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my world in one day

  i am compelled to believe in a god and i thank him my life is a real baroque maze it is a bizarre riddle still i have had my health and i have eked out a living playing not working all extremes combined into one i have stumbled through life certain wearinesses appear reminding me of my approaching winter and my long rest too hard to be soft too soft to be hard music words art have become easy for me but life is getting harder i tell you again with all my words yet i cannot seem to reason with many my anger and self-doubt trip me up my pre-occupation with art consumes me i work on things in my head i can’t keep track of all this on the outside i have my own taboos and formulae and rituals given isolation in a music studio and an art enclave oh i would certainly produce something very good the outside world intrudes of course i don’t get enough done i need to create I’ve gotta get cracking every day or 2 a new thing crops up good things bad things neutral things eats up yer time and inclination to do something my world drives me mad it is one conundrum on top of one more conundrum writing a song? no worries sorting all the rest out? weariness descends i am at the centre yet have frittered away authority old myths linger the new me is perceived only dimly as i get freer i get more entangled then suddenly even tomorrow it may all suddenly stop and all the manoeuvring will be as nothing just more bullshit contributing to ones demise  

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the author ache

 

i am compelled to believe in a god and i thank him

my life is a real baroque maze

it is a bizarre riddle

still i have had my health and i have eked out a living

playing not working

all extremes combined into one i have stumbled through life

certain wearinesses appear reminding me of my approaching winter

and my long rest

too hard to be soft

too soft to be hard

music words art have become easy for me

but life is getting harder

i tell you again

with all my words yet i cannot seem to reason with many

my anger and self-doubt trip me up

my pre-occupation with art consumes me

i work on things in my head

i can’t keep track of all this on the outside

i have my own taboos and formulae and rituals

given isolation in a music studio and an art enclave

oh i would certainly produce something very good

the outside world intrudes of course

i don’t get enough done

i need to create

I’ve gotta get cracking

every day or 2 a new thing crops up

good things bad things neutral things

eats up yer time and inclination to do something

my world drives me mad

it is one conundrum on top of one more conundrum

writing a song?

no worries

sorting all the rest out?

weariness descends

i am at the centre yet have frittered away authority

old myths linger

the new me is perceived only dimly

as i get freer i get more entangled

then suddenly even tomorrow

it may all suddenly stop

and all the manoeuvring will be as nothing

just more bullshit contributing to ones demise

 

ed cashless and the toffee hammers

  driving down the old highway the car against the road is the low hum of the strings the cars rushing past are cymbals and tambourines the winds blowing in my windows are flutes and piccolos the rattles in the car are the snares and castanets the cicadas in the trees are the white noise of one million stratocasters the cars blow their horns the tyres drum on the bitumen in my head the music goes round the busted a.c. is a leslie cabinet the australian sun is a spotlight the blue sky a vast curtain the miles are my songs the years are my band the long long years it is australia any year summer this is my 57th summer the bell birds are xylophones and glocks suddenly my extended metaphor tires me my golden the falcon sings so smoothly though my heart a bass drum bump bomp my cough is reedy and percussive my pulse is in 4/4 time four on the flaw i accelerate through space i move constantly through time i groove on my train of thought some weird station has a weird show on weird music such and such a composer exploring dissonance dissonance is that a latinate word for racket? i’m working on the  film score in my head i start to question my values on music some pieces on the weird show are a racket and some of them are actually much more than that but i can’t understand the appeal of the racket anymore tho i once told my self i was across a decent racket maybe i was fooling whoever i dreamed i was i am nothing fixed although i drift towards a purer position with music i mean simplicity melody the recombination of a thousand tiny tricks i follow hunches […]

