterwell she looks like elektra my daughteronly shes taller i guessand shes dressed like them biblical n ancient womenand shes saying steven why did you let me fade in your world…?and i’m saying oh kathy…when david neil and ricky turn upand ricky looks like my dad when he was youngand david neil looks tiredand david saysi been talking to ricky about my album, man…ricky says: wait till ya hear this stuff, man…and ricky says : hey kathy….how you doing…?and kathy says: ooh its our mister ricky….and david neil says : i didnt know you hadda sister, manand he says : hi , my names david….and kathy gigglesand she says: oh i know who you are…..and ricky plonks himself down and he starts ramblinghes talking about a show he sawbut i aint listeningi’m watching david chatting up kathyand i’m getting real real angry as they sit there laughingand davids saying did you hear these guys are rereleasing my stuff….?and kathys saying i bought the wilderness years for my brothers birthdaywhen we were sixteen……and david says hey far out are you identical twins?and kathys explaining all the different types of twins to davidand rickys telling me about this guitar hes gonna buyand then ricky leans in low n saysman theres been a lot of print-thru today…..i say what do you mean, hombre?he looks up at the darkening skyyou know…the parallels….bleeding in to us here… do you really believe in that stuff? i askwhoah man…aint that david neil…hes dead!and steve….kathys not supposed to be here….ricki hissesi say fuck!david neil and kathy stand upwe’re […]

dont come here looking for answers
i am quite patently mad
my parallel universes are leaking
vishnu swirls it all around
the walls and barriers have collapsed
everything is on
everything happens at once
clairaudience
i got it in spades
i’m sitting in the park with kathy my twin sister
well she looks like elektra my daughter
only shes taller i guess
and shes dressed like them biblical n ancient women
and shes saying steven why did you let me fade in your world…?
and i’m saying oh kathy…
when david neil and ricky turn up
and ricky looks like my dad when he was young
and david neil looks tired
and david says
i been talking to ricky about my album, man…
ricky says: wait till ya hear this stuff, man…
and ricky says : hey kathy….how you doing…?
and kathy says: ooh its our mister ricky….
and david neil says : i didnt know you hadda sister, man
and he says : hi , my names david….
and kathy giggles
and she says: oh i know who you are…..
and ricky plonks himself down and he starts rambling
hes talking about a show he saw
but i aint listening
i’m watching david chatting up kathy
and i’m getting real real angry as they sit there laughing
and davids saying did you hear these guys are rereleasing my stuff….?
and kathys saying i bought the wilderness years for my brothers birthday
when we were sixteen……
and david says hey far out are you identical twins?
and kathys explaining all the different types of twins to david
and rickys telling me about this guitar hes gonna buy
and then ricky leans in low n says
man theres been a lot of print-thru today…..
i say what do you mean, hombre?
he looks up at the darkening sky
you know…the parallels….bleeding in to us here…
do you really believe in that stuff? i ask
whoah man…aint that david neil…hes dead!
and steve….kathys not supposed to be here….ricki hisses
i say fuck!
david neil and kathy stand up
we’re gonna get a drink he says
oh yeah ?….i say standing up
ricky says ooh take it easy n slightly restraining my arm
i shake it off angrily
i take kathy aside
dont go n drink with him!
she stares back
a female version of me
or am i
a parallel male version of her?
she was born 13 minutes after me
i have always tried to boss her around
i have always competed with her for dads affection
i have done things to get her into trouble
i have been rude and stupid and aloof
she stares back at me furious
i dont even exist in your world
and you dare to tell me who i can drink with…!?
david neil sticks his nose in
whats the problem here my man?
no fucking problem man…
we start pushing each other
you canadian prick….
you fuckin’ wanna piece of me..?
get yer fucking coat off then….
ricky jumps up
whoa hey hey slow down
he gently takes neil outta my face
kathy shakes her head
steven, he’d have you for breakfast…dont be stupid…
kathy i say
dont fuck david neil!
we stand there facing off
the same height
the same eyes
the same intensity
steven she says
you got some fucking nerve…
and then she smiles
and she looks just a photo i saw of her once
and she tries to embrace me
but i’m pushing her away
no no no
and david neil says :kathy, you comin’?
and its night now properly
and peacocks stroll through the park
and genetically modified unicorns
and lovely little water dragons
and graceful striped swans
and mythological chimeras
and dwarves dressed in satin finery
and marc bolan comes out of a big hollow tree
and dad appears out of nowhere
dont tell me you 2 are at it again?
and he looks at kathy with favour
and me with disfavour
ricky says is that your dad?
and kathy says
dad this is ricky n this is david
and dad says david neil?
david says yeah
and dad sings a few bars of one of davids songs
and everybody laughs a little
and dad starts talking about the piano
and kathy puts her arm around his waist
and they both giggle as she squeezes him
come ‘ere then slim! dad says
and kathy and dad beckon to me
but i cant i cant i cant
and david neil says
steve whats up with you?
and i turn around
david youre dead
dad youre dead
kathy you dont belong here anymore
ricky says : now youre being a real bummer, man…
and i say
ok
all of you
do what you want
and i’m crying in frustration
cos i cant control anybody let alone myself
and i love davids music
and i love my long gone dad
and i love my little sister kk
but they all walk away
walk away
walk away
you could go after ’em says ricky quietly
no i couldnt i say
and we both sit there for a long time in the darkness
eventually my amigo pulls something out of his pocket
and sticks a thin white joint in my gob
what about the cops i say?
fuck em ! he says
as his lighter flares
in the black australian summer night
and i inhale
deeply