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storm element

 

driving down the old highway

the car against the road is the low hum of the strings

the cars rushing past are cymbals and tambourines

the winds blowing in my windows are flutes and piccolos

the rattles in the car are the snares and castanets

the cicadas in the trees are the white noise of one million stratocasters

the cars blow their horns

the tyres drum on the bitumen

in my head the music goes round

the busted a.c. is a leslie cabinet

the australian sun is a spotlight

the blue sky a vast curtain

the miles are my songs

the years are my band

the long long years

it is australia any year

summer this is my 57th summer

the bell birds are xylophones and glocks

suddenly my extended metaphor tires me

my golden the falcon sings so smoothly though

my heart a bass drum bump bomp

my cough is reedy and percussive

my pulse is in 4/4 time

four on the flaw

i accelerate through space

i move constantly through time

i groove on my train of thought

some weird station has a weird show on weird music

such and such a composer exploring dissonance

dissonance is that a latinate word for racket?

i’m working on the  film score in my head

i start to question my values on music

some pieces on the weird show are a racket

and some of them are actually much more than that

but i can’t understand the appeal of the racket anymore

tho i once told my self i was across a decent racket

maybe i was fooling whoever i dreamed i was

i am nothing fixed

although i drift towards a purer position

with music i mean

simplicity melody

the recombination of a thousand tiny tricks

i follow hunches

i listen to instinct

the very first thing you think of is often the best *

all the time

my lazy easy way of doing things

if you try you’ve already lost

it just has to come easy

easy come and easy go

like life itself

never grasp at it too hard

i made that mistake

i wanted everything at once

it was unobtainable to me at 16

i wanted it all and i tried n i tried

playing the bass was the easiest bit

i was up and running in no time

i mean you don’t have to mozart to go bang bong bong on a bass

so what… i was another contender making a row in a garage

i met some truly gifted players like dave scotland and dave young

young brilliant guitarists who could have gone all the way imhfo

of course peter koppes of whom it is hard to imagine

a time when he was not accomplished on a load of instruments

his understanding of music is that of an absolute master

his playing is filled with restrained power and melodic grace

his sound is vast and distant

sometimes its hard to understand what he is actually doing

to his apollo is martys dionysus

more abrasive more metallic more inflaming

thus they interweave both being ying and yang at anyone time

well that is today for you

the girls and i  received some very nice gifts too

and i’m eating a bit of a gift now

but not looking gift horses in their mouths

i am grateful

australia is a nice nice place

i like my car i really do

it seems to purr

i drive on and out of sight

roll credits

 

* conditions apply

spirited

  the women sang in babylon the song they sang in babylonian slang they sang of the one god ammons song they sway through afternoons of palm and silk eating chocolate locusts and baboon milk inside the circle where a priestess knelt she had the tattoo of Set the coiled one she had the mark of the moon on her skin like drum she had a scar upon her cheetah her fur had blurred to numb the snow had come to hyperborea but in the south an everlasting summer held sway in the streets the pyramids amid the continental drift the glacial crystals embedded in one nostril in the other sky you both hold Wrath and the music you cannot stop but you can never remember it either neither beat nor sound around the treble cliffs i hear like a bat i see like a dog i growl like an eagle i charge like a speeding arrow ioh  ioh ioh ioh the sumerian league a million feet hence a furlong in ireland a chain in odense i marvel at miracles i clamber defence its early for me its late for the rents i see that everything here makes perfect sense  

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ganymede flash

 

the women sang in babylon

the song they sang in babylonian slang

they sang of the one god ammons song

they sway through afternoons of palm and silk

eating chocolate locusts and baboon milk

inside the circle where a priestess knelt

she had the tattoo of Set the coiled one

she had the mark of the moon on her skin like drum

she had a scar upon her cheetah

her fur had blurred to numb

the snow had come to hyperborea

but in the south an everlasting summer held sway in the streets

the pyramids amid the continental drift

the glacial crystals embedded in one nostril

in the other sky you both hold Wrath

and the music you cannot stop

but you can never remember it either

neither beat nor sound around the treble cliffs

i hear like a bat i see like a dog

i growl like an eagle i charge like a speeding arrow

ioh  ioh ioh ioh

the sumerian league a million feet hence

a furlong in ireland a chain in odense

i marvel at miracles i clamber defence

its early for me its late for the rents

i see that everything here

makes perfect sense

 

meanwhile for the time being

just a short note i am working hard on the soundtrack this logic program is a lotta fun for a composer getting the hang of it a bit meanwhile the wars rage on my war on everything else i suppose gonna go down fighting never gently all the people i fight depend on me but never vice versa i am insane in a different way i am realistically insane i am insane yet quite reliable i mean i turn up don’t i? a lot of people kinda depending on me in all kinda different ways the pressure is subtle yet its continuity is crushing tears threats mumbles harsh voices i ask for so little back….from anyone…. just friendship i guess just be reasonable i guess my idea of reasonable is unreasonable i want a quiet life i want to create it is a waste of my time doing anything else i have so much yet to create and probably not so much time everything else is a drain the world spins harder faster more wildly more great successes more devastating failures strangers veneration and the familiars avoid i am loving and hating being me i am not steve kilbey he is an actor he is a mask he is a temporary aberration a ripple on a stillness that is eternal yet all this music all these words all these ideas the universe has widened my bite and shortened my leash other peoples madness is driving me crazy at least i realise i am one tune  short of an album I’ve turned my nuttiness into songs for fun and prophet i have turned into something rare right before our eyes believe me all the stuff now comes to me effortlessly as if by magic it kills me to know i will […]

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column blind

just a short note

i am working hard on the soundtrack

this logic program is a lotta fun for a composer

getting the hang of it a bit

meanwhile the wars rage on

my war on everything else i suppose

gonna go down fighting never gently

all the people i fight depend on me but never vice versa

i am insane in a different way

i am realistically insane

i am insane yet quite reliable

i mean i turn up don’t i?

a lot of people kinda depending on me

in all kinda different ways

the pressure is subtle yet its continuity is crushing

tears threats mumbles harsh voices

i ask for so little back….from anyone….

just friendship i guess just be reasonable

i guess my idea of reasonable is unreasonable

i want a quiet life i want to create

it is a waste of my time doing anything else

i have so much yet to create and probably not so much time

everything else is a drain

the world spins harder faster more wildly

more great successes more devastating failures

strangers veneration and the familiars avoid

i am loving and hating being me

i am not steve kilbey

he is an actor he is a mask

he is a temporary aberration

a ripple on a stillness that is eternal

yet all this music all these words all these ideas

the universe has widened my bite and shortened my leash

other peoples madness is driving me crazy

at least i realise i am one tune  short of an album

I’ve turned my nuttiness into songs for fun and prophet

i have turned into something rare right before our eyes

believe me all the stuff now comes to me effortlessly

as if by magic

it kills me to know i will have to die

abdicating from my brain so packed full of good ideas

and start all over again

struggling just to get back to where i am now

a true master (baiter)

your humble fool

kilbey

bondi beach with ocean glimpses

yeah bikinis and sunburn

thats the place

kcuf yeblik

  you would not believe my life it has spiralled out of controlling holding patterns the rules have evaporated or become frozen and sharded as i said it may look easy i have to watch out for witches i gotta lock out all the war locks unbelievably i gotta fight for every shekel which is mine i go and go just to be in the same spot anyway forgetting all that i am working on the score to an excellent and authentic film which may or may not be secret but its being filmed in tas its brutal its brilliant its bloody good but its hard work trying to get the music right i dont usually write 15 sec snippet of an instrumental that goes through 3 emotions so it requires discipline now normally my discipline works thus the discipline section in my left brain commands my  right brain to do something and it coerces it until it does then it stands aside and it lets the right brain get on with it alone but this process requires co-op and this is the problem my right brain is a savant my left brain is an idiot good for bullying the right but no good for working out all the best ways of organizing it….. im working on logic now..its a beautiful thing soon soon you will hear i will create something profoundly nice uh huh undiluted by any outside influence i the prime mover will take on all tasks singer lyricist musician composer engineer producer and i’ll probably do the artwork as well this record will be a new beginning it will be glorious oh i can feel it coming thru the ether hands on kilbey in toto ad gloriam no outside touch shall sully my masterpiece it will have […]