heartbreaking blog of epic proportions

softnessentering sleep another waymeander over verdant vistahook up with yourself sometimeforever never overthe place where songs arepictures of songsvision of soundsongs growing wildsongs on the vinesongs for the asking masking and baskingsongs long and shortsongs of songswhat is a good song?a good song makes it bettera bad song makes it worsemy songs avoid these issuesmy songs are not good or badmy songs are ideasexpressed by the uni-versethrough meits only sonmy songs are not about thingsthey are the things themselvesonce written they exist eternallyonce sung they move into your cortexesmy songs i heard on some windmy songs i snatched from your dreamsmy songs accompany me through lifethey arrive before me and switch on the musicthey wait till i am asleep n turn off the lightmy songs are solid my songs have minds of their ownwhen my songs hear a new songthey come running to me“a new song a new song!”my songs dont argue with each other over keysmy songs are so ambiguousonly god knows their true meaningmy songs have no true meaning on earthi borrowed them from the thin airi never remember their birthdaysonce gone some never returnonce youve worked them outthey will become shy around youmy songs are memoryproofmy songs are as good as their wordmy songs are masculine feminine and childmy songs call on the pastthey visit the futurethey dabble in the presentthey discover themselvesre establish a connexionburn themselves onto hard distancemy songs go lala la la la la de damy songs go bang bang bangmy songs howl in terror and delightmy songs are bait a trap a fix a stonea stalliona rivera counter pointa reprisewhy dont we sing this song altogetheropen our eyes let the pictures come

softness
entering sleep another way
meander over verdant vista
hook up with yourself sometime
forever never over
the place where songs are
pictures of songs
vision of sound
songs growing wild
songs on the vine
songs for the asking masking and basking
songs long and short
songs of songs
what is a good song?
a good song makes it better
a bad song makes it worse
my songs avoid these issues
my songs are not good or bad
my songs are ideas
expressed by the uni-verse
through me
its only son
my songs are not about things
they are the things themselves
once written they exist eternally
once sung they move into your cortexes
my songs i heard on some wind
my songs i snatched from your dreams
my songs accompany me through life
they arrive before me and switch on the music
they wait till i am asleep n turn off the light
my songs are solid
my songs have minds of their own
when my songs hear a new song
they come running to me
“a new song a new song!”
my songs dont argue with each other over keys
my songs are so ambiguous
only god knows their true meaning
my songs have no true meaning on earth
i borrowed them from the thin air
i never remember their birthdays
once gone some never return
once youve worked them out
they will become shy around you
my songs are memoryproof
my songs are as good as their word
my songs are masculine feminine and child
my songs call on the past
they visit the future
they dabble in the present
they discover themselves
re establish a connexion
burn themselves onto hard distance
my songs go lala la la la la de da
my songs go bang bang bang
my songs howl in terror and delight
my songs are bait a trap a fix a stone
a stallion
a river
a counter point
a reprise
why dont we sing this song altogether
open our eyes let the pictures come

surprising facts about fiction

kilbeytypetype typego olde boytype it all uplike an eagle in the skywaysits too hot to imagine a blogthe sweat runs over my ibookas i labour awayin the bristling morningstick on my migrastick for my ever present headachei told ya genius was paini’m hot n i’m angryand all these words pouring outta me like the sweatand planes cruise thru the painful skytheir noise re echoing in the filthy heatoh the drumsoh the drumsoh the infernal summer sitting here unclad n sweatinghot n red like an olde lobstermanin some hot little holei wave my great clause around and i boil slowly in the drowning airget a fix on mei’m just behind those cliffsin my hot little houseand i’m tuned in to the heatand i’m wired up all over my mansuitand i move thru this air like a missilei eat mangoes n bananasi drink rice milkat least my diet is purei vibrate so much faster nowi can dissolvei can leave if i wanti have written 2 thousand songsi sing the body hypnotiquei am no prophet in any landi am too fucking good for themi coulda been a contenderizeri coulda had it allbut it was not my fatethis had to be my pathbecause fame n flattery n gluttonybring ya monotonyand if you try to playmonotonyyou may end up with a supertax gobblin’ up your pass go doughwhile being in mayfair in a red hotel recedes into yer distance and i’m tired of only being second in the beauty contestand i’m too hot to care about yer triple double sixand i wont visit ya in jailbecause i hate those timid freed menand i suppress murderous thoughtsbrought on by the oh the heat…i hit the pool soonyeah if i swim it all out like an eagle in the skywayyeah my unicorn you were born to ityeah […]

kilbey
type
type
type
go olde boy
type it all up
like an eagle in the skyways
its too hot to imagine a blog
the sweat runs over my ibook
as i labour away
in the bristling morning
stick on my migrastick for my ever present headache
i told ya genius was pain
i’m hot n i’m angry
and all these words pouring outta me like the sweat
and planes cruise thru the painful sky
their noise re echoing in the filthy heat
oh the drums
oh the drums
oh the infernal summer
sitting here unclad n sweating
hot n red like an olde lobsterman
in some hot little hole
i wave my great clause around
and i boil slowly in the drowning air
get a fix on me
i’m just behind those cliffs
in my hot little house
and i’m tuned in to the heat
and i’m wired up all over my mansuit
and i move thru this air like a missile
i eat mangoes n bananas
i drink rice milk
at least my diet is pure
i vibrate so much faster now
i can dissolve
i can leave if i want
i have written 2 thousand songs
i sing the body hypnotique
i am no prophet in any land
i am too fucking good for them
i coulda been a contenderizer
i coulda had it all
but it was not my fate
this had to be my path
because fame n flattery n gluttony
bring ya monotony
and if you try to play
monotony
you may end up with a supertax gobblin’ up your pass go dough
while being in mayfair in a red hotel recedes into yer distance
and i’m tired of only being second in the beauty contest
and i’m too hot to care about yer triple double six
and i wont visit ya in jail
because i hate those timid freed men
and i suppress murderous thoughts
brought on by the oh the heat…
i hit the pool soon
yeah if i swim it all out like an eagle in the skyway
yeah my unicorn you were born to it
yeah lithon the black
the rider of stars
yeah
tyrannosaurus rex
the eater of cars
yeah
time being in excelsis
the kicker of arse
yeah
cover me wild bill hickok
yeah cover me botticelli
yeah cover me mickey finn
yeah cover me gala dali
yeah cover me dave mccomb
yeah cover me ian rilen
yeah cover me narcissus
yeah cover me bewlay sisters
yeah heres some heat for all my fans still in winter
heres some hot air from the furnace of the sun
heres some gaseous explosions straight outta mah head
heres some warmth from my savage pen
heres some january blast from the antipodes
where things are warming up
hold my sweaty hand you stupid world
i’m gonna lead ya down the jardin path
bring yer parasol
bring your suntan lotion
bring yer fucking hat
bring yer white clothes
bring your goggles n schnorkle
bring yer flippers n yer flip flops
pull yer thongs over those things
sing a song like i sings
i sings about the hot bite of the clouds
i sings about men who turn into pigs
n women who turn into witches
i sing about the distance n the time
i sing about the zeitgeist and its tendrils
i sing about the opulence of vishnu
i sing about the capriciousness of venus
i sing about getting born n the big sleep
i sing about the love between
my brothers n my sisters
all over this triple world
and why
you ask
why why why
do you sing sing sing of these things, oh kilbey…?

BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE FUCKING CAN!

sydneys weather forecast : infernal fucking heat

jesus christ…i’m an englishmanits just gone 7 in the morningand its over 85 degreesAND I LIVE IN THE COOL PART OF TOWNpoor old timbo its gotta be 10 degrees moreout his way in the western subsa giant praying mantis hangs off my fly screenmy room is such an unbelievable messi cant find anythinglast night me n scarlet kilbeywho is my familiarwho is my doublewho is my oppositewe went down n had a swim at 8 pmwe talked all the way therelil sk :would the bock-ock man be there ?big sk : no…i doubt itlil ; would ariel the mermaid….or king triton…?big : maybe…..lil : or prepps eregut(this is her way of saying prince eric who is ariels hubby)big : no no prepps eregutlil (becoming angry) : not prepps eregut PREPPS EREGUT!!!big : ok ok okwe get down to bondi bloody beachits all blokes with metal detectorsand couples who should getta roombut are making outmaking upor making iton the beach in the fading lightanother dad with a kid scarlets agescarlet n the kid hook up immediatelyevery time i try to talk to the dad thothe little brat comes over n screamswhy?jesus his shrill little screams hurt my old damaged earsthe dad drops his conversation like hotcakeswhen the little bugger interrupts usthe kid demands that they go homefuck mate ..i saythe first half yer lifeyer parents boss ya roundthe second half its yer fuckin’ kids…he smiles sadly n wanders offwith the kid on his shouldersstill ordering him roundscarlet kilbey is throwing herself into the surf with gleethe water is icy cold and i feel a million times betterthe moment the pacific ocean lays its cool cool hands on my headthe waves are breaking onshoreand i scratch up me chest on the sandmy swimmers fill up with sand tooand despite a long shower […]

jesus christ…i’m an englishman
its just gone 7 in the morning
and its over 85 degrees
AND I LIVE IN THE COOL PART OF TOWN
poor old timbo its gotta be 10 degrees more
out his way in the western subs
a giant praying mantis hangs off my fly screen
my room is such an unbelievable mess
i cant find anything
last night me n scarlet kilbey
who is my familiar
who is my double
who is my opposite
we went down n had a swim at 8 pm
we talked all the way there
lil sk :would the bock-ock man be there ?
big sk : no…i doubt it
lil ; would ariel the mermaid….or king triton…?
big : maybe…..
lil : or prepps eregut
(this is her way of saying prince eric who is ariels hubby)
big : no no prepps eregut
lil (becoming angry) : not prepps eregut PREPPS EREGUT!!!
big : ok ok ok
we get down to bondi bloody beach
its all blokes with metal detectors
and couples who should getta room
but are making out
making up
or making it
on the beach in the fading light
another dad with a kid scarlets age
scarlet n the kid hook up immediately
every time i try to talk to the dad tho
the little brat comes over n screams
why?
jesus his shrill little screams hurt my old damaged ears
the dad drops his conversation like hotcakes
when the little bugger interrupts us
the kid demands that they go home
fuck mate ..i say
the first half yer life
yer parents boss ya round
the second half its yer fuckin’ kids…
he smiles sadly n wanders off
with the kid on his shoulders
still ordering him round
scarlet kilbey is throwing herself into the surf with glee
the water is icy cold and i feel a million times better
the moment the pacific ocean lays its cool cool hands on my head
the waves are breaking onshore
and i scratch up me chest on the sand
my swimmers fill up with sand too
and despite a long shower
some of the sand rides home with me
in all kinds of intimate places
later to irritate me all night long….oh bollocks!
me n scarlet stop in at an israeli place
n buy some hot chips
it burns my hand to carry em
and i drop most of em on the footpath
just outside our blooming place
i come in with a half empty ripped bag
but aurora n scarlet n i still tuck in to some that are left
yadda yadda yadda
the heat goes on into the night
i wake up at 2 30 unable to sleep
i sit on the balcony in the darkness
there is not one breath of air
the night is totally still
it still must be about 90 something
bloody colonies!
phew…whatta scorcher
izzit hot enuff for ya then ?