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coatmans ball

 

you would not believe my life

it has spiralled out of controlling holding patterns

the rules have evaporated or become frozen and sharded

as i said it may look easy

i have to watch out for witches

i gotta lock out all the war locks

unbelievably i gotta fight for every shekel which is mine

i go and go just to be in the same spot

anyway forgetting all that i am

working on the score to an excellent and authentic film

which may or may not be secret but its being filmed in tas

its brutal its brilliant its bloody good

but its hard work trying to get the music right

i dont usually write 15 sec snippet of an instrumental

that goes through 3 emotions

so it requires discipline

now normally my discipline works thus

the discipline section in my left brain

commands my  right brain to do something

and it coerces it until it does then it stands aside

and it lets the right brain get on with it alone

but this process requires co-op

and this is the problem

my right brain is a savant

my left brain is an idiot

good for bullying the right

but no good for working out all the best ways of organizing it…..

im working on logic now..its a beautiful thing

soon soon you will hear i will create something profoundly nice

uh huh undiluted by any outside influence

i the prime mover

will take on all tasks

singer lyricist musician composer engineer producer

and i’ll probably do the artwork as well

this record will be a new beginning it will be glorious

oh i can feel it coming thru the ether

hands on kilbey in toto ad gloriam

no outside touch shall sully my masterpiece

it will have every detail attended to by me

the old grand idiot savant master

but logic is idiot proof

even my idiot left brain is getting it sorted

enough for my right to gaze in wonderment

ON ALL THESE POSSIBILITIES!

one can do anything one can think of

if it can be done to music …logic can do it

i got my bass i got my guitars i got my mike

i got my interfuckingface

i got my modus operandi

and gee i was recording music on my own in 1977

when most of these other cats

were still playing black sabbath in the garage

oh yes i got my modus and

some genius designed a program like this for me i guess

soon soon soon i shall unleash my beast of a solo album

meanwhile SKPers can look forward to the garageband album

and the art doco which will probably be next

it will be a big year for believers

i will make you feel like you backed a big winner

i will prevail

i will succeed

I WIL I WIL I WILL……..

(sound of crazy old geezer being carted away in white van)

 

 

funnelled future

there is magic there is bullshit there is a universe oblivious to us people are animals animals are people yet we murder we kill we kill ourselves to live those with time try to kill it those without time try to buy it still we hurtle headlong as we are in free fall inaccessible mainly to ourselves with trust comes betrayal without trust comes emptiness with faith comes disappointment without faith comes hopelessness well ive done it all rich poor young old lucky unlucky life got me baffled what have i really learned how am i doing so far i am not a normal western man i loathe all that meaty boozy smoky barbecue the fellas honey the guys my buddies the boys the game the TV fuck them theyre all philistines theyre all oafs fuck your fucking basketball team you moron the amazon jungle is all but gone fuck the crusades fuck british/u.s. imperialism fuck the war on drugs fuck your hat n bark at the bastard moon 2012 yeah what about them sly old mayans look i dont want my world to end damn that prediction nothings easy thats for sure for every genius there are ten thousand idiots ready to crucify him for every one saved there are ten thousand more lost i am incredulous at the incredulity of myself and all others we are all in this separately together we will all die and live and die we will remember nothing fuck napoleon fuck columbus fuck genghis khan keep on rockin’ in the free world how did those old twin towers come tumblin’ down…? gee uh something not right with that picture but uh i guess i feel so much safer now mr b.laden is shot uh hasnt he….i mean i saw a dead guy with uh […]

lost for worlds

there is magic there is bullshit

there is a universe oblivious to us

people are animals

animals are people

yet we murder we kill

we kill ourselves to live

those with time try to kill it

those without time try to buy it

still we hurtle headlong

as we are in free fall

inaccessible mainly to ourselves

with trust comes betrayal

without trust comes emptiness

with faith comes disappointment

without faith comes hopelessness

well ive done it all

rich poor young old lucky unlucky

life got me baffled

what have i really learned

how am i doing so far

i am not a normal western man

i loathe all that meaty boozy smoky barbecue the fellas honey

the guys my buddies the boys the game the TV

fuck them theyre all philistines theyre all oafs

fuck your fucking basketball team you moron

the amazon jungle is all but gone

fuck the crusades fuck british/u.s. imperialism

fuck the war on drugs

fuck your hat n bark at the bastard moon

2012 yeah what about them sly old mayans

look i dont want my world to end damn that prediction

nothings easy thats for sure

for every genius there are ten thousand idiots ready to crucify him

for every one saved there are ten thousand more lost

i am incredulous at the incredulity of myself and all others

we are all in this separately together

we will all die and live and die we will remember nothing

fuck napoleon fuck columbus fuck genghis khan

keep on rockin’ in the free world

how did those old twin towers come tumblin’ down…?

gee uh something not right with that picture

but uh i guess i feel so much safer now mr b.laden is shot

uh hasnt he….i mean i saw a dead guy with uh a turban in a cave

i guess that was uh him …wasnt it….?

because if our govts lied to us there’d be anarchy …wouldnt there..?

i’m glad all those people got busted for drugs

i’m happy about the vietnam war cos we showed em, didnt we…?

i’m pretty pleased with WW1…that worked out well in the end…i thought…

i guess i’m mixed up

please some right wing macho straight type help me here

all those mines grenades bayonets torpedoes ….

and napalm….thats a great invention….i suppose…

wow that musta cooked their gooses …didnt it?

fuck the communists fuck the romans

fuck the house of lords

i’m over it

 

 

hamstring instrument

life is elusive the sun burns white it is the burning soul a long dead giant he quenched his thirst with one thousand seas the moon is so cold it is the frozen flame of magic it appears at theatres near you beside a raggle taggle columbine * it is not a happy new year for me alcohol still pulverises my family i hate it i loathe it i detest it greediness and stupidity abound my career is going up n up my morale is going down n down my teeth are rotten again i move in and out of conflict i thrash around in obfuscation and emotional obstacles i am super creative but time is hard to come by i am behind in what i need to do i lapse into non-action people bust stuff i gotta pay for..oh woe is me…! it may look easy but its hard …its hard baby its hard sorry about the moaning i’ll leave off with a happy thought nah …on second thoughts forget it….    

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chapel perilous

life is elusive

the sun burns white

it is the burning soul

a long dead giant

he quenched his thirst with one thousand seas

the moon is so cold

it is the frozen flame of magic

it appears at theatres near you

beside a raggle taggle columbine

*

it is not a happy new year for me

alcohol still pulverises my family

i hate it i loathe it i detest it

greediness and stupidity abound

my career is going up n up

my morale is going down n down

my teeth are rotten again

i move in and out of conflict

i thrash around in obfuscation and emotional obstacles

i am super creative but time is hard to come by

i am behind in what i need to do

i lapse into non-action

people bust stuff i gotta pay for..oh woe is me…!

it may look easy but its hard …its hard baby its hard

sorry about the moaning

i’ll leave off with a happy thought

nah …on second thoughts

forget it….

 

 

quo vadis time being ?

  tour over last night in melbourne well i gave it what i had to give a last minute tune-up by dr gary saves my neck he certainly knows how to sort out a performer he got me into shape on all levels if anyone is serious about seeing him you can contact me at steve@thetimebeing.com i will forward on his deets anyway melby was proof in the christmas pudding we just keep getting better no complacency now we are running on all cylinders robin danar our american sound guy is a big part he really delivers hes a specialist and he’s been doing us on n off 25 years ok? i really enjoyed doing that show its new years eve now scarlet is a bit tired n hyper eve n aurora are outside in the warm night a thousand parties erupt and i keep thinking about that jj cale song after midnight yeah we’re gonna bang yer tambourine!