long hot summer

fucking hot day blooms outside my doorits gonna be a million degreesand its not yet even 8 oh clocki am the time beingthese are my journalseverything you read here is trueeverything is permittedwe are making good timewe are covering vast distanceswe are off the beaten trackwe are in the interzone here we are in the white hot day of gods summerhere we are on the hill of morninghere we are waiting in the true haze of memorywe are at the heart of the controls we stand in nepal n chat with lord ganeshawe crash land on cythera …wheres aphrodite…?anywhere you wanna go just be thereanything you wanna have just take it yeah life speeds up …i told you that…but ohi’m loving being oldenow i have the POWERha ha hathis brief flowering before i’m scrambled againtook me so long to put this all togetherall things are becoming obvious againall the things i shoulda rememberedalong the wayi perceive the patterns behind art music poetryi perceive the lie of the landi perceive the handsome men n lovely ladiesi perceive the white stars burning in their blue holesi perceive the children endlessly asking questionsi perceive the evil in all mens heartsthe carelessnessthe futilitythe ambitionyes i seeyes i notemy many faults n failingsmy own trespassmy own crueltiesmy own bitternessesmy own lacksmy own unnecessarymy own brutalmy my my the weather outside turns overcasti will take my girls to the beachthey will chatter to me all the way and backthey will plunge into the oceanthe way they will one dayplunge into the arms of menand i…..i will disappear into the undetermined futurei will reappearwell maskedno doubti will come backand struggle all over againbut next timei will reach a slightly higher point than thisthis steve kilbey in his nice mansuit if you cant feel the truth in this….if […]

fucking hot day blooms outside my door
its gonna be a million degrees
and its not yet even 8 oh clock
i am the time being
these are my journals
everything you read here is true
everything is permitted
we are making good time
we are covering vast distances
we are off the beaten track
we are in the interzone
here we are in the white hot day of gods summer
here we are on the hill of morning
here we are waiting in the true haze of memory
we are at the heart of the controls
we stand in nepal n chat with lord ganesha
we crash land on cythera …wheres aphrodite…?
anywhere you wanna go just be there
anything you wanna have just take it
yeah life speeds up …i told you that…
but oh
i’m loving being olde
now i have the POWER
ha ha ha
this brief flowering before i’m scrambled again
took me so long to put this all together
all things are becoming obvious again
all the things i shoulda remembered
along the way
i perceive the patterns behind art music poetry
i perceive the lie of the land
i perceive the handsome men n lovely ladies
i perceive the white stars burning in their blue holes
i perceive the children endlessly asking questions
i perceive the evil in all mens hearts
the carelessness
the futility
the ambition
yes i see
yes i note
my many faults n failings
my own trespass
my own cruelties
my own bitternesses
my own lacks
my own unnecessary
my own brutal
my my my
the weather outside turns overcast
i will take my girls to the beach
they will chatter to me all the way and back
they will plunge into the ocean
the way they will one day
plunge into the arms of men
and i…..
i will disappear into the undetermined future
i will reappear
well masked
no doubt
i will come back
and struggle all over again
but next time
i will reach a slightly higher point than this
this steve kilbey in his nice mansuit
if you cant feel the truth in this….
if you cant see it….
oh well
nevermind

oh vishnu

the night has a thousand eyesthe indian nightwhere krishna waits for his radhawhere swans glide silently o’er black watersand flowers perfume the darknessthat sound of the flutekrishnas fluteplaying off in the distancelisten!there…… deep amongst the treesdeep in the deep heart of the nightwhen the 21st century sleeps …..the 21st centuryi hate it!i hate the noisei hate the rulesi hate the humdrumeverything in me longs to be goneto walk in that peaceful placeto lay by grey lakes in eveningsits surface a mirror of heavento dissolve my soul of steve kilbeyto wash that man right out of my hairi am not himhe is a bouy floating on my seahe is a spokesman for only himselfin times of painin times of danger we separatethe deep methe shallow mewhen the bubble burstswhen the parties are all overwhen the masks are all forgottenme as big as the skyme being anywheremulti-locationalomni-directionaloh vishnu this is hard to reconcile to kilbeyoh vishnuare you still listening in that little house in my heartare you beside me all the wayare you a symbolare you a possibilityare you a way for stupid men to approach the truthwith your one thousand namescolour of a cloud your compassionate eyes that see everythingeach sparrowfalleach sacrifice however smalleach transgressioneach prayerpray harder ! someone sayssling yourself into itgive whatever you canbelieve whatever you canvishnu is dreaming this all upwe’re all part of his dreamhe sleeps out thereand his lovely wife soothes him as he dreams this stuff uphis lovely wife who happens to be the goddess of fortuneshe smooths his hairshe gently strokes his templesas he dreams dreams dreamsdreams indistinguishable from realityreality within a dreambig dreams of universessmall dreams of antsfast dream of manslow dream of timelife after life after lifethe same old routineam i awakeam i asleepam i franz bloody kafkaor am i really a […]