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new year steve

 

tour over

last night in melbourne

well i gave it what i had to give

a last minute tune-up by dr gary saves my neck

he certainly knows how to sort out a performer

he got me into shape on all levels

if anyone is serious about seeing him

you can contact me at steve@thetimebeing.com

i will forward on his deets

anyway melby was proof in the christmas pudding

we just keep getting better

no complacency now we are running on all cylinders

robin danar our american sound guy is a big part

he really delivers

hes a specialist and he’s been doing us on n off 25 years

ok?

i really enjoyed doing that show

its new years eve now

scarlet is a bit tired n hyper

eve n aurora are outside in the warm night

a thousand parties erupt

and i keep thinking about that jj cale song after midnight

yeah we’re gonna bang yer tambourine!

scenes from a perfect summer

i abdicate my throne by the ocean sure the waves still roll in i command c shift but then no control escape i am english to the bone a real angle from germany originally but these  isles hath changed me over hundreds of years now i stand on this verdant earth a simple spirit a creature of wood stream and dangling dream i inhabit the pearled pastures of bag daddy prince i walk through streets of your town clad in hints i dont mince my worlds i don’t grade my dope my  music trapped within the future that slowly thaws fragile songlets snapped in birth pulled too hard from the thin air i dream of the jean jeannie and genius genes between scenes i sing U23 i sing P=A i sing for my uppers i sing the stupid words some voice whispers in my ear i appear and reappear loved by old deers but my rents in arrears he smiles more like sneers his miles in rearview dials a smirky transparent apparent jester just a joker another bloke a contestant a contender a pretender dim fog a cog in an axle we turn and return we burn over terrain we improve our grasp on a slippery truth hangs in a branch on some tree of life on an afternoon like this morning        

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neo platonic noodle

i abdicate my throne by the ocean sure the waves still roll in

i command c shift

but then no control escape

i am english to the bone

a real angle

from germany originally

but these  isles hath changed me over hundreds of years

now i stand on this verdant earth a simple spirit

a creature of wood stream and dangling dream

i inhabit the pearled pastures of bag daddy prince

i walk through streets of your town clad in hints

i dont mince my worlds i don’t grade my dope

my  music trapped within the future that slowly thaws

fragile songlets snapped in birth pulled too hard from the thin air

i dream of the jean jeannie and genius genes between scenes

i sing U23 i sing P=A i sing for my uppers

i sing the stupid words some voice whispers in my ear

i appear and reappear

loved by old deers but my rents in arrears

he smiles more like sneers his miles in rearview dials

a smirky transparent apparent jester just a joker another bloke a

contestant a contender a pretender dim fog a cog in an axle

we turn and return we burn over terrain

we improve our grasp on a slippery truth hangs in a branch

on some tree of life

on an afternoon like this morning

 

 

 

 

rapid time index

  night falls water falls rain drops eye drops eye emerge from liquid storm i to i burn out burn up reborn relaunched realised recast i touch things that are not there material shadows i feel their nebulosity in surround it makes no sense to become sentient to spring into sprung existence whole to ascend or descend unnoticed unparalleled unimpaled unimpeded centipeded i come into this whirl delighted to alight here i hear the quiescence within natures roar as raw sound surely then

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the enabler of amphibiguity

 

night falls water falls rain drops eye drops

eye emerge from liquid storm

i to i

burn out burn up reborn relaunched realised recast

i touch things that are not there

material shadows i feel their nebulosity in surround

it makes no sense to become sentient

to spring into sprung existence whole

to ascend or descend unnoticed unparalleled unimpaled

unimpeded centipeded i come into this whirl delighted to alight here

i hear the quiescence within natures roar as raw sound

surely then