the night has a thousand eyes
the indian night
where krishna waits for his radha
where swans glide silently o’er black waters
and flowers perfume the darkness
that sound of the flute
krishnas flute
playing
off in the distance
listen!
there……
deep amongst the trees
deep in the deep heart of the night
when the 21st century sleeps …..
the 21st century
i hate it!
i hate the noise
i hate the rules
i hate the humdrum
everything in me longs to be gone
to walk in that peaceful place
to lay by grey lakes in evenings
its surface a mirror of heaven
to dissolve my soul of steve kilbey
to wash that man right out of my hair
i am not him
he is a bouy floating on my sea
he is a spokesman for only himself
in times of pain
in times of danger
we separate
the deep me
the shallow me
when the bubble bursts
when the parties are all over
when the masks are all forgotten
me as big as the sky
me being anywhere
multi-locational
omni-directional
oh vishnu this is hard to reconcile to kilbey
oh vishnu
are you still listening in that little house in my heart
are you beside me all the way
are you a symbol
are you a possibility
are you a way for stupid men to approach the truth
with your one thousand names
colour of a cloud
your compassionate eyes that see everything
each sparrowfall
each sacrifice however small
each transgression
each prayer
pray harder ! someone says
sling yourself into it
give whatever you can
believe whatever you can
vishnu is dreaming this all up
we’re all part of his dream
he sleeps out there
and his lovely wife soothes him as he dreams this stuff up
his lovely wife who happens to be the goddess of fortune
she smooths his hair
she gently strokes his temples
as he dreams dreams dreams
dreams indistinguishable from reality
reality within a dream
big dreams of universes
small dreams of ants
fast dream of man
slow dream of time
life after life after life
the same old routine
am i awake
am i asleep
am i franz bloody kafka
or am i really a beetle this time
is there life on other planets
hell yeah
whats its all about alfie
when you said you had it all worked out
why should we be nice to our each other
after all it was all someone elses fault
and every generation throws a hero up the pop charts
and no one can help themselves
destiny is pre ordained but i got my free will
dont i?
i see it all coming i could get outta the way
the deep me says duck you fucking fool
the shallow me
the kilbey
the erm steve kilbey
he says
lets ‘ave a look
and down comes the comet
or the earth opens wide in a chasm
or lady godiva stops on ‘er ‘orse
and points
and says
him!
he looked!
and everybody gets angry
and i’m running away from these angry villagers
cos i’m a heretic and a lunatic
and just as theyre banging me up on a flaming cross
i’m thinking hang on….
the deep me is thinking
hang on…..
and i wake up
and i get born
and i grow up in some ways
and i learn my lessons
and i do my bit
i sing my songs
i do my chores
and i get thoroughly lost
despite the many signs you have placed here
which say
danger ahead!
this way!
that way!
you are now entering no mans land
and the signs i didnt see
cos i was too busy driving
driving my point home
driving a hard old bargain
driving people crazy
in many different and absurd ways
shallowman your life is the unexpurgated living daylights
india is as distant as ever
it calls you but you are deaf
anxiety follows you all of your days
an idiot with a leaf blower in your quietest garden
your feathers are so ruffled you can hardly fly
you stand on the ground taking potshots at turkeys
you curse the racket of the times in a loud voice
why do i have to do this
why do i have to do that
why this question
kilbey slumps
kilbey has run out of steam
horrible industrial sounds mar this quiet morning
disturbing my reverie
with their roars and screams and grinds
india recedes before my messed up minds eye
krishnas dreamy flute is drowned out
radha is lost in the night
the swans fly off
the flowers close up
and the 21st century wakes
all wimpy and useless
looks itself in the mirror
9 years old
it says
fuck!

new church album(straight from the panthers mouth)

been listening to new church albumwe gonna try n do some final fixes and stuffit should all be finished soonishcan reveal names of songsnot necessarily in this orderhope the other churchmen dont mind me spilling the beans(fuck em if they cant take a joke!)COBALT BLUEPRINT this will be the opener for sureweird chord progressionclaustrophobic moodloads of beautiful guitar solossample lyric: motel bar the dirty sulky moonturn my head uplet it all cocoon************** DEADMANS HANDi play a downwards guitar thingmarty plays a complicated up n down basstim weighs in at end with george harrison guitar soloone of my faves anywaysample lyric : dealing out love n retributiondealing out the deadmans hand**************************OPERETTA probably the closer of the albumi play piano marty on basspete on string guitarfrankie k on whimsical 12 stringthis is like a mini song cyclei think this is a fucking cracker!you gonna love it or elsesample lyric: in summer timepicking up an insistent distant beatbeach comber come home nowcome in from the heat*****************************PANGAEA beatley melodic mellotronsif there was a singlethis would be it i supposesample lyric :pangaea uh uh alrightpangaea uh ah together this ones easy to love!*************************HAPPENSTANCEi dunno …pastoral or somethingthen marty starts singing tooand things become darkerlike im in dayand hes in nightlots of weird noises on theresome lovely fuckedup guitar soundsbut still its very melodicsample lyric:marty : close your eyes in the darktheyve opened up a dooryou feel the energy arc…me : when the honeyed days of love returnand the king is drunk upon his throne****************************************SUNKEN SUNa shorter strange little songfemale mellotron voxme doing a santana lead at the end (he hopes!)sample lyric :i ripped up my return ticketn hurled it into the skyi kneeled down n i kissed the groundi knew then it was your turn to fly***********************************SPACE SAVIOURok this one rocksits rocks raggedly n stumbling […]

been listening to new church album
we gonna try n do some final fixes and stuff
it should all be finished soonish
can reveal names of songs
not necessarily in this order
hope the other churchmen dont mind me spilling the beans
(fuck em if they cant take a joke!)
COBALT BLUEPRINT
this will be the opener for sure
weird chord progression
claustrophobic mood
loads of beautiful guitar solos
sample lyric:
motel bar the dirty sulky moon
turn my head up
let it all cocoon
**************
DEADMANS HAND
i play a downwards guitar thing
marty plays a complicated up n down bass
tim weighs in at end with george harrison guitar solo
one of my faves anyway
sample lyric :
dealing out love n retribution
dealing out the deadmans hand
**************************
OPERETTA
probably the closer of the album
i play piano
marty on bass
pete on string guitar
frankie k on whimsical 12 string
this is like a mini song cycle
i think this is a fucking cracker!
you gonna love it or else
sample lyric:
in summer time
picking up an insistent distant beat
beach comber come home now
come in from the heat
*****************************
PANGAEA
beatley melodic mellotrons
if there was a single
this would be it i suppose
sample lyric :
pangaea uh uh alright
pangaea uh ah together

this ones easy to love!
*************************
HAPPENSTANCE
i dunno …pastoral or something
then marty starts singing too
and things become darker
like im in day
and hes in night
lots of weird noises on there
some lovely fuckedup guitar sounds
but still its very melodic
sample lyric:
marty : close your eyes in the dark
theyve opened up a door
you feel the energy arc…
me : when the honeyed days of love return
and the king is drunk upon his throne
****************************************
SUNKEN SUN
a shorter strange little song
female mellotron vox
me doing a santana lead at the end (he hopes!)
sample lyric :
i ripped up my return ticket
n hurled it into the sky
i kneeled down n i kissed the ground
i knew then it was your turn to fly
***********************************
SPACE SAVIOUR
ok this one rocks
its rocks raggedly n stumbling along
i play guitar
marty plays drums
i dunno
its got piano n organ n stuff too
it really doth rock, childe
sample lyric:
oh my little panda
i dont understand her
with her natural grandeur
and i cant let it go….
**************************
ANCHORAGE
a cold and nasty song
about some ambiguous ‘orrible goings on
i play discordant guitar
peter on twin basses
cello too
icy!
sample lyric :
down at the docks
i was shocked not to be discovered..
*********************************
LUNAR
downright weird dark little song
that changes all over the place
until before yer very eyes it turns into
a brief anthemic doo dah
indescribable!
sample lyric:
all that it was was a cannibal buzz
leading you on day on day
************************************
ON ANGEL STREET
i play organ
frankie on bass
marty on disturbed guitar
a sad sad song
sample lyric:
i saw your brother during lunch
i knew at once that he was mad
he had
been standing in the rain
to catch some snow
*******************************

overall this is a pretty impressive record
a different atmosphere from ultc by a long shot
there will also be an e.p.
featuring
pangaea
so love may find us(the epic)
l.l.c. pk singing
insanity mwp singing

stay tuned

fin it